The One Choice

I was reminded last weekend of the time when I first arrived in Alaska, in 1992. I had driven in my little Toyota pick up from Wisconsin across the Dakotas and up through Canada to Anchorage. I made the whole journey with no plan or itinerary, allowing my spirit to guide me as to which highways to take, when to drive, when to stop, and where to sleep. It was a magical time in my experience, when ravens surrounded me everywhere I went, and wolves, coyotes, deer, and bears met with me along the way to give me the gift of their insights and medicine.

Near the end of my journey, as I came within 100 miles of Anchorage, I could feel myself moving back into the kharmic fields around the city. It was a feeling of sadness mixed with compassion for my own give-away; for when I was so clear after two weeks on the highway with minimal human contact and a complete embracing from the world of nature and the animals, I was able to feel the density of the choice I was making. It was hard in a way, because I had found in past 3 years that I could live quite easily in complete trust, with every need always taken care of, without ever entering the 12/60 vibrational field. I simply manifested everything that was necessary for my life, receiving those things from the Ancestors as they were provided. I knew that the level of constant communion with spirit would be challenged as I returned into the world of humanity.

Within the first few weeks of being in Anchorage, I was repeatedly introduced to a group of Lakota people who, along with Athabaskan, Tsimshian, Tlingket, Haida, Cheyenne, Cheroke, Apache, and many other tribal peoples, had initiated the first inter-tribal Drum in the northern country. They talked about the legend that some of the Lakota elders had talked about, that when the big drums (inter-tribal drums) came at last to the northern shores, a great light would shine out of the north and illuminate the world, causing the human beings to remember who they are and why they came here. It would be the beginning of the end of all separation.

A whole group of us newbies joined the drum at the same time. We were passionate about the prophecies, and the energy for new dance groups and new drums began to take off. It was a time when judgment was beginning to unravel, where color and race did not matter, all that mattered was what's in your heart. Elders shared their wisdom and ceremonies with all who wished to participate. The spirit of the Ancestors began to grow in the people and they began to reclaim their power and thrive.

My first few times at the drum were almost scary. These drums carried the spirit of the people, and were regarded as Mother Earth's heartbeat. Their sacredness was honored by walking around them in a clockwise manner. People brought tobacco to scatter across the drum in blessing. The inter-tribal drums had been brought to Anchorage with the intention for healing our communities. Men and women from all walks of life-judges, policemen, teachers, invalids on welfare, ex-cons (many ex-cons), children, and particularly those in recovery from alcohol or substance abuse-all were equally welcome around the drum.

There was only one rule that was strictly enforced. Before being invited to sit at the drum, or even attend an event where the drums were present and open, one had to be completely free of alcohol for two weeks. This was true for drug addictions as well, but the alcohol was the one that gathered the most focus from the elders. They were intent on creating a safe place where alcohol was completely absent, where people could experience the frequency of empowerment that is not available when this substance is in our life/energy field. The elders felt that if people could step into that frequency periodically, over and over, they would begin to make the connection for themselves to the experience of life not under the influence of alcohol.

Gradually, the elders felt, they would begin to make the choice for sobriety. And it was amazing to see, young children giving up alcohol (because they already had experience of it in their lives!) and embracing their inherent wisdom. Men and women with low self-esteem, coming to the drum and finding themselves whole once again. It was such an honor to be allowed to share the songs, healing, life, and dreams of the people who came to the drum.

The drum keepers took their roles very seriously. All the choices they made as a group were prayed over, meditated with, and reflected on to find the choice that would be of the greatest service to the people. They went in the sweat lodge for purification ceremonies regularly, and avoided all contact with anything that they felt would compromise their personal frequencies. Though they were all human, and made some choices that they would later examine and redirect, their dedication to this service was a life choice that inspired them to be more. The elders continued to encourage us all to keep doing ceremony, as it would raise our frequencies in a way that nothing else alone could do. They always said, if we did ceremony and sweat lodges regularly for year after year, pretty soon we would be vibrating at a level that would draw people to us just to experience this frequency.

I remember at the time thinking that it was a little unlikely. Now, after many experiences of this very thing, I now know from experience that what they told me was true. A perfect example of this happened today, as Blew Thunder and I were finishing up our laundry at the Fredonia laundromat.

A neighbor had seen our car in the parking lot and came in to tell us about the Forrest Service Open House that was going on. It was an outreach to the community to gather responses about a proposed limitation of motor vehicle travel on the Kaibab plateau. Many small roads were due to be closed and traffic redirected to larger roads.

Michael and I both felt that we were to go in and visit the open house for some reason. We do not have much experience on the Kaibab plateau, nor do we have an opinion of whether or not to close any roads. Instead, we went in to gather information and make a connection.

When we first walked in to the meeting, we were the only public in the room at that moment. We quickly heard the presentation, then I felt the ancestors begin to urge me to speak on behalf of Mother Earth. Apparently Michael felt the same thing, for he opened his mouth and out came the most amazing things about taking care of the Earth, and how she responds to us when we communicate with her. In a moment, the Grandfathers were talking through us, I could feel the ancestor lights swirling around us as they do in the sweat lodge.

And I watched as one Forrest Service representative after another came into the room, quietly took a place, and listened as though they had never heard this before. It was astounding what the Grandmothers and Grandfathers said through us, and after we were done sharing as we left, they each stepped forward to shake our hands and introduce themselves. I felt as though something had been activated in their hearts that had been asleep for a long, long, time.

And I expressed my gratitude-so much gratitude that it brings tears of joy to my eyes!-that I had the courage to make that one choice for sobriety way back in 1978, then to renew the vow once again with the Northen Lights Drum in 1992. That choice is what opened up the possibility for everything I am now doing with my life. Just that one choice.

Kachina333

The Power in Simplicity

I have been in a funk lately, of the worst kind! Lost, hopeless, stagnant.
The feelings of powerlessness in my own creation left me feeling useless and confused. Though my foods were still high vibration I was self medicating with coffee in the morning and wine at night. My vibration lowered to the point where I feel like a blob of solid matter. I attribute this shift in vibration more from my thoughts and feelings about myself lately then my ceilings, thought I'm sure those played a role as well.

Ziji Boombasa and I went on a hike yesterday, it was short but steep. The whole way up I was frustrated and annoyed at how challenging the climb was. I was out of breath, my legs were burning, I had completely succumbed to the negative thoughts in my head, not even noticing where I was and really how good it felt to move my body.
When we got to the top I laid down on a big flat rock. It was so windy and I was so desperate for a shift in perception that I called in Archangel Michael and with the assistance of the wind spirits and the stone people I did a blue road healing. Releasing any part of anything that wasn't me, wasn't beneficial to me and letting it all go, NOW!
Letting the wind purify my aura and cleanse my spirit, I lay there repeating the mantra, visualizing the golden grid of protection around me, expressing my desire to move back into alignment with myself.

I woke up this morning feeling better then I have in a long time. My body craving citrus, I made a juice of grapefruit,lemon and ginger. Cooked a big pot of soup with extra roots, brewed up some parasite tea and began feeding my body what it has been asking for but what I have been consciously denying it.
I looked around at the shift that occurred overnight and was overwhelmed with gratitude that I have the knowledge and tools to support myself on this level.
I am so grateful to know what I know about foods, juices, etheric energy clearing.
I value so deeply all of it especially these experiences of going back and forth between light and dark, these are my lesson, my teachers, showing me first hand the power of a blue road healing, the power of feeding my body what it asks for.
I was overwhelmed with gratitude for these experiences because of them, when the time is right, I will be a better guide and teacher for those who do not yet have the privilege of knowing this information or who have forgotten it during their incarnation.

I can feel my core buzzing right now, I can feel my alignment, my mind is clear.
Body, mind and soul becoming one again, balanced and united.
Apple, parsley and celery is on the menu, it feels soooo good to be back!

The Universe Never Ceases to Amaze Me

Steve called me from his far away from home job and as he was sharing, I was smiling. It's a given that within a group and sharing there is common issues, feelings, revelations, etc. This is "given" as something I understand. What is amazing, yet not surprising, is how those who are connected to us as we travel this wheel in the 90 day course, travel right along with us. Steve is not part of this blog but still very much in sync with this group. It was a quick thought when I signed up and he didn't, "what will that mean for us as a couple and family, knowing the power of what the 90 days has in store". As it should be, we are doing it together. Fantastic.

I spent this day in a co-creation gardening class which was much more like a coming home than a class. At the end of the day the nature spirits swept me up in a nature hammock and said take a nap. Oh the joy of living in harmony and the magic all around.


Co-creation is everywhere and in everything, even when we don't see it right away.

THANK YOU!!!!

Michelle

Expanding Co-creation

I am feeling the shift in the energies. I feel the energy increasing for physical work. My challenge this season could and would be about creating more balance. It is so sneaky for me-finding balance!

Kathryn and I just completed a big hurdle in blowing in the insulation of the ceiling downstairs that had to be done before we could move forward. I wasn't really looking forward to it because it was going to be so messy! Now that job is complete.

A very interesting experience came from it. We had to drive 130 miles one way to return the insulation blower back to Lowe's in Saint George Utah. On our way there, we usually buy our gas in Mocasin, because it is a reservation and we don't have to pay gas tax on it. Currently 39 cents a gallon cheaper than local area.

While in line to pay for the gas, I saw two women who had driven 150 miles one way to purchase 6 cartons of cigarettes, she paid $250.00. She told me the local cigarettes with taxes, would have cost over $600.00 for the same amount.

For me, I thanked the two women for reminding me of the gratitude I had for finally letting go of cigarettes about 8 years ago. They both wished that they could quit. So in the co-creative essence of the exchange, I got to share with them how I had the desire released from me. It ended up being pretty cool, because neither of them had ever heard of doing it that way.

The real gift came for me to see the power of a ceiling. I saw how I stayed stuck in my own evolution until the ceiling started to be revealed and the denial left. I could now deal with the substance one on one. Most importantly, breaking the illusion of it "being okay", It would no longer have an effect on me raising my frequency. I finally became aware of the cost of my denial.

The greatest gift I see in coming together as a whole or a group or a circle, is the wisdom that each one of us brings. Yesterday one of the local guys that we have really developed a fond relationship with is a Master mechanic(among other things). I had asked him for assistance with our bobcat excavator.

So Sandy came out at 9 am with his trailer, we loaded up "Skippy" the bobcat, and took it into his shop. We just had a wonderful time repairing and giving TLC to Skippy to increase his longevity. Sandy showed me ways to assist in maintaining it.

In the past, I would have felt like I needed to buy all these tools and buy the maintenance books and do it all myself. Because it wasn't okay to ask, among other reasons.

I would have missed out on a great day, with a wonderful man. This great man's wife has some physical challenges that we in turn might assist them with. My point being, in co-creation, we get to draw on the group from all of their strengths. This raises the level of each of us, like Michelle asking if any animal communicators have any ideas (Thank you).

"Together what we could not do alone!"

Blew Thunder

Gratitude for the sharing

I glanced at the calendar and saw that this was a portal day. Two days ago the thought came through to do a blue road healing, a big one on this entire house. It left as quickly as it came. The reminder today was a blessing, thank you Kathryn. I did one immediately after reading and felt an intense tingling up my spine and through the back of my head. I drummed and toned for at least a half of an hour. This will need to happen daily here.

Detachment from emotion is an on and off thing for me. I am consumed by the emotions and have zero control then I have no emotional reaction at all. It's fun to experience the shifts.

The view is so much more magnificent than I have ever seen before. Driving to work each day I see the mountains and all their splendor. This last week they have been really jumping out of the scene as well as the birds. Three times today, planes took off over head and I swear they were flying lower than ever before. The last one cast a huge shadow over the car while I was driving and both Trysten and I were caught in the awe of it. WOW!

The animals who reside within our family are behaving very strangely, they have for awhile but it's getting more intense. I feel like all three of them are glued to me. When I put up the gate to keep them upstairs they fight to see who can lay the closest to the gate when I am downstairs. I am tripping over them and they are consistently trying to be in my space, on top of me, licking me and fighting over me. Hmmmm. Animal communicators, do you have any ideas????

A couple of weeks ago I was in a public sauna and there were some other people in there as well. I sat there with closed eyes and started to feel swirling energy, grey and heavy. Normally I would begin to filter, pick up and engage in some way. This time I saw Lynx walk through though the door, she looked at me and said, it's time to go and I got up and walked out. This is still resonating within me and I am very grateful for this assistance and clarity and how easy it is to trust without question.

Doors are opening and saying YES where I would normally hesitate is proving to pave a new path. Opportunity is everywhere when my eyes and ears are open. I see the dream in everything and everywhere.

A few days ago I read something: "You are already a light weaver". I reflected on how much time I dedicate to becoming and how I am already.
In another reading I heard, "I am another you and you are another me". How easily I find myself in love instead of judgement in allowing this message to penetrate my being.

Action through fear is creating my presence in the now as I have considered it the future.

To all of you for sharing and for connection and presence in this circle, I am Grateful.

Aho

Michelle

Blue Road Healing

This morning I awakened with a dream that felt chaotic, as if something had stirred up the bottom of the pond. Michael awakened at the same time with some painful spots in his body. Then we realized that today is the second of 2 Portal days in the Mayan Dreamspell calender. These are the best days to assist in the journey for souls, energies, entities, etc. to return home.

We both realized that we had done a lot of disruptive construction over the past couple of days, filling all the cavities in our ceiling with recycled cellulose fiber insulation. Over the years, we have found that whenever there is disruption or deconstruction on the physical level, we almost always notice that spirits or entities connected with those spaces surface into our awareness. Many times, such as today, they are ready to go home.

We called upon the Archangel Michael and asked for his facilitation in relocating these beings. First the one that was stationed in Michael's physical body left, along with the painful spots. Then I felt something leave my emotional body, as if a dark cloud lifted. Finally I "saw" a huge number of human souls gathering around the medicine wheel, also asking to go home.

I saw them leave inside a huge beam of magenta colored light. As they were going, my own guides said to me, "Their contracts are over. They have been here for 13,000 years and now they are going home."

In a little while, I plan to smudge the whole house, medicine wheel, and general area. I know that when I am in the west is often when Blue Road Healing is helpful and necessary. The signals often show up as a deep plunge in our sense of well-being or mood. Sometimes they show up as cravings, unwanted thoughts and desires, or emotional or physical pain.

About eight years ago, I went through a time when I could not seem to keep clear. Every contact I had with people outside of DiamondHeart, and sometimes even just walking around outside, I would "pick up" a hitch-hiker in my energy field and have to do a Blue Road Healing, sometime every day. Every time I tried to set up protective energy fields or program for instantaneous transfer of all energies seeking home, I found that the programs just would not hold.

I felt like my life was going to be about clearing energies, and I just finally surrendered to the whole thing. I accepted that I was a sponge for these beings and maybe it would never be any other way. My choices seemed to be avoidance of life OR constant time in ceremony.

Then in a few short months, I began to see a different perspective. I realized that this was a gift and a blessing from spirit. I was being shown, over and over, how I attract these spirit energies into my field, through judgment and victimization. Just the slightest wobble of judgment in my mental field can open a whole for unconscious spirit energies to come in. Once inside my field, they try to stay hidden (and they are very good at it!) so they can stimulate emotional responses that I think are my own. They feed off of the emotional energy that is generated. This is what parasites do.

It is up to us to wake up and see what is affecting us, to reclaim our mental/emotional health and stability, and just say "I see you and you can not stay here any longer. How can I assist you in going home?"

The next Portal day is coming up on the 28th of April. It is also a Pacal Votan day, a day of connecting with the evolutionary intentions of our Mother Earth and the whole galaxy. Michael and I will be doing a Blue Road Healing that day, and ask all of you to join us if it resonates with truth for you.

Love and Blessings,
Kachina

Lets see what comes out?

Connecting in, I'm rolling my eyes and feeling somewhat blah. Wanting, wanting something but don't don't know what? On the cusp, the edge, frozen, still, sitting there enjoying the view from the top, looking at the long way down. I can only see about halfway down before the view disappears and goes black. The air feels more amazing then air on my skin has ever felt before, the smell of the wind is a more delicious then I ever remember it smelling and the view, to attempt to describe it would only belittle its magnificence. I feel as though all my senses are heightened like a constant scurry of bugs on my skin, I feel so much its almost as if the feeling itself passes right through me and I am cover with chills and goose bums from the inside out.
I want to cry with relief because all these years I thought I could feel and now to experience feeling in this way, I am so happy! I cry for my past self, I cry for others who have yet to feel and allow themselves this experience of the pureness of true joy, that is the simplest yet most illusive place, the present moment.
The tears fall and I sit inside myself watching, I'm not even me? It's befuddling because in this new place the revelation that I am not me affects not only those things that no longer serve but also those things that I love dearly and hold close to my heart.
Non-attachment can really feel like not caring because it is the exact opposite of what we are conditioned to feel. So I step lightly checking and double checking myself to be sure that just because I am non-attached doesn't mean that I don't care it just means that my trust in the divine order and brilliance of the universe is solidified inside of me and because of that simple knowing I am forever abundant.
I trust that all things "good and bad" are exactly what they are for a reason!
Even if in this moment the reason, which it currently is, is unknown to me.
I stay here willingly now because I know someday I will look back and say "that was an amazing lesson, I am so glad I went through that."
I don't want to have to look back anymore and say "I wish I had stayed present for that lesson or period of time in my life, where has my life gone?"

My reverence for life and all that entails is so grand and mindboggling that I wonder where I have been all this time. It doesn't even matter because I am here now and Oh My God, it was so worth the wait!

The secret message in meat and life's many rebellions

First of all. it's been a while... I have been a bit rebellious lately, against my will! I am having an over-powering problem with commitments!!! I cant commit to ANYTHING lately. ANYTHING. Even the things I want so badly to do... I cant.
The other day I was talking to this lady on the phone about our dogs and we got to talking about taking our dogs for walks and I told her how I take my boy on these amazing walks daily that wear him out than she was like "ooh well, maybe you would be interested in taking my dog on walks with you, I can pay you" and NATURALLY I was tickled with the thought of it, I had never met her dog before but she sounded like the sweetest little thing and seriously, what better job for me, hanging out with my boy and other random dogs AND getting paid for it?? common, that has my name written allllllll over it. SO we made this plan, I was going to call her the next day, whenever it was that I decided to go and that was that. I was very excited! the second we got off the phone, I sat there smiling and giddy at the very idea of it.....seconds went by and THUD! my heart plummeted into my stomach and I got this awful feeling like "ooh my goooooood, I cant do this, I CAN NOT do this" and I started to panic and completely shut down. I all of a sudden felt like I had this HUGE responsibility and obligation and I was expected to live up to all these expectations and I just couldn't do it!!! and that is how my life has been lately, to the extreme. I can return phone calls, I cant e mail people back, I cant follow through on dates that I make with people,I cant blog, or work in my journal... it's driving me crazy! I don't know where this came from but it is serious business! Very overpowering.. Anything where I feel like people have an expectation of me... I shut down. I want to curl up into a little ball under a million blankets with my hands over my ears and hide. I am not enjoying these reactions and very much so plan to learn this lesson quickly and move on!
Next, my journey with meat. It's difficult for me because I just can not seem to grasp a taste for it. I was a vegetarian so so long that... I learned every single filling food around it, "it's just not for me." BUT I did recently discover the "secret messages in meat" over the last few days, I have been getting bits and pieces of the code. Let me explain... In the beginning when I brought meat back into my diet, I had this over powering urge that "I NEED to eat some meat, NOW!" since I listened to that, that urge has gone away and now it is much more subtle and I recently put this together. Nowadays.... gosh, I don't even know how to word this... Ok, for instance, the last few blogs ago that I wrote I talked about seeing that cat on the side of the road that had died, normally when I would have totally lost it,I was calm, pulled over, did a ceremony and "let it go." Well the other night my parents called my from Bethel and told me about this sweet little puppy that is chained up outside someone's house on a chain so short that she cant even sit upright, and is soooo skinny and clearly under fed in -40 below weather, basically freezing to death and they can hear her crying all day and all night... and that just completely broke my heart, I went into my usual low, how I used to back in the day. I was honestly about to get on the internet to and buy a $500.00 ticket out to bethel the next day to kidnap her and bring her into anchorage with me and give her to the animal shelter I volunteer with to find her a good home, than my sister came back from her boyfriends house and told me about the movie they had just watched "The Cove" about the slaughter of dolphins in Japan...?? OOh my god!, I was already downing beers since the story my parents told me about the dog than she was telling me this and I just went into my usual crazy mode. My body started shaking and my heart was pounding and I just started crying, I was like "ooh my god, where do I go first, Japan or Bethel?" than out of no where, I wasn't even hungry, I was very much so on a passionate beer kick not wanting to process any of this information that I couldnt do anything about,than into my head poped "I need to eat some meat" I thought this was crazy but have been very devoted to "listening" lately so I scrounged through my freezer and found some caribou and cooked a small bit of it and nibbled on it, than.....aaaaah, everything was ok, my body relaxed, I wasn't panicked.....I, cant really explain it. It was like... I just got it...like, the meat was communicating with me... it sounds crazy I know, but SOMETHING shifted. Seriously shifted. It's like, I have this sort of agreement with meat, as funny as that may sound, where it helps me with all my animal stuff AND my animal communication alone. The other day I saw another cat on the side of the road and I haven't eaten meat in a while, and I had a little panic attack, not a bad one, but I did freak out a little, so I went home, cooked up some moose,emideatedy got very calm than did a ceremony and felt the cats presence very strongly than felt him leave and everything was ok... It's weird this is just how it has been lately... Than last night Lindsey and I went over to rebecca's house and Lindsey was telling us about the book her boyfriend just read about this man who went around asking all these indigenous tribes HOW it is that they communicate with the plants, animals and what not and each and every tribe said the same thing, they said that "they take them in, and once the plants or the animals digests their DNA blends with their own DNA than they have clear communication with the plant or animal!" HA! that is what I'm doing... right??
Anyhow, I just thought that was very interesting considering what I have been observing with myself... Thank you for listening!!
LOVE & GRATITUDE
Mother Wolf Spirit Talker

In Honor of the West

I am just sending this little blurb in gratitude of the lessons, clearing and release of all of the suppressed emotions. My family and myself ended a day of emotional overload. Whew, Michelle

Feel the Life Force

Today I had an amazing opportunity. The sky was clear, the wind was sharp and cool, and had that feeling of the ocean as it blows into Beluga Point, out of Anchorage Alaska. The sparkly feeling of pure life force is blowing into White Sage, bringing forth an ecstatic response in every cell of my body.

We are here, very close to one of the most sacred sites on Mother Earth; the great mother canyon known as Grand Canyon. Yet the wind is blowing in the smell, the energy, the life force of Alaska! I begin to wonder if this is happening in other areas as well, near other sacred sites. Is this the next phase of the planetary ascension, coming to life?

I thankful for this fresh new force. May each of us remember WHO WE ARE, WHERE WE COME FROM, AND WHY WE CAME HERE!

Blessings,
Kachina

Deep in the West

It always comes as a surprise to me, as our group descends deep into the west direction of the medicine wheel, just how quiet and inward the energy flow becomes. It is obvious as we look at the Blogs, how many people are feeling the same way. Even though we are spread out across the country, I can feel our group contracting, drawing inward, and honoring the reflective female energy.

Even for those who have completely left the journal behind, trust me; you are still processing the west energy-the integration, releasing, forgiveness, identifying and rewriting of old contracts, transforming, etc. This is the time when new awareness comes to the surface of our consciousness and bubbles forth like a bubbling spring.

I am so happy for all of you, for I can feel the level of commitment you have, the honoring of this inward time. Even in the midst of our busy lives, we are holding the space for transformation in the west.

This being the most challenging direction for many of us in the western hemisphere, and since it is the time we are least likely to extend ourselves outward to communicate on the Blog, I am asking for each one of us to write to the Blog-if only one or two sentences-just to let the group know that we are still connected, still holding space for each other, and still walking through this process together.

Please gift each other with this precious connection and support sometime this week. I will watch for each of you: Lighteningstormdesertrose, Stargazer Walks with Bears, Golden Buffalo Heart, Spirit Talker, SwiftWater, RavenHair888, Earth Song, Spirit Walker of the Mist, Morning Star Spotted Eagle, Ziji Boombasa, EarthSpirit Keeper, Skywalker singswithherHeart, Blessing Willow, Blew Thunder, and tskarrow.

I am sending out the intention for Angels to walk beside each of you, for the guidance system from within your heart to move into full blooming, and inspiration to arise all around you to carry you forward into greater and greater levels of fulfillment and wonder.

In love and gratitude,

Kachina

Death as My Teacher

I am seeing the world through new eyes. Watching as people around me just naturally observe themselves, notice an old contract surfacing, and spontaneously decide to change it, let it go. I am grateful beyond measure to see this happening all around. I know if it is outside of me, the same reflection is within.

This time around, I am so comfortable with my own death. I have now envisioned it to the point that it feels transparent, and so much a choice.

When I was a small child, my grandparents had a farm in Illinois. I got to spend time with many different animals. And I also got to see death at a young age. I remember being very attracted to dead animals.

When an animal died, on this small farm, their bodies were often buried, or sometimes left to decompose if they were deep in the forest where a tractor could not go. A cow died one night while giving birth, and Grandpa found her several days later. I remember being afraid to hike down to the woods, fearful that I might find the body. But I was also drawn to it like a little fly. I had to go see the dead cow, even though I was terrified.

When I finally mustered up my courage (I had to be around 9 years old), I hiked through the woods into a little clearing. I could smell the cow's body, and knew that I was close. Then I saw the hair, the hide, the hooves, the body lying on a hillside in the hardwood forest. I could feel my heart pounding in my throat, as I did not understand death, and was certain that the cow would jump up any moment and attack me like a monster from the movies.

Gradually I became present in the moment. The fear dissolved and I looked at every part of the cow that I could reach. I took my time, I studied the changes that had happened to her body in just a few days.

Most of all, I noticed how different this uninhabited space suit felt from the cows that were alive. This cow, the real being that had lived in this body, was completely gone. It was such a mysterious thing to me-where did she go?

When I finally turned around to go back to the farmhouse, I looked up through the forest. I saw the same cow, looking back at me, chewing her cud contentedly. She was surrounded with a bright golden light. I jumped up to run and find her-I wanted to get closer. But when I looked again, she was gone. I looked all over, but could not find the cow that I had seen, in a new body. Finally I went home, watching just in case it reappeared.

It was a long time before I began to understand more about death, but those early experiences on the farm provided some key pieces to a great puzzle. And the beautiful vision of the cow, that everyone later told me was my "imagination" and it didn't really happen, stayed with me as a vision of comfort and truth until a time when I would return to death willingly, to learn. When one makes an agreement to allow death to become her teacher, she will learn more in this lifetime than one could ever imagine.

And the view at the end of the trail will be spectacular!

Kachina

New Clarity and Connection

This morning the Pleiadian Cloud Ships were finally gone, but not before they downloaded a whole bunch of planetary information to me about ways to help integrate the new cosmic energy that is currently assimilating into Mother Earth's grids and into our lives.

Synchronistically, Myst Walker sent a link last night that explains a whole lot about the transition we are experiencing in human consciousness at this time. Here is the link:

spirit library link

This is really aligned with the information they gave me and all I have been experiencing. Some of us may be experiencing a disinterest in the ascension process, as they stated, indicating completion of a phase of this process. Others, myself included, are experiencing a renewed level of commitment and ease regarding the ascension process. These are souls who have chosen to become the teachers/facilitators for the next wave of ascending souls that is about to begin later this summer.

This is clearly a time where ease can replace struggle in every direction of our lives. All we have to do is surrender to the river-it is already carrying us in the direction we want to go! Every moment of trust is becoming second nature as we assimilate the equinox vibrational changes into our lives.

For those of us who are Earth Keepers and Light Weavers, we are becoming more and more conscious of the holographic reality and the way in which we are co-creating heaven on earth. The Pleiadians suggested a special crystal grid layout, to be placed near cell towers, power substations, and transformers, even electrical boxes or powerlines.

It is for the purpose of connecting and integrating the 3rd, 4th, and 5th dimensional grids, extending into holographic time, and healing the part of human consciousness that felt a need to create these forms of separation. Everyone who places this crystal grid will be accompanied by the spirits of Alexander Graham Bell, Slim Spurling, Thomas Edison, Mahmout Farrat, and Nicolai Tesla, who are joining together to help anchor this new energy grid. It will transform our electromagnetic experience of energy production on Mother Earth. (Will attempt to make an image of it and post it here later).

This is a part of what we will be doing in Egypt in 2013, by anchoring these new energy grids and connecting them in at Dendara and the great pyramid at Giza. It will also be programmed to raise the ancestral star being grids, connect and integrate with the new political, monetary, scientific, and social human consciousness grids, and activate the whole planetary network for physical human/star being interaction.

Between now and 2013, we will all be preparing the planetary grids for this activation. For some new personal ascension techniques to assist this process, watch for the next Food for Ascension subscription.

I love you all and imagine you each stepping into a flow of ease, new prosperity, and fulfillment in the coming days ahead.

Kachina

Here is a small image of the crystal layout referred to above. In the center is a Geo-resonator, surrounded by 4 clear quartz double terminated crystals. Surrounding that is a set of 5 citrine points, pointing outward. Surrounding the whole is a set of 7 amethyst points, pointing outward.

Dreams That Speak

I had a dream last night. I dreamt that I was visiting Michael and Kathryn at white sage. They had invited me down to help them with some projects that needed to get done. I was showed two cars and my job was to paint them, one white and one black.
Michael gave me a quick preview without explaining anything then handed me the paint brush and left. I stood there looking at the white car that I was to paint. I had never painted a car before? I had no idea how to even begin painting a car? Then crept in what if I mess up? What if it looks worse after I am finished then it does right now? I became so consumed with questions, doubts and potential failures that I never even began painting the car. I was paralyzed by my fear of "What if"
I decided I couldn't do it and went looking for Michael and Kathryn to tell them I didn't know how and that I couldn't do it. They were out in the garden raking. Kathryn stood there just beautiful radiant light, I confess my failure Michael and in the gentlest of ways he put his hand on my shoulder looked me straight in the eyes and said "If you knew it all, what would be the point?" I woke up.
This is likely an obvious lesson and one I'm sure we've all come up against at one point or another. The power of the dream illustrated so perfectly for me in this moment where my specific block is in regards to why I haven't begun working. I am at that pivotal phase where I'm being asked to take the next step and leave my comfort zone. Where I am being asked to value myself and what I have to offer. It's scary!
I couldn't finish the South in the journal. I flew thought the East and eagerly anticipated the West. I skipped the last 6 pages of the South, I couldn't do it it was like walking through molasses. It was such a struggle to even attempt to motivated myself to open the journal at all during the South and I didn't want to quite so I skipped it?
I'm at that place where I get to decide which way to go and trust the guidance and inner knowing within myself. A perfect polarity of uncomfortable and exhilarating.

I began reading Kathryn's book and how the food for ascension came to be. It was a step by step evolution over 17 years before it became what it is today. Kathryn didn't know the whole picture from the beginning. They worked with people and themselves and observed through trial and error what worked and what didn't but always learning and growing along the way. There are phases and if you're lucky you learn something new everyday and grow more with each experience. That is the beauty of feeling fear and discomfort, it is a clear sign, as Michael once told me, "that you are doing something right."

I am scared, I still recognize that I doubt myself or it's just easier to feel doubt then confidence, I have no idea what I am walking into or how I will create what I desire from where I am in this moment. How I will become self-sufficient and remain passionate at the same time. I don't know? I just simply don't know and it feels a little like drowning because I can't go back or stay where I am and I don't yet have anything to grab onto.

I want to move forward. I am ready to take that step out of my comfort zone and onto the unknown where possibility, failure, experience, learning, fear, passion, discomfort and wide open spaces await me. And I wanted you all to bear witness to my intention of not feeling ready but still being willing to take that step anyway.
Thank you all for your support and listing. I am so grateful for this group and am so hopeful for all of us realizing our dreams come true.

Love, gratitude and laughter

Ceremony and Synchronicity

I apologize for missing the Blog yesterday. So much is happening around here I am feeling like I am just holding on for the ride! One of my original affirmations was "I let go of control and everything moves into perfect alignment".

After some time, it became "I am ready". So now I get to experience the "speeding through the universe" feeling that caused me to choose to hold on in the first place, like everything is moving way too fast. (Too fast for what, I wonder?) I am very happy with all the support I am experiencing as I let go on a new level. It is not comfortable, yet the feeling in my cellular body is one of ecstatic pure energy.

On the full moon, Blew Thunder and I went out at night and danced our intentions to the four directions. Just before we did it, a Pleiadian cloud ship appeared to the southeast and hovered there all night (other clouds came and went, but this one stayed in the same location). Several appeared again yesterday, and this morning they were still there. They are letting us know just how much support is available to us! Just how real the planetary ascension is.

Though many areas of focus are demanding attention in the physical world at this time, I am still being asked to up my level of commitment to the Nature spirits of the area in assistance of the planetary ascension process. On Monday morning, we walked the whole 83 acres that our neighbors are selling, and placed geo-resonators at two locations with intentions for regeneration and transmutation of non-beneficial energy. Then yesterday the spirits invited us to a spot on the land where a mass of tangled old dead trees lay. We cleaned it up, and received a week's worth of firewood as well.

So much has changed in our area, several days ago we talked to a neighbor who wants to organize a clean-up day for everyone in White Sage, to get together and clean up the trash on the road. It sounds like nothing, but these are neighbors who have previously wanted to kill each other instead of look at each other! Now they are planning events together!!! If I did not experience this kind of transformation I would never have known just how much the earth grid energies effect human consciousness.

With this kind of intentional co-creation, we have the tools to manifest a whole new reality on Mother Earth.

Blessings to all,

Kachina

Blessings for Mother Earth

Two days ago I had an opportunity once again to share the drawing on the Prophecy stone that a Gila Apache elder once shared with me.

She told about the human figure on the left, walking with a planting stick. Behind him, corn plants were sprouting up. This signifies a time of life on Mother Earth where humans are living in harmony and balance with nature. Life has reached a level of stability and sustainability.

Then there is a squiggly line to show the passage of time. Marking the passage into a different time, there are then 3 human figures, all with their heads floating above their bodies. They are wearing "Abe Lincoln" style hats on their heads.

This section describes the last century, the time our parents and grandparents grew up in. It is perceived as a time where human consciousness has become trapped in the mind, and disconnected from the body (and from Mother Earth), hence the disconnected heads. Humans were also disconnected from their own spirits, hence the heavy hats.

This path continues on the same level as another squiggly line, but the line becomes more and more irratic and finally ends in oblivion. It is a statement about where we would end up if we were to continue to live in the mind.

Just after the three humans with the hats, there is another route to follow carved upon this stone. It shows a ladder going up. At the top of this ladder, there is another human figure walking with a planting stick, with corn sprouting up behind him.

The choice to raise our frequencies and climb up that ladder brings us to a new Earth, a new level of harmony and balance with nature. It is another time of stability and sustainability that can emerge on Mother Earth.

This stone always inspires me. It feels like the Ancestors, who knew what was ahead for human consciousness, wanted to leave something whose meaning would become clear just as it was needed. They were telling us to find the ladder, build the ladder, and create the new thought forms, the new methods, the new bodies, that would take us up the ladder into the new world. It is all here, it has always been here, waiting until we were ready.

Yesterday, as I was guided to do, I went up on the hilltop and did a dowsing session with the Ancestors and the ascension Masters. They reminded me that we would be placing 2 Hopi Water jars in the summer, with the intention to restore groundwater (springs) to the land of the Anasazi.

I was so amazed by the return of the regenerating winter storms this year that I kind of thought that was all there is to it. They reminded me that his is not the case. There is much more water to bring in, and much to envision and activate. We are only just beginning to regenerate this area on Mother Earth.

So today, I send out a blessing of love and gratitude for all "lightweavers" who are co-creating the new Earth, with intention. May all the forces of Nature align with you to co-create the miraculous transformations necessary to bring about these changes. May you know fulfillment of your highest dreams in this lifetime. May you succeed in all of your heart-based undertakings, and may you bring blessings to all of life beyond your wildest imaginings.

Kachina

Awakenings

Funny thing, if you don't believe you deserve all of the support of the Universe you can spend your time and energy running from it, blocking it, numbing out, vegging out, and wonder why it isn't there. The other day I realized that I must choose to change this pattern, choose to believe and acknowledge the support of Creation all around me.

I suppose this is part of turning to myself instead of that which is outside of me, but that doesn't mean not participate in life. I think my mind gets confused and perhaps my feelings as to what parts of me are dying. I feel like I am dying, or that I am somehow slowly killing myself. Like I am not choosing Fully Life, a Vibrant Passionate Co-Creative Life. Am I really or is this just the feeling of a death. I find myself wanting to be alone and getting frustrated when I can't have that, not asking for it aloud - knowing that I can have that. Not picking up my Medicine.

The committee can be pretty sneaky, to the point where you believe that is the way it is. Stuck, stagnant, not doing the right thing . . . blah blah blah. So, what is the gift of that? What is the gift of constantly analyzing, trying to see how things could be better. There must be a balance between this and taking action.

I find myself longing for the Ceremony, but I know that when the time is right I will find a new depth to my Being and Ceremony will be different. I will be coming from a different place.

Keep trusting, keep going to my center, remember to go to my center. Sing Dance Play, Walk outside on the Earth Mother herself.

I am stuck in the book but that is okay, I am stuck on my Creation story. I was not born into a life where we are told the Stories, where we know our history, our roots, our place. I suppose there is a reason for that. Perhaps to dig deeper into my cells to remember what I already know.

A New Opportunity Comes Our Way

Today was a whirlwind of ecstatic proportions. I hardly know where to start.

At 9 this morning, Blew Thunder and I met with Lu and Lee Hixson from Sedona area, our neighbors to the west. They own a beautiful 80+ acre parcel of land with probably the most powerful sacred Anasazi site in the immediate area. They are in the process of selling their home in Cottonwood and moving to an acreage in the Missouri Ozarks. They are stepping way out of their comfort zone, taking risks and selling everything to go, not even certain of what spirit has in mind for them.

They came with an amazing proposal for us that seems impossible, yet from that quiet inner space, it looks like exactly the kind of thing that the Ancestors would bring about. They have offered us the whole 83 acres at a price that is well under market value, and with some creative financing. To act upon this opportunity, we will have to receive a gift or unexpected windfall of about $333,000 cash.

Each angle that we have examined up to this point leads us back to this same reality. If the Ancestors truly want us to become the caretakers of this land, they will have to come up with a means of creating this amount of money that includes ease for us, and does not redirect our energies from our immediate agreement at hand.

We are very happy and satisfied with the property that we caretake already here at White Sage. We have just come into a state of greater balance, and are once again getting ready to go back to work on the physical building and co-creating. The last thing we had on our minds was to consider an expansion at this time. Yet here they are, in need of selling their property and wanting us to be the keepers of this land.

Tonight we will meeting in ceremony with the Ancestors, asking for the vision of that which will serve in the highest for all life. We are also asking each of you for your prayers and blessings for manifestation of that which serves. If a miracle is required here, I will certainly hold the space for that to happen.

In Love and Gratitude,
Kachina

Healing Eruptions

I had a Healing Eruption of the Mt St Helens kind the other night. I decided to eat a bowl of popcorn with regular butter before a class. I haven't eaten that in many months. In the middle of the class, I had to leave abruptly to visit the porcelain god. I had no symptoms of the flu and my 15 minute sojourn was just that - 15 minutes.

I realized a few hours later how exciting it was even though it was not fun! My body had been used to eating the best of real food, and it was letting me know that that kind of monkey business was not acceptable. Explosive as it was, I was celebrating that my body would actually reject that which it could not process well. Is my body vibrating higher? Am I walking over the threshold into a state of vibrant health? Is my body communicating its boundaries? To be continued . . .

I told my friend Earth Song, and she said, "Congratulations!" She was excited for me. The last time someone was excited about my bodily functions was when I was in the hospital and the nurses wouldn't let you go unless -- well you know what that was.

I also have had rashes and burps when a food isn't right for me at this time -- like red peppers. It is also bringing up my thyroid problem again. Yeast just surfaced for a day and a half. I had a mini hot flash of 5 minutes. These are old disease patterns that are exiting my body. I haven't felt this alive in years. There's a spring in my step.

I also wanted to say that Blew Thunder talked about the difference between a healing eruption and a healing crisis in another 90 day class. A healing crisis is when a person has cancer, and the body is fighting for its life. A healing eruption is when the body releases toxins of the bad kind. It's when you are doing something right with your body and the body can do its job of regenerating and rejuvenating in whatever manner it needs to do the job.

My body is singing the color of a Jazzy new Life. There probably will be more healing eruptions but I welcome it as the success of my steps forward to ascension health.

Mist Walker

Little steps, Big steps and all the steps in between

It's beautiful how this journey unfolds everyday and how easy it is to see when you know what to look for. I threw out the rules for this class the day I decided to join as everything I knew was different. I have been going with the flow and catching myself exactly where I need to be and not surprisingly right on track with everyone else. I worked hard in the last 90 day class to follow the rules and watched my husband do little with the rules. Funny thing happened, we both transformed how we were supposed to, neither better or worse. This go around, I am able to allow that truth and have peace with it.

When I read Kathryn's blog about "Action", I thought I wasn't there yet. I feel part of me still in the rhythm of the east with spring only beginning. By the end of that day I had taken two giant steps in action and it wasn't till I was driving home from the second one that I realized once again, I am exactly where I am supposed to be.

In planning for our move, our date to leave Alaska is June 1. The job I am currently in doesn't end till July 1. I had to sign a new contract and instead of just signing it and giving notice later, I wrote a letter of resignation that ends with the school year in May. The second thing I needed to do, the biggest thing to set all of this in motion, was to tell my ex husband that we are moving(we still share children). Steve and I asked him and his wife to dinner, told them the news and let him know that we were open to letting the kids decide. It was clear there was emotion but the conversation went easy and felt right. All that is left now is monetary things and we are on our way.

I am so grateful for the awakening of the new, the action to move forward and the reminders that come from the connections with all. Thank you all for sharing your stories and for the presence and energy expressed through this group.

I am also thankful for the new passion red Vitamix that showed up yesterday. WoooHooo!

Michelle

Happy Girl

Its spring time in Alaska, Yeah! This last winter was especially long for me because I wasn't in a space of resonance with the cold and slow-pace that comes naturally to that time of year. I have been in the cocoon stage for a while now and I have been feeling very ready to burst out of my cocoon and step into the world with my new wings and gift of flight. With this internal timing lining up with the natural energy of spring and birthing new ideas, new life and leaving behind those things that no longer serve, I am ready to seize the day!
I have begun cleaning out my closet and removing those things that hold physical and energetic "attachment" energies but that I no longer have any need for. Clothes, memorabilia, even some rocks and crystals that are letting me know are ready to move onto the next phase of their journey, books and other "junk" to me at this point but a huge gift to someone else. I am putting into action the exercise of Kathryn's blog, the one of letting go of attachment to the way I think it should be before I can truly live my purpose and have been using my affirmations of what I am desiring to create in the present moment with the task at hand. It is proving to be quite powerful and filling me with the sense of connection and purpose while I do the regular mundane seeming things of my daily life. I am amazed at how just that simple change in consciousness can turn the dreaded task of cleaning out the closet, uggg into cleaning out the closet, look what I am making room for in my life and because of that I am on-purpose! Amazing.
My financial situation in terms of the number of $ in my bank account hasn't changed much but I am no longer stressing about it and I truly feel more abundant then ever!
I am grateful for every thing in my life and more conscious and aware of it then I ever was before when I could buy what I wanted when I wanted. Now, I pay attention to what is available to me in this moment and how the universe assists me in having all my needs met. Every time I go into the fear I am forced to stop and come into the present moment and what I see before me is so beautiful! Not once has my fear been realized, every time I stop and look, all the blessings of my life are still there and I realize I have nothing to fear! It has actually become fun and exciting to watch things unfold and manifest. I have spent my last dollar twice now and amazingly each time within a day or so some money happens to find its way too me, this experience is in a very deep way teaching me so much about trust and letting go and for that I am very grateful.
I have, also just this last week, for some reason fallen behind in the book but I made a commitment to myself that this time around (my third 90 day) I would finish the book and I fully intend to.
For now I can see all the zig-zags of my desires, intentions, hopes, dreams, things I still need to work through and things I need to let go of, scattered about not yet ready to fully align but for me for now that is exactly perfect and I can walk through this phase with more presence, patience and trust then ever before.
A new door has opened, a new chapter begun and all I can say is hallelujah spring has sprung!

Breakdown to Break Through

So many thoughts are going through my head. Years ago I raised my hand to be of service. And right now I am challenged as to what to talk about. This 90 day program is all about choice. And I know for me this container makes me be more accountable for myself. When I have the magnifying glass on myself-the last f-cking thing I want to do, is bring light to it and share it with others!

You know I still have the days where I try to self-sabotage myself, and where I wonder how this is all going to work. But by going through it so many times now, I can catch it and not have to act on it. And surrender with the idea that, "don't give up 5 seconds before the miracle!"

And some of the tools that I use to get past that day, might be to put my feet up and let go of things, engage in a conversation with my wife about what I am feeling; and sometimes that takes more than a day to get to the level 0f pain. Sometimes it might be a Blue Road Healing; sometimes it is just that I am wound so tight, I just need to take the day off. And sometimes I just need to eat some good food. Instead of a 12/60 "sick day", it is a 13/260 "well day", and I give myself permission to take the day off.

What is really amazing is that 2 days, a week, a month down the road, I can't even remember what was so significant about that day that threw me so off course. And that only came to be by talking about those events WHEN THEY CAME UP, and not allowing them to become suppressed and go dormant again.

And look at it this way; if you were to get a sliver in your hand, would'nt you go to all means to remove it at the first opportunity? And that is because we can feel it festering at the time. Left undone, eventually that sliver wouldn't fester any more, but it would still be there.

Unlike the physical sliver, where the body can reabsorb it, emotional and mental festering just goes dormant only to return again and again. It can unconsciously control our lives and keep us from going where we want to go.

Kathryn and I have the intention to talk about the things that are blogged about and offer any assistance we can through this medium. Only when we offer the things that are going on for us, will there be an opportunity to address this-and it will help everyone (since we are not so unique as we all like to think). By blogging, we can take advantage of the opportunity of the door that is open.

I had the opportunity back in the early 1990s to work with a man named Richard Brooks, a self-made multi millionaire. He always talked about how we have to go through break down to get to break through. And that is the only difference between being satisfied and unsatisfied in life.

I send my blessings to each and every one of us, and hold a vision of break through for all of us! Aho mitaqueye oyasin.

Blewww Thunder

Surrender

Hey, is anyone else struggling with keeping up? I am now at least a week behind in the journal. (I am doing my affirmations in the mirror though). Just so you don't get down on yourself, I want you all to know that I have only been able to stay in synchronicity with the journal two out of the four times I have completed this program.

And I still had an amazing completion and shift in consciousness through this program, whether I finished the journal or not. Just in case anyone out there is having to surrender some aspect of the routine, know that you are not alone!!!

And speaking of surrender, today Michael and I awakened to a mass of big, beautiful snowflakes falling down. Every time it snows, I get a little giddy inside. Most people around here have almost forgotten the stress of a 20 year drought. Now they want summer to come, they want heat.

I now have the most profound experience of changing the weather pattern, and bringing water and precipitation back to a depleted area of Mother Earth. Since last October when we set the Mayan rain crystals in 4 directions and visualized a pyramid shaped etheric mountain over the local area, we have been experiencing an abundance of precipitation. The drought is so over now. And everything is coming to life!

So the two of us are surrendering today, as there won't be any work going on outside. Once again it is a day for R and R, after a crazy/busy day yesterday. First thing in the morning we had gotten up and started checking and boxing the essential oils order that we make every couple of months.

Then we heard this wild honking outside-a pickup truck was barreling up the driveway. It was a woman named Zelda. She and her cousin Lana had come out to try and get another bottle of oil that I gave her several weeks ago.

She had injured her knee stepping off a ladder. She is probably in her early 60's but has the energy of a 20 year old-always going, going, going. She was trying everything the doctors could do for her; steroids, anti-inflammatories, pain pills, and physical therapy. Nothing was working. And Zelma can not sit still for 5 minutes without going into a funk!

So I gave her a small bottle of essential oils blend and told her how to wrap it with saran wrap every night. I told her she could pay me $15.00 when I saw her again. Then the next day Michael and I left for Mesa Arizona to visit my family. I sort of forgot about the whole thing.

Well yesterday when she came out of the car, she was still limping a lot. But the oil had taken much of the swelling out and she was asking for more, saying that it was the only thing that was working of all the things she had tried. So before she left, Michale and I showed her how to get back into her leg, and put her weight on the foot again, and how to walk consciously with energy moving through the foot instead of withdrawing from it.

By the time Zelma left, she was walking with very little limp. The doctors wanted her to have surgery, and I have a little feeling that that is not going to happen! Oh, did I mention- two days before this, I ended up distilling all my affirmations into one "I am ready!" Then 2 days later Zelma shows up asking for help, Hmmm could it be connected?

I have been very conscious of keeping the local awareness of us and what we have to offer on a very low profile. But now that the book is printed, it seems like it is time to let the floodgates open. (I am imagining a gentle and balanced flow).

Thank you all for walking with me through the fire of the South. You are so loved.

Kachina

Trust

One of the gifts of the south direction is TRUST. Trust is what we must walk through every time we take a deliberate conscious action in this world. When we take an action, there is a level of commitment that comes along with it.

Here is one of the reasons that we can get stuck in the east, in the idea stage, setting intentions, working on "higher planes", and never completely realizing our dreams. Sooner or later we must move from the more comfortable place of visualization into ACTION. This is where we put our money where our mouth is. We stop talking about it and start doing it.

There are several patterns I am aware of that can inhibit us from taking the necessary actions to create our desires. One of them is judgment. If we have judgment about ourselves, our ability, or whether or not we are deserving, or even judgment about any part of the creative process, we will have difficulty in taking an action.

If we have a fear of commitment, we will get really close to our dream, like a ball player picking up the bat and stepping up to the plate, and then we might quickly turn another direction-dropping the bat and backing away. We think we have simply chosen something else, we might not even see that fear has caused us to redirect our energy in a "safer" direction.

Another challenge in the south, possibly the biggest challenge of all, is fear of failure. Of course, this is a polarity that will bounce around from fear of failure into fear of success. The best gift you can give yourself in the south is permission to fail. Once you have released the charge of failure, you may have to address the fear of success. Both of them are two sides of the same coin.

It is also important to remember that you don't have to be perfect!!! Most of us have an illusion about perfection and what it is. We don't see a large enough picture of reality to understand that EVERYTHING is already perfect exactly the way it is. We let attachment to a certain outcome become our measuring stick, keeping ourselves from doing anything because we can not live up to that specific outcome.

I have found a beautiful way to move forward through paralyzing fear. It is a way to program through the stagnation. Perhaps there is an action you would like to take in the world but are terrified to do it. If this is the case, you can build momentum for taking this action step by step, and it will become easy.

Suppose you want to quit a dissatisfying job. You have already prepared yourself by setting an intention and imagining the details of the new job you are creating. But you feel stuck and unable to finally do it.

Your first step is to affirm (with affirmations) that you are moving forward in life, leaving behind all that does not serve, with gratitude and completion for the job.

Next, you affirm "I am taking action to be happy and fulfilled in my new vocation" or whatever your higher self gives you as an affirmation. AS YOU ARE AFFIRMING this new situation, you take any action available to you in the moment. It could be washing the dishes, it could be vaccuuming the floor, it could be tossing a ball while playing catch. The key is to connect the mental blueprint (the affirmation) with an action in the physical world. This creates movement and releases stagnation between the body and mind.

It sounds like a simple exercise, and I assure you it is one of the most powerful shamanic techniques available to us. It creates radical change, and empowers us to create our own experiences of the reality.

Kachina

Waking up in the Moment

Today was one of those days of beauty here at White Sage. There are so many of these beautiful, bright, balmy sunny days that it is easy to just take them for granted, not seeing the world of wonder all around me.

But today, I saw the brightness of the pinon pine trees, the smooth carpet of green grass just beginning to cover the red dirt of the desert, and the huge aura of the vast sagebrush covered country. I felt the freshness of the air, and the sparkling energy of this land. I was really present in the moment.

Now that the book is at the printer, I have the feeling of a mother, just after the birth of her baby. Feeling a little of the relief of giving birth, as well as a new respect for the effort it took to produce it. Then there is also the elation of bringing the new child (book in my case) into the world. It is a jumbled and disorganized mess of feeling, and a knowing underneath it all that everything is unfolding according to the divine plan of the universe! That part never really goes away.

Many blessings for all of you who have helped me in so many ways, by giving your energy and attention to your own regeneration through using the core food fast, and the food for ascension methods. You are all a part of this intention, and a part of this new creation. Without you, there would be no food for ascension.

Thank you all. May all your dreams become reality.

Kachina

Coming Awake in the Cycle of Life

Ziji Boombasa's last entry reminded me of a time not too long ago when I was in the process of becoming conscious in the 5th dimension. I had asked in the medicine wheel for assistance from Mother Earth, for her to guide me and help me understand the planetary reality.

Mother Earth responded by bringing me many, many teachings of the medicine wheel. She began to teach me in the moments that I was living, showing me always where I was in the spiraling cycle of life. The four directions mark four distinct parts of this cycle, each with its own energy, as we are experiencing in our journey around the wheel together.

As I was awakening to the guidance of the spirit/Angelic world, I noticed right away that there were conscious and unconscious parts to this cycle. I would be going along, feeling connected in all dimensions, feeling like a spiritual being in a human body, at one with guidance and the higher dimensions; then I would wake up one morning and I could hardly remember how that felt-it was like someone pulled the plug, there was no feeling of connection, no guidance, and even no confirmation that this 5 D world was even real.

By this time in my development, I was so sensitive, that this kind of pain of disconnection was stronger than physical pain. I would plummet into a deep dungeon of despair in my inner world, while holding a strong face in the outer world just to go on with my daily life.

This experience kept repeating over and over again. I began to see that there was truly a cyclic thing going on. One day (when I was really connected), I asked if there was anything I could do about this situation to help myself. The Angels and guides agreed to help me find out.

The first thing they called my attention to was the fact that I was going in and out of consciousness as my personal medicine wheel cycle went into the yin and yang phases. The best they could do for me at that time was to give me an alert right before it was about to happen.

They also encouraged me to grid a special mineral around the house and workspace, with the intention of transmuting all incoming energies that were intentionally created to produce unconsciousness. (I associated this intentional stuff with HARP, but never got a clear read on all of the sources).

WOW-did that make a difference! Every time the guides alerted me to the fact that I was about to "shut down", I did some prayers of gratitude, and set intentions for connection through the yin cycle. Just by knowing ahead of time when it was coming, I was able to start placing intentions and energetic anchors to help me stay connected and begin to wake up in this cycle.

Gradually, I was able to dowse for other people and even receive information for myself all the way through the yin cycle. The instances of shut down became fewer and less intense. Looking back on this stage, I now see that it was a truly valuable stage of integration. That periodic turning off of spiritual energy helped me to connect into all parts of my psyche and body, to bring the light in as soon as it was back on.

The key for me was not to fall into the linear time concept when I was shut down, and think that it was going to be this way for ever and I would never be connected again. I had to bring a new level of trust into the darkness. Gradually it got easier.

Then after a long time of turning through this cycle, something shifted in the ascension process. I suddenly found myself in the center nearly all the time. I was aware of the rhythms and cycles around me, effecting everything from the outside world to my emotions and physical body, but I was now just observing all of that from an unending center of pure connection. This center became stronger and stronger.

My prana tube had expanded to encompass my whole body. I was running primarily vertical energy now instead of running my personal energy horizontally. It was a dramatic shift that changed my whole perspective and experience of life.

And guess what-this change and growth and dynamic perspective shifting never stops! It just keeps going and going. I used to think there was a goal out there, like sooner or later I would be "ascended"and my life would be fixed. The ascended masters always laughed when I projected that image, and now I understand why! I just keep moving to new levels of challenge, responsibility, and fulfillment.

Maybe there is no end to it, and I am now living the goal.

Love and harmony,
Kachina

This morning I found myself in a body without a soul.

I was driving my car to work after having just dropped the kids off at school. I could see the road moving beneath and the buildings passing by; I could hear the engine humming and feel the wheel in my hands; but I had this terrifying sense that something was missing – that I was missing. Looking around (turning my head left and right) I found myself wondering with perfect clarity, “Where’s my spirit? Where is the 5^th dimensional me in this moment, ‘cause I don’t feel it.”

It was sort of like the flip-side of an out-of-body experience…instead of being in the midst of an astral flight, touring around with a light-thread connecting my soul to my body, I was immovably stuck in my human form with seemingly no connection to the infinite. Deep separation. Seriously scary shit – a zombified me barreling down the boulevard at 8am on a Friday morning, not a sip of caffeine in sight. :-)

Body shaking and eyes welling up, I pulled over into the first parking lot I saw, which was a post office (a detail that is significant if one considers all this as symbols in a waking dream). Before I could park in a proper spot, there in front of me was a young moose, that lovely messenger of forgiveness and self-esteem. I turned off my car, rolled down my window and began connecting with the moose, sensing it wanted to offer me something. Breathing in sync with the animal as it stood a few yards away, I started to feel myself become this moose. The weight of its head on my shoulders, the taste the willow in my mouth, the strength of those legs that walked the wild since birth. For a minute or two, I was this moose, sensing no danger in the comforts of the city, harboring no anger for the wolves that killed my kin, craving no answers, desiring to achieve no dreams. In this sacred experience, I just was.

So, where was my soul 10 minutes before? How can the infinite play hide and seek? Well, I suppose it was vacationing in the body of that moose, taking a bit of rest from the ceaseless chatter of my mind, and most importantly, getting a recharge on those qualities I needed most at that moment – self-esteem and self-forgiveness.

Aho. Mi ta kwi asen.

The Rest of the Story

The next day was quiet and a more peaceful feeling came in and surrounded James' family. I continued to send prayers for healing and forgiveness to all of them and went about my day. Once again, after I had gone to sleep at night, I awakened abruptly at 3:33 am. I could feel the heaviness of distraught emotion, and I knew James was in my room again.

This continued for over 10 nights. Every time I, awakened exactly at 3:33, there was James, badgering me to call his family, asking me why this had happened to him, demanding answers. I continued to hold a healing space for him. I called in his ancestors to come to him and help him.

Over the next 10 days, I called on the Archangel Michael and did some Blue Road healings for him and his family, and the rescuers. I connected with the spirits of the cave, who were previously unheard and unacknowledged, and who were trying to communicate to the humans who came there for recreation that they were entering an extremely sacred place in the earth.

The spirits of the cave were unhappy that this had occurred, and afraid of human reaction. Of course, plans were already being made to seal off the cave with James body inside. I did a ceremony, connecting through the earth grid with the spirits of the cave, and asking them how I could assist. I held the intention that the highest level of harmony would be served through this situation, in benefit of all life.

Then I reminded them that there was an agreement in place here that was designed to be of service. Then the spirits of the cave told me that they would be honored if the cave became a shrine, with James acting as the human guardian of this space. They told me that the cave was a sound chamber that amplifies and directs high vibrational frequencies through the earth grids. It is a major energetic center for the local area, and could actually function better without constant human activity going on inside.

James agreed to act as the guardian of the place. He was beginning to accept where he was and ready to move into new roles.

Every night, he still came at 3:33 am. No longer did he bring the heaviness of unprocessed emotion with him, but he still came. I asked him what he was coming back for, and he did not answer. He just kept showing up, and I started to get over it and say hi, then just go back to sleep. I did continue to wonder what was left undone.

One night, nearly a month after James had passed, I awakened as usual at 3:33. This time, James was not alone. I saw that he was with Liz's brother, who had volunteered to work through our medicine wheel to assist in healing for the local area, and the planetary ascension process. The two of them stood next to my bed and stared at me.

Finally I asked them why they were here, and if there was something I could do. They both told me to look at the area surrounding the medicine wheel. There I saw hundreds of souls, waiting. I realized then that something was going on of which I was unaware.

The two men told me that there were many many souls leaving the planet at that time, and all the medicine wheels and vortices would be very busy over the next 14 days. I immediately did a blue road healing ceremony, then offered to do one every day for the next few days. They said they would come to me anytime it was getting backed up and ask for assistance. I thanked them both.

Then James told me he had decided to work through this wheel on an ongoing basis. I welcomed him and thanked him, and he left with Liz's brother, who I could see was really helping him to adjust to his new reality. I was amazed at how different he felt.

Since that time, they have only appeared to me once. It was to show me that I needed to connect with another cave inside Mt. Timpanogos, in northern Utah. They guided me to set up a mer-ka-ba inside the cave, around a heart-shaped rock called "the heart of timpanogos", and to open a grid line to that exact point. I made prayers of gratitude for the spirits of this sacred place on Mother Earth, and did what they asked.

I saw them working once after the earthquake in Haiti. I was amazed at how many souls came to this portal to exit, since I know there are many portals between here and there. But I am learning that it is not geographical distance that makes a difference to the souls passing, it is quality of frequency. Certain frequencies attract certain souls, and it happens holographically. I am ever continuing to be amazed at our reality.

Now James is a powerful presence here. I can see and feel his work as he assists others, especially those who die unexpectedly. I honor him, and give thanks for his presence and healing intentions.

Kachina

I don't know?

I'm feeling very stagnate in my present reality. I notice that in my life even when things are at the most "seemingly challenging" everything is still really quite calm. It's not because at the core of me I'm calm, its just that it really isn't that bad. I feel very fortunate for all the blessings in my life and how much support I have from the universe and my family, but sometimes I wonder if this makes me weaker as a person in some way? I find myself often wondering what it would be like to experience cancer, or my significant other deciding to have an affair or if I really lost it all-no house, no money, no job. How would I survive through those types of ordeals? So many people in the world are facing these exact circumstances in this moment and I am curious about the resilience and will of the human spirit? Part of me feels I would be very motivated by "disaster" if you will, so naturally what would be more challenging to me would be to find that same sense of motivation in a slow gradual dissipation of my world as I created it, that its truly what feels harder for me and thus, no surprise, exactly what I've created.
There was a point in my life where I realized I felt incredibly guilty if I allowed too many good things into my life. I felt like if I kept getting what I wanted then eventually it would all have to come crashing down and be destroyed, to keep the balance, so to speak. I was very cautious not to be overly grateful and excited about the good things that came in because I was sure that if I got caught up in the excitement and all that that it would have to be balanced with something "bad." It is such a weird concept, and I wonder where and at what point in my life I picked this up? I remember starting to deal with it mentality/emotionally when I was young, 12-ish.
I resorted to complete identification with my anger, frustration, judgements, resentments etc. basically I fed the other wolf (from Michelles story) if you will, initially in an attempt to protect myself from losing everything good. I decided I would beat, whoever it was that I feared and was sure was out to get me, by punishing myself first. At some point I got lost in this identification, forgetting why I was doing it in the first place and it was who I became.
I am in Bethel this week house sitting for my parents. Funny I am just getting this right now. I knew I had some energy work to do while I was here but I had completely forgotten about the personal healing work I was guided to do until I began writing this blog. I have come back to the physical place where all my physical constitutions patterns were set in place. All of it is here! How I was raised, the collective consciousness of this area, which no doubt affected me and molded me, the old everything, my past self basically. Since, being here I have been feeling stagnant, cluttered and scattered, no doubt I'm sensing things in my energy field that are ready to be let go.
Male/father issues have suddenly become the forefront of my attention, I've been craving alcohol something that I haven't done in years, having strong desires to check out and go unconscious for the duration of this trip.
I feel it is time to cut the cords and fully fully fully let go of the past. Kind of how Joni has been shredding all her old medical files and releasing the cancer from her field, I too have to shred all this old stuff, more on a symbolic level since all of it is energetic but really let go, let go, LET go so that I am amble to put myself fully and wholly into my present. Blah, I feel like I've done this already before and am annoyed that here I am again coming to the same realisation as before, doing the same release work as before but yet as similar as it is it is different. Another layer a deeper layer thought in its way the same is so very different. And my ability to be clearer and more receptive to this release is different. My desire to fully let this go is more honest then it ever was before.
And, so this is where I'm at. Re-reading this I'm not sure how I got from where I started this blog to where it ended but that is the amazing thing about the human mind. It often doesn't make any sense and the thoughts that trigger one memory may have nothing to do with it at all. Truly amazing.
Blessings to everyone and my we all believe in out right to be beautiful, bountiful and grateful!

A Healing Journey with James

Today I must share a story about an series of events that happened a day or two before Thanksgiving 2009.

Michael and I were tuning in to the 10:00 news on our satellite tv. I rarely have an emotional response to any of the news, no matter how awful it may seem. But this time was different. The anchorwoman began with a story about a young man named James (not his real name) who had gone with his family to explore in a well known cave system outside Salt Lake City.

James was a 23 year old medical student, involved in many sports, and an experienced caver. He and his brothers, their wives and his three year old daughter all went into this amazing cave with many twists, turns, and passages. They came to an area where the cave opens up into a large cathedral. After exploring this space for a while, the group split up. Most went back the direction they had come. James and one brother went forward into the narrow maze like passages to explore the deeper cave.

They went far back into the cave and the passage became narrower and steeper. James was in front and his brother right behind him, when he suddenly stopped moving. He had entered into an area with a downward slope and slid in further. He tried to move forward, but in the narrow confines of the passage along with being head down, he could not get any leverage to move his body weight. James told his brother that he was stuck.

After seeing that he really was stuck and there was nothing more he could do, James' brother went back the direction he had come, crawling and winding his way out to get help. Within hours, a group of search and rescue experts were there to help.

They worked for hours, trying to get James out of the dark passage. The challenge was enormous, since there was only room for one person right behind him, and very little room for any maneuvering. At one time in the evening, the rescuers had pulled James back up the passage almost to safety, with ropes and rigging. Just as his feet were emerging, the rigging broke. James slid back down into the passage, and the rescue workers did their best not to feel the despair that began to set in.

By 10:00, they had gotten a cell phone in to James so he could talk with his wife. The rescuers were exhausted, and out of options for bringing James out alive. A very heavy cloud of sadness was descending around this event. Throughout the news, they returned to the scene at the cave several times to give updates on James' condition. I could hardly hear or see any other news, as this situation and the cloud of sadness around it filled my awareness.

I went to bed that night with prayers for healing for James, his family, and all the rescuers who had tried so hard, and now had to simply watch him die. I knew he would not live through the night.

At 3:33 I jerked awake in bed. I saw the pitch black cave passage where James had passed. Then I heard a sound that I could not describe. I felt a rush of emotion-sadness, betrayal, guilt, apology, pain... I suddenly knew through the emotional veil that James was standing in the room with me. He was confused, angry, and extremely sad over his passing, and he wanted answers! Why did this happen to me? Why? Why? He kept asking me and I, in my grogginess could not give him an answer. I just kept radiating calmness and presence, since it was the only way I could think of to help this regretful young man.

I was awake with him that night for several hours. He went through many emotions and resistance layers about what had happened. He had had many plans to be of service in his life. He was going to be a doctor, and saw himself doing some amazing things to advance the level of health in third world nations. He kept going back over the event and choices that had lead to his death, regretting each one in turn. "If only I had turned back with the others when we all split up. If only I had decided to turn around where it was getting too narrow to walk. If only I had gotten my arms out ahead of me before sliding into the passage. If only..."

All I could do that night was to assure him that there was a reason for this that he could not see at this time. I told him to consider that he might have a different path of service. I asked him to look for the silver lining ( I know it seems crazy), and he just got quiet. He began to get past the charges and become conscious.

As soon as this happened, he started to get concerned about his family. He knew that his wife and little daughter were okay. He said she was strong, and his wife would have lots of opportunities to start a new life with someone else. But he was most concerned about one of his brothers. I was unable to discern which one, but he said that one of his brothers feels completely responsible for James' death. He was afraid this brother would not forgive himself and go on with life. He wanted me to contact the family so he could talk to them.

He badgered me for the rest of the night about calling his family. I told him that I would not do this. I told him that if he was supposed to contact them, he would have to find someone else. I am not an attack psychic, nor do I deliver messages on a regular basis for the deceased. It is not my role in this incarnation. I told him there were others that could do this for him. Then he left and was gone as quickly as he arrived.

I will finish this story tomorrow.

K.

Shortly after beginning the 90 day was my Mayan signature day, WHITE COSMIC wind day on the Mayan calender and the veils were lifting as they do-It fills my heart to be a part of the ceremonies of this time and all the blessings they shower upon us! shortly after beginning this 90 day, was my Mayan signature day-white cosmic wind day-that is on the Mayan calender and the veils were lifting as they do;

letting go; suddenly present and in the moment; an unseen before door opens;
song and ceremony that seems to come from 10,000 years ago, coming in serendipitously -filling my heart -what a beautiful gift coming from the soul-resonating with that vibration- I felt back in ceremony again- such a gift!

-the animals coming in during this portal time-again the moose-I think at the last 90 day -while at one of the 90 day meetings Kathryn was told to give me a mooses tooth to hold during the meeting-then I shared an incident that week with a moose filled with adrenaline had communicated for my oncoming car to change lanes before this moose- not yet visible to me until only seconds later- running full sppeed past my window in the lane I had just changed from and so was able to unharmed drive safely by this moose -so was surprised that another moose came in during this 90 day-but in a polar opposite form -this time so relaxed- this moose rested on all 4‘s sitting facing me communicating how animals do in that way that being in their presence seems to heal and affirm your very life; where you are and what you are doing- with eye contact that seemed to look into my soul in this timeless beautiful moment-that turned into much later- (one of the blogs if i can remember right- had mentioned that initial fear that was felt when in the presence of the Wolf)-I resonated with that blog and it reminded me of that-realizing that fear is a choice and letting go of that fear-this moose teaching me to relax!

-again the spirit guides coming in the form of a beautiful sign -- a beautiful connected double rainbow circling around the sun. This was to take on more meaning later when shortly after seeing this rainbow around the sun, pulling out a dvd I had been carrying around for a long time, but finally watched and kept stopping on the RAINBOW SUN that had appeared to me again in this very magical dvd; got goosebumps all over as rewound and played this over and over-I wanted to share this because this message from this pure spirit seems to embrace everything about the 90 days for me and I was so moved, just as I have been moved by everyones sharing that gave me the strength to put down the DEAD food that was about to go into my mouth and reach for my pre-made snack high VIBRATION core food and finally i think have the nerve -a gift from the moose -to share with you. This quote following the picture and mention of “RAINBOW SUN” from Alex Grey’s chapel of Sacred Mirrors, a 2006 DVD, film by Nick Krasnic, www.CoSMthemovie.com that has filled my dreams and visions and has become my mantra, intention and for me is another spirit guide: While the film shows Alex Grey’s Rainbow Sun picture he says, “Our WHITE COSMIC consciousness leaves our body and enters into a new realm of light and great mystery. Teacher of mind; a wanderer from the west did go upon an unclear path, as bone and flesh. Alone they went through dark unholiness. I wonder can I find myself? brought clearing and a voice. No bally born, seek spiritual dawn the path has opened-it’s your choice. Along the path- death-mirror of future collapse, animal powers surround and protect the teacher as a corpse. The teaching is taken. The sun emerges. Book of the dead -direct me, resurrect me. Climbing the mountain, slipping and falling, struggling to upper reaches/the path of practice can be long and arduous, as it teaches, holy book ignites a vision, seeker becomes seer, karmic preparation allows the face of the guru to appear. The 3 worlds are united. From lesser to greater being. Vision spontaneously liberate, as vaste as nakedly seeing. Awareness, supreme and central, emptiness radient and clear, inner sun, outer sun, non-dual in the heart, no desire or fear. Guardians cut loose my empty husk, a human skin pelt of turquoise sky, reveals a mungdulah (sp?) of great perfection-a re splendid buddha eye, the essential vazrah (sp?) teaching condensed in a rainbow sun, transmits a fractal message-wake up everyone! the inspired yogi reaches for universal truth’s jewel -encoded in a heart drop or a crystalline molecule-pure of stain or ill, now has found it’s heart home, empowered to penetrate others with primordial waves of bliss. Shimmering, resonant love webs spread out to boundlessness. All beings and things included in the bodi soph vahz (sp?) vow. Therefore a return to the world, but in touch with the timeless now. An elixir of wisdom and compassion does my tray bring to all. Everyone is a future Buddha-listen deep for the Inner call.

The art that Alex Grey has created that goes with this message for his rainbow sun painting that is on this DVD transforms you directly to the 5th dimension!

ok-it is after 12:00am -i’m going to turn into a pumkin, sorry i’m tired, butthis is my first blog- i hope this makes sense-thanks for listening -maybe i can bring some balance into my life with the 90 days and find a time bubble so as to not stay up late to blog-but i feel liike i have now joinged the 20th century if I can figure out how to send it!
lightening storm desert rose Casseopeia-A-and thank-you RAINBOW SUN!

Insights and Dreams and Action

When I purged my medical files but kept the miscarriage papers, I had a dream about my friend Elaine who died of cancer 5 years ago. I was giving the eulogy over and over again. When I woke up I realized that I still had guilt over her death and how I dealt with it. Thank you Universe for bringing it to my attention. A conversation with Elaine needs to happen to heal my guilt.

I also had a dream about wolves. I was sitting in the passenger seat of a vehicle with the door open. In the back seat was a wolf curled up and asleep. I asked myself if I should be concerned but he didn't move. So I relaxed. But then another wolf jumped in and out of the vehicle several times crossing over my lap. Again I wondered if I should be concerned. After waking I knew it was telling me to be a teacher, but of what? I am a gatherer of knowledge but a master of none. It's also the reason, Laura left her wolf skin/fur with me. Thank you, Wolf, for your message.

I also was lamenting over the fact that Laura's community drum will be leaving Alaska soon.

But Raven Hair in her brilliance suggested that we put it out to our spiritual community for donations for a community drum and stand like we did for the harmonizer. That way Diamond Heart and our spiritual community would have one with everyone's energy and blessing. I hope that Diamond Heart will consider this.

When I was working in the workbook this week, Day 19 asked us to listen to all of the CD Unity Tone. One of the things that came of it for me was that my medicine wheel is now in the shape of a spider web. So I put all of the constitutions around the web in their own sections. Lo and behold there were 4 sections left. It struck me that they were the new constitutions that are coming into being through Kathryn. These 4 sections are also a step higher than the rest like it is the new spiral layer that extends upward like an ascension spiral staircase with these 4 on one level of it. Kathryn is pioneering them for us as some of the group are completing their last constitution this time around. What do you think, Kathryn and Michael?

I also have these thoughts:

My past was a sum of my pasts and a gathering of present experiences.

Now I'm creating the day and letting go of it for tomorrow.

I'm a daily alchemist letting go of the day's creation to fashion a new one on the morrow.

Sounds good. I am growing into it day by day.

Joni Mist Walker