Steve called me from his far away from home job and as he was sharing, I was smiling. It's a given that within a group and sharing there is common issues, feelings, revelations, etc. This is "given" as something I understand. What is amazing, yet not surprising, is how those who are connected to us as we travel this wheel in the 90 day course, travel right along with us. Steve is not part of this blog but still very much in sync with this group. It was a quick thought when I signed up and he didn't, "what will that mean for us as a couple and family, knowing the power of what the 90 days has in store". As it should be, we are doing it together. Fantastic.
I spent this day in a co-creation gardening class which was much more like a coming home than a class. At the end of the day the nature spirits swept me up in a nature hammock and said take a nap. Oh the joy of living in harmony and the magic all around.
Co-creation is everywhere and in everything, even when we don't see it right away.
THANK YOU!!!!
Michelle
Sunday, April 11
Saturday, April 10
Expanding Co-creation
I am feeling the shift in the energies. I feel the energy increasing for physical work. My challenge this season could and would be about creating more balance. It is so sneaky for me-finding balance!
Kathryn and I just completed a big hurdle in blowing in the insulation of the ceiling downstairs that had to be done before we could move forward. I wasn't really looking forward to it because it was going to be so messy! Now that job is complete.
A very interesting experience came from it. We had to drive 130 miles one way to return the insulation blower back to Lowe's in Saint George Utah. On our way there, we usually buy our gas in Mocasin, because it is a reservation and we don't have to pay gas tax on it. Currently 39 cents a gallon cheaper than local area.
While in line to pay for the gas, I saw two women who had driven 150 miles one way to purchase 6 cartons of cigarettes, she paid $250.00. She told me the local cigarettes with taxes, would have cost over $600.00 for the same amount.
For me, I thanked the two women for reminding me of the gratitude I had for finally letting go of cigarettes about 8 years ago. They both wished that they could quit. So in the co-creative essence of the exchange, I got to share with them how I had the desire released from me. It ended up being pretty cool, because neither of them had ever heard of doing it that way.
The real gift came for me to see the power of a ceiling. I saw how I stayed stuck in my own evolution until the ceiling started to be revealed and the denial left. I could now deal with the substance one on one. Most importantly, breaking the illusion of it "being okay", It would no longer have an effect on me raising my frequency. I finally became aware of the cost of my denial.
The greatest gift I see in coming together as a whole or a group or a circle, is the wisdom that each one of us brings. Yesterday one of the local guys that we have really developed a fond relationship with is a Master mechanic(among other things). I had asked him for assistance with our bobcat excavator.
So Sandy came out at 9 am with his trailer, we loaded up "Skippy" the bobcat, and took it into his shop. We just had a wonderful time repairing and giving TLC to Skippy to increase his longevity. Sandy showed me ways to assist in maintaining it.
In the past, I would have felt like I needed to buy all these tools and buy the maintenance books and do it all myself. Because it wasn't okay to ask, among other reasons.
I would have missed out on a great day, with a wonderful man. This great man's wife has some physical challenges that we in turn might assist them with. My point being, in co-creation, we get to draw on the group from all of their strengths. This raises the level of each of us, like Michelle asking if any animal communicators have any ideas (Thank you).
"Together what we could not do alone!"
Blew Thunder
Kathryn and I just completed a big hurdle in blowing in the insulation of the ceiling downstairs that had to be done before we could move forward. I wasn't really looking forward to it because it was going to be so messy! Now that job is complete.
A very interesting experience came from it. We had to drive 130 miles one way to return the insulation blower back to Lowe's in Saint George Utah. On our way there, we usually buy our gas in Mocasin, because it is a reservation and we don't have to pay gas tax on it. Currently 39 cents a gallon cheaper than local area.
While in line to pay for the gas, I saw two women who had driven 150 miles one way to purchase 6 cartons of cigarettes, she paid $250.00. She told me the local cigarettes with taxes, would have cost over $600.00 for the same amount.
For me, I thanked the two women for reminding me of the gratitude I had for finally letting go of cigarettes about 8 years ago. They both wished that they could quit. So in the co-creative essence of the exchange, I got to share with them how I had the desire released from me. It ended up being pretty cool, because neither of them had ever heard of doing it that way.
The real gift came for me to see the power of a ceiling. I saw how I stayed stuck in my own evolution until the ceiling started to be revealed and the denial left. I could now deal with the substance one on one. Most importantly, breaking the illusion of it "being okay", It would no longer have an effect on me raising my frequency. I finally became aware of the cost of my denial.
The greatest gift I see in coming together as a whole or a group or a circle, is the wisdom that each one of us brings. Yesterday one of the local guys that we have really developed a fond relationship with is a Master mechanic(among other things). I had asked him for assistance with our bobcat excavator.
So Sandy came out at 9 am with his trailer, we loaded up "Skippy" the bobcat, and took it into his shop. We just had a wonderful time repairing and giving TLC to Skippy to increase his longevity. Sandy showed me ways to assist in maintaining it.
In the past, I would have felt like I needed to buy all these tools and buy the maintenance books and do it all myself. Because it wasn't okay to ask, among other reasons.
I would have missed out on a great day, with a wonderful man. This great man's wife has some physical challenges that we in turn might assist them with. My point being, in co-creation, we get to draw on the group from all of their strengths. This raises the level of each of us, like Michelle asking if any animal communicators have any ideas (Thank you).
"Together what we could not do alone!"
Blew Thunder
Friday, April 9
Gratitude for the sharing
I glanced at the calendar and saw that this was a portal day. Two days ago the thought came through to do a blue road healing, a big one on this entire house. It left as quickly as it came. The reminder today was a blessing, thank you Kathryn. I did one immediately after reading and felt an intense tingling up my spine and through the back of my head. I drummed and toned for at least a half of an hour. This will need to happen daily here.
Detachment from emotion is an on and off thing for me. I am consumed by the emotions and have zero control then I have no emotional reaction at all. It's fun to experience the shifts.
The view is so much more magnificent than I have ever seen before. Driving to work each day I see the mountains and all their splendor. This last week they have been really jumping out of the scene as well as the birds. Three times today, planes took off over head and I swear they were flying lower than ever before. The last one cast a huge shadow over the car while I was driving and both Trysten and I were caught in the awe of it. WOW!
The animals who reside within our family are behaving very strangely, they have for awhile but it's getting more intense. I feel like all three of them are glued to me. When I put up the gate to keep them upstairs they fight to see who can lay the closest to the gate when I am downstairs. I am tripping over them and they are consistently trying to be in my space, on top of me, licking me and fighting over me. Hmmmm. Animal communicators, do you have any ideas????
A couple of weeks ago I was in a public sauna and there were some other people in there as well. I sat there with closed eyes and started to feel swirling energy, grey and heavy. Normally I would begin to filter, pick up and engage in some way. This time I saw Lynx walk through though the door, she looked at me and said, it's time to go and I got up and walked out. This is still resonating within me and I am very grateful for this assistance and clarity and how easy it is to trust without question.
Doors are opening and saying YES where I would normally hesitate is proving to pave a new path. Opportunity is everywhere when my eyes and ears are open. I see the dream in everything and everywhere.
A few days ago I read something: "You are already a light weaver". I reflected on how much time I dedicate to becoming and how I am already.
In another reading I heard, "I am another you and you are another me". How easily I find myself in love instead of judgement in allowing this message to penetrate my being.
Action through fear is creating my presence in the now as I have considered it the future.
To all of you for sharing and for connection and presence in this circle, I am Grateful.
Aho
Michelle
Detachment from emotion is an on and off thing for me. I am consumed by the emotions and have zero control then I have no emotional reaction at all. It's fun to experience the shifts.
The view is so much more magnificent than I have ever seen before. Driving to work each day I see the mountains and all their splendor. This last week they have been really jumping out of the scene as well as the birds. Three times today, planes took off over head and I swear they were flying lower than ever before. The last one cast a huge shadow over the car while I was driving and both Trysten and I were caught in the awe of it. WOW!
The animals who reside within our family are behaving very strangely, they have for awhile but it's getting more intense. I feel like all three of them are glued to me. When I put up the gate to keep them upstairs they fight to see who can lay the closest to the gate when I am downstairs. I am tripping over them and they are consistently trying to be in my space, on top of me, licking me and fighting over me. Hmmmm. Animal communicators, do you have any ideas????
A couple of weeks ago I was in a public sauna and there were some other people in there as well. I sat there with closed eyes and started to feel swirling energy, grey and heavy. Normally I would begin to filter, pick up and engage in some way. This time I saw Lynx walk through though the door, she looked at me and said, it's time to go and I got up and walked out. This is still resonating within me and I am very grateful for this assistance and clarity and how easy it is to trust without question.
Doors are opening and saying YES where I would normally hesitate is proving to pave a new path. Opportunity is everywhere when my eyes and ears are open. I see the dream in everything and everywhere.
A few days ago I read something: "You are already a light weaver". I reflected on how much time I dedicate to becoming and how I am already.
In another reading I heard, "I am another you and you are another me". How easily I find myself in love instead of judgement in allowing this message to penetrate my being.
Action through fear is creating my presence in the now as I have considered it the future.
To all of you for sharing and for connection and presence in this circle, I am Grateful.
Aho
Michelle
Blue Road Healing
This morning I awakened with a dream that felt chaotic, as if something had stirred up the bottom of the pond. Michael awakened at the same time with some painful spots in his body. Then we realized that today is the second of 2 Portal days in the Mayan Dreamspell calender. These are the best days to assist in the journey for souls, energies, entities, etc. to return home.
We both realized that we had done a lot of disruptive construction over the past couple of days, filling all the cavities in our ceiling with recycled cellulose fiber insulation. Over the years, we have found that whenever there is disruption or deconstruction on the physical level, we almost always notice that spirits or entities connected with those spaces surface into our awareness. Many times, such as today, they are ready to go home.
We called upon the Archangel Michael and asked for his facilitation in relocating these beings. First the one that was stationed in Michael's physical body left, along with the painful spots. Then I felt something leave my emotional body, as if a dark cloud lifted. Finally I "saw" a huge number of human souls gathering around the medicine wheel, also asking to go home.
I saw them leave inside a huge beam of magenta colored light. As they were going, my own guides said to me, "Their contracts are over. They have been here for 13,000 years and now they are going home."
In a little while, I plan to smudge the whole house, medicine wheel, and general area. I know that when I am in the west is often when Blue Road Healing is helpful and necessary. The signals often show up as a deep plunge in our sense of well-being or mood. Sometimes they show up as cravings, unwanted thoughts and desires, or emotional or physical pain.
About eight years ago, I went through a time when I could not seem to keep clear. Every contact I had with people outside of DiamondHeart, and sometimes even just walking around outside, I would "pick up" a hitch-hiker in my energy field and have to do a Blue Road Healing, sometime every day. Every time I tried to set up protective energy fields or program for instantaneous transfer of all energies seeking home, I found that the programs just would not hold.
I felt like my life was going to be about clearing energies, and I just finally surrendered to the whole thing. I accepted that I was a sponge for these beings and maybe it would never be any other way. My choices seemed to be avoidance of life OR constant time in ceremony.
Then in a few short months, I began to see a different perspective. I realized that this was a gift and a blessing from spirit. I was being shown, over and over, how I attract these spirit energies into my field, through judgment and victimization. Just the slightest wobble of judgment in my mental field can open a whole for unconscious spirit energies to come in. Once inside my field, they try to stay hidden (and they are very good at it!) so they can stimulate emotional responses that I think are my own. They feed off of the emotional energy that is generated. This is what parasites do.
It is up to us to wake up and see what is affecting us, to reclaim our mental/emotional health and stability, and just say "I see you and you can not stay here any longer. How can I assist you in going home?"
The next Portal day is coming up on the 28th of April. It is also a Pacal Votan day, a day of connecting with the evolutionary intentions of our Mother Earth and the whole galaxy. Michael and I will be doing a Blue Road Healing that day, and ask all of you to join us if it resonates with truth for you.
Love and Blessings,
Kachina
We both realized that we had done a lot of disruptive construction over the past couple of days, filling all the cavities in our ceiling with recycled cellulose fiber insulation. Over the years, we have found that whenever there is disruption or deconstruction on the physical level, we almost always notice that spirits or entities connected with those spaces surface into our awareness. Many times, such as today, they are ready to go home.
We called upon the Archangel Michael and asked for his facilitation in relocating these beings. First the one that was stationed in Michael's physical body left, along with the painful spots. Then I felt something leave my emotional body, as if a dark cloud lifted. Finally I "saw" a huge number of human souls gathering around the medicine wheel, also asking to go home.
I saw them leave inside a huge beam of magenta colored light. As they were going, my own guides said to me, "Their contracts are over. They have been here for 13,000 years and now they are going home."
In a little while, I plan to smudge the whole house, medicine wheel, and general area. I know that when I am in the west is often when Blue Road Healing is helpful and necessary. The signals often show up as a deep plunge in our sense of well-being or mood. Sometimes they show up as cravings, unwanted thoughts and desires, or emotional or physical pain.
About eight years ago, I went through a time when I could not seem to keep clear. Every contact I had with people outside of DiamondHeart, and sometimes even just walking around outside, I would "pick up" a hitch-hiker in my energy field and have to do a Blue Road Healing, sometime every day. Every time I tried to set up protective energy fields or program for instantaneous transfer of all energies seeking home, I found that the programs just would not hold.
I felt like my life was going to be about clearing energies, and I just finally surrendered to the whole thing. I accepted that I was a sponge for these beings and maybe it would never be any other way. My choices seemed to be avoidance of life OR constant time in ceremony.
Then in a few short months, I began to see a different perspective. I realized that this was a gift and a blessing from spirit. I was being shown, over and over, how I attract these spirit energies into my field, through judgment and victimization. Just the slightest wobble of judgment in my mental field can open a whole for unconscious spirit energies to come in. Once inside my field, they try to stay hidden (and they are very good at it!) so they can stimulate emotional responses that I think are my own. They feed off of the emotional energy that is generated. This is what parasites do.
It is up to us to wake up and see what is affecting us, to reclaim our mental/emotional health and stability, and just say "I see you and you can not stay here any longer. How can I assist you in going home?"
The next Portal day is coming up on the 28th of April. It is also a Pacal Votan day, a day of connecting with the evolutionary intentions of our Mother Earth and the whole galaxy. Michael and I will be doing a Blue Road Healing that day, and ask all of you to join us if it resonates with truth for you.
Love and Blessings,
Kachina
Thursday, April 8
Lets see what comes out?
Connecting in, I'm rolling my eyes and feeling somewhat blah. Wanting, wanting something but don't don't know what? On the cusp, the edge, frozen, still, sitting there enjoying the view from the top, looking at the long way down. I can only see about halfway down before the view disappears and goes black. The air feels more amazing then air on my skin has ever felt before, the smell of the wind is a more delicious then I ever remember it smelling and the view, to attempt to describe it would only belittle its magnificence. I feel as though all my senses are heightened like a constant scurry of bugs on my skin, I feel so much its almost as if the feeling itself passes right through me and I am cover with chills and goose bums from the inside out.
I want to cry with relief because all these years I thought I could feel and now to experience feeling in this way, I am so happy! I cry for my past self, I cry for others who have yet to feel and allow themselves this experience of the pureness of true joy, that is the simplest yet most illusive place, the present moment.
The tears fall and I sit inside myself watching, I'm not even me? It's befuddling because in this new place the revelation that I am not me affects not only those things that no longer serve but also those things that I love dearly and hold close to my heart.
Non-attachment can really feel like not caring because it is the exact opposite of what we are conditioned to feel. So I step lightly checking and double checking myself to be sure that just because I am non-attached doesn't mean that I don't care it just means that my trust in the divine order and brilliance of the universe is solidified inside of me and because of that simple knowing I am forever abundant.
I trust that all things "good and bad" are exactly what they are for a reason!
Even if in this moment the reason, which it currently is, is unknown to me.
I stay here willingly now because I know someday I will look back and say "that was an amazing lesson, I am so glad I went through that."
I don't want to have to look back anymore and say "I wish I had stayed present for that lesson or period of time in my life, where has my life gone?"
My reverence for life and all that entails is so grand and mindboggling that I wonder where I have been all this time. It doesn't even matter because I am here now and Oh My God, it was so worth the wait!
I want to cry with relief because all these years I thought I could feel and now to experience feeling in this way, I am so happy! I cry for my past self, I cry for others who have yet to feel and allow themselves this experience of the pureness of true joy, that is the simplest yet most illusive place, the present moment.
The tears fall and I sit inside myself watching, I'm not even me? It's befuddling because in this new place the revelation that I am not me affects not only those things that no longer serve but also those things that I love dearly and hold close to my heart.
Non-attachment can really feel like not caring because it is the exact opposite of what we are conditioned to feel. So I step lightly checking and double checking myself to be sure that just because I am non-attached doesn't mean that I don't care it just means that my trust in the divine order and brilliance of the universe is solidified inside of me and because of that simple knowing I am forever abundant.
I trust that all things "good and bad" are exactly what they are for a reason!
Even if in this moment the reason, which it currently is, is unknown to me.
I stay here willingly now because I know someday I will look back and say "that was an amazing lesson, I am so glad I went through that."
I don't want to have to look back anymore and say "I wish I had stayed present for that lesson or period of time in my life, where has my life gone?"
My reverence for life and all that entails is so grand and mindboggling that I wonder where I have been all this time. It doesn't even matter because I am here now and Oh My God, it was so worth the wait!
The secret message in meat and life's many rebellions
First of all. it's been a while... I have been a bit rebellious lately, against my will! I am having an over-powering problem with commitments!!! I cant commit to ANYTHING lately. ANYTHING. Even the things I want so badly to do... I cant.
The other day I was talking to this lady on the phone about our dogs and we got to talking about taking our dogs for walks and I told her how I take my boy on these amazing walks daily that wear him out than she was like "ooh well, maybe you would be interested in taking my dog on walks with you, I can pay you" and NATURALLY I was tickled with the thought of it, I had never met her dog before but she sounded like the sweetest little thing and seriously, what better job for me, hanging out with my boy and other random dogs AND getting paid for it?? common, that has my name written allllllll over it. SO we made this plan, I was going to call her the next day, whenever it was that I decided to go and that was that. I was very excited! the second we got off the phone, I sat there smiling and giddy at the very idea of it.....seconds went by and THUD! my heart plummeted into my stomach and I got this awful feeling like "ooh my goooooood, I cant do this, I CAN NOT do this" and I started to panic and completely shut down. I all of a sudden felt like I had this HUGE responsibility and obligation and I was expected to live up to all these expectations and I just couldn't do it!!! and that is how my life has been lately, to the extreme. I can return phone calls, I cant e mail people back, I cant follow through on dates that I make with people,I cant blog, or work in my journal... it's driving me crazy! I don't know where this came from but it is serious business! Very overpowering.. Anything where I feel like people have an expectation of me... I shut down. I want to curl up into a little ball under a million blankets with my hands over my ears and hide. I am not enjoying these reactions and very much so plan to learn this lesson quickly and move on!
Next, my journey with meat. It's difficult for me because I just can not seem to grasp a taste for it. I was a vegetarian so so long that... I learned every single filling food around it, "it's just not for me." BUT I did recently discover the "secret messages in meat" over the last few days, I have been getting bits and pieces of the code. Let me explain... In the beginning when I brought meat back into my diet, I had this over powering urge that "I NEED to eat some meat, NOW!" since I listened to that, that urge has gone away and now it is much more subtle and I recently put this together. Nowadays.... gosh, I don't even know how to word this... Ok, for instance, the last few blogs ago that I wrote I talked about seeing that cat on the side of the road that had died, normally when I would have totally lost it,I was calm, pulled over, did a ceremony and "let it go." Well the other night my parents called my from Bethel and told me about this sweet little puppy that is chained up outside someone's house on a chain so short that she cant even sit upright, and is soooo skinny and clearly under fed in -40 below weather, basically freezing to death and they can hear her crying all day and all night... and that just completely broke my heart, I went into my usual low, how I used to back in the day. I was honestly about to get on the internet to and buy a $500.00 ticket out to bethel the next day to kidnap her and bring her into anchorage with me and give her to the animal shelter I volunteer with to find her a good home, than my sister came back from her boyfriends house and told me about the movie they had just watched "The Cove" about the slaughter of dolphins in Japan...?? OOh my god!, I was already downing beers since the story my parents told me about the dog than she was telling me this and I just went into my usual crazy mode. My body started shaking and my heart was pounding and I just started crying, I was like "ooh my god, where do I go first, Japan or Bethel?" than out of no where, I wasn't even hungry, I was very much so on a passionate beer kick not wanting to process any of this information that I couldnt do anything about,than into my head poped "I need to eat some meat" I thought this was crazy but have been very devoted to "listening" lately so I scrounged through my freezer and found some caribou and cooked a small bit of it and nibbled on it, than.....aaaaah, everything was ok, my body relaxed, I wasn't panicked.....I, cant really explain it. It was like... I just got it...like, the meat was communicating with me... it sounds crazy I know, but SOMETHING shifted. Seriously shifted. It's like, I have this sort of agreement with meat, as funny as that may sound, where it helps me with all my animal stuff AND my animal communication alone. The other day I saw another cat on the side of the road and I haven't eaten meat in a while, and I had a little panic attack, not a bad one, but I did freak out a little, so I went home, cooked up some moose,emideatedy got very calm than did a ceremony and felt the cats presence very strongly than felt him leave and everything was ok... It's weird this is just how it has been lately... Than last night Lindsey and I went over to rebecca's house and Lindsey was telling us about the book her boyfriend just read about this man who went around asking all these indigenous tribes HOW it is that they communicate with the plants, animals and what not and each and every tribe said the same thing, they said that "they take them in, and once the plants or the animals digests their DNA blends with their own DNA than they have clear communication with the plant or animal!" HA! that is what I'm doing... right??
Anyhow, I just thought that was very interesting considering what I have been observing with myself... Thank you for listening!!
LOVE & GRATITUDE
Mother Wolf Spirit Talker
The other day I was talking to this lady on the phone about our dogs and we got to talking about taking our dogs for walks and I told her how I take my boy on these amazing walks daily that wear him out than she was like "ooh well, maybe you would be interested in taking my dog on walks with you, I can pay you" and NATURALLY I was tickled with the thought of it, I had never met her dog before but she sounded like the sweetest little thing and seriously, what better job for me, hanging out with my boy and other random dogs AND getting paid for it?? common, that has my name written allllllll over it. SO we made this plan, I was going to call her the next day, whenever it was that I decided to go and that was that. I was very excited! the second we got off the phone, I sat there smiling and giddy at the very idea of it.....seconds went by and THUD! my heart plummeted into my stomach and I got this awful feeling like "ooh my goooooood, I cant do this, I CAN NOT do this" and I started to panic and completely shut down. I all of a sudden felt like I had this HUGE responsibility and obligation and I was expected to live up to all these expectations and I just couldn't do it!!! and that is how my life has been lately, to the extreme. I can return phone calls, I cant e mail people back, I cant follow through on dates that I make with people,I cant blog, or work in my journal... it's driving me crazy! I don't know where this came from but it is serious business! Very overpowering.. Anything where I feel like people have an expectation of me... I shut down. I want to curl up into a little ball under a million blankets with my hands over my ears and hide. I am not enjoying these reactions and very much so plan to learn this lesson quickly and move on!
Next, my journey with meat. It's difficult for me because I just can not seem to grasp a taste for it. I was a vegetarian so so long that... I learned every single filling food around it, "it's just not for me." BUT I did recently discover the "secret messages in meat" over the last few days, I have been getting bits and pieces of the code. Let me explain... In the beginning when I brought meat back into my diet, I had this over powering urge that "I NEED to eat some meat, NOW!" since I listened to that, that urge has gone away and now it is much more subtle and I recently put this together. Nowadays.... gosh, I don't even know how to word this... Ok, for instance, the last few blogs ago that I wrote I talked about seeing that cat on the side of the road that had died, normally when I would have totally lost it,I was calm, pulled over, did a ceremony and "let it go." Well the other night my parents called my from Bethel and told me about this sweet little puppy that is chained up outside someone's house on a chain so short that she cant even sit upright, and is soooo skinny and clearly under fed in -40 below weather, basically freezing to death and they can hear her crying all day and all night... and that just completely broke my heart, I went into my usual low, how I used to back in the day. I was honestly about to get on the internet to and buy a $500.00 ticket out to bethel the next day to kidnap her and bring her into anchorage with me and give her to the animal shelter I volunteer with to find her a good home, than my sister came back from her boyfriends house and told me about the movie they had just watched "The Cove" about the slaughter of dolphins in Japan...?? OOh my god!, I was already downing beers since the story my parents told me about the dog than she was telling me this and I just went into my usual crazy mode. My body started shaking and my heart was pounding and I just started crying, I was like "ooh my god, where do I go first, Japan or Bethel?" than out of no where, I wasn't even hungry, I was very much so on a passionate beer kick not wanting to process any of this information that I couldnt do anything about,than into my head poped "I need to eat some meat" I thought this was crazy but have been very devoted to "listening" lately so I scrounged through my freezer and found some caribou and cooked a small bit of it and nibbled on it, than.....aaaaah, everything was ok, my body relaxed, I wasn't panicked.....I, cant really explain it. It was like... I just got it...like, the meat was communicating with me... it sounds crazy I know, but SOMETHING shifted. Seriously shifted. It's like, I have this sort of agreement with meat, as funny as that may sound, where it helps me with all my animal stuff AND my animal communication alone. The other day I saw another cat on the side of the road and I haven't eaten meat in a while, and I had a little panic attack, not a bad one, but I did freak out a little, so I went home, cooked up some moose,emideatedy got very calm than did a ceremony and felt the cats presence very strongly than felt him leave and everything was ok... It's weird this is just how it has been lately... Than last night Lindsey and I went over to rebecca's house and Lindsey was telling us about the book her boyfriend just read about this man who went around asking all these indigenous tribes HOW it is that they communicate with the plants, animals and what not and each and every tribe said the same thing, they said that "they take them in, and once the plants or the animals digests their DNA blends with their own DNA than they have clear communication with the plant or animal!" HA! that is what I'm doing... right??
Anyhow, I just thought that was very interesting considering what I have been observing with myself... Thank you for listening!!
LOVE & GRATITUDE
Mother Wolf Spirit Talker
Wednesday, April 7
In Honor of the West
I am just sending this little blurb in gratitude of the lessons, clearing and release of all of the suppressed emotions. My family and myself ended a day of emotional overload. Whew, Michelle
Tuesday, April 6
Feel the Life Force
Today I had an amazing opportunity. The sky was clear, the wind was sharp and cool, and had that feeling of the ocean as it blows into Beluga Point, out of Anchorage Alaska. The sparkly feeling of pure life force is blowing into White Sage, bringing forth an ecstatic response in every cell of my body.
We are here, very close to one of the most sacred sites on Mother Earth; the great mother canyon known as Grand Canyon. Yet the wind is blowing in the smell, the energy, the life force of Alaska! I begin to wonder if this is happening in other areas as well, near other sacred sites. Is this the next phase of the planetary ascension, coming to life?
I thankful for this fresh new force. May each of us remember WHO WE ARE, WHERE WE COME FROM, AND WHY WE CAME HERE!
Blessings,
Kachina
We are here, very close to one of the most sacred sites on Mother Earth; the great mother canyon known as Grand Canyon. Yet the wind is blowing in the smell, the energy, the life force of Alaska! I begin to wonder if this is happening in other areas as well, near other sacred sites. Is this the next phase of the planetary ascension, coming to life?
I thankful for this fresh new force. May each of us remember WHO WE ARE, WHERE WE COME FROM, AND WHY WE CAME HERE!
Blessings,
Kachina
Monday, April 5
Deep in the West
It always comes as a surprise to me, as our group descends deep into the west direction of the medicine wheel, just how quiet and inward the energy flow becomes. It is obvious as we look at the Blogs, how many people are feeling the same way. Even though we are spread out across the country, I can feel our group contracting, drawing inward, and honoring the reflective female energy.
Even for those who have completely left the journal behind, trust me; you are still processing the west energy-the integration, releasing, forgiveness, identifying and rewriting of old contracts, transforming, etc. This is the time when new awareness comes to the surface of our consciousness and bubbles forth like a bubbling spring.
I am so happy for all of you, for I can feel the level of commitment you have, the honoring of this inward time. Even in the midst of our busy lives, we are holding the space for transformation in the west.
This being the most challenging direction for many of us in the western hemisphere, and since it is the time we are least likely to extend ourselves outward to communicate on the Blog, I am asking for each one of us to write to the Blog-if only one or two sentences-just to let the group know that we are still connected, still holding space for each other, and still walking through this process together.
Please gift each other with this precious connection and support sometime this week. I will watch for each of you: Lighteningstormdesertrose, Stargazer Walks with Bears, Golden Buffalo Heart, Spirit Talker, SwiftWater, RavenHair888, Earth Song, Spirit Walker of the Mist, Morning Star Spotted Eagle, Ziji Boombasa, EarthSpirit Keeper, Skywalker singswithherHeart, Blessing Willow, Blew Thunder, and tskarrow.
I am sending out the intention for Angels to walk beside each of you, for the guidance system from within your heart to move into full blooming, and inspiration to arise all around you to carry you forward into greater and greater levels of fulfillment and wonder.
In love and gratitude,
Kachina
Even for those who have completely left the journal behind, trust me; you are still processing the west energy-the integration, releasing, forgiveness, identifying and rewriting of old contracts, transforming, etc. This is the time when new awareness comes to the surface of our consciousness and bubbles forth like a bubbling spring.
I am so happy for all of you, for I can feel the level of commitment you have, the honoring of this inward time. Even in the midst of our busy lives, we are holding the space for transformation in the west.
This being the most challenging direction for many of us in the western hemisphere, and since it is the time we are least likely to extend ourselves outward to communicate on the Blog, I am asking for each one of us to write to the Blog-if only one or two sentences-just to let the group know that we are still connected, still holding space for each other, and still walking through this process together.
Please gift each other with this precious connection and support sometime this week. I will watch for each of you: Lighteningstormdesertrose, Stargazer Walks with Bears, Golden Buffalo Heart, Spirit Talker, SwiftWater, RavenHair888, Earth Song, Spirit Walker of the Mist, Morning Star Spotted Eagle, Ziji Boombasa, EarthSpirit Keeper, Skywalker singswithherHeart, Blessing Willow, Blew Thunder, and tskarrow.
I am sending out the intention for Angels to walk beside each of you, for the guidance system from within your heart to move into full blooming, and inspiration to arise all around you to carry you forward into greater and greater levels of fulfillment and wonder.
In love and gratitude,
Kachina
Friday, April 2
Death as My Teacher
I am seeing the world through new eyes. Watching as people around me just naturally observe themselves, notice an old contract surfacing, and spontaneously decide to change it, let it go. I am grateful beyond measure to see this happening all around. I know if it is outside of me, the same reflection is within.
This time around, I am so comfortable with my own death. I have now envisioned it to the point that it feels transparent, and so much a choice.
When I was a small child, my grandparents had a farm in Illinois. I got to spend time with many different animals. And I also got to see death at a young age. I remember being very attracted to dead animals.
When an animal died, on this small farm, their bodies were often buried, or sometimes left to decompose if they were deep in the forest where a tractor could not go. A cow died one night while giving birth, and Grandpa found her several days later. I remember being afraid to hike down to the woods, fearful that I might find the body. But I was also drawn to it like a little fly. I had to go see the dead cow, even though I was terrified.
When I finally mustered up my courage (I had to be around 9 years old), I hiked through the woods into a little clearing. I could smell the cow's body, and knew that I was close. Then I saw the hair, the hide, the hooves, the body lying on a hillside in the hardwood forest. I could feel my heart pounding in my throat, as I did not understand death, and was certain that the cow would jump up any moment and attack me like a monster from the movies.
Gradually I became present in the moment. The fear dissolved and I looked at every part of the cow that I could reach. I took my time, I studied the changes that had happened to her body in just a few days.
Most of all, I noticed how different this uninhabited space suit felt from the cows that were alive. This cow, the real being that had lived in this body, was completely gone. It was such a mysterious thing to me-where did she go?
When I finally turned around to go back to the farmhouse, I looked up through the forest. I saw the same cow, looking back at me, chewing her cud contentedly. She was surrounded with a bright golden light. I jumped up to run and find her-I wanted to get closer. But when I looked again, she was gone. I looked all over, but could not find the cow that I had seen, in a new body. Finally I went home, watching just in case it reappeared.
It was a long time before I began to understand more about death, but those early experiences on the farm provided some key pieces to a great puzzle. And the beautiful vision of the cow, that everyone later told me was my "imagination" and it didn't really happen, stayed with me as a vision of comfort and truth until a time when I would return to death willingly, to learn. When one makes an agreement to allow death to become her teacher, she will learn more in this lifetime than one could ever imagine.
And the view at the end of the trail will be spectacular!
Kachina
This time around, I am so comfortable with my own death. I have now envisioned it to the point that it feels transparent, and so much a choice.
When I was a small child, my grandparents had a farm in Illinois. I got to spend time with many different animals. And I also got to see death at a young age. I remember being very attracted to dead animals.
When an animal died, on this small farm, their bodies were often buried, or sometimes left to decompose if they were deep in the forest where a tractor could not go. A cow died one night while giving birth, and Grandpa found her several days later. I remember being afraid to hike down to the woods, fearful that I might find the body. But I was also drawn to it like a little fly. I had to go see the dead cow, even though I was terrified.
When I finally mustered up my courage (I had to be around 9 years old), I hiked through the woods into a little clearing. I could smell the cow's body, and knew that I was close. Then I saw the hair, the hide, the hooves, the body lying on a hillside in the hardwood forest. I could feel my heart pounding in my throat, as I did not understand death, and was certain that the cow would jump up any moment and attack me like a monster from the movies.
Gradually I became present in the moment. The fear dissolved and I looked at every part of the cow that I could reach. I took my time, I studied the changes that had happened to her body in just a few days.
Most of all, I noticed how different this uninhabited space suit felt from the cows that were alive. This cow, the real being that had lived in this body, was completely gone. It was such a mysterious thing to me-where did she go?
When I finally turned around to go back to the farmhouse, I looked up through the forest. I saw the same cow, looking back at me, chewing her cud contentedly. She was surrounded with a bright golden light. I jumped up to run and find her-I wanted to get closer. But when I looked again, she was gone. I looked all over, but could not find the cow that I had seen, in a new body. Finally I went home, watching just in case it reappeared.
It was a long time before I began to understand more about death, but those early experiences on the farm provided some key pieces to a great puzzle. And the beautiful vision of the cow, that everyone later told me was my "imagination" and it didn't really happen, stayed with me as a vision of comfort and truth until a time when I would return to death willingly, to learn. When one makes an agreement to allow death to become her teacher, she will learn more in this lifetime than one could ever imagine.
And the view at the end of the trail will be spectacular!
Kachina
Thursday, April 1
New Clarity and Connection
This morning the Pleiadian Cloud Ships were finally gone, but not before they downloaded a whole bunch of planetary information to me about ways to help integrate the new cosmic energy that is currently assimilating into Mother Earth's grids and into our lives.
Synchronistically, Myst Walker sent a link last night that explains a whole lot about the transition we are experiencing in human consciousness at this time. Here is the link:
spirit library link
This is really aligned with the information they gave me and all I have been experiencing. Some of us may be experiencing a disinterest in the ascension process, as they stated, indicating completion of a phase of this process. Others, myself included, are experiencing a renewed level of commitment and ease regarding the ascension process. These are souls who have chosen to become the teachers/facilitators for the next wave of ascending souls that is about to begin later this summer.
This is clearly a time where ease can replace struggle in every direction of our lives. All we have to do is surrender to the river-it is already carrying us in the direction we want to go! Every moment of trust is becoming second nature as we assimilate the equinox vibrational changes into our lives.
For those of us who are Earth Keepers and Light Weavers, we are becoming more and more conscious of the holographic reality and the way in which we are co-creating heaven on earth. The Pleiadians suggested a special crystal grid layout, to be placed near cell towers, power substations, and transformers, even electrical boxes or powerlines.
It is for the purpose of connecting and integrating the 3rd, 4th, and 5th dimensional grids, extending into holographic time, and healing the part of human consciousness that felt a need to create these forms of separation. Everyone who places this crystal grid will be accompanied by the spirits of Alexander Graham Bell, Slim Spurling, Thomas Edison, Mahmout Farrat, and Nicolai Tesla, who are joining together to help anchor this new energy grid. It will transform our electromagnetic experience of energy production on Mother Earth. (Will attempt to make an image of it and post it here later).
This is a part of what we will be doing in Egypt in 2013, by anchoring these new energy grids and connecting them in at Dendara and the great pyramid at Giza. It will also be programmed to raise the ancestral star being grids, connect and integrate with the new political, monetary, scientific, and social human consciousness grids, and activate the whole planetary network for physical human/star being interaction.
Between now and 2013, we will all be preparing the planetary grids for this activation. For some new personal ascension techniques to assist this process, watch for the next Food for Ascension subscription.
I love you all and imagine you each stepping into a flow of ease, new prosperity, and fulfillment in the coming days ahead.
Kachina
Here is a small image of the crystal layout referred to above. In the center is a Geo-resonator, surrounded by 4 clear quartz double terminated crystals. Surrounding that is a set of 5 citrine points, pointing outward. Surrounding the whole is a set of 7 amethyst points, pointing outward.
Wednesday, March 31
Dreams That Speak
I had a dream last night. I dreamt that I was visiting Michael and Kathryn at white sage. They had invited me down to help them with some projects that needed to get done. I was showed two cars and my job was to paint them, one white and one black.
Michael gave me a quick preview without explaining anything then handed me the paint brush and left. I stood there looking at the white car that I was to paint. I had never painted a car before? I had no idea how to even begin painting a car? Then crept in what if I mess up? What if it looks worse after I am finished then it does right now? I became so consumed with questions, doubts and potential failures that I never even began painting the car. I was paralyzed by my fear of "What if"
I decided I couldn't do it and went looking for Michael and Kathryn to tell them I didn't know how and that I couldn't do it. They were out in the garden raking. Kathryn stood there just beautiful radiant light, I confess my failure Michael and in the gentlest of ways he put his hand on my shoulder looked me straight in the eyes and said "If you knew it all, what would be the point?" I woke up.
This is likely an obvious lesson and one I'm sure we've all come up against at one point or another. The power of the dream illustrated so perfectly for me in this moment where my specific block is in regards to why I haven't begun working. I am at that pivotal phase where I'm being asked to take the next step and leave my comfort zone. Where I am being asked to value myself and what I have to offer. It's scary!
I couldn't finish the South in the journal. I flew thought the East and eagerly anticipated the West. I skipped the last 6 pages of the South, I couldn't do it it was like walking through molasses. It was such a struggle to even attempt to motivated myself to open the journal at all during the South and I didn't want to quite so I skipped it?
I'm at that place where I get to decide which way to go and trust the guidance and inner knowing within myself. A perfect polarity of uncomfortable and exhilarating.
I began reading Kathryn's book and how the food for ascension came to be. It was a step by step evolution over 17 years before it became what it is today. Kathryn didn't know the whole picture from the beginning. They worked with people and themselves and observed through trial and error what worked and what didn't but always learning and growing along the way. There are phases and if you're lucky you learn something new everyday and grow more with each experience. That is the beauty of feeling fear and discomfort, it is a clear sign, as Michael once told me, "that you are doing something right."
I am scared, I still recognize that I doubt myself or it's just easier to feel doubt then confidence, I have no idea what I am walking into or how I will create what I desire from where I am in this moment. How I will become self-sufficient and remain passionate at the same time. I don't know? I just simply don't know and it feels a little like drowning because I can't go back or stay where I am and I don't yet have anything to grab onto.
I want to move forward. I am ready to take that step out of my comfort zone and onto the unknown where possibility, failure, experience, learning, fear, passion, discomfort and wide open spaces await me. And I wanted you all to bear witness to my intention of not feeling ready but still being willing to take that step anyway.
Thank you all for your support and listing. I am so grateful for this group and am so hopeful for all of us realizing our dreams come true.
Love, gratitude and laughter
Michael gave me a quick preview without explaining anything then handed me the paint brush and left. I stood there looking at the white car that I was to paint. I had never painted a car before? I had no idea how to even begin painting a car? Then crept in what if I mess up? What if it looks worse after I am finished then it does right now? I became so consumed with questions, doubts and potential failures that I never even began painting the car. I was paralyzed by my fear of "What if"
I decided I couldn't do it and went looking for Michael and Kathryn to tell them I didn't know how and that I couldn't do it. They were out in the garden raking. Kathryn stood there just beautiful radiant light, I confess my failure Michael and in the gentlest of ways he put his hand on my shoulder looked me straight in the eyes and said "If you knew it all, what would be the point?" I woke up.
This is likely an obvious lesson and one I'm sure we've all come up against at one point or another. The power of the dream illustrated so perfectly for me in this moment where my specific block is in regards to why I haven't begun working. I am at that pivotal phase where I'm being asked to take the next step and leave my comfort zone. Where I am being asked to value myself and what I have to offer. It's scary!
I couldn't finish the South in the journal. I flew thought the East and eagerly anticipated the West. I skipped the last 6 pages of the South, I couldn't do it it was like walking through molasses. It was such a struggle to even attempt to motivated myself to open the journal at all during the South and I didn't want to quite so I skipped it?
I'm at that place where I get to decide which way to go and trust the guidance and inner knowing within myself. A perfect polarity of uncomfortable and exhilarating.
I began reading Kathryn's book and how the food for ascension came to be. It was a step by step evolution over 17 years before it became what it is today. Kathryn didn't know the whole picture from the beginning. They worked with people and themselves and observed through trial and error what worked and what didn't but always learning and growing along the way. There are phases and if you're lucky you learn something new everyday and grow more with each experience. That is the beauty of feeling fear and discomfort, it is a clear sign, as Michael once told me, "that you are doing something right."
I am scared, I still recognize that I doubt myself or it's just easier to feel doubt then confidence, I have no idea what I am walking into or how I will create what I desire from where I am in this moment. How I will become self-sufficient and remain passionate at the same time. I don't know? I just simply don't know and it feels a little like drowning because I can't go back or stay where I am and I don't yet have anything to grab onto.
I want to move forward. I am ready to take that step out of my comfort zone and onto the unknown where possibility, failure, experience, learning, fear, passion, discomfort and wide open spaces await me. And I wanted you all to bear witness to my intention of not feeling ready but still being willing to take that step anyway.
Thank you all for your support and listing. I am so grateful for this group and am so hopeful for all of us realizing our dreams come true.
Love, gratitude and laughter
Ceremony and Synchronicity
I apologize for missing the Blog yesterday. So much is happening around here I am feeling like I am just holding on for the ride! One of my original affirmations was "I let go of control and everything moves into perfect alignment".
After some time, it became "I am ready". So now I get to experience the "speeding through the universe" feeling that caused me to choose to hold on in the first place, like everything is moving way too fast. (Too fast for what, I wonder?) I am very happy with all the support I am experiencing as I let go on a new level. It is not comfortable, yet the feeling in my cellular body is one of ecstatic pure energy.
On the full moon, Blew Thunder and I went out at night and danced our intentions to the four directions. Just before we did it, a Pleiadian cloud ship appeared to the southeast and hovered there all night (other clouds came and went, but this one stayed in the same location). Several appeared again yesterday, and this morning they were still there. They are letting us know just how much support is available to us! Just how real the planetary ascension is.
Though many areas of focus are demanding attention in the physical world at this time, I am still being asked to up my level of commitment to the Nature spirits of the area in assistance of the planetary ascension process. On Monday morning, we walked the whole 83 acres that our neighbors are selling, and placed geo-resonators at two locations with intentions for regeneration and transmutation of non-beneficial energy. Then yesterday the spirits invited us to a spot on the land where a mass of tangled old dead trees lay. We cleaned it up, and received a week's worth of firewood as well.
So much has changed in our area, several days ago we talked to a neighbor who wants to organize a clean-up day for everyone in White Sage, to get together and clean up the trash on the road. It sounds like nothing, but these are neighbors who have previously wanted to kill each other instead of look at each other! Now they are planning events together!!! If I did not experience this kind of transformation I would never have known just how much the earth grid energies effect human consciousness.
With this kind of intentional co-creation, we have the tools to manifest a whole new reality on Mother Earth.
Blessings to all,
Kachina
After some time, it became "I am ready". So now I get to experience the "speeding through the universe" feeling that caused me to choose to hold on in the first place, like everything is moving way too fast. (Too fast for what, I wonder?) I am very happy with all the support I am experiencing as I let go on a new level. It is not comfortable, yet the feeling in my cellular body is one of ecstatic pure energy.
On the full moon, Blew Thunder and I went out at night and danced our intentions to the four directions. Just before we did it, a Pleiadian cloud ship appeared to the southeast and hovered there all night (other clouds came and went, but this one stayed in the same location). Several appeared again yesterday, and this morning they were still there. They are letting us know just how much support is available to us! Just how real the planetary ascension is.
Though many areas of focus are demanding attention in the physical world at this time, I am still being asked to up my level of commitment to the Nature spirits of the area in assistance of the planetary ascension process. On Monday morning, we walked the whole 83 acres that our neighbors are selling, and placed geo-resonators at two locations with intentions for regeneration and transmutation of non-beneficial energy. Then yesterday the spirits invited us to a spot on the land where a mass of tangled old dead trees lay. We cleaned it up, and received a week's worth of firewood as well.
So much has changed in our area, several days ago we talked to a neighbor who wants to organize a clean-up day for everyone in White Sage, to get together and clean up the trash on the road. It sounds like nothing, but these are neighbors who have previously wanted to kill each other instead of look at each other! Now they are planning events together!!! If I did not experience this kind of transformation I would never have known just how much the earth grid energies effect human consciousness.
With this kind of intentional co-creation, we have the tools to manifest a whole new reality on Mother Earth.
Blessings to all,
Kachina
Monday, March 29
Blessings for Mother Earth
Two days ago I had an opportunity once again to share the drawing on the Prophecy stone that a Gila Apache elder once shared with me.
She told about the human figure on the left, walking with a planting stick. Behind him, corn plants were sprouting up. This signifies a time of life on Mother Earth where humans are living in harmony and balance with nature. Life has reached a level of stability and sustainability.
Then there is a squiggly line to show the passage of time. Marking the passage into a different time, there are then 3 human figures, all with their heads floating above their bodies. They are wearing "Abe Lincoln" style hats on their heads.
This section describes the last century, the time our parents and grandparents grew up in. It is perceived as a time where human consciousness has become trapped in the mind, and disconnected from the body (and from Mother Earth), hence the disconnected heads. Humans were also disconnected from their own spirits, hence the heavy hats.
This path continues on the same level as another squiggly line, but the line becomes more and more irratic and finally ends in oblivion. It is a statement about where we would end up if we were to continue to live in the mind.
Just after the three humans with the hats, there is another route to follow carved upon this stone. It shows a ladder going up. At the top of this ladder, there is another human figure walking with a planting stick, with corn sprouting up behind him.
The choice to raise our frequencies and climb up that ladder brings us to a new Earth, a new level of harmony and balance with nature. It is another time of stability and sustainability that can emerge on Mother Earth.
This stone always inspires me. It feels like the Ancestors, who knew what was ahead for human consciousness, wanted to leave something whose meaning would become clear just as it was needed. They were telling us to find the ladder, build the ladder, and create the new thought forms, the new methods, the new bodies, that would take us up the ladder into the new world. It is all here, it has always been here, waiting until we were ready.
Yesterday, as I was guided to do, I went up on the hilltop and did a dowsing session with the Ancestors and the ascension Masters. They reminded me that we would be placing 2 Hopi Water jars in the summer, with the intention to restore groundwater (springs) to the land of the Anasazi.
I was so amazed by the return of the regenerating winter storms this year that I kind of thought that was all there is to it. They reminded me that his is not the case. There is much more water to bring in, and much to envision and activate. We are only just beginning to regenerate this area on Mother Earth.
So today, I send out a blessing of love and gratitude for all "lightweavers" who are co-creating the new Earth, with intention. May all the forces of Nature align with you to co-create the miraculous transformations necessary to bring about these changes. May you know fulfillment of your highest dreams in this lifetime. May you succeed in all of your heart-based undertakings, and may you bring blessings to all of life beyond your wildest imaginings.
Kachina
She told about the human figure on the left, walking with a planting stick. Behind him, corn plants were sprouting up. This signifies a time of life on Mother Earth where humans are living in harmony and balance with nature. Life has reached a level of stability and sustainability.
Then there is a squiggly line to show the passage of time. Marking the passage into a different time, there are then 3 human figures, all with their heads floating above their bodies. They are wearing "Abe Lincoln" style hats on their heads.
This section describes the last century, the time our parents and grandparents grew up in. It is perceived as a time where human consciousness has become trapped in the mind, and disconnected from the body (and from Mother Earth), hence the disconnected heads. Humans were also disconnected from their own spirits, hence the heavy hats.
This path continues on the same level as another squiggly line, but the line becomes more and more irratic and finally ends in oblivion. It is a statement about where we would end up if we were to continue to live in the mind.
Just after the three humans with the hats, there is another route to follow carved upon this stone. It shows a ladder going up. At the top of this ladder, there is another human figure walking with a planting stick, with corn sprouting up behind him.
The choice to raise our frequencies and climb up that ladder brings us to a new Earth, a new level of harmony and balance with nature. It is another time of stability and sustainability that can emerge on Mother Earth.
This stone always inspires me. It feels like the Ancestors, who knew what was ahead for human consciousness, wanted to leave something whose meaning would become clear just as it was needed. They were telling us to find the ladder, build the ladder, and create the new thought forms, the new methods, the new bodies, that would take us up the ladder into the new world. It is all here, it has always been here, waiting until we were ready.
Yesterday, as I was guided to do, I went up on the hilltop and did a dowsing session with the Ancestors and the ascension Masters. They reminded me that we would be placing 2 Hopi Water jars in the summer, with the intention to restore groundwater (springs) to the land of the Anasazi.
I was so amazed by the return of the regenerating winter storms this year that I kind of thought that was all there is to it. They reminded me that his is not the case. There is much more water to bring in, and much to envision and activate. We are only just beginning to regenerate this area on Mother Earth.
So today, I send out a blessing of love and gratitude for all "lightweavers" who are co-creating the new Earth, with intention. May all the forces of Nature align with you to co-create the miraculous transformations necessary to bring about these changes. May you know fulfillment of your highest dreams in this lifetime. May you succeed in all of your heart-based undertakings, and may you bring blessings to all of life beyond your wildest imaginings.
Kachina
Saturday, March 27
Awakenings
Funny thing, if you don't believe you deserve all of the support of the Universe you can spend your time and energy running from it, blocking it, numbing out, vegging out, and wonder why it isn't there. The other day I realized that I must choose to change this pattern, choose to believe and acknowledge the support of Creation all around me.
I suppose this is part of turning to myself instead of that which is outside of me, but that doesn't mean not participate in life. I think my mind gets confused and perhaps my feelings as to what parts of me are dying. I feel like I am dying, or that I am somehow slowly killing myself. Like I am not choosing Fully Life, a Vibrant Passionate Co-Creative Life. Am I really or is this just the feeling of a death. I find myself wanting to be alone and getting frustrated when I can't have that, not asking for it aloud - knowing that I can have that. Not picking up my Medicine.
The committee can be pretty sneaky, to the point where you believe that is the way it is. Stuck, stagnant, not doing the right thing . . . blah blah blah. So, what is the gift of that? What is the gift of constantly analyzing, trying to see how things could be better. There must be a balance between this and taking action.
I find myself longing for the Ceremony, but I know that when the time is right I will find a new depth to my Being and Ceremony will be different. I will be coming from a different place.
Keep trusting, keep going to my center, remember to go to my center. Sing Dance Play, Walk outside on the Earth Mother herself.
I am stuck in the book but that is okay, I am stuck on my Creation story. I was not born into a life where we are told the Stories, where we know our history, our roots, our place. I suppose there is a reason for that. Perhaps to dig deeper into my cells to remember what I already know.
I suppose this is part of turning to myself instead of that which is outside of me, but that doesn't mean not participate in life. I think my mind gets confused and perhaps my feelings as to what parts of me are dying. I feel like I am dying, or that I am somehow slowly killing myself. Like I am not choosing Fully Life, a Vibrant Passionate Co-Creative Life. Am I really or is this just the feeling of a death. I find myself wanting to be alone and getting frustrated when I can't have that, not asking for it aloud - knowing that I can have that. Not picking up my Medicine.
The committee can be pretty sneaky, to the point where you believe that is the way it is. Stuck, stagnant, not doing the right thing . . . blah blah blah. So, what is the gift of that? What is the gift of constantly analyzing, trying to see how things could be better. There must be a balance between this and taking action.
I find myself longing for the Ceremony, but I know that when the time is right I will find a new depth to my Being and Ceremony will be different. I will be coming from a different place.
Keep trusting, keep going to my center, remember to go to my center. Sing Dance Play, Walk outside on the Earth Mother herself.
I am stuck in the book but that is okay, I am stuck on my Creation story. I was not born into a life where we are told the Stories, where we know our history, our roots, our place. I suppose there is a reason for that. Perhaps to dig deeper into my cells to remember what I already know.
A New Opportunity Comes Our Way
Today was a whirlwind of ecstatic proportions. I hardly know where to start.
At 9 this morning, Blew Thunder and I met with Lu and Lee Hixson from Sedona area, our neighbors to the west. They own a beautiful 80+ acre parcel of land with probably the most powerful sacred Anasazi site in the immediate area. They are in the process of selling their home in Cottonwood and moving to an acreage in the Missouri Ozarks. They are stepping way out of their comfort zone, taking risks and selling everything to go, not even certain of what spirit has in mind for them.
They came with an amazing proposal for us that seems impossible, yet from that quiet inner space, it looks like exactly the kind of thing that the Ancestors would bring about. They have offered us the whole 83 acres at a price that is well under market value, and with some creative financing. To act upon this opportunity, we will have to receive a gift or unexpected windfall of about $333,000 cash.
Each angle that we have examined up to this point leads us back to this same reality. If the Ancestors truly want us to become the caretakers of this land, they will have to come up with a means of creating this amount of money that includes ease for us, and does not redirect our energies from our immediate agreement at hand.
We are very happy and satisfied with the property that we caretake already here at White Sage. We have just come into a state of greater balance, and are once again getting ready to go back to work on the physical building and co-creating. The last thing we had on our minds was to consider an expansion at this time. Yet here they are, in need of selling their property and wanting us to be the keepers of this land.
Tonight we will meeting in ceremony with the Ancestors, asking for the vision of that which will serve in the highest for all life. We are also asking each of you for your prayers and blessings for manifestation of that which serves. If a miracle is required here, I will certainly hold the space for that to happen.
In Love and Gratitude,
Kachina
At 9 this morning, Blew Thunder and I met with Lu and Lee Hixson from Sedona area, our neighbors to the west. They own a beautiful 80+ acre parcel of land with probably the most powerful sacred Anasazi site in the immediate area. They are in the process of selling their home in Cottonwood and moving to an acreage in the Missouri Ozarks. They are stepping way out of their comfort zone, taking risks and selling everything to go, not even certain of what spirit has in mind for them.
They came with an amazing proposal for us that seems impossible, yet from that quiet inner space, it looks like exactly the kind of thing that the Ancestors would bring about. They have offered us the whole 83 acres at a price that is well under market value, and with some creative financing. To act upon this opportunity, we will have to receive a gift or unexpected windfall of about $333,000 cash.
Each angle that we have examined up to this point leads us back to this same reality. If the Ancestors truly want us to become the caretakers of this land, they will have to come up with a means of creating this amount of money that includes ease for us, and does not redirect our energies from our immediate agreement at hand.
We are very happy and satisfied with the property that we caretake already here at White Sage. We have just come into a state of greater balance, and are once again getting ready to go back to work on the physical building and co-creating. The last thing we had on our minds was to consider an expansion at this time. Yet here they are, in need of selling their property and wanting us to be the keepers of this land.
Tonight we will meeting in ceremony with the Ancestors, asking for the vision of that which will serve in the highest for all life. We are also asking each of you for your prayers and blessings for manifestation of that which serves. If a miracle is required here, I will certainly hold the space for that to happen.
In Love and Gratitude,
Kachina
Friday, March 26
Healing Eruptions
I had a Healing Eruption of the Mt St Helens kind the other night. I decided to eat a bowl of popcorn with regular butter before a class. I haven't eaten that in many months. In the middle of the class, I had to leave abruptly to visit the porcelain god. I had no symptoms of the flu and my 15 minute sojourn was just that - 15 minutes.
I realized a few hours later how exciting it was even though it was not fun! My body had been used to eating the best of real food, and it was letting me know that that kind of monkey business was not acceptable. Explosive as it was, I was celebrating that my body would actually reject that which it could not process well. Is my body vibrating higher? Am I walking over the threshold into a state of vibrant health? Is my body communicating its boundaries? To be continued . . .
I told my friend Earth Song, and she said, "Congratulations!" She was excited for me. The last time someone was excited about my bodily functions was when I was in the hospital and the nurses wouldn't let you go unless -- well you know what that was.
I also have had rashes and burps when a food isn't right for me at this time -- like red peppers. It is also bringing up my thyroid problem again. Yeast just surfaced for a day and a half. I had a mini hot flash of 5 minutes. These are old disease patterns that are exiting my body. I haven't felt this alive in years. There's a spring in my step.
I also wanted to say that Blew Thunder talked about the difference between a healing eruption and a healing crisis in another 90 day class. A healing crisis is when a person has cancer, and the body is fighting for its life. A healing eruption is when the body releases toxins of the bad kind. It's when you are doing something right with your body and the body can do its job of regenerating and rejuvenating in whatever manner it needs to do the job.
My body is singing the color of a Jazzy new Life. There probably will be more healing eruptions but I welcome it as the success of my steps forward to ascension health.
Mist Walker
Little steps, Big steps and all the steps in between
It's beautiful how this journey unfolds everyday and how easy it is to see when you know what to look for. I threw out the rules for this class the day I decided to join as everything I knew was different. I have been going with the flow and catching myself exactly where I need to be and not surprisingly right on track with everyone else. I worked hard in the last 90 day class to follow the rules and watched my husband do little with the rules. Funny thing happened, we both transformed how we were supposed to, neither better or worse. This go around, I am able to allow that truth and have peace with it.
When I read Kathryn's blog about "Action", I thought I wasn't there yet. I feel part of me still in the rhythm of the east with spring only beginning. By the end of that day I had taken two giant steps in action and it wasn't till I was driving home from the second one that I realized once again, I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
In planning for our move, our date to leave Alaska is June 1. The job I am currently in doesn't end till July 1. I had to sign a new contract and instead of just signing it and giving notice later, I wrote a letter of resignation that ends with the school year in May. The second thing I needed to do, the biggest thing to set all of this in motion, was to tell my ex husband that we are moving(we still share children). Steve and I asked him and his wife to dinner, told them the news and let him know that we were open to letting the kids decide. It was clear there was emotion but the conversation went easy and felt right. All that is left now is monetary things and we are on our way.
I am so grateful for the awakening of the new, the action to move forward and the reminders that come from the connections with all. Thank you all for sharing your stories and for the presence and energy expressed through this group.
I am also thankful for the new passion red Vitamix that showed up yesterday. WoooHooo!
Michelle
When I read Kathryn's blog about "Action", I thought I wasn't there yet. I feel part of me still in the rhythm of the east with spring only beginning. By the end of that day I had taken two giant steps in action and it wasn't till I was driving home from the second one that I realized once again, I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
In planning for our move, our date to leave Alaska is June 1. The job I am currently in doesn't end till July 1. I had to sign a new contract and instead of just signing it and giving notice later, I wrote a letter of resignation that ends with the school year in May. The second thing I needed to do, the biggest thing to set all of this in motion, was to tell my ex husband that we are moving(we still share children). Steve and I asked him and his wife to dinner, told them the news and let him know that we were open to letting the kids decide. It was clear there was emotion but the conversation went easy and felt right. All that is left now is monetary things and we are on our way.
I am so grateful for the awakening of the new, the action to move forward and the reminders that come from the connections with all. Thank you all for sharing your stories and for the presence and energy expressed through this group.
I am also thankful for the new passion red Vitamix that showed up yesterday. WoooHooo!
Michelle
Happy Girl
Its spring time in Alaska, Yeah! This last winter was especially long for me because I wasn't in a space of resonance with the cold and slow-pace that comes naturally to that time of year. I have been in the cocoon stage for a while now and I have been feeling very ready to burst out of my cocoon and step into the world with my new wings and gift of flight. With this internal timing lining up with the natural energy of spring and birthing new ideas, new life and leaving behind those things that no longer serve, I am ready to seize the day!
I have begun cleaning out my closet and removing those things that hold physical and energetic "attachment" energies but that I no longer have any need for. Clothes, memorabilia, even some rocks and crystals that are letting me know are ready to move onto the next phase of their journey, books and other "junk" to me at this point but a huge gift to someone else. I am putting into action the exercise of Kathryn's blog, the one of letting go of attachment to the way I think it should be before I can truly live my purpose and have been using my affirmations of what I am desiring to create in the present moment with the task at hand. It is proving to be quite powerful and filling me with the sense of connection and purpose while I do the regular mundane seeming things of my daily life. I am amazed at how just that simple change in consciousness can turn the dreaded task of cleaning out the closet, uggg into cleaning out the closet, look what I am making room for in my life and because of that I am on-purpose! Amazing.
My financial situation in terms of the number of $ in my bank account hasn't changed much but I am no longer stressing about it and I truly feel more abundant then ever!
I am grateful for every thing in my life and more conscious and aware of it then I ever was before when I could buy what I wanted when I wanted. Now, I pay attention to what is available to me in this moment and how the universe assists me in having all my needs met. Every time I go into the fear I am forced to stop and come into the present moment and what I see before me is so beautiful! Not once has my fear been realized, every time I stop and look, all the blessings of my life are still there and I realize I have nothing to fear! It has actually become fun and exciting to watch things unfold and manifest. I have spent my last dollar twice now and amazingly each time within a day or so some money happens to find its way too me, this experience is in a very deep way teaching me so much about trust and letting go and for that I am very grateful.
I have, also just this last week, for some reason fallen behind in the book but I made a commitment to myself that this time around (my third 90 day) I would finish the book and I fully intend to.
For now I can see all the zig-zags of my desires, intentions, hopes, dreams, things I still need to work through and things I need to let go of, scattered about not yet ready to fully align but for me for now that is exactly perfect and I can walk through this phase with more presence, patience and trust then ever before.
A new door has opened, a new chapter begun and all I can say is hallelujah spring has sprung!
I have begun cleaning out my closet and removing those things that hold physical and energetic "attachment" energies but that I no longer have any need for. Clothes, memorabilia, even some rocks and crystals that are letting me know are ready to move onto the next phase of their journey, books and other "junk" to me at this point but a huge gift to someone else. I am putting into action the exercise of Kathryn's blog, the one of letting go of attachment to the way I think it should be before I can truly live my purpose and have been using my affirmations of what I am desiring to create in the present moment with the task at hand. It is proving to be quite powerful and filling me with the sense of connection and purpose while I do the regular mundane seeming things of my daily life. I am amazed at how just that simple change in consciousness can turn the dreaded task of cleaning out the closet, uggg into cleaning out the closet, look what I am making room for in my life and because of that I am on-purpose! Amazing.
My financial situation in terms of the number of $ in my bank account hasn't changed much but I am no longer stressing about it and I truly feel more abundant then ever!
I am grateful for every thing in my life and more conscious and aware of it then I ever was before when I could buy what I wanted when I wanted. Now, I pay attention to what is available to me in this moment and how the universe assists me in having all my needs met. Every time I go into the fear I am forced to stop and come into the present moment and what I see before me is so beautiful! Not once has my fear been realized, every time I stop and look, all the blessings of my life are still there and I realize I have nothing to fear! It has actually become fun and exciting to watch things unfold and manifest. I have spent my last dollar twice now and amazingly each time within a day or so some money happens to find its way too me, this experience is in a very deep way teaching me so much about trust and letting go and for that I am very grateful.
I have, also just this last week, for some reason fallen behind in the book but I made a commitment to myself that this time around (my third 90 day) I would finish the book and I fully intend to.
For now I can see all the zig-zags of my desires, intentions, hopes, dreams, things I still need to work through and things I need to let go of, scattered about not yet ready to fully align but for me for now that is exactly perfect and I can walk through this phase with more presence, patience and trust then ever before.
A new door has opened, a new chapter begun and all I can say is hallelujah spring has sprung!
Breakdown to Break Through
So many thoughts are going through my head. Years ago I raised my hand to be of service. And right now I am challenged as to what to talk about. This 90 day program is all about choice. And I know for me this container makes me be more accountable for myself. When I have the magnifying glass on myself-the last f-cking thing I want to do, is bring light to it and share it with others!
You know I still have the days where I try to self-sabotage myself, and where I wonder how this is all going to work. But by going through it so many times now, I can catch it and not have to act on it. And surrender with the idea that, "don't give up 5 seconds before the miracle!"
And some of the tools that I use to get past that day, might be to put my feet up and let go of things, engage in a conversation with my wife about what I am feeling; and sometimes that takes more than a day to get to the level 0f pain. Sometimes it might be a Blue Road Healing; sometimes it is just that I am wound so tight, I just need to take the day off. And sometimes I just need to eat some good food. Instead of a 12/60 "sick day", it is a 13/260 "well day", and I give myself permission to take the day off.
What is really amazing is that 2 days, a week, a month down the road, I can't even remember what was so significant about that day that threw me so off course. And that only came to be by talking about those events WHEN THEY CAME UP, and not allowing them to become suppressed and go dormant again.
And look at it this way; if you were to get a sliver in your hand, would'nt you go to all means to remove it at the first opportunity? And that is because we can feel it festering at the time. Left undone, eventually that sliver wouldn't fester any more, but it would still be there.
Unlike the physical sliver, where the body can reabsorb it, emotional and mental festering just goes dormant only to return again and again. It can unconsciously control our lives and keep us from going where we want to go.
Kathryn and I have the intention to talk about the things that are blogged about and offer any assistance we can through this medium. Only when we offer the things that are going on for us, will there be an opportunity to address this-and it will help everyone (since we are not so unique as we all like to think). By blogging, we can take advantage of the opportunity of the door that is open.
I had the opportunity back in the early 1990s to work with a man named Richard Brooks, a self-made multi millionaire. He always talked about how we have to go through break down to get to break through. And that is the only difference between being satisfied and unsatisfied in life.
I send my blessings to each and every one of us, and hold a vision of break through for all of us! Aho mitaqueye oyasin.
Blewww Thunder
You know I still have the days where I try to self-sabotage myself, and where I wonder how this is all going to work. But by going through it so many times now, I can catch it and not have to act on it. And surrender with the idea that, "don't give up 5 seconds before the miracle!"
And some of the tools that I use to get past that day, might be to put my feet up and let go of things, engage in a conversation with my wife about what I am feeling; and sometimes that takes more than a day to get to the level 0f pain. Sometimes it might be a Blue Road Healing; sometimes it is just that I am wound so tight, I just need to take the day off. And sometimes I just need to eat some good food. Instead of a 12/60 "sick day", it is a 13/260 "well day", and I give myself permission to take the day off.
What is really amazing is that 2 days, a week, a month down the road, I can't even remember what was so significant about that day that threw me so off course. And that only came to be by talking about those events WHEN THEY CAME UP, and not allowing them to become suppressed and go dormant again.
And look at it this way; if you were to get a sliver in your hand, would'nt you go to all means to remove it at the first opportunity? And that is because we can feel it festering at the time. Left undone, eventually that sliver wouldn't fester any more, but it would still be there.
Unlike the physical sliver, where the body can reabsorb it, emotional and mental festering just goes dormant only to return again and again. It can unconsciously control our lives and keep us from going where we want to go.
Kathryn and I have the intention to talk about the things that are blogged about and offer any assistance we can through this medium. Only when we offer the things that are going on for us, will there be an opportunity to address this-and it will help everyone (since we are not so unique as we all like to think). By blogging, we can take advantage of the opportunity of the door that is open.
I had the opportunity back in the early 1990s to work with a man named Richard Brooks, a self-made multi millionaire. He always talked about how we have to go through break down to get to break through. And that is the only difference between being satisfied and unsatisfied in life.
I send my blessings to each and every one of us, and hold a vision of break through for all of us! Aho mitaqueye oyasin.
Blewww Thunder
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