I have been here and been present with you all, listening and learning through each word in each post. It is beautiful. I feel a familiar beauty in me but it is clouded by a curtain of self-doubt, a piece of me that is just not quite wanting to trust the process...for good reason...

Years back I experienced a major health crisis. My skin and joints were yelling out for help in a majorly uncomfortable and very public way. I overcame and cleansed these things with assistance, and am grateful for that. But through this current 90 day process am experiencing similar cleansing...a scary and uncomfortable reality for me to revisit. Because of this, I am working very hard to let go...let go of the fears that surround my trust in my body's ability to heal, let go of the idea that this is a sickness, let go of the concept that I may always have to "deal" with this. It is so very hard to be faced with symptoms that revert me to an earlier self; full of fear and lacking self confidence. I know that these are cleansing symptoms, my heart knows it is ok, but it is the stubborn mind that remembers the "before pictures" and sets the fear in motion.

So I take this time to make it known that I am not afraid. Fear will not take me to that place I have been and left behind long ago. I will trust in the timing and use this moment to commit to my body to continue to help it along it's path. I will listen to my body and support it with what I best know how. I allow and observe the cleaning powers rush out my limbs. And I care for my limbs as as I have never before. I will repeat to myself that I trust the process, and eventually I will with my whole being, heart and mind together. I will try very hard to stay positive and let go of the fear...for my lesson this 90 days is of letting go...of the past and the future and learning to be here now.

I support you all in your journey's...whatever they may be. Thank you for listening.

I will let go of the river walls and flow with the current...