Friday, February 19
More Metal, Wood, and Water
For a wood element archetype, this being associated with the liver, the form of imbalance is generally created through excess rather than depletion. It can fool us and look like the symptoms of depletion, because if it becomes chronic, over years of time, excessive enegy will result in a burn out like depletion. This often creates physical symptoms associated with a congested liver, such as skin issues, breakouts, hardening or inflexibility in muscles and tendons, emotional upsets, eye issues and poor eyesight, to name a few.
Wood's restricting element is metal, so when a wood's energy is out of balance, it will show up in a metal form: Paying too much attention to what others think, and being overfocused on detail. Alternatively, the way to restore balance for the over-doing wood, is to turn toward the nourishing element: Water. Water pursuits-developing spirituality and cultivating ease and gentleness in life, will restore balance and regenerate the wood element. An interesting example of this is happening in the sports world right now, and his name is Tiger Woods. In November, Tiger experienced an event that was triggered by many years of excessive behavior. His family, partnership, and golfing career were suddenly placed on the line because of this excess in his life. Today, Tiger came out of seclusion to announce that he was changing his ways, and going back into his Buddhist practice, as he had let go of it for some time. This is the exact illustration of a wood element person restoring balance in his life! (Thanks to Blew Thunder who follows the sports world and gives me updates!
Now lets look ar metal archetypes. Metals are associated with the lungs and large intestine. When they are out of balance, it is usually caused by a state of overwhelm that results in retention of toxicity in the body, and/or respiratory system issues. Over long periods of time, symptoms can develop into more chronic conditions such as asthma and colon cancer.
When metals are out of balance, they reflect the restricting fire element, becoming scattered and distracted, or acting on every impulse. The way back into balance is to look toward the nourishing element, earth. Drawing attention back into their own center and creating balance in the world around them is imperative to restoring a metal's balance.
The water element is associated with kidneys and bladder. With this element, depletion is usually the cause of imbalance. Depleted kidney energy is considered by Chinese medicine to be the cause of all aging. This usually creates symptoms associated with kidneys, such as swelling and edema, lower back pain, decaying teeth, loss of hair, hearing loss, pain or injury in feet and legs, pelvic issues and reproductive system issues.
The water element out of balance will appear as a restricting earth element. Loss of the self in others-getting caught up in the emotional lives of others to the extent of losing ourselves; feeling powerless in life, and perceiving victimization all around are issues.
To restore balance, a water must turn to the nourishing element of Metal, and re-establish boundaries and attend to the details in order to restore balance.
Tomorrow is Saturday, and I will likely not be blogging again until Monday morning. Just in case-have a beautiful couple of days, enjoy the process (and the juices!)
Kachina
It is a scary place to be being full on confronted by what you fear most by the people you love most who are simply doing their job of self-reflection. So yes I am scared because I don't know what any of this was for. I don't know how to take all that I've gathered and turn it into something beautiful that I can be proud of and inspired by. I don't know if this was simply an experience of the other end of the pendulum out of balance. From overworked to under-worked and now I have to find my way to a happy medium. Does that mean getting a job to support me while I attempt to follow my heart? Maybe. I know I have to be open to whatever it is that is meant to be but I also have to be willing to make something happen for myself in spite of the anxiety and fear I feel. So now I ask myself yet again "Where is your heart, what is it you want to create with all that you've gathered? Attempting to feel into my body for the answer, for the knowing of the next move. The only thing I'm sure of is I must silence the internal and external voices that reek shrilly of fear and urgency. For tomorrow is a myth and today is the gift so really all I need to ask myself is what can I do today? What can I do today? WHAT can I do today!?
back in my body
just figuring this out the blog... Hi! Who's out there?!
I started my 90-day Jan 7 but later received guidance to join the blog. I am doing my last palace, the Health Wealth and Prosperity palace. I did a 2 week core fast then a 9 day juice fast. Then focussing on liver and kidney healing eating lots of hard dark leafy greens, seaweeds, juice, miso, soft round beans, vegetables, winter squash, less grains than usual and a few roots roots.
I have done a lot of guided ceremony since my 90-day started. I am doing a lot of work on my prana tube. My cat Leela told Rebecca that my prana tube has a disconnect at the heart and she was right! I guess she can stay. Kathryn found out I had a buried contract here. It turned out to be with my late husband. I have done a ceremony to acknowledge and express gratitude for his service, call an end to the contract and stated the intention that I choose to experience the full flow of prana energy now. Last night some angels told me I needed to nourish myself with a massage. Yes! I asked if it was with Linda Gill and I got yes. So today Linda helped me make a clear open connection and flow of prana.
OK, I posted. Now I hope to find all of you.
with love,
Liz
Confessions from an old wooden desk…
You know those words that are written just a tad too hard? The ones indented on the surface, overlapping, just enough to make them out one by one but trying to put them together to make any sense is close to impossible? If you look close enough, that is my surface. Scarred from the past with words I can’t quite make out; emotions I can’t quite pin-point; memories I can’t quite remember. But they are there, scratches on my surface waiting to fade away with age or use or just forgotten about.
This is a hard place to be…to feel these things but not quite know where they all came from or what to do with them. Do I buff them out and hope not to lose originality? Re-surface and hide what was there? Sell out and find a more resilient surface that can “take it”? On the other hand, are these words what makes me, me? Original, creative, caring, self-driven, spiritual, loving, healing, understanding…
It is interesting because most days I don’t even know they are there. I am happy and satisfied in many aspects of my life. Comparatively, I feel more sane and collected then the majority of the people I am surrounded by in this crazy, beautiful world. But there is this tinge of self-doubt seeking approval…a tinge of non-forgiveness dug in, right there on the surface.
So I begin this journey with intentions to move forward. Past the scars of the past that prick my skin, past the self-doubt that circles my mind, past the un-forgiveness that brings water to my eyes. Through and past it all to come out on the other end with a renewed respect for the surfaces that make up who I am and what I represent.
My Palace focus is Relationship…I choose to heal my relationship with myself and with the ones closest to me that may hold a pencil from long ago. But it is not a time to point fingers with blame but to let it go and let it fade…with acknowledgement and time I move forward over the peaks and valleys of my surface to a serene comfortable place where the past is the past and the future is beautiful and full of light.
love and gratitude
I am taking the time to pray over all of my meals, giving thanks to the creator(my word), nature spirits, ancestors, etc.. I admire the roots, vegetables, fruits, herbs, and give thanks for all of their nutritional, medicinal, and lifeforce energy. I consciously ask that I be open and receptive to the nutritional, medicinal, emotional and spiritual benefits of each meal. I give thanks and love to my physical body as it is the only one I will have in this lifetime. I give thanks to my higher self, wisdom of my body, and my spirit guides. I also ask that I be connected more fully to my higher self.
I am further reminded of the beauty and importance that there is in prayer, ritual and ceremony. Thank you Kathryn, Michael, and everyone else for bringing this back into my life...
I am also beginning to peel the onion in my journal work. As I connect with the unity cd, my higher self, wisdom of my body, and spirit guides I am slowly starting to uncover the underlying truths. I have a difficult time letting go of and holding on to old wounds, judgement, guilt, and grudges. I am working on gratitude for all living things. For too many years I took the path of least resistance, afraid to rock the boat, realize my potential, or even take responsibility for my actions.
It is my intention that this journey will slowly unravel and dissolve my old patterns, beliefs, and emotional scar tissue (that are weighing me down)as I begin to lighten up and fill myself with love and gratitude.
In love and gratitude,
Blessing Willow
An Amazing Four Days
I'm so grateful to be a part of this tremendous group. I'll keep my blog on the brief side, though a lot has happened for all of us these past four days. I must say in reading everyone's blog that I find parts of myself in most everyone's blog. Thank you very much to all of you for your sharing. As they say, the sum is greater than the sum of its parts. Don't think I said it quite right, but you know what I mean. This is going to be "BIG" for "ALL of US", for which I (we) am (are) most grateful!!!
Monday, I broke in my new juicer, opening a new world for myself. I love potatoes and the roots, so that is going well. It felt strange not to be taking my fist full of vitamin supplements, a habit of years. The next thought being, "wouldn't it be nice not to have to take all those supplements any longer???" What other habits of years do I need to reexamine?
Tuesday I joined K & M and Joni at 8:11 Hawaiian time, out on Kepuhi Beach, singing the Ancestor song (only one I know so far) to all that was around. Shortly thereafter while in my room, I ran back to the beach to see the humpback whales who appeared close to the shore. A mother humpback whale had given birth to her calf at this beach the previous week and they were back nursing. Was delightful watching mom roll on her side waving her long white flipper, as if to say hello. Later that day a ladybug appeared on my driver side car window as I was going to the post office to pick up Leslie's Earth weaving bundles, to be placed in sacred places around the Islands. I'm presently in Molokai, by myself, on my self healing journey.
Wednesday was our Intentions' day. Sunset is an important ceremonial time here in the Hawaiian Islands. Thus it was the time I chose to do my sacred intentions cedar fire ceremony. I
chose a secluded beach (not hard to find on this island), not far away. After welcoming everyone
and lighting the fire in the sand pit, surrounded by volcanic lava stones, reading and burning my intentions for our 90 day class, a gecko chirped, which it does when it hears truth. I was attending to my fire while I was once again singing the Ancestor song, tapping on the rocks with a tree stick, I glanced up from my fire to the sky and was totally amazed to see it filled with the Pleiadian cloud ships, the same as we observed at White Sage Landing last October. I gave great thanks for their attendance. The entire experience was deeply moving, to say the least, as is
our group experience of this class. My deepest thanks and appreciation to Kathryn and Michael and to all of you for what is to come from our tremendous group experience. Love and Blessings to All. With much Aloha, Annette/Golden Buffalo Heart