I feel that in my role of Executrix, I raged and released a bit over the last couple days and now I am softening on the issues with the sale of my mother's beach house. 2 weeks ago, Kathryn told me to stay open and clear in my mind. Important pieces of information are missing on purpose. (That's for sure!) It is all a symphony. She said she could tell me no more and that, "It must be up to you, for you and from you."
I want to handle the issue of my mom's beautiful but non-sustainable summer beach house in a way that takes the high road with thoughtful and heart-filled leadership and the best interest of all in the settlement of my mother's estate. I think now my guidance is telling me not sell the house for another year. Darn, why didn't they just say that in the first place? I guess so I could skirmish with myself through some more tortuous unhealed emotions and attitudes, and lift myself onto higher clearer ground.
My future desire: I ask to be directed to the sacred land I am to caretake, to build a sustainable family retreat that is also my home/work place and a demonstration of creating loving and healing environments through sacred geometry and Divine Creativity, ....and permaculture, renewable energy, ascension, !all our explorations with co-creation! As I said before, my wounded nieces do not want me to part with the home but they do not understand the expense, risk, worry and "burden of ownership" that comes with it. Or that it may put other peoples' future plans on hold. A house is a home and places hold intense presence but we are the people, we hold the memories. Joni reminded me, "Home is where the heart is." I intend to create a sustainable family retreat where my nieces will be happy to visit or live. For this new land, I have been directed to take a Lumerian crystal from the Medicine Wheel at my mother's beach home, this is a crystal that my brother, his wife and I all held in our fingertips together as we set it buried in the center of the wheel there in a ceremony in honor of my mother. I was guided that we place it in the center hole, vertically with a conch set vertically on top and Mom's ashes poured over it and then covered. The four grandchildren placed 4 Lumerians in the 4 directions. Beforehand, everyone was smudged and afterward they complimented the ceremony and wanted to know, "Where did you learn this?!" Less than 5 months later my brother Ben and his wife Barbara crossed over together in the plane crash.
I am working on options to give my nieces another year before selling the house but with conditions that their estate take on some of the expense, responsibility and risk. That will give them more time to heal and may help them decide whether at 19 and 22 they want to take on such a responsibility. I am staying open in mind, reining in my attorney, as I know I am to do this in co-creation and it is a rite of passage for me. Thank you to the spirits of the "Living your Dream" blog for stimulating this mental clarity for me!!! It just happened! I now know better what I want to do ...at least for today!
There is something I am excited about. I followed guidance from my star-being guides as I was doing the energy rebate remodel to my home. I shifted my son's little bedroom to be my "healing room". I painted the walls in a watercolor wash like a rainbow except green. Over a period of time my starbeing guides had guided me to dowse and watercolor paint 22 geometries 8.5"x11", each one 11 days apart for 240 days. I was guided to frame the last 12 of them, glue a specific crystal on each one, and place an arangement of the 12 on the wall. It feels like heaven in there and I was guided to sleep in there until my brother arrives. Vicki said she felt a big heart chakra opening when she went in there. I asked Kathryn if she could give me some information about why it feels so wonderful, supportive, comforting, alluring and clear. She said the geometries had created a very stable healing environment. The space is self-clearing transmuting any negativity, all non-beneficial energies are cleared from the space. The geometries opened a multi-dimensional portal, a form reaching through the dimensions, such there there are lots of potentials and possiblities for healing, it speeds healing and that any healing done there would have a greater effect. Rock on! Thank you, amazing guides! I am excited. So wow, Co-Creation, what else can we do?!!
Thursday, February 25
Wednesday, February 24
Wednesday, Feb 24
It is spring in Alaska - but for how long before the snow falls again. The palace that I'm working on has the belt channel - kidney area. I decided to get a hula hoop to help stimulate that area. I borrowed one since no store has them yet and gave it a go. At first 2 seconds was all I could last but yesterday I did 22 revolutions. I'm curious as to how this movement will help change the health of my kidneys. I've discovered that I want to do movement with this 90 day to help facilitate the healing. I've not connected specific movement to the constitution work before.I also had a night dream where I was in a class waiting patiently for the question answer period. My question was about horsetail hydrosol. The dream ended and when I looked up this hydrosol I discovered it is for kidneys. The plants are talking to me! This is what I asked for on one of the pages where it said to draw a guide to help me. Dododododo. I've included animals, birds, etc as my guides as well. It has hit me the last 2 months how much the animals/plants/nature wants to be a part of human healing -- beyond just vibrant food but in communication with us about guiding our healing.
My stomach talks to me now about what it doesn't like. I drank a Kombucha and the stomach was not ready for it. I am listening.
I was at my computer today and I flashed back to the Kiva and the tarantulas day dream. I was not done. So I started singing like Kathryn said to do and the spiders turned white. I then went up to my spiritual room and began singing and swaying. It soon became apparent that I needed to sing to all the spirits of animals/plants/nature that I have in my room in the form of feathers, fur, claws, eggs, teeth, hides, shells, etc. I began dancing like Yupik Native Dancers. It only lasted a short while. I've come to believe that spontaneous action only needs to be as long as it needs and doesn't need to be big like a ceremony. This is Living the Dream every day.
Sometimes I get panicky about the time left in my life. I'm 60 now. I look at my spiritual friends in their 20's 30's 40's and think about how long their future is. Then I hear Michael in my mind telling of his story and how he reversed his degenerative body and I have hope. My doubts fade into the background. I see 120 years old in the future and who knows perhaps no age. I ask for courage to step fully onto my new spiritual path and may I always remind myself I don't have to know all the steps to get there. I just have to make the first step and keep moving forward.
Joni Mist Walker
Mind vs. Heart
Hi everyone...
I have a business out of town (in Bethel, AK), and was away working there this weekend. I missed you all and this connection while I was away, but am happy to report that I was able to maintain my high-frequency diet and did not have any coffee, which was amazingly effortless for once. I am so proud of myself!
I can feel deep changes in myself already, and attribute them to this program. I was stunned to get to Bethel and be confronted with strong feelings that perhaps I have outgrown my business there. I have had my skin care business for 3 1/2 years, and there is no logical reason for me to give it up - at all! I love every bit of it and feel great love from my clients in return. I am able to completely support myself financially by working only 3-4 days every 5 weeks, allowing me much freedom the rest of the time. My business continues to grow and grow and I have a deep loyalty to my clients. I also get to spend precious time with my parents who I otherwise would not see much of.
However, there is something off about it, and I felt it very strongly this past weekend, even though it was a wonderful weekend. I believe my heart is telling me that it's time to move on, and that having this business is somehow holding me in a certain place vibrationally, even though I only work 3-4 days/month. I've been using that as a justification until now to override my intuition. I created this business when I was a very different person, and I think now there is a dis-resonance that I can feel more and more as time goes on. It occurred to me this weekend that I definitely "keep a lid" on who I really am, allowing my clients to only see one (very safe) side of me. I feel like I am so much more than what I have been allowing others to see, and now I want to create something new that honors who I am now! Though it all looks perfect on paper, it's beginning to feel very 12/60.
I have made a new commitment to listen to my Heart, and wonder if I'll have the courage to actually go through with this new change. It feels powerful to admit this to you all, myself included. A recent program I placed in the DiamondHeart medicine wheel and the Bethel medicine wheel was " I shift through synchronicity, desire, and fulfillment." That is what this feels like. Thank you all, Earth Song.
I have a business out of town (in Bethel, AK), and was away working there this weekend. I missed you all and this connection while I was away, but am happy to report that I was able to maintain my high-frequency diet and did not have any coffee, which was amazingly effortless for once. I am so proud of myself!
I can feel deep changes in myself already, and attribute them to this program. I was stunned to get to Bethel and be confronted with strong feelings that perhaps I have outgrown my business there. I have had my skin care business for 3 1/2 years, and there is no logical reason for me to give it up - at all! I love every bit of it and feel great love from my clients in return. I am able to completely support myself financially by working only 3-4 days every 5 weeks, allowing me much freedom the rest of the time. My business continues to grow and grow and I have a deep loyalty to my clients. I also get to spend precious time with my parents who I otherwise would not see much of.
However, there is something off about it, and I felt it very strongly this past weekend, even though it was a wonderful weekend. I believe my heart is telling me that it's time to move on, and that having this business is somehow holding me in a certain place vibrationally, even though I only work 3-4 days/month. I've been using that as a justification until now to override my intuition. I created this business when I was a very different person, and I think now there is a dis-resonance that I can feel more and more as time goes on. It occurred to me this weekend that I definitely "keep a lid" on who I really am, allowing my clients to only see one (very safe) side of me. I feel like I am so much more than what I have been allowing others to see, and now I want to create something new that honors who I am now! Though it all looks perfect on paper, it's beginning to feel very 12/60.
I have made a new commitment to listen to my Heart, and wonder if I'll have the courage to actually go through with this new change. It feels powerful to admit this to you all, myself included. A recent program I placed in the DiamondHeart medicine wheel and the Bethel medicine wheel was " I shift through synchronicity, desire, and fulfillment." That is what this feels like. Thank you all, Earth Song.
A Gift from the Spirits of the East
Some Lakota elders say that one of the great gifts of the East is dissatisfaction. At first it may not seems like a gift, but in reality it is a powerful gift that must be acknowledged.
Dissatisfaction is the attitude that provides the energy and motivation to create positive change. Lethargy and denial can cause us to just go along with the way things are, even if we are not experiencing the ecstatic frequencies of living in dynamic synchronicity and co-creation that are possible. Sometimes we get lazy or make the safe choice. Little do we realize that the safe choice is often really a "death" choice.
Every choice we make either brings a little more excitement, adventure, and harmony into our lives OR it causes just a little contraction, a little less of that same adventure and energy. Over a lifetime of safe choices, we gradually suppress our natural energy flow, stop taking risks, and end up in a very small and strong box that can usually be broken out of by dying a physical death.
If we looked at our choices with this awareness, learning to check in to the energy flow that we feel when we make that choice, we can learn to live in constant awareness. This way of living is laying the foundation for the next level of ascension; breaking free of the need to die physically and reincarnate in order to experience change. Once we graduate from the cycle of reincarnation, we begin to live the reality that the ancients have envisioned for us from many cultures. The Mayans call it the age of Flowering, when we walk as humans on the Earth with full connection and awareness in all dimensions.
If you are comfortable ignoring your dissatisfaction, or don't think you have any, make an intention to honor it for the next three days. Really look for it and value it when it comes to the surface. It is a signal that something in your life is out of harmony, or something needs to change.
When we can identify our dissatisfaction, and then can take an action for change, we are moving into empowerment. Our prayer force and manifestation level rise to a whole new level.
Much gratitude
Kachina
Dissatisfaction is the attitude that provides the energy and motivation to create positive change. Lethargy and denial can cause us to just go along with the way things are, even if we are not experiencing the ecstatic frequencies of living in dynamic synchronicity and co-creation that are possible. Sometimes we get lazy or make the safe choice. Little do we realize that the safe choice is often really a "death" choice.
Every choice we make either brings a little more excitement, adventure, and harmony into our lives OR it causes just a little contraction, a little less of that same adventure and energy. Over a lifetime of safe choices, we gradually suppress our natural energy flow, stop taking risks, and end up in a very small and strong box that can usually be broken out of by dying a physical death.
If we looked at our choices with this awareness, learning to check in to the energy flow that we feel when we make that choice, we can learn to live in constant awareness. This way of living is laying the foundation for the next level of ascension; breaking free of the need to die physically and reincarnate in order to experience change. Once we graduate from the cycle of reincarnation, we begin to live the reality that the ancients have envisioned for us from many cultures. The Mayans call it the age of Flowering, when we walk as humans on the Earth with full connection and awareness in all dimensions.
If you are comfortable ignoring your dissatisfaction, or don't think you have any, make an intention to honor it for the next three days. Really look for it and value it when it comes to the surface. It is a signal that something in your life is out of harmony, or something needs to change.
When we can identify our dissatisfaction, and then can take an action for change, we are moving into empowerment. Our prayer force and manifestation level rise to a whole new level.
Much gratitude
Kachina
White, Puffy, Beautiful Snow!
Arizona's Monday storm seems to have met the Northeast with just as much power and beauty. We are into 24 hours of constant snow fall with accumulations of over 20 inches so far and building! They call for more through the night and into tomorrow! It is a beautiful sight out there, every tree is holding armfuls of snow on their limbs and branches; like white puffy leaves!
It is very peaceful and calming to be surrounded by it today and I feel grateful that I did not have to make my way to work and am able to witness the soundless white raindrops. My dog is in heaven (as she is an Alaskan by birth) and I think our mild winter before this had been giving her a bit of seasonal doggie depression. Her 7 year old frame bounced and dug it's self all around out there today and now she rests contently, snow balls stuck to her paws and bum fur making puddles on my wooden floors...ahh...doggie heaven! The simple joys in life!
Oops...there goes the power...on and off all day...looks to be staying off now...
...I intend to enjoy this time to reflect and continue my work on myself and my creation story, can't think of a better tine or place to reflect in silence...
Thanks for listening...
To each and calm and peaceful snowstorm of their own,
Tayo
It is very peaceful and calming to be surrounded by it today and I feel grateful that I did not have to make my way to work and am able to witness the soundless white raindrops. My dog is in heaven (as she is an Alaskan by birth) and I think our mild winter before this had been giving her a bit of seasonal doggie depression. Her 7 year old frame bounced and dug it's self all around out there today and now she rests contently, snow balls stuck to her paws and bum fur making puddles on my wooden floors...ahh...doggie heaven! The simple joys in life!
Oops...there goes the power...on and off all day...looks to be staying off now...
...I intend to enjoy this time to reflect and continue my work on myself and my creation story, can't think of a better tine or place to reflect in silence...
Thanks for listening...
To each and calm and peaceful snowstorm of their own,
Tayo
Tuesday, February 23
Fire and Earth
The last two elements that could be our primary physical element include Fire and Earth.
Fire is the most yang energy flow of all the elements. Fire's primary energy flow is upward. The facial structure is a diamond-like shape (prominent cheekbones or cheekbones being the widest part of face), or a flame shape that is widest at the lower jaw and narrows as it rises.
The main curriculum for a Fire element person involves the development of passion and purpose in life. Fires bring inspiration and excitement to any and all undertakings. They have the ability to focus on and commit to a goal or purpose, and they honor their words and commitments. Early in life, a Fire may draw experiences that shut down their passion, and do not honor their inner purpose. They may draw people to them that have a challenge with commitment, or create an experience of betrayal. These experiences all set up a Fire element person to reclaim their passion and purpose, and to learn the importance of integrity and honor in life.
When Fire element is out of balance, it can resemble its restricting element. Fire can appear to be scattered and unfocused, spending to much time daydreaming or getting lost in time or space. They can begin projects over and over without bringing any to completion, causing the feeling of scattered energy and overwhelm. To restore balance and nourish the Fire element, one should turn to the Wood element and take on a physical project or goal. Applying one's energy in the world and creating is nurturing for the Fire element.
The Earth element is the stillpoint, with the primary energy flow being still or balanced in all directions. This is the pause between inbreath and outbreath, the stabilizing energy flow. This element is identified by a square shaped face, or a face that is equal in width and height. Earth often has a wide straight jawline or straight chin.
Earth's curriculum for the current incarnation is to develop centeredness, balance, and stability, and to use their skill in this department to create stability for others around them. They have a strong ability to connect with the experience and feelings of others, and must learn how to maintain this connection without losing themselves in the drama of others' lives. Earth element people are sometimes so sensitive to the feelings of others that they can turn to addictions or obsessive behavior to try to shut off the feelings. When they are out of balance, they may appear like the wood element, focusing only on a goal in the physical world as if they have blinders on to the rest of life. They can lose their connection to others and lose their own internal balance.
In order to re-establish balance, Earth should turn to the nourishing element of Fire and laugh! Be spontaneous, make new decisions and do something different. They must find the passion and purpose again in life, the things that excite them.
Now that we have an overview of each element, it is important to see these elements in a multi-dimensional perspective. As there is a little yin in every yang, there is also a little of each element in all the others. The physical element we inherit with incarnation is only half of the equation to our constitutional pattern. The other 50% has to do with what we chose and what we experienced in past incarnations. We might have a soul body that has experienced lifetime after lifetime of incarnation as a Water, and now this time we are coming into a wood body. Can you see how unique this can make our current life assignment? In other words, the element we own physically MUST be accepted and acknowledged. But how we bring our soul's purpose into manifestation and fulfillment may be very different from how anyone else does, based on our previous incarnations. This leads us to the Palaces, or areas of focus in our lives.
On a personal note, I felt a big shift today that was beginning yesterday. It feels as if the local area has begun to awaken to the unity grid of Mother Earth! And today, at around 10 this morning, St. George experience a benign earthquake. Mother is re-aligning...
Many Blessings to all,
Kachina
Fire is the most yang energy flow of all the elements. Fire's primary energy flow is upward. The facial structure is a diamond-like shape (prominent cheekbones or cheekbones being the widest part of face), or a flame shape that is widest at the lower jaw and narrows as it rises.
The main curriculum for a Fire element person involves the development of passion and purpose in life. Fires bring inspiration and excitement to any and all undertakings. They have the ability to focus on and commit to a goal or purpose, and they honor their words and commitments. Early in life, a Fire may draw experiences that shut down their passion, and do not honor their inner purpose. They may draw people to them that have a challenge with commitment, or create an experience of betrayal. These experiences all set up a Fire element person to reclaim their passion and purpose, and to learn the importance of integrity and honor in life.
When Fire element is out of balance, it can resemble its restricting element. Fire can appear to be scattered and unfocused, spending to much time daydreaming or getting lost in time or space. They can begin projects over and over without bringing any to completion, causing the feeling of scattered energy and overwhelm. To restore balance and nourish the Fire element, one should turn to the Wood element and take on a physical project or goal. Applying one's energy in the world and creating is nurturing for the Fire element.
The Earth element is the stillpoint, with the primary energy flow being still or balanced in all directions. This is the pause between inbreath and outbreath, the stabilizing energy flow. This element is identified by a square shaped face, or a face that is equal in width and height. Earth often has a wide straight jawline or straight chin.
Earth's curriculum for the current incarnation is to develop centeredness, balance, and stability, and to use their skill in this department to create stability for others around them. They have a strong ability to connect with the experience and feelings of others, and must learn how to maintain this connection without losing themselves in the drama of others' lives. Earth element people are sometimes so sensitive to the feelings of others that they can turn to addictions or obsessive behavior to try to shut off the feelings. When they are out of balance, they may appear like the wood element, focusing only on a goal in the physical world as if they have blinders on to the rest of life. They can lose their connection to others and lose their own internal balance.
In order to re-establish balance, Earth should turn to the nourishing element of Fire and laugh! Be spontaneous, make new decisions and do something different. They must find the passion and purpose again in life, the things that excite them.
Now that we have an overview of each element, it is important to see these elements in a multi-dimensional perspective. As there is a little yin in every yang, there is also a little of each element in all the others. The physical element we inherit with incarnation is only half of the equation to our constitutional pattern. The other 50% has to do with what we chose and what we experienced in past incarnations. We might have a soul body that has experienced lifetime after lifetime of incarnation as a Water, and now this time we are coming into a wood body. Can you see how unique this can make our current life assignment? In other words, the element we own physically MUST be accepted and acknowledged. But how we bring our soul's purpose into manifestation and fulfillment may be very different from how anyone else does, based on our previous incarnations. This leads us to the Palaces, or areas of focus in our lives.
On a personal note, I felt a big shift today that was beginning yesterday. It feels as if the local area has begun to awaken to the unity grid of Mother Earth! And today, at around 10 this morning, St. George experience a benign earthquake. Mother is re-aligning...
Many Blessings to all,
Kachina
Monday, February 22
More Magic
Now we are living in a winter wonderland, in White Sage Arizona! Over the weekend we had about 28 inches of new snow. This is the equivalent of a 100 year storm in this area. We have already had 120% of the precipitation of a normal year-and it is only in February! We still have 10 months to go. For everyone who helped us place the Mayan rain crystals and the harmonizer last October, here is the proof that it really does effect the Earth and her weather patterns!
We are still digging out, but did make it into town today after a full day of uncovering snow. We realize that the road will be impassable very soon, when all the snow melts into mud. It was already 50 degrees high today.
The crisp beauty of the desert land covered with a blanket of snow is delightful. The pinon trees and big sage bushes are looking nourished, and letting their aromatics into the air. Everywhere animal tracks are weaving through the snow.
Right before the snow came, the Pleiadian cloud ships appeared briefly. Then the storm rolled in. It was very unusual, with snow and intermittent lightening storms all night. The strangest thing happened about 4:00 in the morning. I awakened abruptly and could not go back to sleep. Finally I decided to go down and rake up the coals in the woodstove. Just as I was pondering getting out of bed, the whole sky lit up with a bright red light, as bright as daylight! Then it flickered 4 times, and was gone, I am telling you, it was so bright that I could not tell what direction the light was coming from.
Mystified, I went downstairs and kept looking outside, into a pitch black wilderness. Whatever it had been was gone. I rekindled the fire and warmed my toes a little. Finally I was ready to go back up the ladder to bed. Just as I was climbing in, it happened again!!! A brilliant red light lit up the sky so clearly that it looked like daylight outside. Then in an instant, it was gone. Back to a very dark black.
My mind kept trying on different scenarios of what had caused this light. Michael was sound asleep, (though I found out later he saw it through his eyelids, but just thought I had turned on a light), and the silence remained unbroken. None of the ideas I came up with could really fit, so finally I quit looking for a repeat performance and went back to sleep. It was beautiful and fun, and really mysterious.
Then it snowed for two days and nights, and now we are here, willing captives for a few days, eating our root vegetables and living on the land.
I send out my gratitude for each of you who are holding space for transformation, willingly walking through the cleansing symptoms as our bodies cast off accumulation and clean house. Keep walking, one day at a time, and I know it will change your life forever (in a good way!)
Kachina
We are still digging out, but did make it into town today after a full day of uncovering snow. We realize that the road will be impassable very soon, when all the snow melts into mud. It was already 50 degrees high today.
The crisp beauty of the desert land covered with a blanket of snow is delightful. The pinon trees and big sage bushes are looking nourished, and letting their aromatics into the air. Everywhere animal tracks are weaving through the snow.
Right before the snow came, the Pleiadian cloud ships appeared briefly. Then the storm rolled in. It was very unusual, with snow and intermittent lightening storms all night. The strangest thing happened about 4:00 in the morning. I awakened abruptly and could not go back to sleep. Finally I decided to go down and rake up the coals in the woodstove. Just as I was pondering getting out of bed, the whole sky lit up with a bright red light, as bright as daylight! Then it flickered 4 times, and was gone, I am telling you, it was so bright that I could not tell what direction the light was coming from.
Mystified, I went downstairs and kept looking outside, into a pitch black wilderness. Whatever it had been was gone. I rekindled the fire and warmed my toes a little. Finally I was ready to go back up the ladder to bed. Just as I was climbing in, it happened again!!! A brilliant red light lit up the sky so clearly that it looked like daylight outside. Then in an instant, it was gone. Back to a very dark black.
My mind kept trying on different scenarios of what had caused this light. Michael was sound asleep, (though I found out later he saw it through his eyelids, but just thought I had turned on a light), and the silence remained unbroken. None of the ideas I came up with could really fit, so finally I quit looking for a repeat performance and went back to sleep. It was beautiful and fun, and really mysterious.
Then it snowed for two days and nights, and now we are here, willing captives for a few days, eating our root vegetables and living on the land.
I send out my gratitude for each of you who are holding space for transformation, willingly walking through the cleansing symptoms as our bodies cast off accumulation and clean house. Keep walking, one day at a time, and I know it will change your life forever (in a good way!)
Kachina
Each step a test that deeply affects others
My mother crossed over 1.5 years ago followed 5 months later by my brother Bennett and sister-in-law Barbara in a plane crash leaving their two daughters, my nieces, now 19 and 22. Ben was the Executor of my mother's estate; now I am. In order to settle the estate and move forward in my life to create a sustainable family homestead and for practical reasons of distance, "the burden of ownership" and affordability I feel I must sell the family beach house in Delaware. I have waited 1.5 years at my nieces' request. This summer house represents the connection to their parents to them. After my mother crossed over I was guided to open a medicine wheel there in my mother's gorgeous natural garden in a ceremony honoring my mother and with all my family participating. I was also guided to further grid the property with 12 Lumerian crystals. I have continued to work with this wheel when visiting Delaware and through my wheel in Anchorage.
For a year I have done much ceremony around this family home, ceremony of gratitude to this abundant Universe and to all my relatives that attracted the abundance to bring us this home, gratitude to the spirits of the land and awesome angel of the home that have so lovingly supported my family for 30 years bringing us joy in family gatherings and comfort in times of deep loss, ceremony for resolution in perfect unity and all needs met for my family members and all involved, ceremony asking for Divine Assistance to help my nieces and help me help my nieces create another form of connection - spiritual - to their parents and my mother, and many more ceremonies. I have asked for Divine Assistance in being the Executrix of the estate in this most challenging role where I feel I am co-creating an intricate dance between responsible Executrix and compassionate aunt. Among many others, I consult Ben and Barbara for guidance. I have been holding a vision of everything beautifully resolved for the highest good of all. I know the Law of Manifestation that says there is always one solution that brings happiness to all. I feel trepidation. Might I alienate my nieces forever? Will I rise to the occassion to be the strong and guided family person who can co-create a new sustainable family retreat and my new home on sacred land that will be this joy and more? Do I have the strength to leave Anchorage and all that is familiar to me and be successful on this adventure? Am I crazy? Maybe I need to drop to my knees, completely humble myself and ask (SCREAM) "Help!".
I realize it is the emotional issues and my own self-doubt that make this so difficult. And I have been so concerned about the my nieces' feelings and my conceived plan to move forward that I have barely taken a peak at my own feelings surrounding the sale of the beach house to a 3rd party. This morning I conjured an image of the interior cleared out for the next owner. Deep sadness!
What a family home, place of beauty, joy, nurturing and family love my parents created there! It will be a very big family shift. No wonder it turns my nieces inside out! Ouch, such deep, difficult feelings!!!!! It makes me question if I am doing the right thing! I must be an ogre to them to take this nurturing joyous well away from them when their wounds are still open. Am I doing the right thing?! Everything practical tells me it must be done. One step at a time.....Is that the voice to honor?
I feel the difficult painful waters swirling around me all the time I must seek to step above to a high clear road intending to serve all fairly and with compassion. I am not wanting to be poetic or self-absorbent. This territory is most challenging to me, a "test" or rite of passage. Wow, it is hard when others are affected.
The ceremonies of gratitude for the home and property there and all the family members who helped it happen like my grandfathers and mothers brought gushes of tears. I feel I need to do even more gratitude ceremonies as I realize what this has been for our family.... as the layers are peeled back it feels more painful rather than better and it feels more difficult to create an equal.
My plan: the sustainable permaculture homestead on sacred land. Do I have the strength to do it? Is this my choice? I was guided that during the 90-days I am not to seek it's location in the world. But I am being guided to envision it. I have been going the female route: allowing guidance to lead me. Now it seems that I am to do more envisioning, more co-creation of a vision of what is this dream?, more contracting the image, making clear choices - the harder part for me. I am not clear or certain. What will I offer? what will be my purpose? what will I teach?
And where is my soul mate to help me?!!! Actually I was guided and did a balance recently to call in my soul mate. So, hello out there! Welcome!
Abundant Universe and fellow path walkers and seekers, thank you for listening!
with love and gratitude,
SkyWalker Sings with her Heart
For a year I have done much ceremony around this family home, ceremony of gratitude to this abundant Universe and to all my relatives that attracted the abundance to bring us this home, gratitude to the spirits of the land and awesome angel of the home that have so lovingly supported my family for 30 years bringing us joy in family gatherings and comfort in times of deep loss, ceremony for resolution in perfect unity and all needs met for my family members and all involved, ceremony asking for Divine Assistance to help my nieces and help me help my nieces create another form of connection - spiritual - to their parents and my mother, and many more ceremonies. I have asked for Divine Assistance in being the Executrix of the estate in this most challenging role where I feel I am co-creating an intricate dance between responsible Executrix and compassionate aunt. Among many others, I consult Ben and Barbara for guidance. I have been holding a vision of everything beautifully resolved for the highest good of all. I know the Law of Manifestation that says there is always one solution that brings happiness to all. I feel trepidation. Might I alienate my nieces forever? Will I rise to the occassion to be the strong and guided family person who can co-create a new sustainable family retreat and my new home on sacred land that will be this joy and more? Do I have the strength to leave Anchorage and all that is familiar to me and be successful on this adventure? Am I crazy? Maybe I need to drop to my knees, completely humble myself and ask (SCREAM) "Help!".
I realize it is the emotional issues and my own self-doubt that make this so difficult. And I have been so concerned about the my nieces' feelings and my conceived plan to move forward that I have barely taken a peak at my own feelings surrounding the sale of the beach house to a 3rd party. This morning I conjured an image of the interior cleared out for the next owner. Deep sadness!
What a family home, place of beauty, joy, nurturing and family love my parents created there! It will be a very big family shift. No wonder it turns my nieces inside out! Ouch, such deep, difficult feelings!!!!! It makes me question if I am doing the right thing! I must be an ogre to them to take this nurturing joyous well away from them when their wounds are still open. Am I doing the right thing?! Everything practical tells me it must be done. One step at a time.....Is that the voice to honor?
I feel the difficult painful waters swirling around me all the time I must seek to step above to a high clear road intending to serve all fairly and with compassion. I am not wanting to be poetic or self-absorbent. This territory is most challenging to me, a "test" or rite of passage. Wow, it is hard when others are affected.
The ceremonies of gratitude for the home and property there and all the family members who helped it happen like my grandfathers and mothers brought gushes of tears. I feel I need to do even more gratitude ceremonies as I realize what this has been for our family.... as the layers are peeled back it feels more painful rather than better and it feels more difficult to create an equal.
My plan: the sustainable permaculture homestead on sacred land. Do I have the strength to do it? Is this my choice? I was guided that during the 90-days I am not to seek it's location in the world. But I am being guided to envision it. I have been going the female route: allowing guidance to lead me. Now it seems that I am to do more envisioning, more co-creation of a vision of what is this dream?, more contracting the image, making clear choices - the harder part for me. I am not clear or certain. What will I offer? what will be my purpose? what will I teach?
And where is my soul mate to help me?!!! Actually I was guided and did a balance recently to call in my soul mate. So, hello out there! Welcome!
Abundant Universe and fellow path walkers and seekers, thank you for listening!
with love and gratitude,
SkyWalker Sings with her Heart
Saturday, February 20
Am I living the dream or just dreaming!
Another day another billions of thoughts flowing through my mind. The "theme" of the day is back to the familiar and always stressful topic "what am I going to do with my life?" .....I hate that question! I hate it coming from my self or anyone. How the hell am I supposed to know!? It's like an avalanche. It comes at you at an uncontrollable speed building and building intense negativity and angziety than hits you right in the gut and takes the air right out of you. Than, the panic sets in. " F*** ME! what AM I going to do with my life?" I understand I'm only 23 years old, but "you have to have a plan, or at least an idea." pssst, not me! That is not going to be MY reality. I don't want a plan. what fun can a plan be? that ruins everything, I want to go with the flow and have it all unravel right before my eyes, never knowing what's going to happen next but excited to know that if I just trust that it will all work out. Besides, I have my whole life to figure that out....right? :)
In all reality, my problem isn't WHAT I am going to do what my life, it's is HOW do I organize all that I want to do in a way that will bring in enough money/happiness to support me and my dog Murphy comfortably?
I know what it is I want to do, I have always know, ever since I was little, I know EXACTLY what I want (while holding no attachment, hehe) I just don't know how to create it.
I want to do exactly what my sister Earth Song does at Diamond Heart but I want to do it with animals. I want to do animal communication, I want to make flower essences, tinctures, 'animalized' (personalized) oil blends, massage , the whole works for animals BUT I am also just as passionate about art. I LOVE to create things, LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!, but it is soooo time consuming....but I love it, so much. I love to knit, I can do it all day....in fact I have been know to do it all day for many days, but, I want to learn to Sew, crochet, quilt, cook, play the guitar, piano and harp, cross stitch, embroider, wood carving, beading..EVERYTHING nothing gets me more excited than knowing that each new year I get to check one of those off my list of "things to learn"....... except for animals. *50/50*
So, the questions is, HOW do I turn this into a living and HOW do I find balance in learning everything I want to learn for my animal work and my art work??...... I can feel the stress building. today, that is where I stand. but I am happy and still excited for the journey.
Also, I just wanted to say for the record that my Dad got a little 10 week old bright blue eyed australian Shepperd puppy for his farm that I have fallen head over heals for.... I have been taking her on walks everyday and cooking for her and we have really bonded. Now I feel like I want her to be MY baby and "why cant he get his own?" haha, but I can love her from a distance, I know they have some major work to do together....but she sure is pretty. <3
In all reality, my problem isn't WHAT I am going to do what my life, it's is HOW do I organize all that I want to do in a way that will bring in enough money/happiness to support me and my dog Murphy comfortably?
I know what it is I want to do, I have always know, ever since I was little, I know EXACTLY what I want (while holding no attachment, hehe) I just don't know how to create it.
I want to do exactly what my sister Earth Song does at Diamond Heart but I want to do it with animals. I want to do animal communication, I want to make flower essences, tinctures, 'animalized' (personalized) oil blends, massage , the whole works for animals BUT I am also just as passionate about art. I LOVE to create things, LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!, but it is soooo time consuming....but I love it, so much. I love to knit, I can do it all day....in fact I have been know to do it all day for many days, but, I want to learn to Sew, crochet, quilt, cook, play the guitar, piano and harp, cross stitch, embroider, wood carving, beading..EVERYTHING nothing gets me more excited than knowing that each new year I get to check one of those off my list of "things to learn"....... except for animals. *50/50*
So, the questions is, HOW do I turn this into a living and HOW do I find balance in learning everything I want to learn for my animal work and my art work??...... I can feel the stress building. today, that is where I stand. but I am happy and still excited for the journey.
Also, I just wanted to say for the record that my Dad got a little 10 week old bright blue eyed australian Shepperd puppy for his farm that I have fallen head over heals for.... I have been taking her on walks everyday and cooking for her and we have really bonded. Now I feel like I want her to be MY baby and "why cant he get his own?" haha, but I can love her from a distance, I know they have some major work to do together....but she sure is pretty. <3
Ode to Stagnation.
Are we as great as we're made to believe?
Is there truth behind the wisdom we seek?
I'm stuck somewhere neither here nor there..
Afraid to move forward, paralyzed with fear.
Can't get off, the rides only begun...
Can't speed it up, that would be no fun.
Woe is me...what am I to do
I've lost that feeling I've grown so accustom to.
The one that would guide me so I'd know what to do.
I can't stay in this place of stagnation for long.
I call for assistance please help to guide me on.
Take me home to where my heart resides
To where that inner knowing deeply lies
That place they say holds the answers we seek
Oh look I can see it, may I have another peek
To my horror and surprise, you'll never guess what was inside
A revelation and discounted lie.
Not only are we as great as we're lead to believe
But, the magic, beauty and power we seek
Is simply no further then a glimpse in the mirror
At last, I sigh, I can let go of my fear
I've had the strength and ability all along
Wishing this revelation hadn't taken me so long
But if there is one thing I've learned from this long twisted journey
Its never to doubt those who are there to encourage me!
Is there truth behind the wisdom we seek?
I'm stuck somewhere neither here nor there..
Afraid to move forward, paralyzed with fear.
Can't get off, the rides only begun...
Can't speed it up, that would be no fun.
Woe is me...what am I to do
I've lost that feeling I've grown so accustom to.
The one that would guide me so I'd know what to do.
I can't stay in this place of stagnation for long.
I call for assistance please help to guide me on.
Take me home to where my heart resides
To where that inner knowing deeply lies
That place they say holds the answers we seek
Oh look I can see it, may I have another peek
To my horror and surprise, you'll never guess what was inside
A revelation and discounted lie.
Not only are we as great as we're lead to believe
But, the magic, beauty and power we seek
Is simply no further then a glimpse in the mirror
At last, I sigh, I can let go of my fear
I've had the strength and ability all along
Wishing this revelation hadn't taken me so long
But if there is one thing I've learned from this long twisted journey
Its never to doubt those who are there to encourage me!
Hey ya!
Funny thing, writing the words knowing they could be viewed by anyone makes me self conscious, sounds like a Prosperity Palace pattern! ; ) So, here I am moving through that pattern. This is my third time around and this time I feel in total alignment, it is much easier than before and I believe this is why my body is detoxing so quickly, I had a headache on Day 2 which has lasted pretty much all week. Thankfully it has mostly lifted. It made going to work very challenging this week, I did what I could each day to honor myself, either taking leave in the afternoon, getting a massage, accupuncture and getting together with some friends who like to contemplate Astrology and meditate, and doing my own favorite healing meditations. What a relief that has brought. I can feel the layers lifting. I feel like I have somehow lost myself, but where did I go?
prana tube energies
Greetings Adventurers,
In the clearing of my prosperity channel my prana tube is a big element. Kathryn had given me guidance to do something more with my prana tube, 3 breathing exercises. One is a breathing practice bringing in 5th dimensional energy and another is to initiate (for future use!!!) a manna program for my endocrine system where my body can be sustained (in the future!!!!) by producing and assimilating it's own energetic "food". I investigated "the endocrine system", drew a picture of the glands, and started doing the 3 breathing programs. My back became very sore. At first I thought I injured myself playing basketball. But dowsing indicated it is my adrenal glands shifting and taking in new energies. I did not even know where they were before. I was guided to do a lot of deep belly breathing today to allow the new energies to assimilate and to send the Divine love and light within me to those who need it most. I immediately think of Haiti and my nieces who lost both their parents in a plane crash in Nov 2008.
Thank you for sharing, listening and for participating in this wondeful shared adventure. Many thanks and love to Mike and Kathryn for co-creating this form of healing and ascension. Thanks to this amazing Universe revealing itself to us. Thank you all!
In the clearing of my prosperity channel my prana tube is a big element. Kathryn had given me guidance to do something more with my prana tube, 3 breathing exercises. One is a breathing practice bringing in 5th dimensional energy and another is to initiate (for future use!!!) a manna program for my endocrine system where my body can be sustained (in the future!!!!) by producing and assimilating it's own energetic "food". I investigated "the endocrine system", drew a picture of the glands, and started doing the 3 breathing programs. My back became very sore. At first I thought I injured myself playing basketball. But dowsing indicated it is my adrenal glands shifting and taking in new energies. I did not even know where they were before. I was guided to do a lot of deep belly breathing today to allow the new energies to assimilate and to send the Divine love and light within me to those who need it most. I immediately think of Haiti and my nieces who lost both their parents in a plane crash in Nov 2008.
Thank you for sharing, listening and for participating in this wondeful shared adventure. Many thanks and love to Mike and Kathryn for co-creating this form of healing and ascension. Thanks to this amazing Universe revealing itself to us. Thank you all!
Friday, February 19
More Metal, Wood, and Water
To create more clarity and help us understand the importance of these elements in our lives, I want to say just a little more about these three elements. What happens when we go out of balance with the physical element? The answer is in the Restricting Element.
For a wood element archetype, this being associated with the liver, the form of imbalance is generally created through excess rather than depletion. It can fool us and look like the symptoms of depletion, because if it becomes chronic, over years of time, excessive enegy will result in a burn out like depletion. This often creates physical symptoms associated with a congested liver, such as skin issues, breakouts, hardening or inflexibility in muscles and tendons, emotional upsets, eye issues and poor eyesight, to name a few.
Wood's restricting element is metal, so when a wood's energy is out of balance, it will show up in a metal form: Paying too much attention to what others think, and being overfocused on detail. Alternatively, the way to restore balance for the over-doing wood, is to turn toward the nourishing element: Water. Water pursuits-developing spirituality and cultivating ease and gentleness in life, will restore balance and regenerate the wood element. An interesting example of this is happening in the sports world right now, and his name is Tiger Woods. In November, Tiger experienced an event that was triggered by many years of excessive behavior. His family, partnership, and golfing career were suddenly placed on the line because of this excess in his life. Today, Tiger came out of seclusion to announce that he was changing his ways, and going back into his Buddhist practice, as he had let go of it for some time. This is the exact illustration of a wood element person restoring balance in his life! (Thanks to Blew Thunder who follows the sports world and gives me updates!
Now lets look ar metal archetypes. Metals are associated with the lungs and large intestine. When they are out of balance, it is usually caused by a state of overwhelm that results in retention of toxicity in the body, and/or respiratory system issues. Over long periods of time, symptoms can develop into more chronic conditions such as asthma and colon cancer.
When metals are out of balance, they reflect the restricting fire element, becoming scattered and distracted, or acting on every impulse. The way back into balance is to look toward the nourishing element, earth. Drawing attention back into their own center and creating balance in the world around them is imperative to restoring a metal's balance.
The water element is associated with kidneys and bladder. With this element, depletion is usually the cause of imbalance. Depleted kidney energy is considered by Chinese medicine to be the cause of all aging. This usually creates symptoms associated with kidneys, such as swelling and edema, lower back pain, decaying teeth, loss of hair, hearing loss, pain or injury in feet and legs, pelvic issues and reproductive system issues.
The water element out of balance will appear as a restricting earth element. Loss of the self in others-getting caught up in the emotional lives of others to the extent of losing ourselves; feeling powerless in life, and perceiving victimization all around are issues.
To restore balance, a water must turn to the nourishing element of Metal, and re-establish boundaries and attend to the details in order to restore balance.
Tomorrow is Saturday, and I will likely not be blogging again until Monday morning. Just in case-have a beautiful couple of days, enjoy the process (and the juices!)
Kachina
For a wood element archetype, this being associated with the liver, the form of imbalance is generally created through excess rather than depletion. It can fool us and look like the symptoms of depletion, because if it becomes chronic, over years of time, excessive enegy will result in a burn out like depletion. This often creates physical symptoms associated with a congested liver, such as skin issues, breakouts, hardening or inflexibility in muscles and tendons, emotional upsets, eye issues and poor eyesight, to name a few.
Wood's restricting element is metal, so when a wood's energy is out of balance, it will show up in a metal form: Paying too much attention to what others think, and being overfocused on detail. Alternatively, the way to restore balance for the over-doing wood, is to turn toward the nourishing element: Water. Water pursuits-developing spirituality and cultivating ease and gentleness in life, will restore balance and regenerate the wood element. An interesting example of this is happening in the sports world right now, and his name is Tiger Woods. In November, Tiger experienced an event that was triggered by many years of excessive behavior. His family, partnership, and golfing career were suddenly placed on the line because of this excess in his life. Today, Tiger came out of seclusion to announce that he was changing his ways, and going back into his Buddhist practice, as he had let go of it for some time. This is the exact illustration of a wood element person restoring balance in his life! (Thanks to Blew Thunder who follows the sports world and gives me updates!
Now lets look ar metal archetypes. Metals are associated with the lungs and large intestine. When they are out of balance, it is usually caused by a state of overwhelm that results in retention of toxicity in the body, and/or respiratory system issues. Over long periods of time, symptoms can develop into more chronic conditions such as asthma and colon cancer.
When metals are out of balance, they reflect the restricting fire element, becoming scattered and distracted, or acting on every impulse. The way back into balance is to look toward the nourishing element, earth. Drawing attention back into their own center and creating balance in the world around them is imperative to restoring a metal's balance.
The water element is associated with kidneys and bladder. With this element, depletion is usually the cause of imbalance. Depleted kidney energy is considered by Chinese medicine to be the cause of all aging. This usually creates symptoms associated with kidneys, such as swelling and edema, lower back pain, decaying teeth, loss of hair, hearing loss, pain or injury in feet and legs, pelvic issues and reproductive system issues.
The water element out of balance will appear as a restricting earth element. Loss of the self in others-getting caught up in the emotional lives of others to the extent of losing ourselves; feeling powerless in life, and perceiving victimization all around are issues.
To restore balance, a water must turn to the nourishing element of Metal, and re-establish boundaries and attend to the details in order to restore balance.
Tomorrow is Saturday, and I will likely not be blogging again until Monday morning. Just in case-have a beautiful couple of days, enjoy the process (and the juices!)
Kachina
I want to be brave. I want to leap forward and begin the work that I have created for myself over the last few years. But, like a child I can't remember what my original passion was. I can't remember that thing that got me so excited that it motivated me to change the way I choose to create the life I was living before, the one that was safe and comfortable but passionless and full of uhggg. I am attempting to go back and visualize and remember what it is that I always dreamt about, what got me excited, how I wanted to fill my days? I'm too caught up in "the big picture" lets downsize and take it day by day, task by task. External opinions, judgements, masks and monsters mirror my fears back to me. "You can't make money doing what you're doing" "Get a job to support you on the side first" "Just do something, anything!"
It is a scary place to be being full on confronted by what you fear most by the people you love most who are simply doing their job of self-reflection. So yes I am scared because I don't know what any of this was for. I don't know how to take all that I've gathered and turn it into something beautiful that I can be proud of and inspired by. I don't know if this was simply an experience of the other end of the pendulum out of balance. From overworked to under-worked and now I have to find my way to a happy medium. Does that mean getting a job to support me while I attempt to follow my heart? Maybe. I know I have to be open to whatever it is that is meant to be but I also have to be willing to make something happen for myself in spite of the anxiety and fear I feel. So now I ask myself yet again "Where is your heart, what is it you want to create with all that you've gathered? Attempting to feel into my body for the answer, for the knowing of the next move. The only thing I'm sure of is I must silence the internal and external voices that reek shrilly of fear and urgency. For tomorrow is a myth and today is the gift so really all I need to ask myself is what can I do today? What can I do today? WHAT can I do today!?
It is a scary place to be being full on confronted by what you fear most by the people you love most who are simply doing their job of self-reflection. So yes I am scared because I don't know what any of this was for. I don't know how to take all that I've gathered and turn it into something beautiful that I can be proud of and inspired by. I don't know if this was simply an experience of the other end of the pendulum out of balance. From overworked to under-worked and now I have to find my way to a happy medium. Does that mean getting a job to support me while I attempt to follow my heart? Maybe. I know I have to be open to whatever it is that is meant to be but I also have to be willing to make something happen for myself in spite of the anxiety and fear I feel. So now I ask myself yet again "Where is your heart, what is it you want to create with all that you've gathered? Attempting to feel into my body for the answer, for the knowing of the next move. The only thing I'm sure of is I must silence the internal and external voices that reek shrilly of fear and urgency. For tomorrow is a myth and today is the gift so really all I need to ask myself is what can I do today? What can I do today? WHAT can I do today!?
back in my body
Hello 90-dayers,
just figuring this out the blog... Hi! Who's out there?!
I started my 90-day Jan 7 but later received guidance to join the blog. I am doing my last palace, the Health Wealth and Prosperity palace. I did a 2 week core fast then a 9 day juice fast. Then focussing on liver and kidney healing eating lots of hard dark leafy greens, seaweeds, juice, miso, soft round beans, vegetables, winter squash, less grains than usual and a few roots roots.
I have done a lot of guided ceremony since my 90-day started. I am doing a lot of work on my prana tube. My cat Leela told Rebecca that my prana tube has a disconnect at the heart and she was right! I guess she can stay. Kathryn found out I had a buried contract here. It turned out to be with my late husband. I have done a ceremony to acknowledge and express gratitude for his service, call an end to the contract and stated the intention that I choose to experience the full flow of prana energy now. Last night some angels told me I needed to nourish myself with a massage. Yes! I asked if it was with Linda Gill and I got yes. So today Linda helped me make a clear open connection and flow of prana.
OK, I posted. Now I hope to find all of you.
with love,
Liz
just figuring this out the blog... Hi! Who's out there?!
I started my 90-day Jan 7 but later received guidance to join the blog. I am doing my last palace, the Health Wealth and Prosperity palace. I did a 2 week core fast then a 9 day juice fast. Then focussing on liver and kidney healing eating lots of hard dark leafy greens, seaweeds, juice, miso, soft round beans, vegetables, winter squash, less grains than usual and a few roots roots.
I have done a lot of guided ceremony since my 90-day started. I am doing a lot of work on my prana tube. My cat Leela told Rebecca that my prana tube has a disconnect at the heart and she was right! I guess she can stay. Kathryn found out I had a buried contract here. It turned out to be with my late husband. I have done a ceremony to acknowledge and express gratitude for his service, call an end to the contract and stated the intention that I choose to experience the full flow of prana energy now. Last night some angels told me I needed to nourish myself with a massage. Yes! I asked if it was with Linda Gill and I got yes. So today Linda helped me make a clear open connection and flow of prana.
OK, I posted. Now I hope to find all of you.
with love,
Liz
Confessions from an old wooden desk…
You know those words that are written just a tad too hard? The ones indented on the surface, overlapping, just enough to make them out one by one but trying to put them together to make any sense is close to impossible? If you look close enough, that is my surface. Scarred from the past with words I can’t quite make out; emotions I can’t quite pin-point; memories I can’t quite remember. But they are there, scratches on my surface waiting to fade away with age or use or just forgotten about.
This is a hard place to be…to feel these things but not quite know where they all came from or what to do with them. Do I buff them out and hope not to lose originality? Re-surface and hide what was there? Sell out and find a more resilient surface that can “take it”? On the other hand, are these words what makes me, me? Original, creative, caring, self-driven, spiritual, loving, healing, understanding…
It is interesting because most days I don’t even know they are there. I am happy and satisfied in many aspects of my life. Comparatively, I feel more sane and collected then the majority of the people I am surrounded by in this crazy, beautiful world. But there is this tinge of self-doubt seeking approval…a tinge of non-forgiveness dug in, right there on the surface.
So I begin this journey with intentions to move forward. Past the scars of the past that prick my skin, past the self-doubt that circles my mind, past the un-forgiveness that brings water to my eyes. Through and past it all to come out on the other end with a renewed respect for the surfaces that make up who I am and what I represent.
My Palace focus is Relationship…I choose to heal my relationship with myself and with the ones closest to me that may hold a pencil from long ago. But it is not a time to point fingers with blame but to let it go and let it fade…with acknowledgement and time I move forward over the peaks and valleys of my surface to a serene comfortable place where the past is the past and the future is beautiful and full of light.
love and gratitude
Thank you to everyone for being part of this journey together.I also feel that I am connecting with everyone and seeing some aspects of myself through everyone's posts. I am really enjoying the core food fast. I am embracing and appreciating all the roots and juices more completely than ever before. I have enjoyed preparing my kitchen during this last week. I pulled out my pyramid w/ crystals and have used it to raise the life force of all that I am eating. I cleaned out my fridge and got rid of all things that tested below neutral. I am consciously making way for a powerful and healing 90 day journey.
I am taking the time to pray over all of my meals, giving thanks to the creator(my word), nature spirits, ancestors, etc.. I admire the roots, vegetables, fruits, herbs, and give thanks for all of their nutritional, medicinal, and lifeforce energy. I consciously ask that I be open and receptive to the nutritional, medicinal, emotional and spiritual benefits of each meal. I give thanks and love to my physical body as it is the only one I will have in this lifetime. I give thanks to my higher self, wisdom of my body, and my spirit guides. I also ask that I be connected more fully to my higher self.
I am further reminded of the beauty and importance that there is in prayer, ritual and ceremony. Thank you Kathryn, Michael, and everyone else for bringing this back into my life...
I am also beginning to peel the onion in my journal work. As I connect with the unity cd, my higher self, wisdom of my body, and spirit guides I am slowly starting to uncover the underlying truths. I have a difficult time letting go of and holding on to old wounds, judgement, guilt, and grudges. I am working on gratitude for all living things. For too many years I took the path of least resistance, afraid to rock the boat, realize my potential, or even take responsibility for my actions.
It is my intention that this journey will slowly unravel and dissolve my old patterns, beliefs, and emotional scar tissue (that are weighing me down)as I begin to lighten up and fill myself with love and gratitude.
In love and gratitude,
Blessing Willow
I am taking the time to pray over all of my meals, giving thanks to the creator(my word), nature spirits, ancestors, etc.. I admire the roots, vegetables, fruits, herbs, and give thanks for all of their nutritional, medicinal, and lifeforce energy. I consciously ask that I be open and receptive to the nutritional, medicinal, emotional and spiritual benefits of each meal. I give thanks and love to my physical body as it is the only one I will have in this lifetime. I give thanks to my higher self, wisdom of my body, and my spirit guides. I also ask that I be connected more fully to my higher self.
I am further reminded of the beauty and importance that there is in prayer, ritual and ceremony. Thank you Kathryn, Michael, and everyone else for bringing this back into my life...
I am also beginning to peel the onion in my journal work. As I connect with the unity cd, my higher self, wisdom of my body, and spirit guides I am slowly starting to uncover the underlying truths. I have a difficult time letting go of and holding on to old wounds, judgement, guilt, and grudges. I am working on gratitude for all living things. For too many years I took the path of least resistance, afraid to rock the boat, realize my potential, or even take responsibility for my actions.
It is my intention that this journey will slowly unravel and dissolve my old patterns, beliefs, and emotional scar tissue (that are weighing me down)as I begin to lighten up and fill myself with love and gratitude.
In love and gratitude,
Blessing Willow
An Amazing Four Days
Aloha Everyone,
I'm so grateful to be a part of this tremendous group. I'll keep my blog on the brief side, though a lot has happened for all of us these past four days. I must say in reading everyone's blog that I find parts of myself in most everyone's blog. Thank you very much to all of you for your sharing. As they say, the sum is greater than the sum of its parts. Don't think I said it quite right, but you know what I mean. This is going to be "BIG" for "ALL of US", for which I (we) am (are) most grateful!!!
Monday, I broke in my new juicer, opening a new world for myself. I love potatoes and the roots, so that is going well. It felt strange not to be taking my fist full of vitamin supplements, a habit of years. The next thought being, "wouldn't it be nice not to have to take all those supplements any longer???" What other habits of years do I need to reexamine?
Tuesday I joined K & M and Joni at 8:11 Hawaiian time, out on Kepuhi Beach, singing the Ancestor song (only one I know so far) to all that was around. Shortly thereafter while in my room, I ran back to the beach to see the humpback whales who appeared close to the shore. A mother humpback whale had given birth to her calf at this beach the previous week and they were back nursing. Was delightful watching mom roll on her side waving her long white flipper, as if to say hello. Later that day a ladybug appeared on my driver side car window as I was going to the post office to pick up Leslie's Earth weaving bundles, to be placed in sacred places around the Islands. I'm presently in Molokai, by myself, on my self healing journey.
Wednesday was our Intentions' day. Sunset is an important ceremonial time here in the Hawaiian Islands. Thus it was the time I chose to do my sacred intentions cedar fire ceremony. I
chose a secluded beach (not hard to find on this island), not far away. After welcoming everyone
and lighting the fire in the sand pit, surrounded by volcanic lava stones, reading and burning my intentions for our 90 day class, a gecko chirped, which it does when it hears truth. I was attending to my fire while I was once again singing the Ancestor song, tapping on the rocks with a tree stick, I glanced up from my fire to the sky and was totally amazed to see it filled with the Pleiadian cloud ships, the same as we observed at White Sage Landing last October. I gave great thanks for their attendance. The entire experience was deeply moving, to say the least, as is
our group experience of this class. My deepest thanks and appreciation to Kathryn and Michael and to all of you for what is to come from our tremendous group experience. Love and Blessings to All. With much Aloha, Annette/Golden Buffalo Heart
I'm so grateful to be a part of this tremendous group. I'll keep my blog on the brief side, though a lot has happened for all of us these past four days. I must say in reading everyone's blog that I find parts of myself in most everyone's blog. Thank you very much to all of you for your sharing. As they say, the sum is greater than the sum of its parts. Don't think I said it quite right, but you know what I mean. This is going to be "BIG" for "ALL of US", for which I (we) am (are) most grateful!!!
Monday, I broke in my new juicer, opening a new world for myself. I love potatoes and the roots, so that is going well. It felt strange not to be taking my fist full of vitamin supplements, a habit of years. The next thought being, "wouldn't it be nice not to have to take all those supplements any longer???" What other habits of years do I need to reexamine?
Tuesday I joined K & M and Joni at 8:11 Hawaiian time, out on Kepuhi Beach, singing the Ancestor song (only one I know so far) to all that was around. Shortly thereafter while in my room, I ran back to the beach to see the humpback whales who appeared close to the shore. A mother humpback whale had given birth to her calf at this beach the previous week and they were back nursing. Was delightful watching mom roll on her side waving her long white flipper, as if to say hello. Later that day a ladybug appeared on my driver side car window as I was going to the post office to pick up Leslie's Earth weaving bundles, to be placed in sacred places around the Islands. I'm presently in Molokai, by myself, on my self healing journey.
Wednesday was our Intentions' day. Sunset is an important ceremonial time here in the Hawaiian Islands. Thus it was the time I chose to do my sacred intentions cedar fire ceremony. I
chose a secluded beach (not hard to find on this island), not far away. After welcoming everyone
and lighting the fire in the sand pit, surrounded by volcanic lava stones, reading and burning my intentions for our 90 day class, a gecko chirped, which it does when it hears truth. I was attending to my fire while I was once again singing the Ancestor song, tapping on the rocks with a tree stick, I glanced up from my fire to the sky and was totally amazed to see it filled with the Pleiadian cloud ships, the same as we observed at White Sage Landing last October. I gave great thanks for their attendance. The entire experience was deeply moving, to say the least, as is
our group experience of this class. My deepest thanks and appreciation to Kathryn and Michael and to all of you for what is to come from our tremendous group experience. Love and Blessings to All. With much Aloha, Annette/Golden Buffalo Heart
Thursday, February 18
Metal, Wood, and Water
Today was a very full day!!! I meant to BLOG much earlier, but I am seeing that Thursdays might be a later BLOG for me.
I would like to say just a few words about the elements that we are working with, beginning with metal and water. These elements are inherited through our DNA. They are 50% of our pattern, the part that is carried in the physical vehicle we inhabit at birth.
Those with a metal elemental archetype have an oval shape to the face. These people inherit the assignment of developing boundaries in the physical world. They may draw experiences early in life where their personal boundaries are violated, creating the opportunity to heal these issues later in life. They (we) also have the ability to organize, and to break things down into the steps or parts necessary to understand. They are often teachers or embody some aspect of passing on knowledge to others, especially later in life. They walk between the worlds of water element and wood element, in the way that metals can spend some of their time accomplishing in the physical world, but they must balance that time with time doing nothing, just being, or focused on spiritual practice. Their energy dynamic is both inward and outward, balancing the flow out into the world with an alternate flow into the self. Metals can extend themselves, but must always take time to go inward and regenerate. If they do not learn to take time for themselves, they may go through cycles of hard work, then burn-out.
Water element types are rarely seen in our culture. The reason for this is that the water archetype is focused on one thing; just being. These are people whose energy flow is inward and downward. They are not here to accomplish something in the physical world. They are here to live a spiritual life, or a life of self development. In our culture, we find water people living way out in the wilderness on a Native American tribal reservation, most often. We find water element archetypes in Nepal or Tibet, in a monastery, living as a monk or initiate. Waters hold the connection to spirit for the whole of humanity. They hold space for all.
Wood element people are exactly the opposite, as far as energy flow. Wood energy is upward and outward. They are here to accomplish things in the physical world, to create, build, etc. Woods can often go and go and go, without seeming to need any time to go inward. The very act of doing nourishes them and keeps them going. They often go to work at an early age, sometimes drawing experiences early in life that challenge self esteem, or somehow inhibit the creative impulse, in order to heal this issue later in life. They might have issues of flexibility as well, being too rigid or too flexible until they find the balance point.
Tomorrow I will talk about Fire and Earth archetypes.
On a personal note, I am amazed at how many references I am reading about flying or turning into light in the dreamtime. This seems to be an undercurrent for many of us at this time.
I would also like to encourage those who have not yet picked up the talking stick. I want to remind everyone that we can say (write) absolutely anything that is on our minds here in this sacred space. This is our opportunity to speak, to receive attention, to be heard. When we step through that barrier and gather our courage, the heart is activated in a whole new way. It creates the environment for miracles to happen!
Love to each of you!
Kachina
I would like to say just a few words about the elements that we are working with, beginning with metal and water. These elements are inherited through our DNA. They are 50% of our pattern, the part that is carried in the physical vehicle we inhabit at birth.
Those with a metal elemental archetype have an oval shape to the face. These people inherit the assignment of developing boundaries in the physical world. They may draw experiences early in life where their personal boundaries are violated, creating the opportunity to heal these issues later in life. They (we) also have the ability to organize, and to break things down into the steps or parts necessary to understand. They are often teachers or embody some aspect of passing on knowledge to others, especially later in life. They walk between the worlds of water element and wood element, in the way that metals can spend some of their time accomplishing in the physical world, but they must balance that time with time doing nothing, just being, or focused on spiritual practice. Their energy dynamic is both inward and outward, balancing the flow out into the world with an alternate flow into the self. Metals can extend themselves, but must always take time to go inward and regenerate. If they do not learn to take time for themselves, they may go through cycles of hard work, then burn-out.
Water element types are rarely seen in our culture. The reason for this is that the water archetype is focused on one thing; just being. These are people whose energy flow is inward and downward. They are not here to accomplish something in the physical world. They are here to live a spiritual life, or a life of self development. In our culture, we find water people living way out in the wilderness on a Native American tribal reservation, most often. We find water element archetypes in Nepal or Tibet, in a monastery, living as a monk or initiate. Waters hold the connection to spirit for the whole of humanity. They hold space for all.
Wood element people are exactly the opposite, as far as energy flow. Wood energy is upward and outward. They are here to accomplish things in the physical world, to create, build, etc. Woods can often go and go and go, without seeming to need any time to go inward. The very act of doing nourishes them and keeps them going. They often go to work at an early age, sometimes drawing experiences early in life that challenge self esteem, or somehow inhibit the creative impulse, in order to heal this issue later in life. They might have issues of flexibility as well, being too rigid or too flexible until they find the balance point.
Tomorrow I will talk about Fire and Earth archetypes.
On a personal note, I am amazed at how many references I am reading about flying or turning into light in the dreamtime. This seems to be an undercurrent for many of us at this time.
I would also like to encourage those who have not yet picked up the talking stick. I want to remind everyone that we can say (write) absolutely anything that is on our minds here in this sacred space. This is our opportunity to speak, to receive attention, to be heard. When we step through that barrier and gather our courage, the heart is activated in a whole new way. It creates the environment for miracles to happen!
Love to each of you!
Kachina
Gratitude
Today, I am simply grateful for the mighty potato, for banana smoothies and for the essence of spring that has sprung up everywhere around me! Thank you thank you thank you!
Black Cats and Flying High*
OK, many, many amazing things are occurring on all around me! I want so badly to tell you all every little detail but for your sake I will try my hardest to sum it up into a fair amount of reading room as possible.
Where do I start?? I suppose I will start with my continuous dream that I have been having for the last few months, haha, I wont go that far back but I will tell you about the one I had last night THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE TO ME NOW. I don't often dream about people I don't know in this life time, these dreams all started off a few months ago when I dreamt about a Native elder named Eagle Woman, I don't know her in my current life time and didn't recognize her in my dream, it was only towards the end of my dream when a GIANT eagle flew over us than she revealed that she was Eagle Woman. She was here to teach us to fly. Not shape shift into birds, but to fly in our current physical form.
In every dream I get following that dream I get bits and pieces of more info, except last night I dreamt the same dream I dreamt last time. Do you follow? :)
To get to the point, this was the dream. Myself, Earth Song, and Lindsey888, Kachina333, Blue Thunder, Mist Walker and a bunch more people I had never met before (I know now that they are all of you) We were being led by Eagle Woman into this very sacred room. We were the "chosen ones" for this task.For some reason she never really spoke directly to us, always to our higher self's and she didn't speak English either, so it was kind of like, she was speaking... in some sort of higher dimensional language that had to be spoken to out higher self's for it to be translated for us to understand.
Anyhow, we had a ceremony and it was sooo amazing, I can STILL feel in my body how it felt in that room in my dream, strong vibration coming from our voices and bouncing off the walls back into our bodies,(very powerful and sacred words) it felt like extreme extacy It was amazing. Toward the end of our time in this room these beautiful crystals were brought out and placed on a wooden bench in frountof us, one by one a crystal picked it's person. We were guided to place our hands around there crystals in rount of out torso's, close our eyes and tune into the crystals. One by one we all began to lift off the ground and began to fly. Anytime one of us would get too high and begin to feel fear we would quickly be lowered to the ground and could not "fly" again until we transmuted that fear into complete TRUST and LOVE.... than once we were done we were guided to place the crystals back on the bench and exit the room. IT WAS SO AMAZING! As I am thinking about this dream again a I am feeling light and tingly all over my body. I thought I didn't know many of you but turns out that I know you better than most people that I "really know." This is such a very powerful and sacred group and we have such amazing energy together, I know we are all going to do great things...
Now for my encounter today! for those of you that don't know me personally, I am an extreme animal lover... to the extreme! I easily get caught up in the emotions of animals, wither it be sadness, neglect, death or anything of the sort, you name it and USUALLY it results in me sinking into a deeep empty depression. I am not a depressed person, really, I'm quite happy but if there is ONE THING that could do it, it's that. Any sort of negativity towards animals and I have the blues.
I have been working on this thanks to Kachina333 and her amazing teachings. ( THANK YOU!)
Long story short, I was driving to my sisters house today (Earth Song) cause we get together everyday to take out dogs on a walk and on the was I saw a black cat lying on the side of the road, obviously it had been hit by a car. In the past (even as of last week) I would have broke down on the spot crying hysterically, hyperventilating and having these sort of crazy out of body uncontrollable seizure like movements (crazy, I know) THIS TIME, I was completely calm!!!! (this is unheard of!) I pulled over, sat in my car and did a little ceremony for the cat's spirit (how Kachina333 had taught me) called on it's guides and people to come and help it to cross over, I got a BIG thank you, thank you, thank you! I was thrilled cause I really knew that I helped. I figured I did me job, so I started my car and began to drive only to find that this cat was in my car, sitting on my dash board and didn't seem to have any intention in leaving. Of course I didn't mind but naturally, I was curious as to why. This is the first time that I had had a ceremony and actually FELT like I did my job and helped the animal cross over so I was confused as to why she was hanging around. So I tuned in with her and asked " Is there anyting you would like to say, or ask?" and I just got another "THANK YOU"... so I said "you are very welcome"...... anyhow, she is STILL here with me?? I am going to go into my kiva right now to have a little ceremony for her and try to do come communicating to get to the bottom of this. Anyhow, it has been an amazing 4th day on this journey, I'm so happy to be sharing it with you all. :)
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Spirit Talker <3
p.s. I'm usually not this big of a talker, but I just had to share this!
Where do I start?? I suppose I will start with my continuous dream that I have been having for the last few months, haha, I wont go that far back but I will tell you about the one I had last night THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE TO ME NOW. I don't often dream about people I don't know in this life time, these dreams all started off a few months ago when I dreamt about a Native elder named Eagle Woman, I don't know her in my current life time and didn't recognize her in my dream, it was only towards the end of my dream when a GIANT eagle flew over us than she revealed that she was Eagle Woman. She was here to teach us to fly. Not shape shift into birds, but to fly in our current physical form.
In every dream I get following that dream I get bits and pieces of more info, except last night I dreamt the same dream I dreamt last time. Do you follow? :)
To get to the point, this was the dream. Myself, Earth Song, and Lindsey888, Kachina333, Blue Thunder, Mist Walker and a bunch more people I had never met before (I know now that they are all of you) We were being led by Eagle Woman into this very sacred room. We were the "chosen ones" for this task.For some reason she never really spoke directly to us, always to our higher self's and she didn't speak English either, so it was kind of like, she was speaking... in some sort of higher dimensional language that had to be spoken to out higher self's for it to be translated for us to understand.
Anyhow, we had a ceremony and it was sooo amazing, I can STILL feel in my body how it felt in that room in my dream, strong vibration coming from our voices and bouncing off the walls back into our bodies,(very powerful and sacred words) it felt like extreme extacy It was amazing. Toward the end of our time in this room these beautiful crystals were brought out and placed on a wooden bench in frountof us, one by one a crystal picked it's person. We were guided to place our hands around there crystals in rount of out torso's, close our eyes and tune into the crystals. One by one we all began to lift off the ground and began to fly. Anytime one of us would get too high and begin to feel fear we would quickly be lowered to the ground and could not "fly" again until we transmuted that fear into complete TRUST and LOVE.... than once we were done we were guided to place the crystals back on the bench and exit the room. IT WAS SO AMAZING! As I am thinking about this dream again a I am feeling light and tingly all over my body. I thought I didn't know many of you but turns out that I know you better than most people that I "really know." This is such a very powerful and sacred group and we have such amazing energy together, I know we are all going to do great things...
Now for my encounter today! for those of you that don't know me personally, I am an extreme animal lover... to the extreme! I easily get caught up in the emotions of animals, wither it be sadness, neglect, death or anything of the sort, you name it and USUALLY it results in me sinking into a deeep empty depression. I am not a depressed person, really, I'm quite happy but if there is ONE THING that could do it, it's that. Any sort of negativity towards animals and I have the blues.
I have been working on this thanks to Kachina333 and her amazing teachings. ( THANK YOU!)
Long story short, I was driving to my sisters house today (Earth Song) cause we get together everyday to take out dogs on a walk and on the was I saw a black cat lying on the side of the road, obviously it had been hit by a car. In the past (even as of last week) I would have broke down on the spot crying hysterically, hyperventilating and having these sort of crazy out of body uncontrollable seizure like movements (crazy, I know) THIS TIME, I was completely calm!!!! (this is unheard of!) I pulled over, sat in my car and did a little ceremony for the cat's spirit (how Kachina333 had taught me) called on it's guides and people to come and help it to cross over, I got a BIG thank you, thank you, thank you! I was thrilled cause I really knew that I helped. I figured I did me job, so I started my car and began to drive only to find that this cat was in my car, sitting on my dash board and didn't seem to have any intention in leaving. Of course I didn't mind but naturally, I was curious as to why. This is the first time that I had had a ceremony and actually FELT like I did my job and helped the animal cross over so I was confused as to why she was hanging around. So I tuned in with her and asked " Is there anyting you would like to say, or ask?" and I just got another "THANK YOU"... so I said "you are very welcome"...... anyhow, she is STILL here with me?? I am going to go into my kiva right now to have a little ceremony for her and try to do come communicating to get to the bottom of this. Anyhow, it has been an amazing 4th day on this journey, I'm so happy to be sharing it with you all. :)
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Spirit Talker <3
p.s. I'm usually not this big of a talker, but I just had to share this!
Frequency
Dear Group,
Last night I had a dream about all of us, even those of you who I haven't met. We were all together in a different frequency/dimension, and it was amazing! It was almost like NeverNever Land, but not quite, much more real. We had a pretty serious agenda of planetary work to do, and were working away diligently on it, but there was no stress, no negativity, only playfulness and LOVE! It felt wonderful to be in those emotions consistently, as though all lower vibrational emotions just didn't exist. Also, we were very light and we were almost floating above the ground.
This dream was so incredible that I got up at 4 am to write it down so I wouldn't forget it. Have a wonderful weekend everyone. -Earth Song
Last night I had a dream about all of us, even those of you who I haven't met. We were all together in a different frequency/dimension, and it was amazing! It was almost like NeverNever Land, but not quite, much more real. We had a pretty serious agenda of planetary work to do, and were working away diligently on it, but there was no stress, no negativity, only playfulness and LOVE! It felt wonderful to be in those emotions consistently, as though all lower vibrational emotions just didn't exist. Also, we were very light and we were almost floating above the ground.
This dream was so incredible that I got up at 4 am to write it down so I wouldn't forget it. Have a wonderful weekend everyone. -Earth Song
Myself as my witness
I love Mist Walker's idea about speaking out loud to yourself in a sacred circle, with no editing. Everything for me lately is about myself, and I feel guilty about this at times. I desire to be alone for the most part, and suddenly it feels like being with other people distracts me. I am not depressed at all, but suddenly have a fascination with getting to know myself-really getting to know myself. It is my intention to become solid and confident in self referral, and I feel like I need to know who I am and what that means first! Other than my slight guilt (which is another thing for me to be aware of), this feels pretty great. Different. I am not really who I thought I was.
Kachina and Blew Thunder have a way of bringing me right back to White Sage through their entries. I was not expecting to feel so close to them, and it's a nice surprise.
Tonight I lit my sacred cedar in the medicine wheel at DiamondHeart and felt a deep connection with our group. It is an amazing experience to feel so connected with a group who is not here physically.
My boyfriend Roy is currently in California and will be joining us soon. He just went to the Crystal show in Tuscan, and I feel like he will be bringing home a crystal that would like to be a part of this group, I'm guessing to be placed in the medicine wheel here. I'll have to check in when he gets home, as I can no longer plan 2 days ahead of time anymore! I enjoy living this way. Honored to be here...Earth Song
Kachina and Blew Thunder have a way of bringing me right back to White Sage through their entries. I was not expecting to feel so close to them, and it's a nice surprise.
Tonight I lit my sacred cedar in the medicine wheel at DiamondHeart and felt a deep connection with our group. It is an amazing experience to feel so connected with a group who is not here physically.
My boyfriend Roy is currently in California and will be joining us soon. He just went to the Crystal show in Tuscan, and I feel like he will be bringing home a crystal that would like to be a part of this group, I'm guessing to be placed in the medicine wheel here. I'll have to check in when he gets home, as I can no longer plan 2 days ahead of time anymore! I enjoy living this way. Honored to be here...Earth Song
Wednesday, February 17
A Magical Day
I have had the most magical day today! It started with Blew Thunder and I burning our sticks in a smudge ceremony and setting our intentions for the 90 Days. Right after that, we grabbed our drum and some dowsing equipment, because we had arranged to go over to a neighbor's house before setting this new road that is soon to be put in.
When we arrived, Lynn (our neighbor) was fixing a pony cart with his girlfriend Jackie. They completed the job, and then we talked about our intentions for the road, Lynn's intentions for putting in a fence to hold horses for a horse rescue project, etc.
We walked over to the land where the road will be located, which I had connected with several days before, and sang the badger song. We asked for the spirits of the land to guide all of us as we put the road in, in order for it to be done with ease and harmony with all life. While we were singing, Lynn had an amazing experience where all the pain in his body went sinking into the ground. He said it was gone completely, and he was amazed!
We dowsed and found a non-beneficial Curry line, about 40 feet wide, that could be transmuted by planting a geo-resonator and some gold into the earth. Then we found a dragon line-irregular shaped fault line that was leaking non-beneficial radiation energy. I was allowed to connect with the line, and it asked for the placement of a certain mineral I had at home, but I do not have permission to place it until the road is in place. I am not sure why, but will let you know if something else surfaces between now and then.
After working with the spirits of the land in this way, we spent the rest of the day cleaning up old wood piles and repairing fences. The coyotes serenaded us, and Lynn came over to our place with a trailer and took a bunch of scrap wood off our land. He is a very connected "rock hunter", and has many beautiful crystals living in his home. He showed us some really cool ones, then told us where we could find clay for making pots. He had made and fired several pots in the Anasazi way, with local clay. It was awesome.
Then, right before we left Lynn's house, he gave Blew Thunder a Badger Paw! This is one of the most amazing animal medicines I have ever felt. When you hold it, it feels really DENSE like it is made of lead. The energy it radiates is quite indescribable, but I will try. It feels smooth and relaxed and very grounded, and there is an unexpected refinement to the energy. I have never seen Michael happier-he was like a child receiving a Christmas present!
Wow. We came inside just as it was getting dark and both felt like we had been in another dimension all day. Life in this place is amazing. I am so grateful to be here on Mother Earth during this synchronistic time.
Okay, tomorrow I will talk about what I am transforming for the 90 days! Love and gratitude to all, Kachina
When we arrived, Lynn (our neighbor) was fixing a pony cart with his girlfriend Jackie. They completed the job, and then we talked about our intentions for the road, Lynn's intentions for putting in a fence to hold horses for a horse rescue project, etc.
We walked over to the land where the road will be located, which I had connected with several days before, and sang the badger song. We asked for the spirits of the land to guide all of us as we put the road in, in order for it to be done with ease and harmony with all life. While we were singing, Lynn had an amazing experience where all the pain in his body went sinking into the ground. He said it was gone completely, and he was amazed!
We dowsed and found a non-beneficial Curry line, about 40 feet wide, that could be transmuted by planting a geo-resonator and some gold into the earth. Then we found a dragon line-irregular shaped fault line that was leaking non-beneficial radiation energy. I was allowed to connect with the line, and it asked for the placement of a certain mineral I had at home, but I do not have permission to place it until the road is in place. I am not sure why, but will let you know if something else surfaces between now and then.
After working with the spirits of the land in this way, we spent the rest of the day cleaning up old wood piles and repairing fences. The coyotes serenaded us, and Lynn came over to our place with a trailer and took a bunch of scrap wood off our land. He is a very connected "rock hunter", and has many beautiful crystals living in his home. He showed us some really cool ones, then told us where we could find clay for making pots. He had made and fired several pots in the Anasazi way, with local clay. It was awesome.
Then, right before we left Lynn's house, he gave Blew Thunder a Badger Paw! This is one of the most amazing animal medicines I have ever felt. When you hold it, it feels really DENSE like it is made of lead. The energy it radiates is quite indescribable, but I will try. It feels smooth and relaxed and very grounded, and there is an unexpected refinement to the energy. I have never seen Michael happier-he was like a child receiving a Christmas present!
Wow. We came inside just as it was getting dark and both felt like we had been in another dimension all day. Life in this place is amazing. I am so grateful to be here on Mother Earth during this synchronistic time.
Okay, tomorrow I will talk about what I am transforming for the 90 days! Love and gratitude to all, Kachina
Knock , Knock, Anyone Home??
Hi Guys, this is Blew Thunder. My account authorisation is still not straightened out, so I am writing under Kachina's account.
Last night, looking at what my intention was and what I would like to heal, I became aware of how unconscious I had become. In reflecting back on the last year and a half, excluding a feww weeks here and there, my main focus has been the building project here.
And also, except for Kathryn, the only conversation around for me is the rabbits and the lizards. I have become aware of how disconnected and driven I have become with this project. From time to time, a little short and snappy, and at times even inconsiderate of others, including the lizards and rabbits. The irony of the whole thing, is that we moved out into the wilderness and I STILL FOUND THE FUCKING SQUIRREL CAGE! (Sorry!)
And Kathryn has informed me that this is a very common wood element issue (my element). So that is one of the things I would like to heal: Being more in the moment, and being that playful person that I like to be.
One of the many benefits of doing this 90 day process is the opportunity it gives me to put attention on my intentions. Glad each one of you are on board!
Blew Thunder
PS- Gotta Love the Roots!
Last night, looking at what my intention was and what I would like to heal, I became aware of how unconscious I had become. In reflecting back on the last year and a half, excluding a feww weeks here and there, my main focus has been the building project here.
And also, except for Kathryn, the only conversation around for me is the rabbits and the lizards. I have become aware of how disconnected and driven I have become with this project. From time to time, a little short and snappy, and at times even inconsiderate of others, including the lizards and rabbits. The irony of the whole thing, is that we moved out into the wilderness and I STILL FOUND THE FUCKING SQUIRREL CAGE! (Sorry!)
And Kathryn has informed me that this is a very common wood element issue (my element). So that is one of the things I would like to heal: Being more in the moment, and being that playful person that I like to be.
One of the many benefits of doing this 90 day process is the opportunity it gives me to put attention on my intentions. Glad each one of you are on board!
Blew Thunder
PS- Gotta Love the Roots!
ZoomZoom
Picture driving through a snow storm with your high beams on, the snow flying past like stars in space as you travel in a space ship or as I remember the many times at Disneyland on Space Mountain, my favorite ride. This is my life or the best description of what is happening right now. Moving fast and exciting. So much information, where to begin? A few highlights will do for now. First, I was named in the womb and when I was born I was given a different name as my primary name and my womb name as a secondary name. I have gone through this life feeling like I am constantly being refered to as someone else, not really resinating with who I am and who am being called. I had a struggle with the name peace in my last 90 day and only now is it all unfolding. I experienced an amazing vison/journey where I was told my true purpose and the name that goes along with that, Earth Spirit Keeper, since then many more pieces are unfolding through dreams, reading and more understanding of who I am. As I awaken Michelle, my true human identity, I awaken Earth Spirit Keeper my true spiritual identity. In honor of courage I step out in this room and speak that I am now allowing myself to be who I truly am and all the emotions that come with that aknowledgement. I am tossing out the rules, the questions and the need to see the unknown and jumping off of the plateform into the vast open sky to allow flight, as the Raven brought to me in a dream, I am willing, open and grateful. I honor Alligator in the East as my teacher that I may disolve judgement, digest the value of all lessons, integrate growth and remember to laugh and allow myself to be silly, especially when I feel seriousness take hold. I am grateful to be part of the whole and ready for what comes next and after that and so on....Cheers! Michelle
Tuesday Feb 16
Today I joined K & M at 9:11 Alaska time. My friend Laura left me the community drum to care take for a few months that K & M had gifted her So I drummed imaging all of us around the drum stating our intentions for the 90 days. The sound of the drum was deep and rich, and it seemed like it lasted a long time. My voice became like the Grandfathers. It felt like there were many voices singing and many drums drumming. When thinking of K & M with gratitude, the walls fell away and I saw Kathryn dancing in the middle of Native American women who were singing and dancing. I saw Michael dancing in the center of Native American men who were singing and dancing. And still I drummed and the ancestors drummed. Then the two circles danced closer and closer to each other until the 2 circles were super imposed upon each other. The two circles were one circle in their own space but within the same space holographically.
Then the scene shifted to the Kiva there. The spirits of all animals and birds that were honored there in the soil in the 4 directions and the center were walking or flying through the Kiva to the rhythm of the drum. No walls but a sense of the walls as if man made constructs had no form to them.
When the vision felt complete, I stopped drumming. I picked up a carving -- a stick of wood with a crocodile carved on top of it to use as my talking stick. I told my story of 2 days -- my hopes and dreams for this journey. Then I called upon my mother-in-law in the spirit world to witness my guilt and sadness in the tale I had to unburden of her last days on earth and my role in it. It felt good to release the emotions and to forgive myself. I've carried this for 2 years and had just unburdened myself to my husband on Valentine's Day about this. I knew that on one level that all was perfect in my role with her but I had to release it out of my body. The body's memory was still in the 3D even though I'd move beyond that. So part of me observed the releasing and the other part did the releasing. Very interesting to see an old pattern be done.
I will take up my talking stick each day, and my only audience is myself. I require no group approval like in the past. There are no edits or embellishments -- just the truth. I acknowledge myself in all that is voiced, and my voice will become stronger and stronger. Somewhere in one of these 90 days, I will no longer need the talking stick for myself.
Joni Spirit Mist Walker
Tuesday, February 16
L!FE
WOW! With the new year I can honestly say and feel quite certain saying that L!FE, is really happening. No if's and's or but's about it!!! So many BIG changes are occurring everyday and the universe is not giving me the option to run and hide anymore..... Tough love, right? ;)
I have found that most of these "isn't that interesting" moments I don't yet feel quite strong enough to go head on with but it is no longer a question of AM I strong enough, I have no other choice than to BELIEVE and to KNOW that I AM...
It is so easy, while being on the path of living consciously to encourage all these stored emotions to come up so that they can be cleared, but as I keep catching myself doing is automatically trying to store more "I'll deal with those later"situations.
It's just so easy to say "I cant deal with this now, I JUST dealt with this other big thing, I need a moment to breathe, I'll deal with this later" but lately I have been feeling this sort of, push to DEAL WITH IT NOW! So I have been knocking down walls and jumping over hurdels left and right and thought I am feeling a little over whelmed and exhausted from these constant shifts, when I look back to what I have already conquered I cant help but feel a strong sensation of excitement and a feeling of strength and of a knowing that "everything will ALWAYS work out" you just have to trust.
It's so easy for me to get sucked into the "facts" and drama of the situation, so I'm really trying to remind myself of that right now. TRUST... everything is just as it's supposed to be. <3
I have found that most of these "isn't that interesting" moments I don't yet feel quite strong enough to go head on with but it is no longer a question of AM I strong enough, I have no other choice than to BELIEVE and to KNOW that I AM...
It is so easy, while being on the path of living consciously to encourage all these stored emotions to come up so that they can be cleared, but as I keep catching myself doing is automatically trying to store more "I'll deal with those later"situations.
It's just so easy to say "I cant deal with this now, I JUST dealt with this other big thing, I need a moment to breathe, I'll deal with this later" but lately I have been feeling this sort of, push to DEAL WITH IT NOW! So I have been knocking down walls and jumping over hurdels left and right and thought I am feeling a little over whelmed and exhausted from these constant shifts, when I look back to what I have already conquered I cant help but feel a strong sensation of excitement and a feeling of strength and of a knowing that "everything will ALWAYS work out" you just have to trust.
It's so easy for me to get sucked into the "facts" and drama of the situation, so I'm really trying to remind myself of that right now. TRUST... everything is just as it's supposed to be. <3
Talking Circle
Blew Thunder and I just finished singing Red Earth Song and smudging the beautiful Raziel crystal that was gifted to us in October. This is the crystal that has agreed to hold the space of transformation for us as a group. In doing the smudge, I saw each of us fourteen beings in a circle around the crystal. I saw our physical ancestors standing in a long line behind us, giving their love and attention to each of us here. And I felt a big white star descend from just overhead, filling us and all our generations with amazing light! It was awesome.
I want to remind each of you that this BLOG is now our sacred space. Every time you sit down to contribute to it, you are picking up the talking stick in a talking circle. The 13 other members are holding a space for you, without judgement or interruption, to speak what is in your heart. It is a space for the transformation of the medicine wheel journey to unfold.
I will be holding this space by periodically smudging with the crystal before BLOGging, and doing ceremony. I don't expect everyone to be able to smudge every time they write, but instead to simply take a moment to visualize picking up that sacred talking stick, and honoring it in some way.
I have already felt a shift with the foods I am eating. It never ceases to amaze me how much opportunity there is with this Core Food Fast to regenerate on a new level every time. Blew Thunder and I started today with root vegetables and lots of fresh juices and I am already feeling lighter.
Now, here in the East direction, this is the time to become ruthlessly honest with yourself about your life. What needs to change? What is your true desire? What is holding you back from fulfillment? What does heaven on earth look like to you?
These are the questions to have vibrating in your field. The answers will come naturally.
I thank you for sending the e-mails. Please know that I will try to address every question and issue through the BLOG, so there may not be a personal response to each one. Be persistent if there is something important to you, and it will be addressed.
Tomorrow we will be burning our cedar sticks and calling in the Ancestors again, setting our personal intentions for the 90 days. Today, my prayer was for each of us to create fulfillment, however that looks for us, and to experience the true value of the transformational experience that we are co-creating, for ourselves and the value it brings for others, and all life on earth.
I want to remind each of you that this BLOG is now our sacred space. Every time you sit down to contribute to it, you are picking up the talking stick in a talking circle. The 13 other members are holding a space for you, without judgement or interruption, to speak what is in your heart. It is a space for the transformation of the medicine wheel journey to unfold.
I will be holding this space by periodically smudging with the crystal before BLOGging, and doing ceremony. I don't expect everyone to be able to smudge every time they write, but instead to simply take a moment to visualize picking up that sacred talking stick, and honoring it in some way.
I have already felt a shift with the foods I am eating. It never ceases to amaze me how much opportunity there is with this Core Food Fast to regenerate on a new level every time. Blew Thunder and I started today with root vegetables and lots of fresh juices and I am already feeling lighter.
Now, here in the East direction, this is the time to become ruthlessly honest with yourself about your life. What needs to change? What is your true desire? What is holding you back from fulfillment? What does heaven on earth look like to you?
These are the questions to have vibrating in your field. The answers will come naturally.
I thank you for sending the e-mails. Please know that I will try to address every question and issue through the BLOG, so there may not be a personal response to each one. Be persistent if there is something important to you, and it will be addressed.
Tomorrow we will be burning our cedar sticks and calling in the Ancestors again, setting our personal intentions for the 90 days. Today, my prayer was for each of us to create fulfillment, however that looks for us, and to experience the true value of the transformational experience that we are co-creating, for ourselves and the value it brings for others, and all life on earth.
The Journey Continues
I am so excited that our 2010 journey has finally begun...I have felt the energy of this group for quite awhile. I will be singing Red Earth at 9:11 this morning. I can't believe how much I have changed in two years, since my last "Living your Dream" experience. I'm also excited that I have not had any coffee or caffeine in 15 days, and I feel amazing! My natural energy levels are so much more balanced now, and perfectly constant throughout the day, unlike with coffee. I have been working on a very strong coffee addiction for many years now, which really helps me to understand others who have addictions. It has been no joke! Anyway, that is in the past, and I know I can do it this time.
Another theme for me in these next 90 days will be boundaries! As I'm beginning to look more and more to myself and less to others for the things I experience in my life, my boundary issues point right back to my own self. I have always been a young woman in business (started when I was 19) and because of that have noticed that I probably get (have allowed myself as I see it now) pushed around and perhaps taken advantage of a lot more than others might, something which has always bothered me tremendously! This pattern has also been predominant in my personal life, and in reflecting on it lately, I have always tried to hide from these situations or let others call the shots, which doesn't feel good. I guess I have felt like a victim of others and have always felt like I had no choice in the situations. I find it very challenging to stick up for myself a lot of the time, especially when dealing with friends, and I especially avoid confrontation.
I am determined to begin to view this differently, and this has come up very strongly for me all of a sudden, first the awareness that I am creating every bit of it and next, the strong desire to change this pattern. I dealt with 3 situations yesterday in which I spoke my truth and it felt so great to be in charge of my own power! My animal totem in the East is Wild Boar "confrontation" and I will be working intimately with him during this phase. I really hope to create permanent change in this area of my life....
I am excited to share the experience of this journey with you all. -Earth Song (my temporary name)
Another theme for me in these next 90 days will be boundaries! As I'm beginning to look more and more to myself and less to others for the things I experience in my life, my boundary issues point right back to my own self. I have always been a young woman in business (started when I was 19) and because of that have noticed that I probably get (have allowed myself as I see it now) pushed around and perhaps taken advantage of a lot more than others might, something which has always bothered me tremendously! This pattern has also been predominant in my personal life, and in reflecting on it lately, I have always tried to hide from these situations or let others call the shots, which doesn't feel good. I guess I have felt like a victim of others and have always felt like I had no choice in the situations. I find it very challenging to stick up for myself a lot of the time, especially when dealing with friends, and I especially avoid confrontation.
I am determined to begin to view this differently, and this has come up very strongly for me all of a sudden, first the awareness that I am creating every bit of it and next, the strong desire to change this pattern. I dealt with 3 situations yesterday in which I spoke my truth and it felt so great to be in charge of my own power! My animal totem in the East is Wild Boar "confrontation" and I will be working intimately with him during this phase. I really hope to create permanent change in this area of my life....
I am excited to share the experience of this journey with you all. -Earth Song (my temporary name)
Monday, February 15
A New Day, A New Beginning...
Warm Greetings to everyone on the 90 Day Program for Transmuting the Constitutional Pattern! I am really excited to be doing this with all of you in this form. It feels like we are laying a foundation GLOBALLY this time, as last time it felt like we were laying it more LOCALLY.
For those who have not seen them, we sometimes are visited by special "clouds" that are commonly known to be Pleiadian ships (cloud ships). They have not appeared in our skies for some time, the last time was during the Anasazi Journey events here in October.
For several weeks now, I have been getting little impulses that said "we are coming with the 90 Day Program". Imagine my delight when I opened my eyes this morning to look out the windows at a sky full of cloud ships! I am so feeling the synchronicity around us!
Reading Lidsey888's post, I realized that we have to go through the emotion, doubt, and disillusionment that accompanies death (the death of an old form), in order to clear the way for the radiant new forms we are embodying in this time. I feel the cycle of clearing these old feelings getting quicker and shorter, and growing in intensity. More like releasing light patterns instead of heavy matter patterns.
I am in love with the ascension process right now-feeling ever more light in my physical body and as if we are on the brink of an experience on this planet that has been dreamed of for eons. Do you feel it too?
Blue Thunder is expressing gratitude that his bead locations are in harmony with his daily life and shoes this time around. I guess that has not always been the case!
I am holding a space for each of us in the next week or so to offer just a little info on the energies you are personally working with through this 90 days.
We will be offering a song (Red Earth song) at 11:11 our time tomorrow (9:11 am AK time, 8:11 am HI time, 1:11 pm East Coast time) to call in the Ancestors and bring connection to all of us doing this work. Please join us if you feel it.
Love to all life,
Kachina
For those who have not seen them, we sometimes are visited by special "clouds" that are commonly known to be Pleiadian ships (cloud ships). They have not appeared in our skies for some time, the last time was during the Anasazi Journey events here in October.
For several weeks now, I have been getting little impulses that said "we are coming with the 90 Day Program". Imagine my delight when I opened my eyes this morning to look out the windows at a sky full of cloud ships! I am so feeling the synchronicity around us!
Reading Lidsey888's post, I realized that we have to go through the emotion, doubt, and disillusionment that accompanies death (the death of an old form), in order to clear the way for the radiant new forms we are embodying in this time. I feel the cycle of clearing these old feelings getting quicker and shorter, and growing in intensity. More like releasing light patterns instead of heavy matter patterns.
I am in love with the ascension process right now-feeling ever more light in my physical body and as if we are on the brink of an experience on this planet that has been dreamed of for eons. Do you feel it too?
Blue Thunder is expressing gratitude that his bead locations are in harmony with his daily life and shoes this time around. I guess that has not always been the case!
I am holding a space for each of us in the next week or so to offer just a little info on the energies you are personally working with through this 90 days.
We will be offering a song (Red Earth song) at 11:11 our time tomorrow (9:11 am AK time, 8:11 am HI time, 1:11 pm East Coast time) to call in the Ancestors and bring connection to all of us doing this work. Please join us if you feel it.
Love to all life,
Kachina
Ode to Love Lost.
Up at the crack of dawn, actually a little before dawn. Awake, wide awake. Thoughts everywhere.
I'm thinking about you, remembering a simpler time when we had thought we found each other and were even more motivated to embrace and take on this world, now that we were together. Where are you now? What have I done!? As I think about you my mind remembers the fantasy that it needs to to believe all was perfect. My body tells me a different story. And now, as I am unable to ignore the intelligence of my body and unable to silence its words expressed to me through the art of degrees of sensation, I cling to my mental fantasy for it is all I have left!
I wounder how much of this is you and how much of this is me not wanting to let go of the new habits I had adopted since inviting you in. I feel lost without these habitual patterns. Waking up to an email from you, meeting at the coffee shop, amazing walks through nature, tea and movie nights all so blissful and simple. Now gone, dissipated almost as quickly as they were created.
A test in my willingness to remain open and non-attached. But I am attached!? Partially to you and partially to the memory I have created of you that is only a sliver shy of the truth. All that is left now is me, alone in my moment, weaving between my emotions which teeter between paralyzing and invigorating.
Where is my heart, where is my home? Why does this fog just keep getting thicker and thicker!
How much longer do I need to be tested? What else can I possibly sacrifice? Is it worth it?
But its too late now to go back. I've already given everything up if I lose the ability to trust then I will have really lost it all. I can't think anymore, unfortunately I can't sleep either.
So I lay here staring off into space, wiping tears away and compulsively checking my e-mail to see if you wrote. Nothing.
I'm thinking about you, remembering a simpler time when we had thought we found each other and were even more motivated to embrace and take on this world, now that we were together. Where are you now? What have I done!? As I think about you my mind remembers the fantasy that it needs to to believe all was perfect. My body tells me a different story. And now, as I am unable to ignore the intelligence of my body and unable to silence its words expressed to me through the art of degrees of sensation, I cling to my mental fantasy for it is all I have left!
I wounder how much of this is you and how much of this is me not wanting to let go of the new habits I had adopted since inviting you in. I feel lost without these habitual patterns. Waking up to an email from you, meeting at the coffee shop, amazing walks through nature, tea and movie nights all so blissful and simple. Now gone, dissipated almost as quickly as they were created.
A test in my willingness to remain open and non-attached. But I am attached!? Partially to you and partially to the memory I have created of you that is only a sliver shy of the truth. All that is left now is me, alone in my moment, weaving between my emotions which teeter between paralyzing and invigorating.
Where is my heart, where is my home? Why does this fog just keep getting thicker and thicker!
How much longer do I need to be tested? What else can I possibly sacrifice? Is it worth it?
But its too late now to go back. I've already given everything up if I lose the ability to trust then I will have really lost it all. I can't think anymore, unfortunately I can't sleep either.
So I lay here staring off into space, wiping tears away and compulsively checking my e-mail to see if you wrote. Nothing.
Friday, February 12
Wednesday, February 10
Warm Greetings
Warm Greetings Everyone,
I am very excited to embark on this journey (again). I look forward to the shared connection and collective wisdom from this amazing group.
Blessings,
Terri; Blessing Willow
I am very excited to embark on this journey (again). I look forward to the shared connection and collective wisdom from this amazing group.
Blessings,
Terri; Blessing Willow
Tuesday, February 9
Wow, Here We Go!!!
I'm so excited to see this all coming about, and to share in and connect with all of you here. I know it's going to be tremendous!!!! Many Blessings to Us All!!!! Annette
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