Creating ways to learn about myself

It's amazing that while in the west everything has a way of turning me inward. I like to create sensory tubs for my boys to play in and for Feb. I made one with lavender rice and among many other things added shiny little red confetti hearts. it was fun but going into March I wanted to make a new one. What I thought was a process of separating to make a new tub turned more into a thought process of myself and how I do things.

I am one of those people who on a hike enjoy it along the way, right up to the point of seeing the destination, then I get excited and make a sprint for it or if it gets hard along the way I may give up, speed up to make it go faster or take more breaks and work to convince myself to keep going. I have over time recognized this and worked to slow my pace and enjoy the process of getting there rather than focused on the end result. What I experienced in this craft project was exactly that, the process my mind goes through while I am in action of something, anything.

The result, I sat playing in the lavender rice after the hour in a half it took to remove the confetti and forgot about the next project till quite awhile later. In the end I was able to let go of giving up and of being incredibly anal about getting every single piece. Hurray for being in the moment and hurray for the west and getting to know myself deeper and clearer.

I recommend this process to anyone looking for a deeper insight into the workings of the mind, it is quite rewarding.

Aho,

Michelle