Wednesday, April 7
In Honor of the West
I am just sending this little blurb in gratitude of the lessons, clearing and release of all of the suppressed emotions. My family and myself ended a day of emotional overload. Whew, Michelle
Tuesday, April 6
Feel the Life Force
Today I had an amazing opportunity. The sky was clear, the wind was sharp and cool, and had that feeling of the ocean as it blows into Beluga Point, out of Anchorage Alaska. The sparkly feeling of pure life force is blowing into White Sage, bringing forth an ecstatic response in every cell of my body.
We are here, very close to one of the most sacred sites on Mother Earth; the great mother canyon known as Grand Canyon. Yet the wind is blowing in the smell, the energy, the life force of Alaska! I begin to wonder if this is happening in other areas as well, near other sacred sites. Is this the next phase of the planetary ascension, coming to life?
I thankful for this fresh new force. May each of us remember WHO WE ARE, WHERE WE COME FROM, AND WHY WE CAME HERE!
Blessings,
Kachina
We are here, very close to one of the most sacred sites on Mother Earth; the great mother canyon known as Grand Canyon. Yet the wind is blowing in the smell, the energy, the life force of Alaska! I begin to wonder if this is happening in other areas as well, near other sacred sites. Is this the next phase of the planetary ascension, coming to life?
I thankful for this fresh new force. May each of us remember WHO WE ARE, WHERE WE COME FROM, AND WHY WE CAME HERE!
Blessings,
Kachina
Monday, April 5
Deep in the West
It always comes as a surprise to me, as our group descends deep into the west direction of the medicine wheel, just how quiet and inward the energy flow becomes. It is obvious as we look at the Blogs, how many people are feeling the same way. Even though we are spread out across the country, I can feel our group contracting, drawing inward, and honoring the reflective female energy.
Even for those who have completely left the journal behind, trust me; you are still processing the west energy-the integration, releasing, forgiveness, identifying and rewriting of old contracts, transforming, etc. This is the time when new awareness comes to the surface of our consciousness and bubbles forth like a bubbling spring.
I am so happy for all of you, for I can feel the level of commitment you have, the honoring of this inward time. Even in the midst of our busy lives, we are holding the space for transformation in the west.
This being the most challenging direction for many of us in the western hemisphere, and since it is the time we are least likely to extend ourselves outward to communicate on the Blog, I am asking for each one of us to write to the Blog-if only one or two sentences-just to let the group know that we are still connected, still holding space for each other, and still walking through this process together.
Please gift each other with this precious connection and support sometime this week. I will watch for each of you: Lighteningstormdesertrose, Stargazer Walks with Bears, Golden Buffalo Heart, Spirit Talker, SwiftWater, RavenHair888, Earth Song, Spirit Walker of the Mist, Morning Star Spotted Eagle, Ziji Boombasa, EarthSpirit Keeper, Skywalker singswithherHeart, Blessing Willow, Blew Thunder, and tskarrow.
I am sending out the intention for Angels to walk beside each of you, for the guidance system from within your heart to move into full blooming, and inspiration to arise all around you to carry you forward into greater and greater levels of fulfillment and wonder.
In love and gratitude,
Kachina
Even for those who have completely left the journal behind, trust me; you are still processing the west energy-the integration, releasing, forgiveness, identifying and rewriting of old contracts, transforming, etc. This is the time when new awareness comes to the surface of our consciousness and bubbles forth like a bubbling spring.
I am so happy for all of you, for I can feel the level of commitment you have, the honoring of this inward time. Even in the midst of our busy lives, we are holding the space for transformation in the west.
This being the most challenging direction for many of us in the western hemisphere, and since it is the time we are least likely to extend ourselves outward to communicate on the Blog, I am asking for each one of us to write to the Blog-if only one or two sentences-just to let the group know that we are still connected, still holding space for each other, and still walking through this process together.
Please gift each other with this precious connection and support sometime this week. I will watch for each of you: Lighteningstormdesertrose, Stargazer Walks with Bears, Golden Buffalo Heart, Spirit Talker, SwiftWater, RavenHair888, Earth Song, Spirit Walker of the Mist, Morning Star Spotted Eagle, Ziji Boombasa, EarthSpirit Keeper, Skywalker singswithherHeart, Blessing Willow, Blew Thunder, and tskarrow.
I am sending out the intention for Angels to walk beside each of you, for the guidance system from within your heart to move into full blooming, and inspiration to arise all around you to carry you forward into greater and greater levels of fulfillment and wonder.
In love and gratitude,
Kachina
Friday, April 2
Death as My Teacher
I am seeing the world through new eyes. Watching as people around me just naturally observe themselves, notice an old contract surfacing, and spontaneously decide to change it, let it go. I am grateful beyond measure to see this happening all around. I know if it is outside of me, the same reflection is within.
This time around, I am so comfortable with my own death. I have now envisioned it to the point that it feels transparent, and so much a choice.
When I was a small child, my grandparents had a farm in Illinois. I got to spend time with many different animals. And I also got to see death at a young age. I remember being very attracted to dead animals.
When an animal died, on this small farm, their bodies were often buried, or sometimes left to decompose if they were deep in the forest where a tractor could not go. A cow died one night while giving birth, and Grandpa found her several days later. I remember being afraid to hike down to the woods, fearful that I might find the body. But I was also drawn to it like a little fly. I had to go see the dead cow, even though I was terrified.
When I finally mustered up my courage (I had to be around 9 years old), I hiked through the woods into a little clearing. I could smell the cow's body, and knew that I was close. Then I saw the hair, the hide, the hooves, the body lying on a hillside in the hardwood forest. I could feel my heart pounding in my throat, as I did not understand death, and was certain that the cow would jump up any moment and attack me like a monster from the movies.
Gradually I became present in the moment. The fear dissolved and I looked at every part of the cow that I could reach. I took my time, I studied the changes that had happened to her body in just a few days.
Most of all, I noticed how different this uninhabited space suit felt from the cows that were alive. This cow, the real being that had lived in this body, was completely gone. It was such a mysterious thing to me-where did she go?
When I finally turned around to go back to the farmhouse, I looked up through the forest. I saw the same cow, looking back at me, chewing her cud contentedly. She was surrounded with a bright golden light. I jumped up to run and find her-I wanted to get closer. But when I looked again, she was gone. I looked all over, but could not find the cow that I had seen, in a new body. Finally I went home, watching just in case it reappeared.
It was a long time before I began to understand more about death, but those early experiences on the farm provided some key pieces to a great puzzle. And the beautiful vision of the cow, that everyone later told me was my "imagination" and it didn't really happen, stayed with me as a vision of comfort and truth until a time when I would return to death willingly, to learn. When one makes an agreement to allow death to become her teacher, she will learn more in this lifetime than one could ever imagine.
And the view at the end of the trail will be spectacular!
Kachina
This time around, I am so comfortable with my own death. I have now envisioned it to the point that it feels transparent, and so much a choice.
When I was a small child, my grandparents had a farm in Illinois. I got to spend time with many different animals. And I also got to see death at a young age. I remember being very attracted to dead animals.
When an animal died, on this small farm, their bodies were often buried, or sometimes left to decompose if they were deep in the forest where a tractor could not go. A cow died one night while giving birth, and Grandpa found her several days later. I remember being afraid to hike down to the woods, fearful that I might find the body. But I was also drawn to it like a little fly. I had to go see the dead cow, even though I was terrified.
When I finally mustered up my courage (I had to be around 9 years old), I hiked through the woods into a little clearing. I could smell the cow's body, and knew that I was close. Then I saw the hair, the hide, the hooves, the body lying on a hillside in the hardwood forest. I could feel my heart pounding in my throat, as I did not understand death, and was certain that the cow would jump up any moment and attack me like a monster from the movies.
Gradually I became present in the moment. The fear dissolved and I looked at every part of the cow that I could reach. I took my time, I studied the changes that had happened to her body in just a few days.
Most of all, I noticed how different this uninhabited space suit felt from the cows that were alive. This cow, the real being that had lived in this body, was completely gone. It was such a mysterious thing to me-where did she go?
When I finally turned around to go back to the farmhouse, I looked up through the forest. I saw the same cow, looking back at me, chewing her cud contentedly. She was surrounded with a bright golden light. I jumped up to run and find her-I wanted to get closer. But when I looked again, she was gone. I looked all over, but could not find the cow that I had seen, in a new body. Finally I went home, watching just in case it reappeared.
It was a long time before I began to understand more about death, but those early experiences on the farm provided some key pieces to a great puzzle. And the beautiful vision of the cow, that everyone later told me was my "imagination" and it didn't really happen, stayed with me as a vision of comfort and truth until a time when I would return to death willingly, to learn. When one makes an agreement to allow death to become her teacher, she will learn more in this lifetime than one could ever imagine.
And the view at the end of the trail will be spectacular!
Kachina
Thursday, April 1
New Clarity and Connection
This morning the Pleiadian Cloud Ships were finally gone, but not before they downloaded a whole bunch of planetary information to me about ways to help integrate the new cosmic energy that is currently assimilating into Mother Earth's grids and into our lives.
Synchronistically, Myst Walker sent a link last night that explains a whole lot about the transition we are experiencing in human consciousness at this time. Here is the link:
spirit library link
This is really aligned with the information they gave me and all I have been experiencing. Some of us may be experiencing a disinterest in the ascension process, as they stated, indicating completion of a phase of this process. Others, myself included, are experiencing a renewed level of commitment and ease regarding the ascension process. These are souls who have chosen to become the teachers/facilitators for the next wave of ascending souls that is about to begin later this summer.
This is clearly a time where ease can replace struggle in every direction of our lives. All we have to do is surrender to the river-it is already carrying us in the direction we want to go! Every moment of trust is becoming second nature as we assimilate the equinox vibrational changes into our lives.
For those of us who are Earth Keepers and Light Weavers, we are becoming more and more conscious of the holographic reality and the way in which we are co-creating heaven on earth. The Pleiadians suggested a special crystal grid layout, to be placed near cell towers, power substations, and transformers, even electrical boxes or powerlines.
It is for the purpose of connecting and integrating the 3rd, 4th, and 5th dimensional grids, extending into holographic time, and healing the part of human consciousness that felt a need to create these forms of separation. Everyone who places this crystal grid will be accompanied by the spirits of Alexander Graham Bell, Slim Spurling, Thomas Edison, Mahmout Farrat, and Nicolai Tesla, who are joining together to help anchor this new energy grid. It will transform our electromagnetic experience of energy production on Mother Earth. (Will attempt to make an image of it and post it here later).
This is a part of what we will be doing in Egypt in 2013, by anchoring these new energy grids and connecting them in at Dendara and the great pyramid at Giza. It will also be programmed to raise the ancestral star being grids, connect and integrate with the new political, monetary, scientific, and social human consciousness grids, and activate the whole planetary network for physical human/star being interaction.
Between now and 2013, we will all be preparing the planetary grids for this activation. For some new personal ascension techniques to assist this process, watch for the next Food for Ascension subscription.
I love you all and imagine you each stepping into a flow of ease, new prosperity, and fulfillment in the coming days ahead.
Kachina
Here is a small image of the crystal layout referred to above. In the center is a Geo-resonator, surrounded by 4 clear quartz double terminated crystals. Surrounding that is a set of 5 citrine points, pointing outward. Surrounding the whole is a set of 7 amethyst points, pointing outward.
Wednesday, March 31
Dreams That Speak
I had a dream last night. I dreamt that I was visiting Michael and Kathryn at white sage. They had invited me down to help them with some projects that needed to get done. I was showed two cars and my job was to paint them, one white and one black.
Michael gave me a quick preview without explaining anything then handed me the paint brush and left. I stood there looking at the white car that I was to paint. I had never painted a car before? I had no idea how to even begin painting a car? Then crept in what if I mess up? What if it looks worse after I am finished then it does right now? I became so consumed with questions, doubts and potential failures that I never even began painting the car. I was paralyzed by my fear of "What if"
I decided I couldn't do it and went looking for Michael and Kathryn to tell them I didn't know how and that I couldn't do it. They were out in the garden raking. Kathryn stood there just beautiful radiant light, I confess my failure Michael and in the gentlest of ways he put his hand on my shoulder looked me straight in the eyes and said "If you knew it all, what would be the point?" I woke up.
This is likely an obvious lesson and one I'm sure we've all come up against at one point or another. The power of the dream illustrated so perfectly for me in this moment where my specific block is in regards to why I haven't begun working. I am at that pivotal phase where I'm being asked to take the next step and leave my comfort zone. Where I am being asked to value myself and what I have to offer. It's scary!
I couldn't finish the South in the journal. I flew thought the East and eagerly anticipated the West. I skipped the last 6 pages of the South, I couldn't do it it was like walking through molasses. It was such a struggle to even attempt to motivated myself to open the journal at all during the South and I didn't want to quite so I skipped it?
I'm at that place where I get to decide which way to go and trust the guidance and inner knowing within myself. A perfect polarity of uncomfortable and exhilarating.
I began reading Kathryn's book and how the food for ascension came to be. It was a step by step evolution over 17 years before it became what it is today. Kathryn didn't know the whole picture from the beginning. They worked with people and themselves and observed through trial and error what worked and what didn't but always learning and growing along the way. There are phases and if you're lucky you learn something new everyday and grow more with each experience. That is the beauty of feeling fear and discomfort, it is a clear sign, as Michael once told me, "that you are doing something right."
I am scared, I still recognize that I doubt myself or it's just easier to feel doubt then confidence, I have no idea what I am walking into or how I will create what I desire from where I am in this moment. How I will become self-sufficient and remain passionate at the same time. I don't know? I just simply don't know and it feels a little like drowning because I can't go back or stay where I am and I don't yet have anything to grab onto.
I want to move forward. I am ready to take that step out of my comfort zone and onto the unknown where possibility, failure, experience, learning, fear, passion, discomfort and wide open spaces await me. And I wanted you all to bear witness to my intention of not feeling ready but still being willing to take that step anyway.
Thank you all for your support and listing. I am so grateful for this group and am so hopeful for all of us realizing our dreams come true.
Love, gratitude and laughter
Michael gave me a quick preview without explaining anything then handed me the paint brush and left. I stood there looking at the white car that I was to paint. I had never painted a car before? I had no idea how to even begin painting a car? Then crept in what if I mess up? What if it looks worse after I am finished then it does right now? I became so consumed with questions, doubts and potential failures that I never even began painting the car. I was paralyzed by my fear of "What if"
I decided I couldn't do it and went looking for Michael and Kathryn to tell them I didn't know how and that I couldn't do it. They were out in the garden raking. Kathryn stood there just beautiful radiant light, I confess my failure Michael and in the gentlest of ways he put his hand on my shoulder looked me straight in the eyes and said "If you knew it all, what would be the point?" I woke up.
This is likely an obvious lesson and one I'm sure we've all come up against at one point or another. The power of the dream illustrated so perfectly for me in this moment where my specific block is in regards to why I haven't begun working. I am at that pivotal phase where I'm being asked to take the next step and leave my comfort zone. Where I am being asked to value myself and what I have to offer. It's scary!
I couldn't finish the South in the journal. I flew thought the East and eagerly anticipated the West. I skipped the last 6 pages of the South, I couldn't do it it was like walking through molasses. It was such a struggle to even attempt to motivated myself to open the journal at all during the South and I didn't want to quite so I skipped it?
I'm at that place where I get to decide which way to go and trust the guidance and inner knowing within myself. A perfect polarity of uncomfortable and exhilarating.
I began reading Kathryn's book and how the food for ascension came to be. It was a step by step evolution over 17 years before it became what it is today. Kathryn didn't know the whole picture from the beginning. They worked with people and themselves and observed through trial and error what worked and what didn't but always learning and growing along the way. There are phases and if you're lucky you learn something new everyday and grow more with each experience. That is the beauty of feeling fear and discomfort, it is a clear sign, as Michael once told me, "that you are doing something right."
I am scared, I still recognize that I doubt myself or it's just easier to feel doubt then confidence, I have no idea what I am walking into or how I will create what I desire from where I am in this moment. How I will become self-sufficient and remain passionate at the same time. I don't know? I just simply don't know and it feels a little like drowning because I can't go back or stay where I am and I don't yet have anything to grab onto.
I want to move forward. I am ready to take that step out of my comfort zone and onto the unknown where possibility, failure, experience, learning, fear, passion, discomfort and wide open spaces await me. And I wanted you all to bear witness to my intention of not feeling ready but still being willing to take that step anyway.
Thank you all for your support and listing. I am so grateful for this group and am so hopeful for all of us realizing our dreams come true.
Love, gratitude and laughter
Ceremony and Synchronicity
I apologize for missing the Blog yesterday. So much is happening around here I am feeling like I am just holding on for the ride! One of my original affirmations was "I let go of control and everything moves into perfect alignment".
After some time, it became "I am ready". So now I get to experience the "speeding through the universe" feeling that caused me to choose to hold on in the first place, like everything is moving way too fast. (Too fast for what, I wonder?) I am very happy with all the support I am experiencing as I let go on a new level. It is not comfortable, yet the feeling in my cellular body is one of ecstatic pure energy.
On the full moon, Blew Thunder and I went out at night and danced our intentions to the four directions. Just before we did it, a Pleiadian cloud ship appeared to the southeast and hovered there all night (other clouds came and went, but this one stayed in the same location). Several appeared again yesterday, and this morning they were still there. They are letting us know just how much support is available to us! Just how real the planetary ascension is.
Though many areas of focus are demanding attention in the physical world at this time, I am still being asked to up my level of commitment to the Nature spirits of the area in assistance of the planetary ascension process. On Monday morning, we walked the whole 83 acres that our neighbors are selling, and placed geo-resonators at two locations with intentions for regeneration and transmutation of non-beneficial energy. Then yesterday the spirits invited us to a spot on the land where a mass of tangled old dead trees lay. We cleaned it up, and received a week's worth of firewood as well.
So much has changed in our area, several days ago we talked to a neighbor who wants to organize a clean-up day for everyone in White Sage, to get together and clean up the trash on the road. It sounds like nothing, but these are neighbors who have previously wanted to kill each other instead of look at each other! Now they are planning events together!!! If I did not experience this kind of transformation I would never have known just how much the earth grid energies effect human consciousness.
With this kind of intentional co-creation, we have the tools to manifest a whole new reality on Mother Earth.
Blessings to all,
Kachina
After some time, it became "I am ready". So now I get to experience the "speeding through the universe" feeling that caused me to choose to hold on in the first place, like everything is moving way too fast. (Too fast for what, I wonder?) I am very happy with all the support I am experiencing as I let go on a new level. It is not comfortable, yet the feeling in my cellular body is one of ecstatic pure energy.
On the full moon, Blew Thunder and I went out at night and danced our intentions to the four directions. Just before we did it, a Pleiadian cloud ship appeared to the southeast and hovered there all night (other clouds came and went, but this one stayed in the same location). Several appeared again yesterday, and this morning they were still there. They are letting us know just how much support is available to us! Just how real the planetary ascension is.
Though many areas of focus are demanding attention in the physical world at this time, I am still being asked to up my level of commitment to the Nature spirits of the area in assistance of the planetary ascension process. On Monday morning, we walked the whole 83 acres that our neighbors are selling, and placed geo-resonators at two locations with intentions for regeneration and transmutation of non-beneficial energy. Then yesterday the spirits invited us to a spot on the land where a mass of tangled old dead trees lay. We cleaned it up, and received a week's worth of firewood as well.
So much has changed in our area, several days ago we talked to a neighbor who wants to organize a clean-up day for everyone in White Sage, to get together and clean up the trash on the road. It sounds like nothing, but these are neighbors who have previously wanted to kill each other instead of look at each other! Now they are planning events together!!! If I did not experience this kind of transformation I would never have known just how much the earth grid energies effect human consciousness.
With this kind of intentional co-creation, we have the tools to manifest a whole new reality on Mother Earth.
Blessings to all,
Kachina
Monday, March 29
Blessings for Mother Earth
Two days ago I had an opportunity once again to share the drawing on the Prophecy stone that a Gila Apache elder once shared with me.
She told about the human figure on the left, walking with a planting stick. Behind him, corn plants were sprouting up. This signifies a time of life on Mother Earth where humans are living in harmony and balance with nature. Life has reached a level of stability and sustainability.
Then there is a squiggly line to show the passage of time. Marking the passage into a different time, there are then 3 human figures, all with their heads floating above their bodies. They are wearing "Abe Lincoln" style hats on their heads.
This section describes the last century, the time our parents and grandparents grew up in. It is perceived as a time where human consciousness has become trapped in the mind, and disconnected from the body (and from Mother Earth), hence the disconnected heads. Humans were also disconnected from their own spirits, hence the heavy hats.
This path continues on the same level as another squiggly line, but the line becomes more and more irratic and finally ends in oblivion. It is a statement about where we would end up if we were to continue to live in the mind.
Just after the three humans with the hats, there is another route to follow carved upon this stone. It shows a ladder going up. At the top of this ladder, there is another human figure walking with a planting stick, with corn sprouting up behind him.
The choice to raise our frequencies and climb up that ladder brings us to a new Earth, a new level of harmony and balance with nature. It is another time of stability and sustainability that can emerge on Mother Earth.
This stone always inspires me. It feels like the Ancestors, who knew what was ahead for human consciousness, wanted to leave something whose meaning would become clear just as it was needed. They were telling us to find the ladder, build the ladder, and create the new thought forms, the new methods, the new bodies, that would take us up the ladder into the new world. It is all here, it has always been here, waiting until we were ready.
Yesterday, as I was guided to do, I went up on the hilltop and did a dowsing session with the Ancestors and the ascension Masters. They reminded me that we would be placing 2 Hopi Water jars in the summer, with the intention to restore groundwater (springs) to the land of the Anasazi.
I was so amazed by the return of the regenerating winter storms this year that I kind of thought that was all there is to it. They reminded me that his is not the case. There is much more water to bring in, and much to envision and activate. We are only just beginning to regenerate this area on Mother Earth.
So today, I send out a blessing of love and gratitude for all "lightweavers" who are co-creating the new Earth, with intention. May all the forces of Nature align with you to co-create the miraculous transformations necessary to bring about these changes. May you know fulfillment of your highest dreams in this lifetime. May you succeed in all of your heart-based undertakings, and may you bring blessings to all of life beyond your wildest imaginings.
Kachina
She told about the human figure on the left, walking with a planting stick. Behind him, corn plants were sprouting up. This signifies a time of life on Mother Earth where humans are living in harmony and balance with nature. Life has reached a level of stability and sustainability.
Then there is a squiggly line to show the passage of time. Marking the passage into a different time, there are then 3 human figures, all with their heads floating above their bodies. They are wearing "Abe Lincoln" style hats on their heads.
This section describes the last century, the time our parents and grandparents grew up in. It is perceived as a time where human consciousness has become trapped in the mind, and disconnected from the body (and from Mother Earth), hence the disconnected heads. Humans were also disconnected from their own spirits, hence the heavy hats.
This path continues on the same level as another squiggly line, but the line becomes more and more irratic and finally ends in oblivion. It is a statement about where we would end up if we were to continue to live in the mind.
Just after the three humans with the hats, there is another route to follow carved upon this stone. It shows a ladder going up. At the top of this ladder, there is another human figure walking with a planting stick, with corn sprouting up behind him.
The choice to raise our frequencies and climb up that ladder brings us to a new Earth, a new level of harmony and balance with nature. It is another time of stability and sustainability that can emerge on Mother Earth.
This stone always inspires me. It feels like the Ancestors, who knew what was ahead for human consciousness, wanted to leave something whose meaning would become clear just as it was needed. They were telling us to find the ladder, build the ladder, and create the new thought forms, the new methods, the new bodies, that would take us up the ladder into the new world. It is all here, it has always been here, waiting until we were ready.
Yesterday, as I was guided to do, I went up on the hilltop and did a dowsing session with the Ancestors and the ascension Masters. They reminded me that we would be placing 2 Hopi Water jars in the summer, with the intention to restore groundwater (springs) to the land of the Anasazi.
I was so amazed by the return of the regenerating winter storms this year that I kind of thought that was all there is to it. They reminded me that his is not the case. There is much more water to bring in, and much to envision and activate. We are only just beginning to regenerate this area on Mother Earth.
So today, I send out a blessing of love and gratitude for all "lightweavers" who are co-creating the new Earth, with intention. May all the forces of Nature align with you to co-create the miraculous transformations necessary to bring about these changes. May you know fulfillment of your highest dreams in this lifetime. May you succeed in all of your heart-based undertakings, and may you bring blessings to all of life beyond your wildest imaginings.
Kachina
Saturday, March 27
Awakenings
Funny thing, if you don't believe you deserve all of the support of the Universe you can spend your time and energy running from it, blocking it, numbing out, vegging out, and wonder why it isn't there. The other day I realized that I must choose to change this pattern, choose to believe and acknowledge the support of Creation all around me.
I suppose this is part of turning to myself instead of that which is outside of me, but that doesn't mean not participate in life. I think my mind gets confused and perhaps my feelings as to what parts of me are dying. I feel like I am dying, or that I am somehow slowly killing myself. Like I am not choosing Fully Life, a Vibrant Passionate Co-Creative Life. Am I really or is this just the feeling of a death. I find myself wanting to be alone and getting frustrated when I can't have that, not asking for it aloud - knowing that I can have that. Not picking up my Medicine.
The committee can be pretty sneaky, to the point where you believe that is the way it is. Stuck, stagnant, not doing the right thing . . . blah blah blah. So, what is the gift of that? What is the gift of constantly analyzing, trying to see how things could be better. There must be a balance between this and taking action.
I find myself longing for the Ceremony, but I know that when the time is right I will find a new depth to my Being and Ceremony will be different. I will be coming from a different place.
Keep trusting, keep going to my center, remember to go to my center. Sing Dance Play, Walk outside on the Earth Mother herself.
I am stuck in the book but that is okay, I am stuck on my Creation story. I was not born into a life where we are told the Stories, where we know our history, our roots, our place. I suppose there is a reason for that. Perhaps to dig deeper into my cells to remember what I already know.
I suppose this is part of turning to myself instead of that which is outside of me, but that doesn't mean not participate in life. I think my mind gets confused and perhaps my feelings as to what parts of me are dying. I feel like I am dying, or that I am somehow slowly killing myself. Like I am not choosing Fully Life, a Vibrant Passionate Co-Creative Life. Am I really or is this just the feeling of a death. I find myself wanting to be alone and getting frustrated when I can't have that, not asking for it aloud - knowing that I can have that. Not picking up my Medicine.
The committee can be pretty sneaky, to the point where you believe that is the way it is. Stuck, stagnant, not doing the right thing . . . blah blah blah. So, what is the gift of that? What is the gift of constantly analyzing, trying to see how things could be better. There must be a balance between this and taking action.
I find myself longing for the Ceremony, but I know that when the time is right I will find a new depth to my Being and Ceremony will be different. I will be coming from a different place.
Keep trusting, keep going to my center, remember to go to my center. Sing Dance Play, Walk outside on the Earth Mother herself.
I am stuck in the book but that is okay, I am stuck on my Creation story. I was not born into a life where we are told the Stories, where we know our history, our roots, our place. I suppose there is a reason for that. Perhaps to dig deeper into my cells to remember what I already know.
A New Opportunity Comes Our Way
Today was a whirlwind of ecstatic proportions. I hardly know where to start.
At 9 this morning, Blew Thunder and I met with Lu and Lee Hixson from Sedona area, our neighbors to the west. They own a beautiful 80+ acre parcel of land with probably the most powerful sacred Anasazi site in the immediate area. They are in the process of selling their home in Cottonwood and moving to an acreage in the Missouri Ozarks. They are stepping way out of their comfort zone, taking risks and selling everything to go, not even certain of what spirit has in mind for them.
They came with an amazing proposal for us that seems impossible, yet from that quiet inner space, it looks like exactly the kind of thing that the Ancestors would bring about. They have offered us the whole 83 acres at a price that is well under market value, and with some creative financing. To act upon this opportunity, we will have to receive a gift or unexpected windfall of about $333,000 cash.
Each angle that we have examined up to this point leads us back to this same reality. If the Ancestors truly want us to become the caretakers of this land, they will have to come up with a means of creating this amount of money that includes ease for us, and does not redirect our energies from our immediate agreement at hand.
We are very happy and satisfied with the property that we caretake already here at White Sage. We have just come into a state of greater balance, and are once again getting ready to go back to work on the physical building and co-creating. The last thing we had on our minds was to consider an expansion at this time. Yet here they are, in need of selling their property and wanting us to be the keepers of this land.
Tonight we will meeting in ceremony with the Ancestors, asking for the vision of that which will serve in the highest for all life. We are also asking each of you for your prayers and blessings for manifestation of that which serves. If a miracle is required here, I will certainly hold the space for that to happen.
In Love and Gratitude,
Kachina
At 9 this morning, Blew Thunder and I met with Lu and Lee Hixson from Sedona area, our neighbors to the west. They own a beautiful 80+ acre parcel of land with probably the most powerful sacred Anasazi site in the immediate area. They are in the process of selling their home in Cottonwood and moving to an acreage in the Missouri Ozarks. They are stepping way out of their comfort zone, taking risks and selling everything to go, not even certain of what spirit has in mind for them.
They came with an amazing proposal for us that seems impossible, yet from that quiet inner space, it looks like exactly the kind of thing that the Ancestors would bring about. They have offered us the whole 83 acres at a price that is well under market value, and with some creative financing. To act upon this opportunity, we will have to receive a gift or unexpected windfall of about $333,000 cash.
Each angle that we have examined up to this point leads us back to this same reality. If the Ancestors truly want us to become the caretakers of this land, they will have to come up with a means of creating this amount of money that includes ease for us, and does not redirect our energies from our immediate agreement at hand.
We are very happy and satisfied with the property that we caretake already here at White Sage. We have just come into a state of greater balance, and are once again getting ready to go back to work on the physical building and co-creating. The last thing we had on our minds was to consider an expansion at this time. Yet here they are, in need of selling their property and wanting us to be the keepers of this land.
Tonight we will meeting in ceremony with the Ancestors, asking for the vision of that which will serve in the highest for all life. We are also asking each of you for your prayers and blessings for manifestation of that which serves. If a miracle is required here, I will certainly hold the space for that to happen.
In Love and Gratitude,
Kachina
Friday, March 26
Healing Eruptions
I had a Healing Eruption of the Mt St Helens kind the other night. I decided to eat a bowl of popcorn with regular butter before a class. I haven't eaten that in many months. In the middle of the class, I had to leave abruptly to visit the porcelain god. I had no symptoms of the flu and my 15 minute sojourn was just that - 15 minutes.
I realized a few hours later how exciting it was even though it was not fun! My body had been used to eating the best of real food, and it was letting me know that that kind of monkey business was not acceptable. Explosive as it was, I was celebrating that my body would actually reject that which it could not process well. Is my body vibrating higher? Am I walking over the threshold into a state of vibrant health? Is my body communicating its boundaries? To be continued . . .
I told my friend Earth Song, and she said, "Congratulations!" She was excited for me. The last time someone was excited about my bodily functions was when I was in the hospital and the nurses wouldn't let you go unless -- well you know what that was.
I also have had rashes and burps when a food isn't right for me at this time -- like red peppers. It is also bringing up my thyroid problem again. Yeast just surfaced for a day and a half. I had a mini hot flash of 5 minutes. These are old disease patterns that are exiting my body. I haven't felt this alive in years. There's a spring in my step.
I also wanted to say that Blew Thunder talked about the difference between a healing eruption and a healing crisis in another 90 day class. A healing crisis is when a person has cancer, and the body is fighting for its life. A healing eruption is when the body releases toxins of the bad kind. It's when you are doing something right with your body and the body can do its job of regenerating and rejuvenating in whatever manner it needs to do the job.
My body is singing the color of a Jazzy new Life. There probably will be more healing eruptions but I welcome it as the success of my steps forward to ascension health.
Mist Walker
Little steps, Big steps and all the steps in between
It's beautiful how this journey unfolds everyday and how easy it is to see when you know what to look for. I threw out the rules for this class the day I decided to join as everything I knew was different. I have been going with the flow and catching myself exactly where I need to be and not surprisingly right on track with everyone else. I worked hard in the last 90 day class to follow the rules and watched my husband do little with the rules. Funny thing happened, we both transformed how we were supposed to, neither better or worse. This go around, I am able to allow that truth and have peace with it.
When I read Kathryn's blog about "Action", I thought I wasn't there yet. I feel part of me still in the rhythm of the east with spring only beginning. By the end of that day I had taken two giant steps in action and it wasn't till I was driving home from the second one that I realized once again, I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
In planning for our move, our date to leave Alaska is June 1. The job I am currently in doesn't end till July 1. I had to sign a new contract and instead of just signing it and giving notice later, I wrote a letter of resignation that ends with the school year in May. The second thing I needed to do, the biggest thing to set all of this in motion, was to tell my ex husband that we are moving(we still share children). Steve and I asked him and his wife to dinner, told them the news and let him know that we were open to letting the kids decide. It was clear there was emotion but the conversation went easy and felt right. All that is left now is monetary things and we are on our way.
I am so grateful for the awakening of the new, the action to move forward and the reminders that come from the connections with all. Thank you all for sharing your stories and for the presence and energy expressed through this group.
I am also thankful for the new passion red Vitamix that showed up yesterday. WoooHooo!
Michelle
When I read Kathryn's blog about "Action", I thought I wasn't there yet. I feel part of me still in the rhythm of the east with spring only beginning. By the end of that day I had taken two giant steps in action and it wasn't till I was driving home from the second one that I realized once again, I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
In planning for our move, our date to leave Alaska is June 1. The job I am currently in doesn't end till July 1. I had to sign a new contract and instead of just signing it and giving notice later, I wrote a letter of resignation that ends with the school year in May. The second thing I needed to do, the biggest thing to set all of this in motion, was to tell my ex husband that we are moving(we still share children). Steve and I asked him and his wife to dinner, told them the news and let him know that we were open to letting the kids decide. It was clear there was emotion but the conversation went easy and felt right. All that is left now is monetary things and we are on our way.
I am so grateful for the awakening of the new, the action to move forward and the reminders that come from the connections with all. Thank you all for sharing your stories and for the presence and energy expressed through this group.
I am also thankful for the new passion red Vitamix that showed up yesterday. WoooHooo!
Michelle
Happy Girl
Its spring time in Alaska, Yeah! This last winter was especially long for me because I wasn't in a space of resonance with the cold and slow-pace that comes naturally to that time of year. I have been in the cocoon stage for a while now and I have been feeling very ready to burst out of my cocoon and step into the world with my new wings and gift of flight. With this internal timing lining up with the natural energy of spring and birthing new ideas, new life and leaving behind those things that no longer serve, I am ready to seize the day!
I have begun cleaning out my closet and removing those things that hold physical and energetic "attachment" energies but that I no longer have any need for. Clothes, memorabilia, even some rocks and crystals that are letting me know are ready to move onto the next phase of their journey, books and other "junk" to me at this point but a huge gift to someone else. I am putting into action the exercise of Kathryn's blog, the one of letting go of attachment to the way I think it should be before I can truly live my purpose and have been using my affirmations of what I am desiring to create in the present moment with the task at hand. It is proving to be quite powerful and filling me with the sense of connection and purpose while I do the regular mundane seeming things of my daily life. I am amazed at how just that simple change in consciousness can turn the dreaded task of cleaning out the closet, uggg into cleaning out the closet, look what I am making room for in my life and because of that I am on-purpose! Amazing.
My financial situation in terms of the number of $ in my bank account hasn't changed much but I am no longer stressing about it and I truly feel more abundant then ever!
I am grateful for every thing in my life and more conscious and aware of it then I ever was before when I could buy what I wanted when I wanted. Now, I pay attention to what is available to me in this moment and how the universe assists me in having all my needs met. Every time I go into the fear I am forced to stop and come into the present moment and what I see before me is so beautiful! Not once has my fear been realized, every time I stop and look, all the blessings of my life are still there and I realize I have nothing to fear! It has actually become fun and exciting to watch things unfold and manifest. I have spent my last dollar twice now and amazingly each time within a day or so some money happens to find its way too me, this experience is in a very deep way teaching me so much about trust and letting go and for that I am very grateful.
I have, also just this last week, for some reason fallen behind in the book but I made a commitment to myself that this time around (my third 90 day) I would finish the book and I fully intend to.
For now I can see all the zig-zags of my desires, intentions, hopes, dreams, things I still need to work through and things I need to let go of, scattered about not yet ready to fully align but for me for now that is exactly perfect and I can walk through this phase with more presence, patience and trust then ever before.
A new door has opened, a new chapter begun and all I can say is hallelujah spring has sprung!
I have begun cleaning out my closet and removing those things that hold physical and energetic "attachment" energies but that I no longer have any need for. Clothes, memorabilia, even some rocks and crystals that are letting me know are ready to move onto the next phase of their journey, books and other "junk" to me at this point but a huge gift to someone else. I am putting into action the exercise of Kathryn's blog, the one of letting go of attachment to the way I think it should be before I can truly live my purpose and have been using my affirmations of what I am desiring to create in the present moment with the task at hand. It is proving to be quite powerful and filling me with the sense of connection and purpose while I do the regular mundane seeming things of my daily life. I am amazed at how just that simple change in consciousness can turn the dreaded task of cleaning out the closet, uggg into cleaning out the closet, look what I am making room for in my life and because of that I am on-purpose! Amazing.
My financial situation in terms of the number of $ in my bank account hasn't changed much but I am no longer stressing about it and I truly feel more abundant then ever!
I am grateful for every thing in my life and more conscious and aware of it then I ever was before when I could buy what I wanted when I wanted. Now, I pay attention to what is available to me in this moment and how the universe assists me in having all my needs met. Every time I go into the fear I am forced to stop and come into the present moment and what I see before me is so beautiful! Not once has my fear been realized, every time I stop and look, all the blessings of my life are still there and I realize I have nothing to fear! It has actually become fun and exciting to watch things unfold and manifest. I have spent my last dollar twice now and amazingly each time within a day or so some money happens to find its way too me, this experience is in a very deep way teaching me so much about trust and letting go and for that I am very grateful.
I have, also just this last week, for some reason fallen behind in the book but I made a commitment to myself that this time around (my third 90 day) I would finish the book and I fully intend to.
For now I can see all the zig-zags of my desires, intentions, hopes, dreams, things I still need to work through and things I need to let go of, scattered about not yet ready to fully align but for me for now that is exactly perfect and I can walk through this phase with more presence, patience and trust then ever before.
A new door has opened, a new chapter begun and all I can say is hallelujah spring has sprung!
Breakdown to Break Through
So many thoughts are going through my head. Years ago I raised my hand to be of service. And right now I am challenged as to what to talk about. This 90 day program is all about choice. And I know for me this container makes me be more accountable for myself. When I have the magnifying glass on myself-the last f-cking thing I want to do, is bring light to it and share it with others!
You know I still have the days where I try to self-sabotage myself, and where I wonder how this is all going to work. But by going through it so many times now, I can catch it and not have to act on it. And surrender with the idea that, "don't give up 5 seconds before the miracle!"
And some of the tools that I use to get past that day, might be to put my feet up and let go of things, engage in a conversation with my wife about what I am feeling; and sometimes that takes more than a day to get to the level 0f pain. Sometimes it might be a Blue Road Healing; sometimes it is just that I am wound so tight, I just need to take the day off. And sometimes I just need to eat some good food. Instead of a 12/60 "sick day", it is a 13/260 "well day", and I give myself permission to take the day off.
What is really amazing is that 2 days, a week, a month down the road, I can't even remember what was so significant about that day that threw me so off course. And that only came to be by talking about those events WHEN THEY CAME UP, and not allowing them to become suppressed and go dormant again.
And look at it this way; if you were to get a sliver in your hand, would'nt you go to all means to remove it at the first opportunity? And that is because we can feel it festering at the time. Left undone, eventually that sliver wouldn't fester any more, but it would still be there.
Unlike the physical sliver, where the body can reabsorb it, emotional and mental festering just goes dormant only to return again and again. It can unconsciously control our lives and keep us from going where we want to go.
Kathryn and I have the intention to talk about the things that are blogged about and offer any assistance we can through this medium. Only when we offer the things that are going on for us, will there be an opportunity to address this-and it will help everyone (since we are not so unique as we all like to think). By blogging, we can take advantage of the opportunity of the door that is open.
I had the opportunity back in the early 1990s to work with a man named Richard Brooks, a self-made multi millionaire. He always talked about how we have to go through break down to get to break through. And that is the only difference between being satisfied and unsatisfied in life.
I send my blessings to each and every one of us, and hold a vision of break through for all of us! Aho mitaqueye oyasin.
Blewww Thunder
You know I still have the days where I try to self-sabotage myself, and where I wonder how this is all going to work. But by going through it so many times now, I can catch it and not have to act on it. And surrender with the idea that, "don't give up 5 seconds before the miracle!"
And some of the tools that I use to get past that day, might be to put my feet up and let go of things, engage in a conversation with my wife about what I am feeling; and sometimes that takes more than a day to get to the level 0f pain. Sometimes it might be a Blue Road Healing; sometimes it is just that I am wound so tight, I just need to take the day off. And sometimes I just need to eat some good food. Instead of a 12/60 "sick day", it is a 13/260 "well day", and I give myself permission to take the day off.
What is really amazing is that 2 days, a week, a month down the road, I can't even remember what was so significant about that day that threw me so off course. And that only came to be by talking about those events WHEN THEY CAME UP, and not allowing them to become suppressed and go dormant again.
And look at it this way; if you were to get a sliver in your hand, would'nt you go to all means to remove it at the first opportunity? And that is because we can feel it festering at the time. Left undone, eventually that sliver wouldn't fester any more, but it would still be there.
Unlike the physical sliver, where the body can reabsorb it, emotional and mental festering just goes dormant only to return again and again. It can unconsciously control our lives and keep us from going where we want to go.
Kathryn and I have the intention to talk about the things that are blogged about and offer any assistance we can through this medium. Only when we offer the things that are going on for us, will there be an opportunity to address this-and it will help everyone (since we are not so unique as we all like to think). By blogging, we can take advantage of the opportunity of the door that is open.
I had the opportunity back in the early 1990s to work with a man named Richard Brooks, a self-made multi millionaire. He always talked about how we have to go through break down to get to break through. And that is the only difference between being satisfied and unsatisfied in life.
I send my blessings to each and every one of us, and hold a vision of break through for all of us! Aho mitaqueye oyasin.
Blewww Thunder
Surrender
Hey, is anyone else struggling with keeping up? I am now at least a week behind in the journal. (I am doing my affirmations in the mirror though). Just so you don't get down on yourself, I want you all to know that I have only been able to stay in synchronicity with the journal two out of the four times I have completed this program.
And I still had an amazing completion and shift in consciousness through this program, whether I finished the journal or not. Just in case anyone out there is having to surrender some aspect of the routine, know that you are not alone!!!
And speaking of surrender, today Michael and I awakened to a mass of big, beautiful snowflakes falling down. Every time it snows, I get a little giddy inside. Most people around here have almost forgotten the stress of a 20 year drought. Now they want summer to come, they want heat.
I now have the most profound experience of changing the weather pattern, and bringing water and precipitation back to a depleted area of Mother Earth. Since last October when we set the Mayan rain crystals in 4 directions and visualized a pyramid shaped etheric mountain over the local area, we have been experiencing an abundance of precipitation. The drought is so over now. And everything is coming to life!
So the two of us are surrendering today, as there won't be any work going on outside. Once again it is a day for R and R, after a crazy/busy day yesterday. First thing in the morning we had gotten up and started checking and boxing the essential oils order that we make every couple of months.
Then we heard this wild honking outside-a pickup truck was barreling up the driveway. It was a woman named Zelda. She and her cousin Lana had come out to try and get another bottle of oil that I gave her several weeks ago.
She had injured her knee stepping off a ladder. She is probably in her early 60's but has the energy of a 20 year old-always going, going, going. She was trying everything the doctors could do for her; steroids, anti-inflammatories, pain pills, and physical therapy. Nothing was working. And Zelma can not sit still for 5 minutes without going into a funk!
So I gave her a small bottle of essential oils blend and told her how to wrap it with saran wrap every night. I told her she could pay me $15.00 when I saw her again. Then the next day Michael and I left for Mesa Arizona to visit my family. I sort of forgot about the whole thing.
Well yesterday when she came out of the car, she was still limping a lot. But the oil had taken much of the swelling out and she was asking for more, saying that it was the only thing that was working of all the things she had tried. So before she left, Michale and I showed her how to get back into her leg, and put her weight on the foot again, and how to walk consciously with energy moving through the foot instead of withdrawing from it.
By the time Zelma left, she was walking with very little limp. The doctors wanted her to have surgery, and I have a little feeling that that is not going to happen! Oh, did I mention- two days before this, I ended up distilling all my affirmations into one "I am ready!" Then 2 days later Zelma shows up asking for help, Hmmm could it be connected?
I have been very conscious of keeping the local awareness of us and what we have to offer on a very low profile. But now that the book is printed, it seems like it is time to let the floodgates open. (I am imagining a gentle and balanced flow).
Thank you all for walking with me through the fire of the South. You are so loved.
Kachina
And I still had an amazing completion and shift in consciousness through this program, whether I finished the journal or not. Just in case anyone out there is having to surrender some aspect of the routine, know that you are not alone!!!
And speaking of surrender, today Michael and I awakened to a mass of big, beautiful snowflakes falling down. Every time it snows, I get a little giddy inside. Most people around here have almost forgotten the stress of a 20 year drought. Now they want summer to come, they want heat.
I now have the most profound experience of changing the weather pattern, and bringing water and precipitation back to a depleted area of Mother Earth. Since last October when we set the Mayan rain crystals in 4 directions and visualized a pyramid shaped etheric mountain over the local area, we have been experiencing an abundance of precipitation. The drought is so over now. And everything is coming to life!
So the two of us are surrendering today, as there won't be any work going on outside. Once again it is a day for R and R, after a crazy/busy day yesterday. First thing in the morning we had gotten up and started checking and boxing the essential oils order that we make every couple of months.
Then we heard this wild honking outside-a pickup truck was barreling up the driveway. It was a woman named Zelda. She and her cousin Lana had come out to try and get another bottle of oil that I gave her several weeks ago.
She had injured her knee stepping off a ladder. She is probably in her early 60's but has the energy of a 20 year old-always going, going, going. She was trying everything the doctors could do for her; steroids, anti-inflammatories, pain pills, and physical therapy. Nothing was working. And Zelma can not sit still for 5 minutes without going into a funk!
So I gave her a small bottle of essential oils blend and told her how to wrap it with saran wrap every night. I told her she could pay me $15.00 when I saw her again. Then the next day Michael and I left for Mesa Arizona to visit my family. I sort of forgot about the whole thing.
Well yesterday when she came out of the car, she was still limping a lot. But the oil had taken much of the swelling out and she was asking for more, saying that it was the only thing that was working of all the things she had tried. So before she left, Michale and I showed her how to get back into her leg, and put her weight on the foot again, and how to walk consciously with energy moving through the foot instead of withdrawing from it.
By the time Zelma left, she was walking with very little limp. The doctors wanted her to have surgery, and I have a little feeling that that is not going to happen! Oh, did I mention- two days before this, I ended up distilling all my affirmations into one "I am ready!" Then 2 days later Zelma shows up asking for help, Hmmm could it be connected?
I have been very conscious of keeping the local awareness of us and what we have to offer on a very low profile. But now that the book is printed, it seems like it is time to let the floodgates open. (I am imagining a gentle and balanced flow).
Thank you all for walking with me through the fire of the South. You are so loved.
Kachina
Wednesday, March 24
Trust
One of the gifts of the south direction is TRUST. Trust is what we must walk through every time we take a deliberate conscious action in this world. When we take an action, there is a level of commitment that comes along with it.
Here is one of the reasons that we can get stuck in the east, in the idea stage, setting intentions, working on "higher planes", and never completely realizing our dreams. Sooner or later we must move from the more comfortable place of visualization into ACTION. This is where we put our money where our mouth is. We stop talking about it and start doing it.
There are several patterns I am aware of that can inhibit us from taking the necessary actions to create our desires. One of them is judgment. If we have judgment about ourselves, our ability, or whether or not we are deserving, or even judgment about any part of the creative process, we will have difficulty in taking an action.
If we have a fear of commitment, we will get really close to our dream, like a ball player picking up the bat and stepping up to the plate, and then we might quickly turn another direction-dropping the bat and backing away. We think we have simply chosen something else, we might not even see that fear has caused us to redirect our energy in a "safer" direction.
Another challenge in the south, possibly the biggest challenge of all, is fear of failure. Of course, this is a polarity that will bounce around from fear of failure into fear of success. The best gift you can give yourself in the south is permission to fail. Once you have released the charge of failure, you may have to address the fear of success. Both of them are two sides of the same coin.
It is also important to remember that you don't have to be perfect!!! Most of us have an illusion about perfection and what it is. We don't see a large enough picture of reality to understand that EVERYTHING is already perfect exactly the way it is. We let attachment to a certain outcome become our measuring stick, keeping ourselves from doing anything because we can not live up to that specific outcome.
I have found a beautiful way to move forward through paralyzing fear. It is a way to program through the stagnation. Perhaps there is an action you would like to take in the world but are terrified to do it. If this is the case, you can build momentum for taking this action step by step, and it will become easy.
Suppose you want to quit a dissatisfying job. You have already prepared yourself by setting an intention and imagining the details of the new job you are creating. But you feel stuck and unable to finally do it.
Your first step is to affirm (with affirmations) that you are moving forward in life, leaving behind all that does not serve, with gratitude and completion for the job.
Next, you affirm "I am taking action to be happy and fulfilled in my new vocation" or whatever your higher self gives you as an affirmation. AS YOU ARE AFFIRMING this new situation, you take any action available to you in the moment. It could be washing the dishes, it could be vaccuuming the floor, it could be tossing a ball while playing catch. The key is to connect the mental blueprint (the affirmation) with an action in the physical world. This creates movement and releases stagnation between the body and mind.
It sounds like a simple exercise, and I assure you it is one of the most powerful shamanic techniques available to us. It creates radical change, and empowers us to create our own experiences of the reality.
Kachina
Here is one of the reasons that we can get stuck in the east, in the idea stage, setting intentions, working on "higher planes", and never completely realizing our dreams. Sooner or later we must move from the more comfortable place of visualization into ACTION. This is where we put our money where our mouth is. We stop talking about it and start doing it.
There are several patterns I am aware of that can inhibit us from taking the necessary actions to create our desires. One of them is judgment. If we have judgment about ourselves, our ability, or whether or not we are deserving, or even judgment about any part of the creative process, we will have difficulty in taking an action.
If we have a fear of commitment, we will get really close to our dream, like a ball player picking up the bat and stepping up to the plate, and then we might quickly turn another direction-dropping the bat and backing away. We think we have simply chosen something else, we might not even see that fear has caused us to redirect our energy in a "safer" direction.
Another challenge in the south, possibly the biggest challenge of all, is fear of failure. Of course, this is a polarity that will bounce around from fear of failure into fear of success. The best gift you can give yourself in the south is permission to fail. Once you have released the charge of failure, you may have to address the fear of success. Both of them are two sides of the same coin.
It is also important to remember that you don't have to be perfect!!! Most of us have an illusion about perfection and what it is. We don't see a large enough picture of reality to understand that EVERYTHING is already perfect exactly the way it is. We let attachment to a certain outcome become our measuring stick, keeping ourselves from doing anything because we can not live up to that specific outcome.
I have found a beautiful way to move forward through paralyzing fear. It is a way to program through the stagnation. Perhaps there is an action you would like to take in the world but are terrified to do it. If this is the case, you can build momentum for taking this action step by step, and it will become easy.
Suppose you want to quit a dissatisfying job. You have already prepared yourself by setting an intention and imagining the details of the new job you are creating. But you feel stuck and unable to finally do it.
Your first step is to affirm (with affirmations) that you are moving forward in life, leaving behind all that does not serve, with gratitude and completion for the job.
Next, you affirm "I am taking action to be happy and fulfilled in my new vocation" or whatever your higher self gives you as an affirmation. AS YOU ARE AFFIRMING this new situation, you take any action available to you in the moment. It could be washing the dishes, it could be vaccuuming the floor, it could be tossing a ball while playing catch. The key is to connect the mental blueprint (the affirmation) with an action in the physical world. This creates movement and releases stagnation between the body and mind.
It sounds like a simple exercise, and I assure you it is one of the most powerful shamanic techniques available to us. It creates radical change, and empowers us to create our own experiences of the reality.
Kachina
Tuesday, March 23
Waking up in the Moment
Today was one of those days of beauty here at White Sage. There are so many of these beautiful, bright, balmy sunny days that it is easy to just take them for granted, not seeing the world of wonder all around me.
But today, I saw the brightness of the pinon pine trees, the smooth carpet of green grass just beginning to cover the red dirt of the desert, and the huge aura of the vast sagebrush covered country. I felt the freshness of the air, and the sparkling energy of this land. I was really present in the moment.
Now that the book is at the printer, I have the feeling of a mother, just after the birth of her baby. Feeling a little of the relief of giving birth, as well as a new respect for the effort it took to produce it. Then there is also the elation of bringing the new child (book in my case) into the world. It is a jumbled and disorganized mess of feeling, and a knowing underneath it all that everything is unfolding according to the divine plan of the universe! That part never really goes away.
Many blessings for all of you who have helped me in so many ways, by giving your energy and attention to your own regeneration through using the core food fast, and the food for ascension methods. You are all a part of this intention, and a part of this new creation. Without you, there would be no food for ascension.
Thank you all. May all your dreams become reality.
Kachina
But today, I saw the brightness of the pinon pine trees, the smooth carpet of green grass just beginning to cover the red dirt of the desert, and the huge aura of the vast sagebrush covered country. I felt the freshness of the air, and the sparkling energy of this land. I was really present in the moment.
Now that the book is at the printer, I have the feeling of a mother, just after the birth of her baby. Feeling a little of the relief of giving birth, as well as a new respect for the effort it took to produce it. Then there is also the elation of bringing the new child (book in my case) into the world. It is a jumbled and disorganized mess of feeling, and a knowing underneath it all that everything is unfolding according to the divine plan of the universe! That part never really goes away.
Many blessings for all of you who have helped me in so many ways, by giving your energy and attention to your own regeneration through using the core food fast, and the food for ascension methods. You are all a part of this intention, and a part of this new creation. Without you, there would be no food for ascension.
Thank you all. May all your dreams become reality.
Kachina
Monday, March 22
Coming Awake in the Cycle of Life
Ziji Boombasa's last entry reminded me of a time not too long ago when I was in the process of becoming conscious in the 5th dimension. I had asked in the medicine wheel for assistance from Mother Earth, for her to guide me and help me understand the planetary reality.
Mother Earth responded by bringing me many, many teachings of the medicine wheel. She began to teach me in the moments that I was living, showing me always where I was in the spiraling cycle of life. The four directions mark four distinct parts of this cycle, each with its own energy, as we are experiencing in our journey around the wheel together.
As I was awakening to the guidance of the spirit/Angelic world, I noticed right away that there were conscious and unconscious parts to this cycle. I would be going along, feeling connected in all dimensions, feeling like a spiritual being in a human body, at one with guidance and the higher dimensions; then I would wake up one morning and I could hardly remember how that felt-it was like someone pulled the plug, there was no feeling of connection, no guidance, and even no confirmation that this 5 D world was even real.
By this time in my development, I was so sensitive, that this kind of pain of disconnection was stronger than physical pain. I would plummet into a deep dungeon of despair in my inner world, while holding a strong face in the outer world just to go on with my daily life.
This experience kept repeating over and over again. I began to see that there was truly a cyclic thing going on. One day (when I was really connected), I asked if there was anything I could do about this situation to help myself. The Angels and guides agreed to help me find out.
The first thing they called my attention to was the fact that I was going in and out of consciousness as my personal medicine wheel cycle went into the yin and yang phases. The best they could do for me at that time was to give me an alert right before it was about to happen.
They also encouraged me to grid a special mineral around the house and workspace, with the intention of transmuting all incoming energies that were intentionally created to produce unconsciousness. (I associated this intentional stuff with HARP, but never got a clear read on all of the sources).
WOW-did that make a difference! Every time the guides alerted me to the fact that I was about to "shut down", I did some prayers of gratitude, and set intentions for connection through the yin cycle. Just by knowing ahead of time when it was coming, I was able to start placing intentions and energetic anchors to help me stay connected and begin to wake up in this cycle.
Gradually, I was able to dowse for other people and even receive information for myself all the way through the yin cycle. The instances of shut down became fewer and less intense. Looking back on this stage, I now see that it was a truly valuable stage of integration. That periodic turning off of spiritual energy helped me to connect into all parts of my psyche and body, to bring the light in as soon as it was back on.
The key for me was not to fall into the linear time concept when I was shut down, and think that it was going to be this way for ever and I would never be connected again. I had to bring a new level of trust into the darkness. Gradually it got easier.
Then after a long time of turning through this cycle, something shifted in the ascension process. I suddenly found myself in the center nearly all the time. I was aware of the rhythms and cycles around me, effecting everything from the outside world to my emotions and physical body, but I was now just observing all of that from an unending center of pure connection. This center became stronger and stronger.
My prana tube had expanded to encompass my whole body. I was running primarily vertical energy now instead of running my personal energy horizontally. It was a dramatic shift that changed my whole perspective and experience of life.
And guess what-this change and growth and dynamic perspective shifting never stops! It just keeps going and going. I used to think there was a goal out there, like sooner or later I would be "ascended"and my life would be fixed. The ascended masters always laughed when I projected that image, and now I understand why! I just keep moving to new levels of challenge, responsibility, and fulfillment.
Maybe there is no end to it, and I am now living the goal.
Love and harmony,
Kachina
Mother Earth responded by bringing me many, many teachings of the medicine wheel. She began to teach me in the moments that I was living, showing me always where I was in the spiraling cycle of life. The four directions mark four distinct parts of this cycle, each with its own energy, as we are experiencing in our journey around the wheel together.
As I was awakening to the guidance of the spirit/Angelic world, I noticed right away that there were conscious and unconscious parts to this cycle. I would be going along, feeling connected in all dimensions, feeling like a spiritual being in a human body, at one with guidance and the higher dimensions; then I would wake up one morning and I could hardly remember how that felt-it was like someone pulled the plug, there was no feeling of connection, no guidance, and even no confirmation that this 5 D world was even real.
By this time in my development, I was so sensitive, that this kind of pain of disconnection was stronger than physical pain. I would plummet into a deep dungeon of despair in my inner world, while holding a strong face in the outer world just to go on with my daily life.
This experience kept repeating over and over again. I began to see that there was truly a cyclic thing going on. One day (when I was really connected), I asked if there was anything I could do about this situation to help myself. The Angels and guides agreed to help me find out.
The first thing they called my attention to was the fact that I was going in and out of consciousness as my personal medicine wheel cycle went into the yin and yang phases. The best they could do for me at that time was to give me an alert right before it was about to happen.
They also encouraged me to grid a special mineral around the house and workspace, with the intention of transmuting all incoming energies that were intentionally created to produce unconsciousness. (I associated this intentional stuff with HARP, but never got a clear read on all of the sources).
WOW-did that make a difference! Every time the guides alerted me to the fact that I was about to "shut down", I did some prayers of gratitude, and set intentions for connection through the yin cycle. Just by knowing ahead of time when it was coming, I was able to start placing intentions and energetic anchors to help me stay connected and begin to wake up in this cycle.
Gradually, I was able to dowse for other people and even receive information for myself all the way through the yin cycle. The instances of shut down became fewer and less intense. Looking back on this stage, I now see that it was a truly valuable stage of integration. That periodic turning off of spiritual energy helped me to connect into all parts of my psyche and body, to bring the light in as soon as it was back on.
The key for me was not to fall into the linear time concept when I was shut down, and think that it was going to be this way for ever and I would never be connected again. I had to bring a new level of trust into the darkness. Gradually it got easier.
Then after a long time of turning through this cycle, something shifted in the ascension process. I suddenly found myself in the center nearly all the time. I was aware of the rhythms and cycles around me, effecting everything from the outside world to my emotions and physical body, but I was now just observing all of that from an unending center of pure connection. This center became stronger and stronger.
My prana tube had expanded to encompass my whole body. I was running primarily vertical energy now instead of running my personal energy horizontally. It was a dramatic shift that changed my whole perspective and experience of life.
And guess what-this change and growth and dynamic perspective shifting never stops! It just keeps going and going. I used to think there was a goal out there, like sooner or later I would be "ascended"and my life would be fixed. The ascended masters always laughed when I projected that image, and now I understand why! I just keep moving to new levels of challenge, responsibility, and fulfillment.
Maybe there is no end to it, and I am now living the goal.
Love and harmony,
Kachina
Friday, March 19
This morning I found myself in a body without a soul.
I was driving my car to work after having just dropped the kids off at school. I could see the road moving beneath and the buildings passing by; I could hear the engine humming and feel the wheel in my hands; but I had this terrifying sense that something was missing – that I was missing. Looking around (turning my head left and right) I found myself wondering with perfect clarity, “Where’s my spirit? Where is the 5th dimensional me in this moment, ‘cause I don’t feel it.”
It was sort of like the flip-side of an out-of-body experience…instead of being in the midst of an astral flight, touring around with a light-thread connecting my soul to my body, I was immovably stuck in my human form with seemingly no connection to the infinite. Deep separation. Seriously scary shit – a zombified me barreling down the boulevard at
Body shaking and eyes welling up, I pulled over into the first parking lot I saw, which was a post office (a detail that is significant if one considers all this as symbols in a waking dream). Before I could park in a proper spot, there in front of me was a young moose, that lovely messenger of forgiveness and self-esteem. I turned off my car, rolled down my window and began connecting with the moose, sensing it wanted to offer me something. Breathing in sync with the animal as it stood a few yards away, I started to feel myself become this moose. The weight of its head on my shoulders, the taste the willow in my mouth, the strength of those legs that walked the wild since birth. For a minute or two, I was this moose, sensing no danger in the comforts of the city, harboring no anger for the wolves that killed my kin, craving no answers, desiring to achieve no dreams. In this sacred experience, I just was.
So, where was my soul 10 minutes before? How can the infinite play hide and seek? Well, I suppose it was vacationing in the body of that moose, taking a bit of rest from the ceaseless chatter of my mind, and most importantly, getting a recharge on those qualities I needed most at that moment – self-esteem and self-forgiveness.
Aho. Mi ta kwi asen.
The Rest of the Story
The next day was quiet and a more peaceful feeling came in and surrounded James' family. I continued to send prayers for healing and forgiveness to all of them and went about my day. Once again, after I had gone to sleep at night, I awakened abruptly at 3:33 am. I could feel the heaviness of distraught emotion, and I knew James was in my room again.
This continued for over 10 nights. Every time I, awakened exactly at 3:33, there was James, badgering me to call his family, asking me why this had happened to him, demanding answers. I continued to hold a healing space for him. I called in his ancestors to come to him and help him.
Over the next 10 days, I called on the Archangel Michael and did some Blue Road healings for him and his family, and the rescuers. I connected with the spirits of the cave, who were previously unheard and unacknowledged, and who were trying to communicate to the humans who came there for recreation that they were entering an extremely sacred place in the earth.
The spirits of the cave were unhappy that this had occurred, and afraid of human reaction. Of course, plans were already being made to seal off the cave with James body inside. I did a ceremony, connecting through the earth grid with the spirits of the cave, and asking them how I could assist. I held the intention that the highest level of harmony would be served through this situation, in benefit of all life.
Then I reminded them that there was an agreement in place here that was designed to be of service. Then the spirits of the cave told me that they would be honored if the cave became a shrine, with James acting as the human guardian of this space. They told me that the cave was a sound chamber that amplifies and directs high vibrational frequencies through the earth grids. It is a major energetic center for the local area, and could actually function better without constant human activity going on inside.
James agreed to act as the guardian of the place. He was beginning to accept where he was and ready to move into new roles.
Every night, he still came at 3:33 am. No longer did he bring the heaviness of unprocessed emotion with him, but he still came. I asked him what he was coming back for, and he did not answer. He just kept showing up, and I started to get over it and say hi, then just go back to sleep. I did continue to wonder what was left undone.
One night, nearly a month after James had passed, I awakened as usual at 3:33. This time, James was not alone. I saw that he was with Liz's brother, who had volunteered to work through our medicine wheel to assist in healing for the local area, and the planetary ascension process. The two of them stood next to my bed and stared at me.
Finally I asked them why they were here, and if there was something I could do. They both told me to look at the area surrounding the medicine wheel. There I saw hundreds of souls, waiting. I realized then that something was going on of which I was unaware.
The two men told me that there were many many souls leaving the planet at that time, and all the medicine wheels and vortices would be very busy over the next 14 days. I immediately did a blue road healing ceremony, then offered to do one every day for the next few days. They said they would come to me anytime it was getting backed up and ask for assistance. I thanked them both.
Then James told me he had decided to work through this wheel on an ongoing basis. I welcomed him and thanked him, and he left with Liz's brother, who I could see was really helping him to adjust to his new reality. I was amazed at how different he felt.
Since that time, they have only appeared to me once. It was to show me that I needed to connect with another cave inside Mt. Timpanogos, in northern Utah. They guided me to set up a mer-ka-ba inside the cave, around a heart-shaped rock called "the heart of timpanogos", and to open a grid line to that exact point. I made prayers of gratitude for the spirits of this sacred place on Mother Earth, and did what they asked.
I saw them working once after the earthquake in Haiti. I was amazed at how many souls came to this portal to exit, since I know there are many portals between here and there. But I am learning that it is not geographical distance that makes a difference to the souls passing, it is quality of frequency. Certain frequencies attract certain souls, and it happens holographically. I am ever continuing to be amazed at our reality.
Now James is a powerful presence here. I can see and feel his work as he assists others, especially those who die unexpectedly. I honor him, and give thanks for his presence and healing intentions.
Kachina
This continued for over 10 nights. Every time I, awakened exactly at 3:33, there was James, badgering me to call his family, asking me why this had happened to him, demanding answers. I continued to hold a healing space for him. I called in his ancestors to come to him and help him.
Over the next 10 days, I called on the Archangel Michael and did some Blue Road healings for him and his family, and the rescuers. I connected with the spirits of the cave, who were previously unheard and unacknowledged, and who were trying to communicate to the humans who came there for recreation that they were entering an extremely sacred place in the earth.
The spirits of the cave were unhappy that this had occurred, and afraid of human reaction. Of course, plans were already being made to seal off the cave with James body inside. I did a ceremony, connecting through the earth grid with the spirits of the cave, and asking them how I could assist. I held the intention that the highest level of harmony would be served through this situation, in benefit of all life.
Then I reminded them that there was an agreement in place here that was designed to be of service. Then the spirits of the cave told me that they would be honored if the cave became a shrine, with James acting as the human guardian of this space. They told me that the cave was a sound chamber that amplifies and directs high vibrational frequencies through the earth grids. It is a major energetic center for the local area, and could actually function better without constant human activity going on inside.
James agreed to act as the guardian of the place. He was beginning to accept where he was and ready to move into new roles.
Every night, he still came at 3:33 am. No longer did he bring the heaviness of unprocessed emotion with him, but he still came. I asked him what he was coming back for, and he did not answer. He just kept showing up, and I started to get over it and say hi, then just go back to sleep. I did continue to wonder what was left undone.
One night, nearly a month after James had passed, I awakened as usual at 3:33. This time, James was not alone. I saw that he was with Liz's brother, who had volunteered to work through our medicine wheel to assist in healing for the local area, and the planetary ascension process. The two of them stood next to my bed and stared at me.
Finally I asked them why they were here, and if there was something I could do. They both told me to look at the area surrounding the medicine wheel. There I saw hundreds of souls, waiting. I realized then that something was going on of which I was unaware.
The two men told me that there were many many souls leaving the planet at that time, and all the medicine wheels and vortices would be very busy over the next 14 days. I immediately did a blue road healing ceremony, then offered to do one every day for the next few days. They said they would come to me anytime it was getting backed up and ask for assistance. I thanked them both.
Then James told me he had decided to work through this wheel on an ongoing basis. I welcomed him and thanked him, and he left with Liz's brother, who I could see was really helping him to adjust to his new reality. I was amazed at how different he felt.
Since that time, they have only appeared to me once. It was to show me that I needed to connect with another cave inside Mt. Timpanogos, in northern Utah. They guided me to set up a mer-ka-ba inside the cave, around a heart-shaped rock called "the heart of timpanogos", and to open a grid line to that exact point. I made prayers of gratitude for the spirits of this sacred place on Mother Earth, and did what they asked.
I saw them working once after the earthquake in Haiti. I was amazed at how many souls came to this portal to exit, since I know there are many portals between here and there. But I am learning that it is not geographical distance that makes a difference to the souls passing, it is quality of frequency. Certain frequencies attract certain souls, and it happens holographically. I am ever continuing to be amazed at our reality.
Now James is a powerful presence here. I can see and feel his work as he assists others, especially those who die unexpectedly. I honor him, and give thanks for his presence and healing intentions.
Kachina
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