An Unexpected Gift

Hi everyone,
I have had two of the most amazing days, and I am so thankful I did not BLOG about it until I had all of the story! Here goes;

Yesterday Michael and I had errands to run in Kanab and Fredonia. It took us a good part of the day, as we synchronistically ran into a woman we have been waiting to meet that will be connecting us with about 400 people at Best Friends; a no kill animal sanctuary located in a very sacred canyon outside of Kanab. She feels that there are people there just waiting to connect with Food for Ascension, so when the time is right, we will let her know.

Now on the drive back home to White Sage Landing, I looked up and saw a BEAUTIFUL perfectly heart-shaped cloud. It was pink in the center, and all around the edges it was transluscent, with all of the rainbow colors around the complete edge of the cloud! It was a rainbow heart. I don't know if you are aware of this, but the name of our big community drum is Rainbow Heart. We watched this glowing sundog-like cloud follow us until Eagle Knoll, then we looked up and it was gone. It was so unlike anything I had ever seen before. Just an incredible gift from the Ancestors.

Around 6:55, we went to go out and do a ceremony in the medicine wheel. I had prepared the wheel the day before with special balances and a blue road healing. Then I had begun to lay out the 28 spokes in the wheel as the Ancestors had asked me to do. I was only able to lay out one direction (East) and then they asked me to stop.

Now yesterday, as we were getting ready to go out to the wheel, the strongest wind came up and was blowing like a regular hurricane. We looked at each other and both knew at once that we were not to go out in the wind this time, but instead to go into the bedroom where the Rainbow Heart drum is being stored. There we went in and sang songs, and did our prayers and intentions. We connected with the others who are in ceremony during these two portal days (tomorrow is also a portal), and did more blue road healing for the whole area and the earth. It was very beautiful and personal.

Then last night, Michael pulled out a movie that he had ordered from Netflix. Little did I know, it would reveal much to me that I had never realized I didn't know. (If that makes sense!) I had just a few hours earlier, told the story of my great great grandmother who was a woman in a band of Lakota people who were running from the Indian agents. These soldiers had orders to round up all the Lakota and put them on a reservation, and get them counted and recorded for what would become the Indian Bureau later.

Crazy Horse, a very wise medicine man and leader of this band, insisted that the Lakota should not allow themselves to be counted and confined on a reservation. He felt that they had a better chance to maintain their way of life if they could keep their freedom. He kept the band on the move for a long time, and avoided capture. But this way of life, running and running, was wearing his people down.

At last he allowed himself to be captured, but just before he did, he sent his band of Lakota across the border into Canada. There he thought they would find freedom from the soldiers and the Indian Bureau. So they all went North, including my great, great grandmother.

But the idea of freedom turned into an experience of survival. The little band of Lakota had to settle quickly because winter was already setting in. They had no homes or possessions, no knowledge of the local game patterns, and were inundated with snow and cold. Some of the women volunteered to be sold to the German trappers in the area in return for money that would buy supplies for the Lakota to survive. One of these young women was my great, great grandmother, who then became the wife of a German trapper.

I know very little about her life-only what my grandfather passed down to me in the stories of my childhood. But I did know that she was never allowed to speak Lakota-only German in the home that they shared. When she had children, they were taught only German and knowledge of the Lakota ancestry was forbidden.

Together this couple had 6 children. Then one day, everything changed. My great, great grandfather took his oldest son out with him for a few days to check the trap-line. When they returned, they found that a band of Blackfoot had come in and killed all the children and the Lakota woman. She had been unable to protect her children, and had died trying to defend them. Only the father and his son were left now.

For some reason, this story came into my consciousness from way back when I was 16 and my grandfather shared it with me. Then, a few hours earlier, I watching a Steven Spielberg movie for television, filmed with the Lakota, in the 1840's. I heard the songs and dances, and this movie stirred something in me. Then I went to sleep, thinking how synchronicity continues to find me.

In my dreams, my great, great grandmother came to me. She showed me what it had felt like to her when she had to leave her people and her way of life forever. She showed me the dreams she had had, and the desires to see her children grow up and dance in peace. None of them were fulfilled.

Then she showed me how all of those dreams had been fulfilled through my life! I saw how I had been able to watch my daughter learn fancy dancing when she was 13 years old, dancing in costume and loving it. My great, great grandmother had been watching.

Then I saw how she had been watching as I got to choose my own life-mate, based on love; as I learned the Lakota ceremonies, and shared them freely with other people; prayed inb the sweat lodge and became initiated into the Lakota pipe ceremony; she was always watching. Now at last, I am about to receive my true pipe into its ceremony. And every dream that she had, is now fulfilled.

In my dream, there was a gold and turquoise colored light that illuminated everything. I felt this ancestor of mine as her energy field moved into mine, and seemingly merged with my own body. When I awakened, I was moved to tears, and have felt very sensitive today, on the edge emotionally. And my heart feels like a ball of fire that has a palpable energy radiating from it. I am just giving myself time and space to integrate what is occurring. It is a greater gift than I could have imagined. So many pieces of the puzzle just fell into place now, and it feels right.

My gratitude goes out to the ancestors that walk beside us and see through our eyes every day. May all of your dreams be fulfilled!

Love,
Kachina

Another Stage of Manifestation

As I learned (or remembered) and became more present in the process of manifestation, I became very careful about intending or desiring things "for" other people. I had numerous opportunities to see that I could use my clarity to help manifest a desired set of conditions, such as healing or a new career path, sobriety, freedom from a burdensome relationship, etc.

Yet much of the time, the result was not as wonderful or life changing as it had been imagined to be. Sometimes the person desiring the change suddenly turned 180 degrees and went voluntarily back into the same suffering or miserable conditions that had just been removed!!! I became aware of the power of choice and how important it is. Gradually I came to know that we are all super-powerful beings, and most of the time we can not interfere with the life of another as they are acting their chosen script.

Yet recently I am being asked to move beyond this perspective that I had developed over a lifetime of review. Mother Earth is asking me to imagine an evolutionary vision of the world, even as it would positively affect a vast number of people, in great detail. I am seeing that everything must be intended, imagined, and energized before it is experienced in the physical world. (In the indigenous world, this envisioning and energizing process was known as "weaving the world". This role was typically filled by the grandmothers and other women who were not raising families.)

Today I had another opportunity to see how powerful this technique of world weaving is! I will tell this story in the next few days.

Kachina

New Unity

I am just beginning to feel the movement of new form into my physical manifestation. Through this past 90 day process, as it is winding to a close, I am experiencing a new and deeper relationship with the spirits of the land here.

When I go out to do work in the medicine Wheel or up on the hill in the Sacred Spiral, the spirits come in so close and in such great numbers that I am having a different sort of physical sensation connected with this experience. I am feeling so attuned to nature that my thoughts are often now aligning without any conscious intention on my part. It is as if I am an inseparable part of Earth herself. My heart and the heart of Mother Earth are beating together as one.

When I step into the Wheel, to connect with everyone in this 90 day journey, I feel as though we are just a heartbeat away, no matter where they all are on the Earth. I am experiencing the prelude to being able to move through holographic time from one location to another in an instant.

This journey of growing consciousness is wonderful! No matter where it takes me, I would not trade a single moment of it for anything else.

Today I want to express my deepest gratitude for all of you who have walked through this 90 day process together. I honor your courage, your commitment to healing, your will to evolve. It is the evolutionary spirits of those who are willing to step forward into change, to build your foundation upon uncertainty, and to share your personal process with the world, who will become the leaders and teachers of the new world that is emerging.

Thank you for the honor of being present with you through your process.

In Love and Truth,

Kachina

Shoulders to love.

The potential in consciousness and the magic of awareness and intention has yet again blow my socks off!

In my last blog I shared my experience with my completely indulgent weekend of self-love, forgiveness and heart opening. Today, I am honoring the changes in my physical body that have occurred no doubt as a result of all the release, forgiveness and self-acceptance and the clearing on the emotional and energetic plane.

I woke up this morning and was in awe of the placement of my shoulders. Usually quite concave and full of tension as thick and hard as concrete, this morning they sat on my body perfectly straight and aligned and are as light and loose as air, with no effort on my part to hold them there! It is quite literally tripping me out, it seems way to impossible to be real! Even sitting here looking at them I'm having a hard time believing what I am seeing!?

In Traditional Chinese Medicine when a persons shoulders curve inward it is a sign of heart protection and given that that is exactly what I spent my weekend focused on it is no wonder that, in addition to the emotional and energetic releases, that my physical pattern would let go as well!

I can't help but be amazed, befuddled to my core, seriously socks blown so far off I don't eve know where they've landed! It amazes me that a life time of muscle patterns and holding can literally be released in an instant if we are able and willing to identify the underlying emotional cause and let that go. Then it seems there is no effort necessary in releasing the physical pattern because it is truly in direct correlation to the emotional trauma, a coping mechanism if you will. At least this is my personal experiences with it in this moment.

This is also amazing to me because over the last 3 years I have spent many hours and dollars invested in this very thing, getting my shoulder to release.
For structural reasons but also for tension release.
I got 7 rolfing sessions, several massages, have implemented a daily yoga and pilates regimen for structural alignment, tai qi and qi gong in addition to the intention setting and asking my shoulder to let go...and though I am sure all of it helped and contributed to some degree I was majorly focused on the physical symptom and never thought to go straight to the source, my emotional body, specifically my heart and all its infinite wisdom and love.

With all the changes that have occurred in the last 4 days I am in such an euphoric state of gratitude, love, optimism and awe. Feeling so deeply blessed and overwhelmed with joy. Coming more fully into my personal power and not just knowing but now having a glimpse of a deeper understanding of just how powerful we all are and knowing that everything we need is really and truly within each of us, I get it, I totally get it!

What a gift it is to live and learn this journey. Sending my giant bubble of love and pink radiant light to each and every one of you! I am so in love with you all!

Aho.

A truth has been spoken

This past weekend I was blessed to attend a workshop called, Mending your Heart.
It entailed four classes three hours each with two hours of yoga asana practice and one hour of Native American ceremony including; talking circle, exercises in communication, forgiveness, connecting, listening and speaking from your true heart, chanting and singing and a purification water ceremony, it was beyond beautiful and transformational on all levels!

I have been asking the universe for sometime now for assistance on how to feel and live through my heart and this weekend I got my answer.
I was able to identify where my stagnation's were, feel what they did to my body and energy field and how I allowed them to dictate my life in a non-beneficial overly protective way.

Michael Sharp always says "what one man can do" and this weekend that took on a whole new meaning for me. What I can do is forgive. I can courageously go into those scary places that wanted so desperately to be shielded and forgotten and gently remove the armor and lay my hands upon my wounds and say "I love you" to assure these old hurts and pains that its okay, you are completely safe and accepted, I honor all you have done to assist me the best way you knew how to at the time but now it is time to let go.
What one man can do, forgive. Break the pattern of protection that no longer serves and heal the past, to do this for yourself is to do it for others and that powerful ripple is bigger than any anger and pain. I deeply deeply feel and have experienced the power of love. I forgive myself, I let my heart out of its iron box and I feel the power of this act of freedom, this act of merging my heart with the rest of my being and I can see all the pain in the world coming into the presence of this love and being washed away in an instant!

In 3 three short days I have come to know the answer to every question I ever asked, I have come to understand and accept every piece of my individual puzzle and I have come to a place now where I can look at myself in the mirror and say "I love you, every last bit of you, you are beautiful, powerful and magnificent!"
And now feeling so deeply this love and respect for myself I can go out and bathe others is love and hold that space for them to come into their own self-love, but I know and believe that if I am there then we are all already there and there is nothing left to fear!

With gratitude from the farthest part of the universe to the deepest core of the earth I honor each and everyone one of you.

Aho, a truth has been spoken.

A Request for All Journeyers

Here we are in the North, the stage of completion. In this stage, we have a beautiful opportunity that I am going to extend to each of you. The north , in many Native American traditions, represents connection with the Ancestors, and with all of life.

Some of you who took the 90 Day Program with a the last group in Anchorage Alaska, will remember that we did something at the very end. We opened the sacred talking circle and brought together two different groups of people who had completed this journey, for one night of sharing.

We can make the most profound transformation in our lives, yet if we do not bring that transformation forth into the world and SHARE IT, have we really accomplished anything?

So... I am inviting each one of you to share this website with at least one person that you know or love. Open your sacred space and allow selected individuals to share the journey you have just made, by inviting them to read about it here in these pages.

It does not matter whether they act on it, understand it, etc. What matters is that YOU open your gifts and sharing to the world. Something magical can happen!

Love and light,
Kachina

Connection and the workbook

Things that stand out:

Forgiveness:
I am sure over the years I have been told that forgiving myself will help me heal, I couldn't hear it. I spent many years working through trauma and doing different levels of forgiveness outside myself. This lead to more work and lingering issues that would not resolve. Forgiving myself changed and dissolved all outward judgement and grudges. Today I am grateful for hearing this information and allowing it to heal me.


Non attachment:
For the first time I am in the space of non attachment, which is very different than what I "thought" it meant. I have a son who is 16 and making some choices that would normally have me in reaction and control. Instead I found myself in non attachment, which has resulted in a very different outcome than anything I've experienced before. I didn't feed worry, fear and chaos but remained grounded and connected. This made space for responsibility to find it's way to my son without room for blame. Interesting. I still felt an abundance of love flowing without the rest of the garbage that usually attaches to such circumstances. WooHoo. The end result, I remained solid, grounded and connected, he is left with all that he created to see and learn from. A gift!

Name:
I skipped the name page last 90 day class and it resided inside me for the next two years. This go around, I am moving on through and have a whole new perspective on the rest of the pages. Honoring my true self with something as simple as a name has brought an abundance of growth that I am incredibly grateful for.

This 90 day feels as though it's the first time, as every page is new and evolved. I feel like I am me and I hardly remember the path to getting here. Details used to be my strong point. I love that I don't have to question because trust resonates within my being.

I am so grateful for this gift of transformation and for all who are connected in this group and sharing. Thank you is not enough to express my gratitude for Kathryn and Michael in the gifts they share and the humble example they show through their journey, Thank you from my heart, Michelle

I wanted to add; today I was fortunate to join a group,"The Tree People". I received some information from the trees about how they can assist in Blue Road Healing and being a vessel to the light. I saw a vision of trees everywhere radiating light and opening with a staircase inside. Entities or beings were guided into the tree staircase and moved up through the tree trunk, out the top of the tree and taken into the universe on the light coming from the tree. That a mass healing will be coming and a call to the trees will assist with this process. That in places where we are not available on the land to assist, the trees can. They are all connected and communicate.

Gratitude for the Regeneration of the Land of the Anasazi

Today, I want to express my gratitude for the regeneration of this beautiful and sacred land around us. Yesterday as we drove home from town, a neighbor flagged us down and we stopped to talk. The wind was still gusting and intermittent rain wa blowing through.

He acknowledged the amazing change that has come to the sage brush bushes in our immediate area. I have been watching them for a couple of weeks now as their leaves have increased, grown long and feathery and bright green! These are the same bushes that were once dry and silvery-difficult to tell the difference between what was alive and what was dead. Apparently Blew Thunder and I are not the only ones who are seeing the changes!

The most beautiful Pleiadean cloud ships were here this morning in a pure blue sky. I have felt the Star Being Ancestors moving closer again as we came into the North direction. They remind me how very much we are loved, each and every one of us.

Kachina

Gratitude Equals Completion

A long time ago, some elders in the sweat lodge helped me learn about the wisdom of the North. They told me that gratitude was a sensation that you feel in your body. It is a frequency that creates a certain vibration in our energy fields and in the cells of our bodies.

Up until this time, I had confused the true energy of gratitude with the words of gratitude. In my birth family, children were taught to say "Thank You" in any circumstance where someone had done something or given something for them. There was no connection to what one was truly feeling in that moment, only a required response. This behavior had been passed down for at least a few generations, for the adults of the family had no connection to the feeling of gratitude either, that I could see.

The elders encouraged me to sit with gratitude for days on end. Every time I caught my mind thinking (about anything), I would focus on my mantra-"Thank you, thank-you". I carried this forward into life, going about my daily routines and all the while running a constant undertone of "Thank-you, thank-you". And then it happened.

I woke up one morning and I had broken through the ceiling! I could feel my heart exploding with gratitude! It felt light, and teary, and ecstatic, and peaceful, an amazing jumble of sensation and energy. From that moment on I knew what gratitude was, I knew how to reach the frequency of gratitude, and how to generate it throughout my cells. Today, I thank the elders from the bottom of my heart for that one sweat lodge in which they talked about gratitude and opened the way for me to own it.

For every kharmic thread we weave through our lifetime, all must be fulfilled. EVERY DREAM, every desire, every thought, every incomplete, every vision. These must be fulfilled, at one time or another, in one lifetime or another, by someone, as life has no brakes. Unless a generated energy is recognized and the contract changed, it will come to be in some form or another. Fulfillment is the last stage of manifestation, the final turning of a giant wheel, before it begins another round! In gratitude, all kharma is dissolved, and we awaken to create from a conscious space.

My prayer today is this: May you find gratitude in your heart. May you experience the beauty of fulfillment and conscious co-creation. May you walk all your life in beauty. Aho.

Kachina

Anasazi Are Returning

It is my greatest hope that this post is received in the light of truth and self referral, as it is meant to be given.

This morning I awakened to the sound of wind and rain on the southern windows. Blustery clouds moving through quickly, with periodic breaks when the sky is blue and the sun peeks through. The Grandmothers entered my dreamtime and began to show me many images and connections, what I often refer to as a "download".

First they referred back to Drunvalo's youtube video about the Mayan message from Guatamala. They showed me how the surface of Mother Earth will align differently with the stars, and how may of our sacred sites will be aligned with completely different star energies after the polar shift, that will draw in new energy and information, facilitating the birthing of the new human consciousness. It was a beautiful vision in 3 D.

Then they told me about the time, up to one full week before the polar shift, and gave some signs that we will be able to see and hear to understand what is coming. All of our co-creatively activated sites, such as indigenous sacred sites, ancient monuments, and especially medicine wheels and co-creative gardens, will begin to radiate a tone or frequency that is audible. Some of those who have been doing ceremony at DiamondHeart or here at White Sage Landing, have heard this sound before. It seems to come from everywhere at once and has no point of origination. This tone will increase in the final days before the shift.

The next thing is light. There will be unusual colors and light emanating from all around us, again with no single point of origination, in the final three or four days before the shift. Those who have been in the sweat lodge and seen the flashes of light that the ancestors bring, will begin to see these everywhere, even in broad daylight. There will also be many orbs gathering around the sacred sites and areas where people are gathered.

When we see these things occurring, it is a time for celebration and honoring. Instead of thinking of it as some kind of ending, we can choose to regard it as the actual birthing process of the new world, a time of renewal, regeneration, and evolution of consciousness on Mother Earth. It may be wise to stay within your home as these final signs appear, for the duration of the polar shift. According to the Hopi and the Maya, this takes exactly 30 hours or 3 days.

During that three days, our planet is moving through the void. The darkness that sets in is complete darkness, and even the stars are not visible. It feels like being blind, and that is the time when humans are most vulnerable to descend into fear. Instead, it is very helpful to sing songs, build a fire, drum, envision, tell jokes, meditate, pray, etc. Remember, it is only for 30 hours and then we will emerge back into the light of Grandfather sun.

After the polar shift, the most important thing to figure out is WHERE you are in relation to the new poles, as there could be a vast change in the experience of the climate you are living in. But the most important awareness to hold may be this. This planetary change reflects a huge shifting of perspective internally for human consciousness and all life on Earth. Here is what Drunvalo and the Anasazi Grandmothers are saying about this shift in human consciousness.

First I must remind you of the Golden Mean, the ratio that all of nature imitates to create life. It is reflected mathematically in the Fibonacci sequence, named after the man who discovered it. This sequence begins with 1. Then you add the the last number to the previous number and you will have the next number in the sequence. Add 1 to nothing (since this is the beginning) and you have 1. That is the next number in the Fibonacci sequence. Then to make another evolutionary leap, you add 1 to 1, the next number is 2. Then you add 2 to 1, the next number is 3. Then you add 3 to 2, the next number is 5. You end up with a sequence of numbers like this:

1,1,2,3,5,8,13,21,34,55,...and on and on. For more understanding of this sequence and how it relates to nature's Golden Mean, listen to Drunvalo's video.

Now, human consciousness is about to make the leap from 34 to 55 (for the purpose of illustration). In order to do this, we must COMBINE or merge the two frequencies of 34-our modern technological human world, with the ancient foundation of the indigenous human consciousness that is our foundation-21. What this means to us humans is that we must embody our ancient indigenous consciousness within us, activate it, and remember it, in order to move forward to the next stage of evolution.

The elders that work with me have long been telling us that we who are living in the western hemisphere will become the teachers and facilitators for the spiritual consciousness of the new world, just as the eastern hemisphere has seen the origination of many religions and spiritual paths during the last age. I am to encourage all us to begin to think globally when we envision our roles in this new reality. I know this is a stretch for some of us, as we are healers and care-takers, and accustomed to keeping a low profile. Yet the Earth is asking us for something way out of our comfort zone.

Will we step up and begin to co-create this reality, step into these roles of leadership and ambassadorship? Only WE-each of us-hold this key. We can choose to use it now. We can choose to allow the emergence of our ancestral wisdom into the modern technical world.

In Love and Light,

Kachina

Two Eagles

Yesterday was an unexpected opportunity for Blew Thunder and I to give a gift. It started out as we awakened in the morning, each with a very strong dream about releasing kharma, or moving from kharmic exchange into a state of grace.

Then we walked to our neighbor's home, just to touch base with him on when he wanted us to help him dig post holes for a set of corrals that will be used to house "rescue horses" that are overflowing from the Best Friends Animal Sanctuary. These are horses that have been donated or removed from their owners from various reasons, often because they are no longer fit to do the task that the owner intended for them.

When we arrived at Lin's home, he and his current helper, Tim, were just stepping out to mark the holes for us to dig with the little bobcat post hole digger. It is like a mini-caterpillar with a hole digger on front.

Before we began, I asked the spirits of the land for permission, and dowsed the area to see if there were any non-beneficial energies to be transmuted or addressed before we began. For the first time in this area, there were no energies or issues to address! I was astounded, as there have been so many layers here to address whenever work is done on the land.

The four of us began to work, Lin and Tim doing the layout and Blew Thunder and I drilling the holes. The spirits of the land were eager, even excited, as if they were awaiting the arrival of these horses that would be coming. The digging went very smoothly, and not a single hole was relocated because of rock-another rare occurrence!

Half way through, we took a break and drummed, and sang a song for the ancestors. A woman named Claudia (a massage therapist from Kanab) arrived, and brought oranges. The atmosphere became very celabrational, as it does after ceremony at DiamondHeart. It felt like a big pow-wow was going on all around us as we finished out the hole digging. Tim kept the drum going and walked all around the land as we worked, honoring the spirits and Mother Earth. The Anasazi were so strong and present that we could all feel them watching us through the veil.

We were nearly done when two huge eagles soared above us and honored us. We looked and saw that we had been working for 5 hours non-stop, we made 80 holes, and it had gone by in the blink of an eye! The synchronicity we experienced in this day was amazing.

As we went to go home, our neighbor thanked us with tears in his eyes, for he had been waiting for this corral for two years! It was such a delight to give this kind of gift to someone who has given so much to the community here at White Sage, and has not received the acknowlegement for those gifts. It felt truly like a completion was taking place.

And then today, I went to Drunvalo's site and decided to watch his video update from the Serpent of Light book. He explained a lot about the Guatamalan Mayans and Hopi views on the planetary Ascension happening now. It is a great video and well worth watching! The link is here:

http://www.youtube.com/user/DrunvaloFlowerofLife#p/f/14/Wy9TGbE2F-8

It aligns exactly with all the Anasazi have been saying to me. Later today, I was guided to do a ceremony in the medicine wheel, connecting with the Grandmothers and making prayers and intentions for the planetary physical shift that the woodpeckers have been alerting us to in the last few days.

Then BT and I planned some of the details around a new workshop we will offer this summer, soon to be revealed!

In love and service,

Kachina

Amazing Outcomes

Hello all, thank you for all you are sharing! I just got back on & read the blog after 2 weeks.

April 7th my brother Francisco tried to harm himself by cutting his wrist. I had to take him to the hospital from which we both knew he would be going to API, a sad realization. He said he was hoping Raquel would not have to know he had cut himself which showed me how far he was from reality. I was very sad that he was being institutionalized again. At our house he had been making juices and helping me cook. I was focussed on encouraging him to clean out toxins. He was not interested himself though he clearly enjoyed the good food. When I connect to him through dowsing I get that he was not yet ready, not yet passed through the madness, that he does want to stay on the planet, wants me to hold the vision. I am told he is whole, all is well and that he loves me. At API he will rarely take my calls and does not want me to visit. He does express gratitude or love when he does sometimes decide to talk.

It was not easy with him here because he was not himself. He was severely depressed. He was not taking his medication though telling me he was. He rarely uttered a word except to say thank you or yes or no. He loves jazz & was listening to Miles Davis's most experimental albums on high volume late at night! He looked so distressed & weighted down. I did not see this coming. I felt his brooding presence and downward energy drawing on my energy. I made affirmations that I receive energy & nourishment directly from Source. Since he left 10 days ago, I have felt my stress unwinding like a corkscrew . Raquel was so sweet with him but it was difficult for her. At least he is now here in Alaska nearby. I am holding the vision.

Yesterday was amazing. A mom came to pick up Raquel for a sleepover. She offered & spent a few minutes facilitating some body talk between me and my wrist. It was simple like "Hello wrist" and waiting for my wrist to answer. Then getting the wrist to say hello and I would answer. Just being acknowledged in this simple way seemed to make my wrist come alive! I began to use it. It reminded me to converse with my wrist which I decided I would do once they left.

When I first tuned in to my guidance I was directed to read the "empowered ascension" section of the spring Food for Ascension newsletter. I recognized my desire for ascension is to be at a vibration to co-create something as exquisite as a flower, the co-creation of Divine and beautiful expressions that assist all life. I was directed to start taking the suggested foods & herbs mentioned there.

Next I checked in with my wrist and it told me all is healing for an amazing outcome: the metal plate will help my connection for automatic drawing of sacred geometry and Syrian DNA patterns that will assist me and others in healing and ascension. You are kidding! The Syrian star beings will be guiding my wrist, not my mind. Yeah, get that head out of there! I will also be drawing them in places on Mother Earth to initiate the release of 3-D energy to allow the influx of 5-D energies, 12-60 for 13/260. For me it will be joyous heart-resonating work that will create abundance. Is anyone getting confirmation here? When I 1st knew who my surgeon was to be I did a balance between his spirit, my spirit and the Divine Planetary Blueprint in my Medicine Wheel. Kathryn said that with the balance I had set myself up for an amazing outcome.
Interestingly, I had been admiring and enjoying Kathryn's drawings in her new recipe book. I particularily was drawn to the drawings on the pink pages, feeling a big heart opening and joy.

Next I was guided to do a Blue Road Healing in the Medicine Wheel for myself and many others that I was told were there waiting. Funny, I had been asking for several days to do one and always being guided that I did not need to. I had been feeling heavy, low, cloudy and uncertain for days and now I get the go ahead.

I did a beautiful ceremony of gratitude and the Blue Road Healing. Lastly I was guided to ask for Divine Assistance for my brother Francisco and for Tammy's brother using the rose quartz egg that Tammy gifted to me for brother medicine.

I came inside and made some of Kathryn's Vegan Cowboy Beans, yum, yeeha! What a shift this day! Thank you amazing Universe! Thank you teachers!

(p.s. My heart was joyous to hear mention of my brother Bennett present and assisting at White Sage. Thank you for that message!!!!!!!!!!!!)

SkyWalker Sings with her Heart

Mother Earth and the Mer-Ka-Ba

I have told this story before, yet it is still so meaningful to us today that I feel compelled to tell it again.

In 1999, in December, I received an invitation from from a group sponsoring an Aromatherapy Convention in Arizona. They were scheduled for February or March, and asked for early reservations.

At that time, Blew Thunder and I were struggling financially, as our business at Mariposa Whole Life Center had dissolved when the city of Anchorage took over the property in an imminent domain takeover. I glanced at the flyer and threw it away, not even considering going as an option, since I did not have the funds for a plane ticket, let alone the conference cost.

As the date drew very close, I was reminded of the conference with another flyer in the mail. Then one morning Blew Thunder woke up and said, "I think you should go to Arizona. I have enough frequent flyer miles to get you there. There is a reason to go!"

It was a really fast decision, and while Blew Thunder arranged the ticket schedule, I called my parents who lived near the conference hotel and arranged to stay with them. Everything fell together and in a matter of days, I was on the plane from Anchorage to Seattle, en route to Phoenix.

It was a red-eye flight, so as we were coming in to Seattle, it looked like a beautiful sunny morning just dawning on the horizon. I buckled my seatbelt as we prepared for landing. As we were approaching the airport, the angels suddenly cam in to my awareness. They quickly asked me to visualize a mer-ka-ba (special star tetrahedron shaped energy field) around the city of Seattle. They quickly brought my consciousness to an area in each direction where the mer-ka-ba field ended, (the western edge was out in the ocean), and had me breathe life light into the field. Then they said everything was ready.

I asked the angels what was going to happen, I remember wondering if the plane was going to crash, but they would not tell me. Instead they just shined me in a beautiful light that made it literally impossible for me to be afraid. At that moment, I was unconcerned if I lived or died, I felt so totally connected to source that the details just did not matter!

The plane came down smoothly, and I just sort of put the whole experience in my "wait and see" file, and went to collect my baggage. I had walked only a few yards from the gate (I remember being right next to a yogurt store) when the earth began to rumble and shake. People started running all around, and the angels told me to step over right next to a huge support pillar and stay there until the shaking stops.

Very calmly, I stood next to this great round column and watched as ceiling tles came down all around me and the lights went out in the yogurt store. I felt the heightened senses of full presence, without any fear of panic. I just kept breathing this calmness into the mer-ka-ba, the feeling of grace and that everything is in perfect synchronicity.

In a little while the shaking stopped and people were clearing the building. Many had gone outside on the tarmac. I walked back to the gate and watched the tv there. The news crews were on it immediately, and were already filming areas of damage, responses from individuals, etc.

The first scientists they talked to calculated this as a 7.0 earthquake. Yet, as we watched over the course of the day, there was not a single individual that was killed or seriously injured in this huge city!!!

Many ambulances and emergency crews began to report that they were responding to great numbers of panic attacks, and one individual did die of a heart attack during the quake. There was damage to highways, bridges, and office buildings. In any other situation, with this level of a quake, at the busy 9-10 am time frame, there would have been many fatalities.

I knew that being consciously involved in this event, holding the mer-ka-ba energy field of grace in the city as it rocked, combined with the level of consciousness of the general population in Seattle, all combined to co-create a completely different reality of the experience of earthquake on Mother Earth. I was so blessed to be a part of this!

The angels later told me that the humans would be so astounded at the outcome that they would override the first scientific calculations and down-grade the quake strength to somewhere around a 4 or 5. This was the only way they could make sense of it! And sure enough, by the next day, they had done just that. They though it could not have been what it was and result in no fatalities!

In about 24 hours, the airport was able to open again and I was back on the plane to complete my journey. I knew that the true purpose of the journey had already happened for me. I enjoyed the rest of my trip, and thanked the angels for helping me to learn more about how to usse the mer-ka-ba field through experience.

Many blessings!
Kachina

Woodpecker Heralds Change

Early this morning, Blew Thunder and I were greeted with the drumming of a woodpecker on the wall by our bed. This woodpecker pecked into my dreams and helped me to remember what the Grandmothers were saying to me in my dreamtime.

Lately there has been a quickening of earthquakes and volcanic activity that is evident to almost everyone. Yesterday evening, the whole hour of news on channel 2 was dedicated to the 4.0 earthquake in northern Utah that occurred yesterday morning. This is a very rare event for this area, which has been stable for a long period.

At the same time right now on Mother earth, there are earthquakes happening in Europe, South America, and Indonesia. There are activating volcanos in Alaska and Iceland. In light of all that is happening on our physical plane, the Grandmothers asked me to disseminate this message to all who would hear it.

Mother Earth is getting ready to take us all on a little journey of physical change. As these events accelerate, it is UP TO US how we experience these changes. If we perceive these changes as events that are beyond our control, that are "happening to us", we will experience that reality of powerlessness and victimization.

If we choose instead to remain in the consciousness of the heart, knowing that we are loved, that nothing happens by chance, and that we are participating in a physical healing process for Mother Earth, we will experience a completely different reality. IT IS UP TO US!

Knowing this, the understanding of this time of purification of our own physical bodies, about which tskarrow so eloquently wrote on April 15, is what has prepared us to move through these changes in trust instead of fear. Each of us in this 90 Day program have had our dance with moving from fear and distrust of our bodies' healing process into trust and acknowledgment.

We once felt that we had to get the body under control, and do things to make it heal. Gradually we began to see sickness as cleansing, balancing, or healing. We began to trust the body in its own processes, no matter what the symptoms, and finally to support those processes with herbs, massage, movement, intention, and other forms of support. Gradually our consciousness moved from fear and separation from the body, to participation and unity.

This shift, on a much larger scale, is the exact same shift that we will be undergoing now in the next few years on Mother Earth. Instead of distrust and separation from the consciousness and intelligence of the body, we will be transforming distrust and separation from the consciousness of Mother Earth herself.

Knowing that we may be in an area that experiences some of the changes on a large physical scale, there are also some tools that we all have in our toolboxes that I want to remind us of in this moment. One is the ability to meditate and go into a sacred space. If you should find yourself in an area where the external space is falling apart around you, you will remember in that moment to turn your attention inward to that sacred space of the heart.

Close your eyes and take 4 deep breaths. In that moment, the heart connection is made strong. When fear and chaos are howling around us, but we go inward and relax, we suddenly can draw upon the most magical guidance and experience of unity. We will instantly know where to go, what to do, how to be in grace through any situation.

For those who have activated the light body, it is now time to begin using it. When you hear the little prompting of spirit to go into the light body and connect, deep into the stillpoint at the center of the Earth, follow that prompting! Everything can change in the blink of an eye. You can become a participant in co-creation with Mother Earth. Tomorrow I will write about an experience I had in Seattle in a 6.8 earthquake there.

Many blessings,

Kachina

Beautiful Spring

Today around noon Blew Thunder checked the outdoor temperature, it was 80 degrees! The wind was still, there was an amazing hush across the valley, and I could hear birds singing. I spent some time watching a kingbird build her nest out of pieces of deer hair and little twigs. Spring has truly come to White Sage in a big way.

Everything felt new, and fresh , and alive. The aroma of sage brush, the sparkly feeling of mountain air, the dramatic deep blue sky, and the feeling of magical anticipation that heralds spring on the Kaibab plateau, all made me so happy to be alive. I truly felt the blessing of being present here on Mother Earth NOW, for this amazing time the elders called the "time of Purification".

We get to participate in the awakening of human consciousness. We get to live in a human body and experience life, breathe real air, touch, taste, feel, hear, (and sing!) the world. We get to know love, and all its colors and shades.

May each of you share your heart with someone tomorrow.

In Love,
Kachina

I have been here and been present with you all, listening and learning through each word in each post. It is beautiful. I feel a familiar beauty in me but it is clouded by a curtain of self-doubt, a piece of me that is just not quite wanting to trust the process...for good reason...

Years back I experienced a major health crisis. My skin and joints were yelling out for help in a majorly uncomfortable and very public way. I overcame and cleansed these things with assistance, and am grateful for that. But through this current 90 day process am experiencing similar cleansing...a scary and uncomfortable reality for me to revisit. Because of this, I am working very hard to let go...let go of the fears that surround my trust in my body's ability to heal, let go of the idea that this is a sickness, let go of the concept that I may always have to "deal" with this. It is so very hard to be faced with symptoms that revert me to an earlier self; full of fear and lacking self confidence. I know that these are cleansing symptoms, my heart knows it is ok, but it is the stubborn mind that remembers the "before pictures" and sets the fear in motion.

So I take this time to make it known that I am not afraid. Fear will not take me to that place I have been and left behind long ago. I will trust in the timing and use this moment to commit to my body to continue to help it along it's path. I will listen to my body and support it with what I best know how. I allow and observe the cleaning powers rush out my limbs. And I care for my limbs as as I have never before. I will repeat to myself that I trust the process, and eventually I will with my whole being, heart and mind together. I will try very hard to stay positive and let go of the fear...for my lesson this 90 days is of letting go...of the past and the future and learning to be here now.

I support you all in your journey's...whatever they may be. Thank you for listening.

I will let go of the river walls and flow with the current...

Old Contracts

Wow, today I finally realized that I have spent the whole first half of the 90 days unaware of a very old contract that I am breaking through in a very big way!

The old contract involves doing things on my own, by myself, etc. The unconscious motivation behind this contract is the belief that I have to do things myself in order to create what I want (the results I want, or the level of quality that I want); and the deep desire to control outcome.

I am seeing this issue dissolve in every direction, as I open daily to let go of some little piece that I was unconsciously trying to control. Amazing people are coming across my path to offer help and direction, and the creative element has never been more exciting! Even though I had revealed this to myself several years ago, and done some ceremony around letting go at that time, I feel that this time the last holding pattern in transforming.

I feel myself opening, and receiving the flow of the universe!

This morning I was reminded of one of the Universal Laws of Manifestation. It was the law of the south, the law of circulation. It states that, if there is anything that we desire, especially something that we seem to be lacking in our experience of life, we can create that very thing in our lives by giving it away.

You might say, "How can I give away something I don't have?" But think about it. I wanted to raise my frequency and experience physical ascension, so immediately I began to find ways to help other people raise their frequency. If a person decides they want to live in sobriety, the first thing they often do is to go to group meetings where they can support others who are choosing the same lifestyle. If someone wants to become prosperous, they align with others who are also seeking prosperity, and soon they are all living in true abundance.

My point is, if you are struggling with something that seems impossible to change, find a way to reach out and help others with the same issue! It dissolves all barriers and the universe begins to flow energy into your life in a new form. You will soon receive exactly what you once were struggling to create.

Kachina

I am a Goddess

I am a Goddess. I am a Dancer. I Dance my Prayers. I Dance my Dreams Awake. I Dance. That is part of my intention for this "90" Days. Who said this was going to be easy? I do want this Ascension Life, Way of Being in the World. I believe that it is Truth. I must also believe in myself, I am starting to understand that now. So, here I am sitting here sipping my Green Pineapple Juice and soon to be eating some vegetable food. I am doing this, it is not 100% like I want it to be. Put the whip down - I have to constantly remind myself of that. Who am I racing, like if I don't do this quickly that it will somehow be too late. I know that I don't want my Body to degenerate anymore and every choice has everything to do with Regeneration, it is so easy to forget. When will I reach the point in the curve when it is easier to be High Frequency than to not be? I know that isn't being the in the Present, but that is what I want. So, here I am Universe. I know I can do this/be this. I know I have the strength and the courage, but first I must have Love. Love for me through and through.

The One Choice

I was reminded last weekend of the time when I first arrived in Alaska, in 1992. I had driven in my little Toyota pick up from Wisconsin across the Dakotas and up through Canada to Anchorage. I made the whole journey with no plan or itinerary, allowing my spirit to guide me as to which highways to take, when to drive, when to stop, and where to sleep. It was a magical time in my experience, when ravens surrounded me everywhere I went, and wolves, coyotes, deer, and bears met with me along the way to give me the gift of their insights and medicine.

Near the end of my journey, as I came within 100 miles of Anchorage, I could feel myself moving back into the kharmic fields around the city. It was a feeling of sadness mixed with compassion for my own give-away; for when I was so clear after two weeks on the highway with minimal human contact and a complete embracing from the world of nature and the animals, I was able to feel the density of the choice I was making. It was hard in a way, because I had found in past 3 years that I could live quite easily in complete trust, with every need always taken care of, without ever entering the 12/60 vibrational field. I simply manifested everything that was necessary for my life, receiving those things from the Ancestors as they were provided. I knew that the level of constant communion with spirit would be challenged as I returned into the world of humanity.

Within the first few weeks of being in Anchorage, I was repeatedly introduced to a group of Lakota people who, along with Athabaskan, Tsimshian, Tlingket, Haida, Cheyenne, Cheroke, Apache, and many other tribal peoples, had initiated the first inter-tribal Drum in the northern country. They talked about the legend that some of the Lakota elders had talked about, that when the big drums (inter-tribal drums) came at last to the northern shores, a great light would shine out of the north and illuminate the world, causing the human beings to remember who they are and why they came here. It would be the beginning of the end of all separation.

A whole group of us newbies joined the drum at the same time. We were passionate about the prophecies, and the energy for new dance groups and new drums began to take off. It was a time when judgment was beginning to unravel, where color and race did not matter, all that mattered was what's in your heart. Elders shared their wisdom and ceremonies with all who wished to participate. The spirit of the Ancestors began to grow in the people and they began to reclaim their power and thrive.

My first few times at the drum were almost scary. These drums carried the spirit of the people, and were regarded as Mother Earth's heartbeat. Their sacredness was honored by walking around them in a clockwise manner. People brought tobacco to scatter across the drum in blessing. The inter-tribal drums had been brought to Anchorage with the intention for healing our communities. Men and women from all walks of life-judges, policemen, teachers, invalids on welfare, ex-cons (many ex-cons), children, and particularly those in recovery from alcohol or substance abuse-all were equally welcome around the drum.

There was only one rule that was strictly enforced. Before being invited to sit at the drum, or even attend an event where the drums were present and open, one had to be completely free of alcohol for two weeks. This was true for drug addictions as well, but the alcohol was the one that gathered the most focus from the elders. They were intent on creating a safe place where alcohol was completely absent, where people could experience the frequency of empowerment that is not available when this substance is in our life/energy field. The elders felt that if people could step into that frequency periodically, over and over, they would begin to make the connection for themselves to the experience of life not under the influence of alcohol.

Gradually, the elders felt, they would begin to make the choice for sobriety. And it was amazing to see, young children giving up alcohol (because they already had experience of it in their lives!) and embracing their inherent wisdom. Men and women with low self-esteem, coming to the drum and finding themselves whole once again. It was such an honor to be allowed to share the songs, healing, life, and dreams of the people who came to the drum.

The drum keepers took their roles very seriously. All the choices they made as a group were prayed over, meditated with, and reflected on to find the choice that would be of the greatest service to the people. They went in the sweat lodge for purification ceremonies regularly, and avoided all contact with anything that they felt would compromise their personal frequencies. Though they were all human, and made some choices that they would later examine and redirect, their dedication to this service was a life choice that inspired them to be more. The elders continued to encourage us all to keep doing ceremony, as it would raise our frequencies in a way that nothing else alone could do. They always said, if we did ceremony and sweat lodges regularly for year after year, pretty soon we would be vibrating at a level that would draw people to us just to experience this frequency.

I remember at the time thinking that it was a little unlikely. Now, after many experiences of this very thing, I now know from experience that what they told me was true. A perfect example of this happened today, as Blew Thunder and I were finishing up our laundry at the Fredonia laundromat.

A neighbor had seen our car in the parking lot and came in to tell us about the Forrest Service Open House that was going on. It was an outreach to the community to gather responses about a proposed limitation of motor vehicle travel on the Kaibab plateau. Many small roads were due to be closed and traffic redirected to larger roads.

Michael and I both felt that we were to go in and visit the open house for some reason. We do not have much experience on the Kaibab plateau, nor do we have an opinion of whether or not to close any roads. Instead, we went in to gather information and make a connection.

When we first walked in to the meeting, we were the only public in the room at that moment. We quickly heard the presentation, then I felt the ancestors begin to urge me to speak on behalf of Mother Earth. Apparently Michael felt the same thing, for he opened his mouth and out came the most amazing things about taking care of the Earth, and how she responds to us when we communicate with her. In a moment, the Grandfathers were talking through us, I could feel the ancestor lights swirling around us as they do in the sweat lodge.

And I watched as one Forrest Service representative after another came into the room, quietly took a place, and listened as though they had never heard this before. It was astounding what the Grandmothers and Grandfathers said through us, and after we were done sharing as we left, they each stepped forward to shake our hands and introduce themselves. I felt as though something had been activated in their hearts that had been asleep for a long, long, time.

And I expressed my gratitude-so much gratitude that it brings tears of joy to my eyes!-that I had the courage to make that one choice for sobriety way back in 1978, then to renew the vow once again with the Northen Lights Drum in 1992. That choice is what opened up the possibility for everything I am now doing with my life. Just that one choice.

Kachina333

The Power in Simplicity

I have been in a funk lately, of the worst kind! Lost, hopeless, stagnant.
The feelings of powerlessness in my own creation left me feeling useless and confused. Though my foods were still high vibration I was self medicating with coffee in the morning and wine at night. My vibration lowered to the point where I feel like a blob of solid matter. I attribute this shift in vibration more from my thoughts and feelings about myself lately then my ceilings, thought I'm sure those played a role as well.

Ziji Boombasa and I went on a hike yesterday, it was short but steep. The whole way up I was frustrated and annoyed at how challenging the climb was. I was out of breath, my legs were burning, I had completely succumbed to the negative thoughts in my head, not even noticing where I was and really how good it felt to move my body.
When we got to the top I laid down on a big flat rock. It was so windy and I was so desperate for a shift in perception that I called in Archangel Michael and with the assistance of the wind spirits and the stone people I did a blue road healing. Releasing any part of anything that wasn't me, wasn't beneficial to me and letting it all go, NOW!
Letting the wind purify my aura and cleanse my spirit, I lay there repeating the mantra, visualizing the golden grid of protection around me, expressing my desire to move back into alignment with myself.

I woke up this morning feeling better then I have in a long time. My body craving citrus, I made a juice of grapefruit,lemon and ginger. Cooked a big pot of soup with extra roots, brewed up some parasite tea and began feeding my body what it has been asking for but what I have been consciously denying it.
I looked around at the shift that occurred overnight and was overwhelmed with gratitude that I have the knowledge and tools to support myself on this level.
I am so grateful to know what I know about foods, juices, etheric energy clearing.
I value so deeply all of it especially these experiences of going back and forth between light and dark, these are my lesson, my teachers, showing me first hand the power of a blue road healing, the power of feeding my body what it asks for.
I was overwhelmed with gratitude for these experiences because of them, when the time is right, I will be a better guide and teacher for those who do not yet have the privilege of knowing this information or who have forgotten it during their incarnation.

I can feel my core buzzing right now, I can feel my alignment, my mind is clear.
Body, mind and soul becoming one again, balanced and united.
Apple, parsley and celery is on the menu, it feels soooo good to be back!

The Universe Never Ceases to Amaze Me

Steve called me from his far away from home job and as he was sharing, I was smiling. It's a given that within a group and sharing there is common issues, feelings, revelations, etc. This is "given" as something I understand. What is amazing, yet not surprising, is how those who are connected to us as we travel this wheel in the 90 day course, travel right along with us. Steve is not part of this blog but still very much in sync with this group. It was a quick thought when I signed up and he didn't, "what will that mean for us as a couple and family, knowing the power of what the 90 days has in store". As it should be, we are doing it together. Fantastic.

I spent this day in a co-creation gardening class which was much more like a coming home than a class. At the end of the day the nature spirits swept me up in a nature hammock and said take a nap. Oh the joy of living in harmony and the magic all around.


Co-creation is everywhere and in everything, even when we don't see it right away.

THANK YOU!!!!

Michelle

Expanding Co-creation

I am feeling the shift in the energies. I feel the energy increasing for physical work. My challenge this season could and would be about creating more balance. It is so sneaky for me-finding balance!

Kathryn and I just completed a big hurdle in blowing in the insulation of the ceiling downstairs that had to be done before we could move forward. I wasn't really looking forward to it because it was going to be so messy! Now that job is complete.

A very interesting experience came from it. We had to drive 130 miles one way to return the insulation blower back to Lowe's in Saint George Utah. On our way there, we usually buy our gas in Mocasin, because it is a reservation and we don't have to pay gas tax on it. Currently 39 cents a gallon cheaper than local area.

While in line to pay for the gas, I saw two women who had driven 150 miles one way to purchase 6 cartons of cigarettes, she paid $250.00. She told me the local cigarettes with taxes, would have cost over $600.00 for the same amount.

For me, I thanked the two women for reminding me of the gratitude I had for finally letting go of cigarettes about 8 years ago. They both wished that they could quit. So in the co-creative essence of the exchange, I got to share with them how I had the desire released from me. It ended up being pretty cool, because neither of them had ever heard of doing it that way.

The real gift came for me to see the power of a ceiling. I saw how I stayed stuck in my own evolution until the ceiling started to be revealed and the denial left. I could now deal with the substance one on one. Most importantly, breaking the illusion of it "being okay", It would no longer have an effect on me raising my frequency. I finally became aware of the cost of my denial.

The greatest gift I see in coming together as a whole or a group or a circle, is the wisdom that each one of us brings. Yesterday one of the local guys that we have really developed a fond relationship with is a Master mechanic(among other things). I had asked him for assistance with our bobcat excavator.

So Sandy came out at 9 am with his trailer, we loaded up "Skippy" the bobcat, and took it into his shop. We just had a wonderful time repairing and giving TLC to Skippy to increase his longevity. Sandy showed me ways to assist in maintaining it.

In the past, I would have felt like I needed to buy all these tools and buy the maintenance books and do it all myself. Because it wasn't okay to ask, among other reasons.

I would have missed out on a great day, with a wonderful man. This great man's wife has some physical challenges that we in turn might assist them with. My point being, in co-creation, we get to draw on the group from all of their strengths. This raises the level of each of us, like Michelle asking if any animal communicators have any ideas (Thank you).

"Together what we could not do alone!"

Blew Thunder

Gratitude for the sharing

I glanced at the calendar and saw that this was a portal day. Two days ago the thought came through to do a blue road healing, a big one on this entire house. It left as quickly as it came. The reminder today was a blessing, thank you Kathryn. I did one immediately after reading and felt an intense tingling up my spine and through the back of my head. I drummed and toned for at least a half of an hour. This will need to happen daily here.

Detachment from emotion is an on and off thing for me. I am consumed by the emotions and have zero control then I have no emotional reaction at all. It's fun to experience the shifts.

The view is so much more magnificent than I have ever seen before. Driving to work each day I see the mountains and all their splendor. This last week they have been really jumping out of the scene as well as the birds. Three times today, planes took off over head and I swear they were flying lower than ever before. The last one cast a huge shadow over the car while I was driving and both Trysten and I were caught in the awe of it. WOW!

The animals who reside within our family are behaving very strangely, they have for awhile but it's getting more intense. I feel like all three of them are glued to me. When I put up the gate to keep them upstairs they fight to see who can lay the closest to the gate when I am downstairs. I am tripping over them and they are consistently trying to be in my space, on top of me, licking me and fighting over me. Hmmmm. Animal communicators, do you have any ideas????

A couple of weeks ago I was in a public sauna and there were some other people in there as well. I sat there with closed eyes and started to feel swirling energy, grey and heavy. Normally I would begin to filter, pick up and engage in some way. This time I saw Lynx walk through though the door, she looked at me and said, it's time to go and I got up and walked out. This is still resonating within me and I am very grateful for this assistance and clarity and how easy it is to trust without question.

Doors are opening and saying YES where I would normally hesitate is proving to pave a new path. Opportunity is everywhere when my eyes and ears are open. I see the dream in everything and everywhere.

A few days ago I read something: "You are already a light weaver". I reflected on how much time I dedicate to becoming and how I am already.
In another reading I heard, "I am another you and you are another me". How easily I find myself in love instead of judgement in allowing this message to penetrate my being.

Action through fear is creating my presence in the now as I have considered it the future.

To all of you for sharing and for connection and presence in this circle, I am Grateful.

Aho

Michelle

Blue Road Healing

This morning I awakened with a dream that felt chaotic, as if something had stirred up the bottom of the pond. Michael awakened at the same time with some painful spots in his body. Then we realized that today is the second of 2 Portal days in the Mayan Dreamspell calender. These are the best days to assist in the journey for souls, energies, entities, etc. to return home.

We both realized that we had done a lot of disruptive construction over the past couple of days, filling all the cavities in our ceiling with recycled cellulose fiber insulation. Over the years, we have found that whenever there is disruption or deconstruction on the physical level, we almost always notice that spirits or entities connected with those spaces surface into our awareness. Many times, such as today, they are ready to go home.

We called upon the Archangel Michael and asked for his facilitation in relocating these beings. First the one that was stationed in Michael's physical body left, along with the painful spots. Then I felt something leave my emotional body, as if a dark cloud lifted. Finally I "saw" a huge number of human souls gathering around the medicine wheel, also asking to go home.

I saw them leave inside a huge beam of magenta colored light. As they were going, my own guides said to me, "Their contracts are over. They have been here for 13,000 years and now they are going home."

In a little while, I plan to smudge the whole house, medicine wheel, and general area. I know that when I am in the west is often when Blue Road Healing is helpful and necessary. The signals often show up as a deep plunge in our sense of well-being or mood. Sometimes they show up as cravings, unwanted thoughts and desires, or emotional or physical pain.

About eight years ago, I went through a time when I could not seem to keep clear. Every contact I had with people outside of DiamondHeart, and sometimes even just walking around outside, I would "pick up" a hitch-hiker in my energy field and have to do a Blue Road Healing, sometime every day. Every time I tried to set up protective energy fields or program for instantaneous transfer of all energies seeking home, I found that the programs just would not hold.

I felt like my life was going to be about clearing energies, and I just finally surrendered to the whole thing. I accepted that I was a sponge for these beings and maybe it would never be any other way. My choices seemed to be avoidance of life OR constant time in ceremony.

Then in a few short months, I began to see a different perspective. I realized that this was a gift and a blessing from spirit. I was being shown, over and over, how I attract these spirit energies into my field, through judgment and victimization. Just the slightest wobble of judgment in my mental field can open a whole for unconscious spirit energies to come in. Once inside my field, they try to stay hidden (and they are very good at it!) so they can stimulate emotional responses that I think are my own. They feed off of the emotional energy that is generated. This is what parasites do.

It is up to us to wake up and see what is affecting us, to reclaim our mental/emotional health and stability, and just say "I see you and you can not stay here any longer. How can I assist you in going home?"

The next Portal day is coming up on the 28th of April. It is also a Pacal Votan day, a day of connecting with the evolutionary intentions of our Mother Earth and the whole galaxy. Michael and I will be doing a Blue Road Healing that day, and ask all of you to join us if it resonates with truth for you.

Love and Blessings,
Kachina

Lets see what comes out?

Connecting in, I'm rolling my eyes and feeling somewhat blah. Wanting, wanting something but don't don't know what? On the cusp, the edge, frozen, still, sitting there enjoying the view from the top, looking at the long way down. I can only see about halfway down before the view disappears and goes black. The air feels more amazing then air on my skin has ever felt before, the smell of the wind is a more delicious then I ever remember it smelling and the view, to attempt to describe it would only belittle its magnificence. I feel as though all my senses are heightened like a constant scurry of bugs on my skin, I feel so much its almost as if the feeling itself passes right through me and I am cover with chills and goose bums from the inside out.
I want to cry with relief because all these years I thought I could feel and now to experience feeling in this way, I am so happy! I cry for my past self, I cry for others who have yet to feel and allow themselves this experience of the pureness of true joy, that is the simplest yet most illusive place, the present moment.
The tears fall and I sit inside myself watching, I'm not even me? It's befuddling because in this new place the revelation that I am not me affects not only those things that no longer serve but also those things that I love dearly and hold close to my heart.
Non-attachment can really feel like not caring because it is the exact opposite of what we are conditioned to feel. So I step lightly checking and double checking myself to be sure that just because I am non-attached doesn't mean that I don't care it just means that my trust in the divine order and brilliance of the universe is solidified inside of me and because of that simple knowing I am forever abundant.
I trust that all things "good and bad" are exactly what they are for a reason!
Even if in this moment the reason, which it currently is, is unknown to me.
I stay here willingly now because I know someday I will look back and say "that was an amazing lesson, I am so glad I went through that."
I don't want to have to look back anymore and say "I wish I had stayed present for that lesson or period of time in my life, where has my life gone?"

My reverence for life and all that entails is so grand and mindboggling that I wonder where I have been all this time. It doesn't even matter because I am here now and Oh My God, it was so worth the wait!

The secret message in meat and life's many rebellions

First of all. it's been a while... I have been a bit rebellious lately, against my will! I am having an over-powering problem with commitments!!! I cant commit to ANYTHING lately. ANYTHING. Even the things I want so badly to do... I cant.
The other day I was talking to this lady on the phone about our dogs and we got to talking about taking our dogs for walks and I told her how I take my boy on these amazing walks daily that wear him out than she was like "ooh well, maybe you would be interested in taking my dog on walks with you, I can pay you" and NATURALLY I was tickled with the thought of it, I had never met her dog before but she sounded like the sweetest little thing and seriously, what better job for me, hanging out with my boy and other random dogs AND getting paid for it?? common, that has my name written allllllll over it. SO we made this plan, I was going to call her the next day, whenever it was that I decided to go and that was that. I was very excited! the second we got off the phone, I sat there smiling and giddy at the very idea of it.....seconds went by and THUD! my heart plummeted into my stomach and I got this awful feeling like "ooh my goooooood, I cant do this, I CAN NOT do this" and I started to panic and completely shut down. I all of a sudden felt like I had this HUGE responsibility and obligation and I was expected to live up to all these expectations and I just couldn't do it!!! and that is how my life has been lately, to the extreme. I can return phone calls, I cant e mail people back, I cant follow through on dates that I make with people,I cant blog, or work in my journal... it's driving me crazy! I don't know where this came from but it is serious business! Very overpowering.. Anything where I feel like people have an expectation of me... I shut down. I want to curl up into a little ball under a million blankets with my hands over my ears and hide. I am not enjoying these reactions and very much so plan to learn this lesson quickly and move on!
Next, my journey with meat. It's difficult for me because I just can not seem to grasp a taste for it. I was a vegetarian so so long that... I learned every single filling food around it, "it's just not for me." BUT I did recently discover the "secret messages in meat" over the last few days, I have been getting bits and pieces of the code. Let me explain... In the beginning when I brought meat back into my diet, I had this over powering urge that "I NEED to eat some meat, NOW!" since I listened to that, that urge has gone away and now it is much more subtle and I recently put this together. Nowadays.... gosh, I don't even know how to word this... Ok, for instance, the last few blogs ago that I wrote I talked about seeing that cat on the side of the road that had died, normally when I would have totally lost it,I was calm, pulled over, did a ceremony and "let it go." Well the other night my parents called my from Bethel and told me about this sweet little puppy that is chained up outside someone's house on a chain so short that she cant even sit upright, and is soooo skinny and clearly under fed in -40 below weather, basically freezing to death and they can hear her crying all day and all night... and that just completely broke my heart, I went into my usual low, how I used to back in the day. I was honestly about to get on the internet to and buy a $500.00 ticket out to bethel the next day to kidnap her and bring her into anchorage with me and give her to the animal shelter I volunteer with to find her a good home, than my sister came back from her boyfriends house and told me about the movie they had just watched "The Cove" about the slaughter of dolphins in Japan...?? OOh my god!, I was already downing beers since the story my parents told me about the dog than she was telling me this and I just went into my usual crazy mode. My body started shaking and my heart was pounding and I just started crying, I was like "ooh my god, where do I go first, Japan or Bethel?" than out of no where, I wasn't even hungry, I was very much so on a passionate beer kick not wanting to process any of this information that I couldnt do anything about,than into my head poped "I need to eat some meat" I thought this was crazy but have been very devoted to "listening" lately so I scrounged through my freezer and found some caribou and cooked a small bit of it and nibbled on it, than.....aaaaah, everything was ok, my body relaxed, I wasn't panicked.....I, cant really explain it. It was like... I just got it...like, the meat was communicating with me... it sounds crazy I know, but SOMETHING shifted. Seriously shifted. It's like, I have this sort of agreement with meat, as funny as that may sound, where it helps me with all my animal stuff AND my animal communication alone. The other day I saw another cat on the side of the road and I haven't eaten meat in a while, and I had a little panic attack, not a bad one, but I did freak out a little, so I went home, cooked up some moose,emideatedy got very calm than did a ceremony and felt the cats presence very strongly than felt him leave and everything was ok... It's weird this is just how it has been lately... Than last night Lindsey and I went over to rebecca's house and Lindsey was telling us about the book her boyfriend just read about this man who went around asking all these indigenous tribes HOW it is that they communicate with the plants, animals and what not and each and every tribe said the same thing, they said that "they take them in, and once the plants or the animals digests their DNA blends with their own DNA than they have clear communication with the plant or animal!" HA! that is what I'm doing... right??
Anyhow, I just thought that was very interesting considering what I have been observing with myself... Thank you for listening!!
LOVE & GRATITUDE
Mother Wolf Spirit Talker

In Honor of the West

I am just sending this little blurb in gratitude of the lessons, clearing and release of all of the suppressed emotions. My family and myself ended a day of emotional overload. Whew, Michelle

Feel the Life Force

Today I had an amazing opportunity. The sky was clear, the wind was sharp and cool, and had that feeling of the ocean as it blows into Beluga Point, out of Anchorage Alaska. The sparkly feeling of pure life force is blowing into White Sage, bringing forth an ecstatic response in every cell of my body.

We are here, very close to one of the most sacred sites on Mother Earth; the great mother canyon known as Grand Canyon. Yet the wind is blowing in the smell, the energy, the life force of Alaska! I begin to wonder if this is happening in other areas as well, near other sacred sites. Is this the next phase of the planetary ascension, coming to life?

I thankful for this fresh new force. May each of us remember WHO WE ARE, WHERE WE COME FROM, AND WHY WE CAME HERE!

Blessings,
Kachina

Deep in the West

It always comes as a surprise to me, as our group descends deep into the west direction of the medicine wheel, just how quiet and inward the energy flow becomes. It is obvious as we look at the Blogs, how many people are feeling the same way. Even though we are spread out across the country, I can feel our group contracting, drawing inward, and honoring the reflective female energy.

Even for those who have completely left the journal behind, trust me; you are still processing the west energy-the integration, releasing, forgiveness, identifying and rewriting of old contracts, transforming, etc. This is the time when new awareness comes to the surface of our consciousness and bubbles forth like a bubbling spring.

I am so happy for all of you, for I can feel the level of commitment you have, the honoring of this inward time. Even in the midst of our busy lives, we are holding the space for transformation in the west.

This being the most challenging direction for many of us in the western hemisphere, and since it is the time we are least likely to extend ourselves outward to communicate on the Blog, I am asking for each one of us to write to the Blog-if only one or two sentences-just to let the group know that we are still connected, still holding space for each other, and still walking through this process together.

Please gift each other with this precious connection and support sometime this week. I will watch for each of you: Lighteningstormdesertrose, Stargazer Walks with Bears, Golden Buffalo Heart, Spirit Talker, SwiftWater, RavenHair888, Earth Song, Spirit Walker of the Mist, Morning Star Spotted Eagle, Ziji Boombasa, EarthSpirit Keeper, Skywalker singswithherHeart, Blessing Willow, Blew Thunder, and tskarrow.

I am sending out the intention for Angels to walk beside each of you, for the guidance system from within your heart to move into full blooming, and inspiration to arise all around you to carry you forward into greater and greater levels of fulfillment and wonder.

In love and gratitude,

Kachina

Death as My Teacher

I am seeing the world through new eyes. Watching as people around me just naturally observe themselves, notice an old contract surfacing, and spontaneously decide to change it, let it go. I am grateful beyond measure to see this happening all around. I know if it is outside of me, the same reflection is within.

This time around, I am so comfortable with my own death. I have now envisioned it to the point that it feels transparent, and so much a choice.

When I was a small child, my grandparents had a farm in Illinois. I got to spend time with many different animals. And I also got to see death at a young age. I remember being very attracted to dead animals.

When an animal died, on this small farm, their bodies were often buried, or sometimes left to decompose if they were deep in the forest where a tractor could not go. A cow died one night while giving birth, and Grandpa found her several days later. I remember being afraid to hike down to the woods, fearful that I might find the body. But I was also drawn to it like a little fly. I had to go see the dead cow, even though I was terrified.

When I finally mustered up my courage (I had to be around 9 years old), I hiked through the woods into a little clearing. I could smell the cow's body, and knew that I was close. Then I saw the hair, the hide, the hooves, the body lying on a hillside in the hardwood forest. I could feel my heart pounding in my throat, as I did not understand death, and was certain that the cow would jump up any moment and attack me like a monster from the movies.

Gradually I became present in the moment. The fear dissolved and I looked at every part of the cow that I could reach. I took my time, I studied the changes that had happened to her body in just a few days.

Most of all, I noticed how different this uninhabited space suit felt from the cows that were alive. This cow, the real being that had lived in this body, was completely gone. It was such a mysterious thing to me-where did she go?

When I finally turned around to go back to the farmhouse, I looked up through the forest. I saw the same cow, looking back at me, chewing her cud contentedly. She was surrounded with a bright golden light. I jumped up to run and find her-I wanted to get closer. But when I looked again, she was gone. I looked all over, but could not find the cow that I had seen, in a new body. Finally I went home, watching just in case it reappeared.

It was a long time before I began to understand more about death, but those early experiences on the farm provided some key pieces to a great puzzle. And the beautiful vision of the cow, that everyone later told me was my "imagination" and it didn't really happen, stayed with me as a vision of comfort and truth until a time when I would return to death willingly, to learn. When one makes an agreement to allow death to become her teacher, she will learn more in this lifetime than one could ever imagine.

And the view at the end of the trail will be spectacular!

Kachina

New Clarity and Connection

This morning the Pleiadian Cloud Ships were finally gone, but not before they downloaded a whole bunch of planetary information to me about ways to help integrate the new cosmic energy that is currently assimilating into Mother Earth's grids and into our lives.

Synchronistically, Myst Walker sent a link last night that explains a whole lot about the transition we are experiencing in human consciousness at this time. Here is the link:

spirit library link

This is really aligned with the information they gave me and all I have been experiencing. Some of us may be experiencing a disinterest in the ascension process, as they stated, indicating completion of a phase of this process. Others, myself included, are experiencing a renewed level of commitment and ease regarding the ascension process. These are souls who have chosen to become the teachers/facilitators for the next wave of ascending souls that is about to begin later this summer.

This is clearly a time where ease can replace struggle in every direction of our lives. All we have to do is surrender to the river-it is already carrying us in the direction we want to go! Every moment of trust is becoming second nature as we assimilate the equinox vibrational changes into our lives.

For those of us who are Earth Keepers and Light Weavers, we are becoming more and more conscious of the holographic reality and the way in which we are co-creating heaven on earth. The Pleiadians suggested a special crystal grid layout, to be placed near cell towers, power substations, and transformers, even electrical boxes or powerlines.

It is for the purpose of connecting and integrating the 3rd, 4th, and 5th dimensional grids, extending into holographic time, and healing the part of human consciousness that felt a need to create these forms of separation. Everyone who places this crystal grid will be accompanied by the spirits of Alexander Graham Bell, Slim Spurling, Thomas Edison, Mahmout Farrat, and Nicolai Tesla, who are joining together to help anchor this new energy grid. It will transform our electromagnetic experience of energy production on Mother Earth. (Will attempt to make an image of it and post it here later).

This is a part of what we will be doing in Egypt in 2013, by anchoring these new energy grids and connecting them in at Dendara and the great pyramid at Giza. It will also be programmed to raise the ancestral star being grids, connect and integrate with the new political, monetary, scientific, and social human consciousness grids, and activate the whole planetary network for physical human/star being interaction.

Between now and 2013, we will all be preparing the planetary grids for this activation. For some new personal ascension techniques to assist this process, watch for the next Food for Ascension subscription.

I love you all and imagine you each stepping into a flow of ease, new prosperity, and fulfillment in the coming days ahead.

Kachina

Here is a small image of the crystal layout referred to above. In the center is a Geo-resonator, surrounded by 4 clear quartz double terminated crystals. Surrounding that is a set of 5 citrine points, pointing outward. Surrounding the whole is a set of 7 amethyst points, pointing outward.