Coming Awake in the Cycle of Life

Ziji Boombasa's last entry reminded me of a time not too long ago when I was in the process of becoming conscious in the 5th dimension. I had asked in the medicine wheel for assistance from Mother Earth, for her to guide me and help me understand the planetary reality.

Mother Earth responded by bringing me many, many teachings of the medicine wheel. She began to teach me in the moments that I was living, showing me always where I was in the spiraling cycle of life. The four directions mark four distinct parts of this cycle, each with its own energy, as we are experiencing in our journey around the wheel together.

As I was awakening to the guidance of the spirit/Angelic world, I noticed right away that there were conscious and unconscious parts to this cycle. I would be going along, feeling connected in all dimensions, feeling like a spiritual being in a human body, at one with guidance and the higher dimensions; then I would wake up one morning and I could hardly remember how that felt-it was like someone pulled the plug, there was no feeling of connection, no guidance, and even no confirmation that this 5 D world was even real.

By this time in my development, I was so sensitive, that this kind of pain of disconnection was stronger than physical pain. I would plummet into a deep dungeon of despair in my inner world, while holding a strong face in the outer world just to go on with my daily life.

This experience kept repeating over and over again. I began to see that there was truly a cyclic thing going on. One day (when I was really connected), I asked if there was anything I could do about this situation to help myself. The Angels and guides agreed to help me find out.

The first thing they called my attention to was the fact that I was going in and out of consciousness as my personal medicine wheel cycle went into the yin and yang phases. The best they could do for me at that time was to give me an alert right before it was about to happen.

They also encouraged me to grid a special mineral around the house and workspace, with the intention of transmuting all incoming energies that were intentionally created to produce unconsciousness. (I associated this intentional stuff with HARP, but never got a clear read on all of the sources).

WOW-did that make a difference! Every time the guides alerted me to the fact that I was about to "shut down", I did some prayers of gratitude, and set intentions for connection through the yin cycle. Just by knowing ahead of time when it was coming, I was able to start placing intentions and energetic anchors to help me stay connected and begin to wake up in this cycle.

Gradually, I was able to dowse for other people and even receive information for myself all the way through the yin cycle. The instances of shut down became fewer and less intense. Looking back on this stage, I now see that it was a truly valuable stage of integration. That periodic turning off of spiritual energy helped me to connect into all parts of my psyche and body, to bring the light in as soon as it was back on.

The key for me was not to fall into the linear time concept when I was shut down, and think that it was going to be this way for ever and I would never be connected again. I had to bring a new level of trust into the darkness. Gradually it got easier.

Then after a long time of turning through this cycle, something shifted in the ascension process. I suddenly found myself in the center nearly all the time. I was aware of the rhythms and cycles around me, effecting everything from the outside world to my emotions and physical body, but I was now just observing all of that from an unending center of pure connection. This center became stronger and stronger.

My prana tube had expanded to encompass my whole body. I was running primarily vertical energy now instead of running my personal energy horizontally. It was a dramatic shift that changed my whole perspective and experience of life.

And guess what-this change and growth and dynamic perspective shifting never stops! It just keeps going and going. I used to think there was a goal out there, like sooner or later I would be "ascended"and my life would be fixed. The ascended masters always laughed when I projected that image, and now I understand why! I just keep moving to new levels of challenge, responsibility, and fulfillment.

Maybe there is no end to it, and I am now living the goal.

Love and harmony,
Kachina