The first step

Well I would like to introduce myself...I'm Steve Eagle Eye Lyall. A little history from me, I have attempted the 90 journey officially once before and once on my own both ending tragically. Tragically because of the lack of persistance with it. The first time I went to the circle meetings, while Kachina and Blew were in Anchorage, I played along fooling myself into an illusion. The illusion was I was going to do this to acquire clarity on my life as I knew it. Well that worked I just didn't receive it until now...years later. I only fininshed the East and at most 2 or 3 days into the South. Honesty at the time was difficult for me to convey to anyone including myself. I kept along, meeting on the days required, and still in my personal life doing the bare minimum. Personal life consisting of job, emotional work, relationship, addiction, and of course the 90 day journey. I seemed to be a fraud...though I was learning lessons, and especially in retrospec,t WOW, have I learned some lessons. On to the second time maybe a year later or so I don't really remember. I started again out of spite almost. In my relationship I have always been motivated by what my partner is doing for herself. First issue learned. I wanted to "work" on me by starting and completing the 90 day journey; maybe to prove something...not sure what or to whom. What I learned out of this experience was I can't do anything for anyone else thinking it is going to make me a better person. Only when I realized that I have to do what is good for me in order to be good to others was this journey a true reality. That leads me to now. I am working on consistancy and being persistant. I am doing this 90 day journey this time for me. In order to, in the long run, help others. Helping others isn't the primary goal though I know it will be tangent that comes with the territory. I welcome that. So now in this third time I will finish. I am incredibly grateful for the oppurtunity to be here in this group. By the graciousness of Kachina and Blew Thunder I have been able to join this group now. I had started it on my own again before I contacted them for more info that I was missing. I am ready to bare my soul to myself, my partner, my family, and this group. Ironically for me everyone but a few in this group I don't know. It is a huge lesson for me to be able to speak my truth to not only people that I know but more importantly to have the courage to speak to the people that I don't. This will help me to make the transition to living in my heart from my brain. I'm working on the Prosperity Palace. That for me is powerful as I am quite judgemental, opinionated, worried of what others think of me, at times filled with guilt and jealousy, and overall don't believe that I am enough. I see others telling me I am a great person for years they have been saying that. Just took till now for me to start to believe it :) I'm on a path that is leading to the unknown but what I do know is that if I'm honest with myself and forthcoming with others I will be taken care of. I look forward to continuing this journey and keeping in regular contact. Again I would like to say thank you to Kachina and Blew for this oppurtunity in joining the circle. I'm eagerly awaiting the package. In gratitude for Great Spirit. Thanks, Eagle Eye

My husband has a sweet tooth...a variation on the tapioca came to me

1 cup organic tapioca
1 cup apple cider
half cup OJ
half cup coconut water (guidance told me all coconut, I substituted with cider and OJ as I didn't have it on hand)
cook until clear

Add
half cup unsweetened fine grated organic dry coconut
a third cup large grate coconut
quarter cup maple syrup

a third cup crushed pecans tossed in syrup
spread lightly on top
Bake 350 30 minutes or less depending on consistency you prefer- we like it chewy

this is a dense treat- only need tiny portions to satisfy

Again ,use all organic ingredients and check first for benefit


I am still wishing more people would blog and share their input and experiences

from the winter wonderland of Pennsylvania.....Dark Horse


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