This morning when I awakened, after participating in an amazing ceremony last nigh with Blue Thunder and the Grandmothers, I received an unexpected gift of the north.
Over two years ago, when we first arrived at White Sage Landing to begin building our home and Medicine Wheel in co-creation, I had noticed many horses in and around our area. The presence of the horses brought up memories from my early life, when I had a deep relationship with horses. There came a time when I had to let them go to move forward in life, and I had felt very complete at the time and simply thanked them and moved on.
I had still remained connected to horses, and received visits from them from time to time in the spirit world. Once in a great while, I would be connected with someone in the physical world who needed assistance in communicating with their horse, and would always do my best to bridge the communication between them, and deliver whatever message was asked with a healing intention.
And when I was once again surrounded by many horses, I felt the need to call upon the horses of my past and acknowledge their beautiful teachings that had been so freely given and rarely understood by me back then. I asked forgiveness for any harm I might have done unconsciously or consciously to them, and I sent to them my love and gratitude.
Now, two years later, while going into the completion of the north direction, I have received the gift of completion from the horse people. I awakened this morning with a dream. In this dream, I was revisiting all of the horses I had ever known in my whole life. There were so many more than I first remembered! Each one showed me something that I had received from them, and I began to see how deeply the horses had influenced every aspect of my life.
One horse I had completely forgotten about, was a horse who was blind in one eye. This horse was a very good cow horse on a ranch in Nebraska. I was visiting this ranch, seeking a horse for competitive trail riding. This ranch was known for its trail savvy horses, but they generally sold only a few horses from their ranch, as most were bred to be cow horses for the cowboys. The only one available to me was the blind in one eye horse, because my budget could not begin to accommodate one of their promising young 2 year olds. For some reason, I decided to purchase the horse.
Several weeks later, the people from the ranch were ready to deliver this horse to us. But when they went to load up the horses, my horse had been struck by lightening while standing in the pasture. He was dead instantly.
The Grandfathers were showing me this image this morning, as I had completely forgotten it. I woke up and told Blue Thunder all about it, including the fact that I received a beautiful 2 year old Arabian horse in its place, for no extra charge. I had never acknowledged the Grandfathers' lightening bolt that changed the course of my life; for the horse that came in place of the blind horse taught me more about life and myself than any other horse in my whole life. In fact, he was the horse that helped me shift my consciousness from separation to connection and equality with all beings.
When I told the story to Blue Thunder, I felt tears running down my face. I had felt like I never was able to give back to the horses the way they had given to me, yet their spirits were all around me now, sending me gratitude! They said I had given back to every being on the planet through my choices to live in co-creation and honor all animals. They showed me that I had actually succeeded in their eyes, that all they gave me has come to a beautiful fruition. I could feel the love and support pouring forth from the horse spirits, and Blue Thunder echoed this by saying, "Why do you think horses always come to talk with you whenever they see you? They are honoring you! They are acknowledging that what you have done has helped all animals, because you help create equal conscious relationship for our Earth and all her beings."
In gratitude and humbleness,
Kachina
