Clearly this process is amazing. Realizations are flowing through me faster than they ever have. I'm stepping into the real me, the Authentic ME. Yesterday I woke up not ready to get up but did anyway because the longer I roll around the more frustrated I get. I prayed as my eyes opened -which is a new daily event- and walked downstairs. I could feel this dark, sorry for myself, energy that has been so familiar for so long. It was the victim, the ego, the "point the finger" energy I've had for so long. I can now distinguish between the two energies clearly. "Ready" I say to myself "to let this go." I prayed, I did a blue road healing, I consentrated on a quote, and stepped into this dark energy- as myself. It was clear that I was lighting up the darkness through the grace of Great Spirit. I continued to pray throughout the day and finally it turned off-disappeared as if it were never there. I think it was a test from my guides. I have always given up with healing myself. Always asking for help but never taking it, standing in my own way. Side note my wife got me a book by Rudolf Steiner entitled "Start Now" (not sure you could be more obvious) and in that book there was one line in particular that stuck out to me "the quote"... Steadfastness stands higher than any success. So here I am receiving this huge gift late in the afternoon. I learned how to receive yesterday. By the end of the night I was dancing in the living room with my wife and kids. I have never danced with them, always been too shy - too in my own way. Allowing huge gifts of freedom -freedom from this dark entity- to pass into me has become easier. I'm willing to accept ME, and that is beautiful. My intention is to continue on this new EASIER path and acknowledging the Authentic ME. Thank you for this journey Kachina and Blew Thunder. By the way I have kept up with the book and instead of it feeling like a chore it has become something I look forward to everyday.
In Gratitude
Eagle Eye
