Thursday, March 18

Insights and Dreams and Action

When I purged my medical files but kept the miscarriage papers, I had a dream about my friend Elaine who died of cancer 5 years ago. I was giving the eulogy over and over again. When I woke up I realized that I still had guilt over her death and how I dealt with it. Thank you Universe for bringing it to my attention. A conversation with Elaine needs to happen to heal my guilt.

I also had a dream about wolves. I was sitting in the passenger seat of a vehicle with the door open. In the back seat was a wolf curled up and asleep. I asked myself if I should be concerned but he didn't move. So I relaxed. But then another wolf jumped in and out of the vehicle several times crossing over my lap. Again I wondered if I should be concerned. After waking I knew it was telling me to be a teacher, but of what? I am a gatherer of knowledge but a master of none. It's also the reason, Laura left her wolf skin/fur with me. Thank you, Wolf, for your message.

I also was lamenting over the fact that Laura's community drum will be leaving Alaska soon.
But Raven Hair in her brilliance suggested that we put it out to our spiritual community for donations for a community drum and stand like we did for the harmonizer. That way Diamond Heart and our spiritual community would have one with everyone's energy and blessing. I hope that Diamond Heart will consider this.

When I was working in the workbook this week, Day 19 asked us to listen to all of the CD Unity Tone. One of the things that came of it for me was that my medicine wheel is now in the shape of a spider web. So I put all of the constitutions around the web in their own sections. Lo and behold there were 4 sections left. It struck me that they were the new constitutions that are coming into being through Kathryn. These 4 sections are also a step higher than the rest like it is the new spiral layer that extends upward like an ascension spiral staircase with these 4 on one level of it. Kathryn is pioneering them for us as some of the group are completing their last constitution this time around. What do you think, Kathryn and Michael?

I also have these thoughts:
My past was a sum of my pasts and a gathering of present experiences.
Now I'm creating the day and letting go of it for tomorrow.
I'm a daily alchemist letting go of the day's creation to fashion a new one on the morrow.
Sounds good. I am growing into it day by day.
Joni Mist Walker