Funny thing, if you don't believe you deserve all of the support of the Universe you can spend your time and energy running from it, blocking it, numbing out, vegging out, and wonder why it isn't there. The other day I realized that I must choose to change this pattern, choose to believe and acknowledge the support of Creation all around me.
I suppose this is part of turning to myself instead of that which is outside of me, but that doesn't mean not participate in life. I think my mind gets confused and perhaps my feelings as to what parts of me are dying. I feel like I am dying, or that I am somehow slowly killing myself. Like I am not choosing Fully Life, a Vibrant Passionate Co-Creative Life. Am I really or is this just the feeling of a death. I find myself wanting to be alone and getting frustrated when I can't have that, not asking for it aloud - knowing that I can have that. Not picking up my Medicine.
The committee can be pretty sneaky, to the point where you believe that is the way it is. Stuck, stagnant, not doing the right thing . . . blah blah blah. So, what is the gift of that? What is the gift of constantly analyzing, trying to see how things could be better. There must be a balance between this and taking action.
I find myself longing for the Ceremony, but I know that when the time is right I will find a new depth to my Being and Ceremony will be different. I will be coming from a different place.
Keep trusting, keep going to my center, remember to go to my center. Sing Dance Play, Walk outside on the Earth Mother herself.
I am stuck in the book but that is okay, I am stuck on my Creation story. I was not born into a life where we are told the Stories, where we know our history, our roots, our place. I suppose there is a reason for that. Perhaps to dig deeper into my cells to remember what I already know.
Saturday, March 27
A New Opportunity Comes Our Way
Today was a whirlwind of ecstatic proportions. I hardly know where to start.
At 9 this morning, Blew Thunder and I met with Lu and Lee Hixson from Sedona area, our neighbors to the west. They own a beautiful 80+ acre parcel of land with probably the most powerful sacred Anasazi site in the immediate area. They are in the process of selling their home in Cottonwood and moving to an acreage in the Missouri Ozarks. They are stepping way out of their comfort zone, taking risks and selling everything to go, not even certain of what spirit has in mind for them.
They came with an amazing proposal for us that seems impossible, yet from that quiet inner space, it looks like exactly the kind of thing that the Ancestors would bring about. They have offered us the whole 83 acres at a price that is well under market value, and with some creative financing. To act upon this opportunity, we will have to receive a gift or unexpected windfall of about $333,000 cash.
Each angle that we have examined up to this point leads us back to this same reality. If the Ancestors truly want us to become the caretakers of this land, they will have to come up with a means of creating this amount of money that includes ease for us, and does not redirect our energies from our immediate agreement at hand.
We are very happy and satisfied with the property that we caretake already here at White Sage. We have just come into a state of greater balance, and are once again getting ready to go back to work on the physical building and co-creating. The last thing we had on our minds was to consider an expansion at this time. Yet here they are, in need of selling their property and wanting us to be the keepers of this land.
Tonight we will meeting in ceremony with the Ancestors, asking for the vision of that which will serve in the highest for all life. We are also asking each of you for your prayers and blessings for manifestation of that which serves. If a miracle is required here, I will certainly hold the space for that to happen.
In Love and Gratitude,
Kachina
At 9 this morning, Blew Thunder and I met with Lu and Lee Hixson from Sedona area, our neighbors to the west. They own a beautiful 80+ acre parcel of land with probably the most powerful sacred Anasazi site in the immediate area. They are in the process of selling their home in Cottonwood and moving to an acreage in the Missouri Ozarks. They are stepping way out of their comfort zone, taking risks and selling everything to go, not even certain of what spirit has in mind for them.
They came with an amazing proposal for us that seems impossible, yet from that quiet inner space, it looks like exactly the kind of thing that the Ancestors would bring about. They have offered us the whole 83 acres at a price that is well under market value, and with some creative financing. To act upon this opportunity, we will have to receive a gift or unexpected windfall of about $333,000 cash.
Each angle that we have examined up to this point leads us back to this same reality. If the Ancestors truly want us to become the caretakers of this land, they will have to come up with a means of creating this amount of money that includes ease for us, and does not redirect our energies from our immediate agreement at hand.
We are very happy and satisfied with the property that we caretake already here at White Sage. We have just come into a state of greater balance, and are once again getting ready to go back to work on the physical building and co-creating. The last thing we had on our minds was to consider an expansion at this time. Yet here they are, in need of selling their property and wanting us to be the keepers of this land.
Tonight we will meeting in ceremony with the Ancestors, asking for the vision of that which will serve in the highest for all life. We are also asking each of you for your prayers and blessings for manifestation of that which serves. If a miracle is required here, I will certainly hold the space for that to happen.
In Love and Gratitude,
Kachina
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