So many thoughts are going through my head. Years ago I raised my hand to be of service. And right now I am challenged as to what to talk about. This 90 day program is all about choice. And I know for me this container makes me be more accountable for myself. When I have the magnifying glass on myself-the last f-cking thing I want to do, is bring light to it and share it with others!
You know I still have the days where I try to self-sabotage myself, and where I wonder how this is all going to work. But by going through it so many times now, I can catch it and not have to act on it. And surrender with the idea that, "don't give up 5 seconds before the miracle!"
And some of the tools that I use to get past that day, might be to put my feet up and let go of things, engage in a conversation with my wife about what I am feeling; and sometimes that takes more than a day to get to the level 0f pain. Sometimes it might be a Blue Road Healing; sometimes it is just that I am wound so tight, I just need to take the day off. And sometimes I just need to eat some good food. Instead of a 12/60 "sick day", it is a 13/260 "well day", and I give myself permission to take the day off.
What is really amazing is that 2 days, a week, a month down the road, I can't even remember what was so significant about that day that threw me so off course. And that only came to be by talking about those events WHEN THEY CAME UP, and not allowing them to become suppressed and go dormant again.
And look at it this way; if you were to get a sliver in your hand, would'nt you go to all means to remove it at the first opportunity? And that is because we can feel it festering at the time. Left undone, eventually that sliver wouldn't fester any more, but it would still be there.
Unlike the physical sliver, where the body can reabsorb it, emotional and mental festering just goes dormant only to return again and again. It can unconsciously control our lives and keep us from going where we want to go.
Kathryn and I have the intention to talk about the things that are blogged about and offer any assistance we can through this medium. Only when we offer the things that are going on for us, will there be an opportunity to address this-and it will help everyone (since we are not so unique as we all like to think). By blogging, we can take advantage of the opportunity of the door that is open.
I had the opportunity back in the early 1990s to work with a man named Richard Brooks, a self-made multi millionaire. He always talked about how we have to go through break down to get to break through. And that is the only difference between being satisfied and unsatisfied in life.
I send my blessings to each and every one of us, and hold a vision of break through for all of us! Aho mitaqueye oyasin.
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