Healing Eruptions

I had a Healing Eruption of the Mt St Helens kind the other night. I decided to eat a bowl of popcorn with regular butter before a class. I haven't eaten that in many months. In the middle of the class, I had to leave abruptly to visit the porcelain god. I had no symptoms of the flu and my 15 minute sojourn was just that - 15 minutes.

I realized a few hours later how exciting it was even though it was not fun! My body had been used to eating the best of real food, and it was letting me know that that kind of monkey business was not acceptable. Explosive as it was, I was celebrating that my body would actually reject that which it could not process well. Is my body vibrating higher? Am I walking over the threshold into a state of vibrant health? Is my body communicating its boundaries? To be continued . . .

I told my friend Earth Song, and she said, "Congratulations!" She was excited for me. The last time someone was excited about my bodily functions was when I was in the hospital and the nurses wouldn't let you go unless -- well you know what that was.

I also have had rashes and burps when a food isn't right for me at this time -- like red peppers. It is also bringing up my thyroid problem again. Yeast just surfaced for a day and a half. I had a mini hot flash of 5 minutes. These are old disease patterns that are exiting my body. I haven't felt this alive in years. There's a spring in my step.

I also wanted to say that Blew Thunder talked about the difference between a healing eruption and a healing crisis in another 90 day class. A healing crisis is when a person has cancer, and the body is fighting for its life. A healing eruption is when the body releases toxins of the bad kind. It's when you are doing something right with your body and the body can do its job of regenerating and rejuvenating in whatever manner it needs to do the job.

My body is singing the color of a Jazzy new Life. There probably will be more healing eruptions but I welcome it as the success of my steps forward to ascension health.

Mist Walker

Little steps, Big steps and all the steps in between

It's beautiful how this journey unfolds everyday and how easy it is to see when you know what to look for. I threw out the rules for this class the day I decided to join as everything I knew was different. I have been going with the flow and catching myself exactly where I need to be and not surprisingly right on track with everyone else. I worked hard in the last 90 day class to follow the rules and watched my husband do little with the rules. Funny thing happened, we both transformed how we were supposed to, neither better or worse. This go around, I am able to allow that truth and have peace with it.

When I read Kathryn's blog about "Action", I thought I wasn't there yet. I feel part of me still in the rhythm of the east with spring only beginning. By the end of that day I had taken two giant steps in action and it wasn't till I was driving home from the second one that I realized once again, I am exactly where I am supposed to be.

In planning for our move, our date to leave Alaska is June 1. The job I am currently in doesn't end till July 1. I had to sign a new contract and instead of just signing it and giving notice later, I wrote a letter of resignation that ends with the school year in May. The second thing I needed to do, the biggest thing to set all of this in motion, was to tell my ex husband that we are moving(we still share children). Steve and I asked him and his wife to dinner, told them the news and let him know that we were open to letting the kids decide. It was clear there was emotion but the conversation went easy and felt right. All that is left now is monetary things and we are on our way.

I am so grateful for the awakening of the new, the action to move forward and the reminders that come from the connections with all. Thank you all for sharing your stories and for the presence and energy expressed through this group.

I am also thankful for the new passion red Vitamix that showed up yesterday. WoooHooo!

Michelle

Happy Girl

Its spring time in Alaska, Yeah! This last winter was especially long for me because I wasn't in a space of resonance with the cold and slow-pace that comes naturally to that time of year. I have been in the cocoon stage for a while now and I have been feeling very ready to burst out of my cocoon and step into the world with my new wings and gift of flight. With this internal timing lining up with the natural energy of spring and birthing new ideas, new life and leaving behind those things that no longer serve, I am ready to seize the day!
I have begun cleaning out my closet and removing those things that hold physical and energetic "attachment" energies but that I no longer have any need for. Clothes, memorabilia, even some rocks and crystals that are letting me know are ready to move onto the next phase of their journey, books and other "junk" to me at this point but a huge gift to someone else. I am putting into action the exercise of Kathryn's blog, the one of letting go of attachment to the way I think it should be before I can truly live my purpose and have been using my affirmations of what I am desiring to create in the present moment with the task at hand. It is proving to be quite powerful and filling me with the sense of connection and purpose while I do the regular mundane seeming things of my daily life. I am amazed at how just that simple change in consciousness can turn the dreaded task of cleaning out the closet, uggg into cleaning out the closet, look what I am making room for in my life and because of that I am on-purpose! Amazing.
My financial situation in terms of the number of $ in my bank account hasn't changed much but I am no longer stressing about it and I truly feel more abundant then ever!
I am grateful for every thing in my life and more conscious and aware of it then I ever was before when I could buy what I wanted when I wanted. Now, I pay attention to what is available to me in this moment and how the universe assists me in having all my needs met. Every time I go into the fear I am forced to stop and come into the present moment and what I see before me is so beautiful! Not once has my fear been realized, every time I stop and look, all the blessings of my life are still there and I realize I have nothing to fear! It has actually become fun and exciting to watch things unfold and manifest. I have spent my last dollar twice now and amazingly each time within a day or so some money happens to find its way too me, this experience is in a very deep way teaching me so much about trust and letting go and for that I am very grateful.
I have, also just this last week, for some reason fallen behind in the book but I made a commitment to myself that this time around (my third 90 day) I would finish the book and I fully intend to.
For now I can see all the zig-zags of my desires, intentions, hopes, dreams, things I still need to work through and things I need to let go of, scattered about not yet ready to fully align but for me for now that is exactly perfect and I can walk through this phase with more presence, patience and trust then ever before.
A new door has opened, a new chapter begun and all I can say is hallelujah spring has sprung!

Breakdown to Break Through

So many thoughts are going through my head. Years ago I raised my hand to be of service. And right now I am challenged as to what to talk about. This 90 day program is all about choice. And I know for me this container makes me be more accountable for myself. When I have the magnifying glass on myself-the last f-cking thing I want to do, is bring light to it and share it with others!

You know I still have the days where I try to self-sabotage myself, and where I wonder how this is all going to work. But by going through it so many times now, I can catch it and not have to act on it. And surrender with the idea that, "don't give up 5 seconds before the miracle!"

And some of the tools that I use to get past that day, might be to put my feet up and let go of things, engage in a conversation with my wife about what I am feeling; and sometimes that takes more than a day to get to the level 0f pain. Sometimes it might be a Blue Road Healing; sometimes it is just that I am wound so tight, I just need to take the day off. And sometimes I just need to eat some good food. Instead of a 12/60 "sick day", it is a 13/260 "well day", and I give myself permission to take the day off.

What is really amazing is that 2 days, a week, a month down the road, I can't even remember what was so significant about that day that threw me so off course. And that only came to be by talking about those events WHEN THEY CAME UP, and not allowing them to become suppressed and go dormant again.

And look at it this way; if you were to get a sliver in your hand, would'nt you go to all means to remove it at the first opportunity? And that is because we can feel it festering at the time. Left undone, eventually that sliver wouldn't fester any more, but it would still be there.

Unlike the physical sliver, where the body can reabsorb it, emotional and mental festering just goes dormant only to return again and again. It can unconsciously control our lives and keep us from going where we want to go.

Kathryn and I have the intention to talk about the things that are blogged about and offer any assistance we can through this medium. Only when we offer the things that are going on for us, will there be an opportunity to address this-and it will help everyone (since we are not so unique as we all like to think). By blogging, we can take advantage of the opportunity of the door that is open.

I had the opportunity back in the early 1990s to work with a man named Richard Brooks, a self-made multi millionaire. He always talked about how we have to go through break down to get to break through. And that is the only difference between being satisfied and unsatisfied in life.

I send my blessings to each and every one of us, and hold a vision of break through for all of us! Aho mitaqueye oyasin.

Blewww Thunder

Surrender

Hey, is anyone else struggling with keeping up? I am now at least a week behind in the journal. (I am doing my affirmations in the mirror though). Just so you don't get down on yourself, I want you all to know that I have only been able to stay in synchronicity with the journal two out of the four times I have completed this program.

And I still had an amazing completion and shift in consciousness through this program, whether I finished the journal or not. Just in case anyone out there is having to surrender some aspect of the routine, know that you are not alone!!!

And speaking of surrender, today Michael and I awakened to a mass of big, beautiful snowflakes falling down. Every time it snows, I get a little giddy inside. Most people around here have almost forgotten the stress of a 20 year drought. Now they want summer to come, they want heat.

I now have the most profound experience of changing the weather pattern, and bringing water and precipitation back to a depleted area of Mother Earth. Since last October when we set the Mayan rain crystals in 4 directions and visualized a pyramid shaped etheric mountain over the local area, we have been experiencing an abundance of precipitation. The drought is so over now. And everything is coming to life!

So the two of us are surrendering today, as there won't be any work going on outside. Once again it is a day for R and R, after a crazy/busy day yesterday. First thing in the morning we had gotten up and started checking and boxing the essential oils order that we make every couple of months.

Then we heard this wild honking outside-a pickup truck was barreling up the driveway. It was a woman named Zelda. She and her cousin Lana had come out to try and get another bottle of oil that I gave her several weeks ago.

She had injured her knee stepping off a ladder. She is probably in her early 60's but has the energy of a 20 year old-always going, going, going. She was trying everything the doctors could do for her; steroids, anti-inflammatories, pain pills, and physical therapy. Nothing was working. And Zelma can not sit still for 5 minutes without going into a funk!

So I gave her a small bottle of essential oils blend and told her how to wrap it with saran wrap every night. I told her she could pay me $15.00 when I saw her again. Then the next day Michael and I left for Mesa Arizona to visit my family. I sort of forgot about the whole thing.

Well yesterday when she came out of the car, she was still limping a lot. But the oil had taken much of the swelling out and she was asking for more, saying that it was the only thing that was working of all the things she had tried. So before she left, Michale and I showed her how to get back into her leg, and put her weight on the foot again, and how to walk consciously with energy moving through the foot instead of withdrawing from it.

By the time Zelma left, she was walking with very little limp. The doctors wanted her to have surgery, and I have a little feeling that that is not going to happen! Oh, did I mention- two days before this, I ended up distilling all my affirmations into one "I am ready!" Then 2 days later Zelma shows up asking for help, Hmmm could it be connected?

I have been very conscious of keeping the local awareness of us and what we have to offer on a very low profile. But now that the book is printed, it seems like it is time to let the floodgates open. (I am imagining a gentle and balanced flow).

Thank you all for walking with me through the fire of the South. You are so loved.

Kachina