Tuesday, January 11

Checking in

The end of day three and feeling better than yesterday. I had a hard time on day two, just needing more rest and not able to get it. I feel energized today and was able to play with the kiddo and accomplish all of my chores.

We moved to this small town back in August and everywhere I hear talk about Elk as well as signs stating that they roam here. Only yesterday did I finally see one and along with that one was a whole herd. I feel blessed to be in the presence of such beautiful creatures.

Aho,
Michelle

Monday, January 10

Transforming the Wisdom Channel

This time around, I am working on transforming the patterns connected with the wisdom channel. The patterns held in this channel have their origin in the way we are living day to day, and the choices we make in the present.

The spiritual curriculum embedded within the wisdom channel involves integrating our soul's purpose into our lives. We must learn to trust in the divine purpose of our lives; and learn to love and accept our own true essence, not hiding it from others OR blasting it at the world. The fulfillment inherent in this channel is that of sharing our wisdom and essence freely with others.

I believe I am finally ready now to address this pattern and reveal it, heal it, and transform it. Since moving to White Sage, Arizona in 2008, I have noticed a deep seated discomfort and tendency to hold back when expressing my true essence with residents of our local area. Part of it stems from a belief that I doubt the level of receptivity for my truth and wisdom, as there is a whole different belief system around spiritual reality here that seems foreign to me.

Another part is fear of being judged. Though I have had many opportunities in life to break through this ceiling, I am now experiencing a deeper layer of the same issue all over again. And I know how perfect the timing for this is; it feels so right, as if the healing and ascension process has brought me to this place of awareness where I am finally ready to transmute this pattern.

For others who might be transmuting the wisdom channel too, the issues that are contained in this channel include:

*Blasting our way through life--over asserting ourselves

*Hiding who we are, our truth, or our essence

*The need to be or become something in order to feel accepted and valued by family and society

*Not knowing or living our true divine purpose

Unrecognized, these issues can get in the way of our receiving and acting on guidance from our soul, divine connection, or higher self. They can keep us from developing a self love and self identity that is not based on past achievements. And they can create imbalances leading to extreme introversion or extroversion.

I am so thankful that each of you is joining me (and BThunder) on this journey around the medicine wheel once again. May we all create the results in our lives that we are seeking!

Kachina

Sunday, January 9

Starting off Blogging

Hello Everyone,

I am grateful for each of you and I want share my excitement about this journey. I did not blog as much as I wanted to last year and so this time I am committed to blog more often, even just to say a word or two. I am aware of what is ahead as I have done this before, all I can really say is, even through the West, it's all positive and worth it.

This go around I am clearing a palace that I feel I have focused on this entire lifetime and not only is it personal, it's been a passion and study for me along the way. It was just a few years ago I discovered, how one does relationships is how one does relationships, the people, stories and pictures may all look different but underneath it all, the core is the same. So I say Hallelujah to clearing my core and to release the love I feel but have kept trapped.

Blessings to each and everyone of you and to Michael and Kathryn, there just are not words to describe to the love and gratitude I feel for you.

From my Heart to Yours, Michelle

Thursday, December 30

Getting Ready

For everyone who is planning to participate in Walking the Medicine Wheel 2011, when your package arrives, read through the folder on the Constitutional Pattern. This will prepare you for beginning the process.

Your constitutional pattern includes information on the element archetype present in your physical form. This is 50% of your pattern, inherited through your DNA from your ancestors. This element comes with its own inherent characteristics, qualities, tendencies, and issues.

The other 50% of your constitutional pattern comes in with you before birth, and reflects the soul's intention for this lifetime. It is called your cosmic pattern, and is generated from accumulated traumas, unresolved issues, preferences, and habits acquired through many lifetimes of incarnation.

Together, these two parts of the constitutional pattern form an energetic foundation for how you will experience the reality in this incarnation, which issues will be presented, and where the potential for healing lies. The Grace and Sovereignty section will describe the attitude and characteristics of one who has resolved the pattern you are working with.

The schedule for online Talking Circles is as follows:
Sunday, January 9--Opening Ceremony Talking Circle--9:00 pm Arizona Mountain time
Sunday, January 30--South Direction Talking Circle--9:00 pm Arizona Mountain time
Sunday, February 20--West Direction Talking Circle--9:00 pm Arizona Mountain time
Sunday, March 13--North Direction Talking Circle--9:00 pm Arizona Mountain time
Sunday, April 10--Closing Ceremony Talking Circle--9:00 pm Arizona Mountain time

We will begin each ceremony with a song or drumming, so if you have a drum or rattle, please have them available for the ceremony. For the opening ceremony, you may want to have your cedar bark smudge stick (included in package), matches, and a fire-proof ash tray or small bucket to contain the smudge.

We will hold the ceremonies exactly as if we are all together in one room, as the elders have taught the Talking Circle. You should all receive an e-mail from webex inviting you to the first one, with information on how to log on. I recommend you log on at least 15 minutes early before the ceremony starts the first time since there is a little software to download.

We look forward to our special time together!

Kachina and BThunder

Sunday, December 26

Beginning the Medicine Wheel Walk 2011


On Friday night, Blew Thunder and I went into the temporary kiva space that was recently set up under guidance from the Grandmothers. We did a ceremony, calling in the spirits of the four directions, Mother Earth, Father Sky, and the Great Spirit to hold a sacred space for us and all the others who will be walking the Medicine Wheel with us beginning on January 9th.

We made our prayers and set intentions for healing the constitutional patterns that each of us will be working with. And we gave thanks for the coyote and the fox, each of whom has appeared to us very dramatically as we are preparing the packages for the Medicine Wheel Walk. We feel they are bringing a special medicine and support from the animal world for this particular journey.

Blue Thunder and I welcome each of you to this journey, and especially to this BLOG, our sacred space on the internet. We encourage each of you to write to it regularly as you walk through the 90 day process. Even if you are "not a writer", there is a huge benefit to the act of posting to the BLOG, even if it is just a few words to let people know you are still participating. Taking an action in the physical world that is in alignment with our intentions, is one of the keys to manifestation. So we encourage everyone to participate without judgement, without comparing yourself to anyone else, and without attachment.

This sacred Talking Circle has only a few conditions. One is that, no matter what is expressed here in these pages, it is honored as truth for that individual. And what is expressed here, stays here. We honor the privacy of each individual, and the intention for this space.

My agreement last year was to write 5 days every week to the BLOG. This year we have added an online Talking Circle ceremony that will be held 5 times through the journey. With this addition, and with the other projects we are involved with at this time, I am committing to write to the BLOG once a week for the 90 days. If every one who is walking the medicine wheel does the same, we will have an average of 1 to 2 new posts every day.

I send out a blessing to each one who making this transformative journey, for receiving the healing and positive changes that we are all seeking. May your Medicine Wheel Walk bring miracles and fulfillment on every level.

Aho!

Kachina

Wednesday, May 19

The Sacred Circle Comes to a Close

It is with great joy and a small bittersweet sensation that I acknowledge the closure of this sacred 90 Day space. It has once again been an amazing ride around the Medicine Wheel for me, and it seems so for others too.

I thank Earth Song for asking for the blog to continue. After careful consideration, Blew Thunder and I both came to the same realization. This sacred space was opened up for 90 days, and the original agreement will be honored. If we were to change the agreement at this time, it somehow feels like the sacredness would be diluted a little. I guess this closure helps us feel the emotional truth around completion (one of the gifts of the North, that we all try to avoid at one time or another).

I do, however, encourage all Bloggers from the 90 day journey who are not yet complete with their own process, to form a new blog. Anyone who would like to hold the space for the rest of the group can simply go to the Living the Dream blog and click on "Create Blog" at the top of the page. You will then have to sign in, and it will walk you through the very simple process of creating a blog.

When someone out there does create a continuation blog, e-mail us and we will forward the site to everyone who was on the 90 day program. In this way, we can honor the sacred space provided here AND create a new space for continuation for those who would like to do so.

Now it is time to say farewell. The Blog will remain accessible online for anyone to refer back to it as they desire. In January, this sacred circle will open once again, with new tools and intentions.

Many blessings for the unique and beautiful path we all walk together on Mother Earth!

Kachina

Tuesday, May 18

And just like that, I'm back on!

We had an amazing, sacred get together last night at Joni Mistwalker's home, and it turns out I am not the only one who is "restarting" this 90 day journey. I resonated so deeply with what everyone talked about last night, and it seems we are all in the same space, more or less. I am elated with "my" idea of restarting my journey, and feel so deeply that this was exactly the way it was supposed to happen for me. I am so thankful that I listened and did not force myself through the journal and blog in order to follow the instructions. I think I am stepping into a new life where there are no instructions. For me, there is something very, very special about doing this journey with my garden this summer, and I have to say, I am connecting with the garden like I never have before. I am also deeply connected to the coloring in my journal like never before, almost like I can't get enough. It's great, and I can't explain it. There is something deep going on with my coloring. Even though I am reading the blog day by day from where I left off (in March) I felt a very strong urge to share anyway, as tends to happen I guess during this process. I would like to ask if we could keep the blog going, for those of us who are still in our process, and for those who are following our processes.

I would also like to thank everyone for the talking circle last night-that is just what I needed without knowing it. And, a very special thank you to SisterRavenHair for all of her help in the garden. Very interestingly, my boyfriend, who hasn't worked all winter, got called back to work last week for most of the summer. SisterRavenHair has been an angel, and thanks to her, the garden is coming along like never before.

Pilomay-ya, EarthSong.

Sunday, May 16

The Gratitude of North

With tomorrow being a Blue Cosmic Storm, (my glyph)-and a portal, and a triple blue day; AND the completion of this 90 day journey, reflecting back on my blood family is up front and center. About three weeks ago, my second oldest brother Greg called me for the second time in 52 years.

At first my mind panicked, of what could be wrong, for Greg has moved back home to assist my mom so she does not have to leave her home. His call was to tell me that he was proud of me, and that he knows that I walked a very challenging path, and he expressed his sadness about being unable to provide the protection that he thought he was responsible for. I felt throughout the conversation that this was his completion call.

Back last June, Kachina and I went to Salt Lake City for my niece's wedding, and at that time I saw the 30 or so medical pharmaceutical prescriptions that he had to take daily. The side effects of these drugs had just about feeblized the one big brother I had looked to for strength while growing up. Now he had to sleep about 20 hours a day, and his body was in constant pain. At that time he told me that he was about done with life. There were only 2 more projects he wanted to complete. At that point, I did not even know what to say, only "you are in my prayers."

His call was the best talk we have ever had. In our conversation I gave him my blessing that we were complete and as far as I am concerned, he was free to cross over. I told him at that time that he had a real opportunity before he crossed over, if he could forgive dad.

Back in present time, Monday I was informed that he was in the hospital with kidney failure. After digesting that concept, I had a chance to review my own journey in life. What gratitude I have for the fork in the road at age twenty-seven of finding sobriety and making different choices, and now reflecting on where I could have been-like Greg. At twenty-seven, I was in worse condition than he was at the same age.

From taking the steps to release my addictions, I have been able to rewrite my entire life and the possibilities that could be. I am a miracle; as a result of that in my moccasin walk gives me permission to tell each and every one of you that there is a miracle inside you too. I am also grateful for each and every one of you that participated with us all. This is one program where progress over perfection leads to healing. Good job all! Aho.

Blew Thunder

New Life Unfolding

I am sitting here in the shade, the hot sun is beating down, and a little breeze is keeping it so comfortable. I am surrounded by wildly singing birds! The variety of songbird life has been steadily increasing, and we have around us a blue bunting, nesting kingbirds, canary like fellows, tanagers, a meadowlark on the hill, and various wrens and sparrows. There is also a new dove that has arrived in White Sage, I have heard of it from other people but have not yet met this European dove for myself.

I am being allowed to witness the full force of nature's ability to recover, regenerate, and openly express the new blueprint-even here in the desert. Voluptuous greens (romaine, red oak leaf, spinach, arugula, parsley, and cilantro) have come up and are thriving, all from last year's seed-for I did not plant any at all this spring. Hen and chicks, delphinium, flax, tarragon, sweetgrass, and several others made it through the long cold winter and are now thriving, blooming, and expanding! For the first time since we arrived, there is a green carpet over much of the land, and bare soil is beginning to disappear.

My gratitude for this amazing journey is complete! And it feels so appropriate for the summer weather to arrive on the very last day of the 90 day journey. As Blew Thunder and I are already creating new ideas for next year's journey, and tomorrow will be our final ceremony with the group, I must admit that this is the FIRST TIME I have felt complete in the 90 day process exactly as it was completing! I am on my 4th time around this particular wheel, and this is the only time I felt that all parts of my being were in sync with the whole process. It is truly a different experience.

For those who have not felt complete, following the previous example of Earth Song, who is just now beginning the west, and will be referring back to the blog over the next two directions is a very powerful choice. There is a lot of potential for shift when we allow our process to unfold in its own time and space.

Others can have success by acknowledging completion to the level that it was for this time around. In a year or two, when they are ready to go deeper, they can choose to do it again and experience a whole different level of synchronicity. I have done it four times now, and each time it continues to bring a fresh, new perspective and new experience to my life.

I thank you all once again, for you are the healers. You who are willing to turn a different direction and descend into the dark, gunky depths of uncertainty to uncover more of who you are... and then create your life from this truth, you are giving a gift to yourselves that benefits our world. Gratitude to each of you. May all your dreams find fulfillment.

With Love,
Kachina

Saturday, May 15

Hello everyone,

The last time I viewed this blog was March 15th, the last day of my animal communication class. Since then, parts of my 90 day journey came to a halt. I continued to keep up with my oils/gemstones/essences and affirmations, but my life became intensely busy and overwhelming for me for about 2 months. I was unable to keep my commitment to myself with my journal and the blog, and have been disappointed in myself for "quitting." However, life has finally calmed down, and it has become clear to me to pick back up right where I left off. Dowsing has indicated that I am now in the West, which is extremely fitting for my current circumstances. I love the West, and am so happy to be back on track! So, while most of you are having your closing ceremony, I feel like my journey has begun all over again. I will "begin" my journal in the West, and will be reading all of your past entries on the blog each day. I'm sorry I missed you all, and yet it makes sense for me - this seems to be my year of solitude. Blessings to you all on your paths, and though I was mostly absent, it has been an honor to share such a special experience with you. -EarthSong

Pulling Weeds

It is interesting to me how symbolic everything is. I have been spending my days in my sisters garden pulling weeds. Lots and lots of weeds that have accumulated over the last 2 years. We pick and pick, diligently turning the soil and excavating all the plant material that no longer serves to be there.
It is time, they all must go. I repeat a mantra in my head as I work,
"thank you for holding space, gratitude for all you've done, it is time to let go now"
The plants do not resist as we have an agreement together and they know the time has come, a job well done, they simply let go and allow me to pull them from the earth.

Later this week we will be bringing in the new flowers to fill the spaces we have cleared. We will fill all these open areas with life, bold colors and new energies.

I look around at the work I am doing an smile because it is all too clear now. All the doors that have slammed shut in my face over the last week, the jobs that I applied for and was denied, the relationships that are currently in transition, the cleansing and emotional surges running out of my body are all the weeds that I am pulling from my being, making space, lots and lots of space because what is coming is so great and grand that there needs to be plenty of room.

I am at a pivotal place in my relationship with myself. I believe all that I have done over the last 4 years has been to prepare me for this moment. It's different now but I can't explain how.

I am so grateful for this blog and this outlet of expression. I am so grateful for this 90 day workshop and all the changes I have undergone. It has been a remarkable ride yet again!
I am so grateful to all of you who have contributed and participated in this journey with me, even in silence your energy has been here and felt.

I don't feel afraid anymore. It has all become so clear. I am alive and awake in full remembrance. I build my foundation upon uncertainty and with a deep deep knowing that only that which is to be will be, so I no longer need to attempt to control or manipulate the outcome, it was never up to me to begin with. There is a Divine plan in place here and everywhere. I choose to follow and do my work with heart and soul.

There is nothing here but beauty and peace. It is so beautiful, even in the darkness, especially the darkness because that is where the creation is, that is where we are gifted the opportunity to manifest our hearts wildest desires. With nothing to see and compare or program it is up to us to create what we envision, for ourselves and for the whole.

My vision is clear and I understand now how something a simple seeming as pulling weeds is an act of complete full purpose. This symbolic act tells the story, communicates the truth and allows me to see what sort of contribution I am making for the whole. With that knowledge I am able to adjust my intention. So tomorrow as we finish the last bed in the south and pull the remaining weeds I will connect in to the leaders of the oil industry, the leaders of all the countries around the world, and all those on the forefront of shaping this world into something different. My mantra will be, "Gratitude for the space you have held, I release this old blueprint of life that no longer serves" then I will pull the weeds in a physical gesture to create space for a new way to come in, to live in balance and co-creation with all life everywhere. And it is done.

Love, light and blessings to you all on your beautiful journeys....
Aho.

Friday, May 14

The Path of Descention

Spirit & Soul. The first an ascent to union, our inevitable connection to all that is, was and ever will be. The next, a descent to unique, our individual expression of the universal Wow. Falling deep into the underworld sink of the soul, we’re forced to drop all pretensions & discover the gifts we’re meant to bring into our world. Flying high into the wilds of spirit, we realize that we all are one. Spirit animates the seed toward growth. Soul shines the flower, singular among the fields. Opposite but not opposed, together this polarity is a necessity that guides my days. And my nights. I am a burning comet of love heading straight toward Planet Me. Upon impact, may the whole feel deeply my part.

Rise up rooted! Root down ascendant!

I love you all - because we are one and because we are not.

I haven’t always been in the light, but I’ve always been in the field. I pray this 90 days has been as transformational and affirming for all of you as it was for me. Even if, here at the end, I still have a few pages left in my journal to complete.

Aho. Ma ta kwi asen.

Clarity in Heartbreak

Over the last week I have been in the middle of a hurricane of loss. One of heartbreak and rejection, a death process so great that it had quite literally brought me to my knees, on more then one occasion. Once again I have been called to walk the path of trust, during this process, by listening to this patient humble wise inner voice that will only speak to me once I've done the "ego dance" and then asked my mind to be quite so I may know the real truth of the situation and not the illutionary perception of my ego.

There are words flying at me from all directions, some at the speed of light, some that carry so much anguish in their delivery that my heart yurns, some disguised as cold and indifferent to show strength and protection. No matter where I look I am surrounded by pain, I am the cause of someone elses hurt and despair, I am the cause of my own unstoppable tears and I am the one apparently with the power to put to end, if you will, to this heightened, acutely painful experience of heartbreak.

All I see is the illusion, it shimmers in front of me and all around me. I stand in front of these people whom I have loved so dearly and who I continue to love, who are asking me to put an end to their pain by choosing to stand beside them.

My heart shows me a different picture. We are standing there together souls connected and whole. No pain, no suffering. This identification of who we are, the "I", the personality we have attached and identified with swirling about outside of our true souls. Engaging in this experience of pain, feeding on it and believing that it is the truth.

Perhaps there is more here then what meets the eye? Perhaps this isn't about how to stop the pain, maybe it's a beginning upon the path of feeling. A crack in a surface that has been bound so tight that without shattering first, nothing not even a true love, could penetrate that shield of protection. Perhaps this is an opportunity for growth and self discovery? An opportunity for re-birth and new beginnings.

If we could stop just long enough and sit quietly we might get a glimpse of the incredible gift that is being offered here but instead we attach and engage in the potentially toxic dance with pain and words. The cost, silencing that sweet guidance within, that will show you if you would only allow it too, that safe place where you can lay down and rest and glean a better understanding.

I am not the cause and I am not the solution. To fulfill the requests that have been laid upon my feet would be to choose a path of death for my own soul and would greatly limit and slow the growth of those who are seemingly effected by my actions and resistance to give in.

I love you and I see you whole. I refuse to take that from you by given you what it is that you think you want and need. It is simply and illusion. I cannot fulfill your heart, only you have the power to do so.
My prayer for you is this, sit quietly and breathe. Allow yourself to pull back all that you have put out there. The love you want to give to me, the happiness you want to create for me, turn it around and give it to yourself, first!
There is the lesson, there is the challenge.

Life is a beautiful intricately woven dance between pleasure and pain and if we let go of the attachment we can then experience how amazing and incredible both of these experiences are.

Aho

Healing for the Gulf Coast

Hello, I am making a new attempt to write to this blog. Yesterday I was unable to get it to work! Perhaps it is because I have so much more to say today than I did yesterday.

Much of my own focus has been on the healing process in the Gulf Coast at this time. The amethyst earth keeper crystal asked to be placed in direct alignment with the oil spill location in our medicine wheel.

Then the pinon trees that are currently very stressed as they are bearing the burden of release for human sadness, connected to Afghanistan,(another area connected with the oil industry that is out of balance!) had asked to have a special flower essence made which I was to place under 7 trees, which I did last week. Today I will walk the land and gift the essence to 21 more trees.

I was not making any connection between all of this. Then yesterday I had a physical experience that, along with Blew Thunder's insight, gave me a new perspective. My heart had begun to flutter and spasm, with very irregular heartbeats. This started a few days ago. I had done a blue road healing or two, but it had not completely gone away. A little cough had come in as well, which only happened when I tried to take a deep breath.

I asked Blew Thunder to help me move this energy, and he assisted by pressing on a rib that was sticking up in my chest on the left side. The rib went back into place with a snap. This was several days ago. At first it felt better and I thought that was the end of it.

Then it began to stick up again. the feeling in my heart came back, and another painful spot emerged on my back. It was as if I could feel a string of energy connecting the back to the front rib, going right through my heart, just like the ley line that connects White Sage medicine wheel with a mountaintop outside of Kabul. It even had a bluish color. Suddenly I began to bleed (sorry if this TMI for you guys!) and I knew my body was trying to physically clear something that was not really physical.

Then yesterday, it all came to a head. The pain increased to the point of not being able to lift my left arm. Once again, Blew Thunder offered help to move this energy. The rib was so tender that I wanted to shy away from receiving help, so I knew it must be exactly what I needed. Once on the massage table, we succeeded in opening the flow between these two areas, opening the connection into my core, and moving the whole pattern out.

I coughed and coughed as Blew Thunder opened my diaphragm. When we were finished, the rib was back in place, my heart spasm was gone, I once again had space in my whole body to breathe deeply, and every bit of the pain was gone. Today I am awakening to life in a whole new body. Such a miracle!

It was a perfect illustration for me to gain understanding of what has been activated between the White Sage Medicine wheel and Afghanistan, and how it is connected to the oil spill happening in the Gulf Coast. Blew Thunder awakened with the insight that the people who are really getting this lesson are the leaders of the oil industry. They are having another opportunity to walk through this experience and learn it so it does not need to be repeated.

Last time a spill of this magnitude happened (in Valdez, Alaska) there was an unfulfilled opportunity. The oil industry did not take responsibility, and greed got in the way of resolution. Most of the spill was not even cleaned up, and the penalties that were awarded to the local fisheries and people for their roles in clean up and as restitution, went unpaid for so long that many of them died before receiving anything. The oil industry leaders knew how to keep it all tied up in court long enough to let people forget.

So today, I went back into the medicine wheel and made new prayers for the leaders of the oil companies. I sent out the intention that their hearts would be activated, that they would begin to make the connection to their actions and the health of Mother
Earth. I intended that the oil bleeding would stop; that all the nature spirits and weather beings would help the clean-up effort, and that protection and healing would be provided for the birds, fishes, and wildlife in the area.

And I offered to do whatever else Mother Earth would ask me to do to support and assist this healing process. Then I opened Arvol Looking Horse's e-mail message, which I am sending out today. Arvol is the spiritual head of the Lakota people, keeper of the original pipe given to the Lakota by White Buffalo Calf Woman. He has traveled around the world doing ceremony and laying a foundation for world peace.

One more thing-I had errored in my typing-I represented the final ceremony day for the 90 Day Journey to be the 16th, I really meant the 17th, as you can see if you check out the Dreamspell calendar.

I will send it out via e-mail too.

Many blessings to all! Kachina

Tuesday, May 11

Picking Up Trash

Last weekend Blew Thunder and I had an opportunity. Along with another resident of White Sage, we went to the Forrest Service and got a permit to do a volunteer clean up of trash along Forest Road 22. We arranged to do this on Friday and Saturday, putting out a flyer to invite any and all people who use the road to come and help clean it up.

We spent two days walking along the road, picking up bottles, cans, old tires, scrap metal, barb wire, and any form of trash you could think of. In two days our little team of volunteers cleaned only 5 miles of roadway, and took a 22 foot trailer filled with junk and garbage bags to the dump. We had beautiful weather, saw horned toads, snakes, rabbits, and birds, and shared an inter-tribal song with the other volunteers.

By the end of the day on Saturday, we both knew we needed to do the second blue road healing, then we just fell asleep. It felt just like it did years ago when we had helped people with remodeling their bathrooms. After removing the wallboard or flooring that was to be replaced, there was an energetic outpouring of "gunk" that needed time to clear out before we could go back in and put the new surfaces on.

This felt like an outpouring of stagnant energy (especially human dis-respect) from the Earth herself. Our walking for mile after mile and picking up everything that had been discarded unconsciously had an amazing effect of release for the land. Then on Sunday, I was quickly urged to place the next set of 7 spokes in the medicine wheel, the spirits said "do it quickly before it rains!" It was hot and dusty, and a bit windy, but I followed their instructions.

By that night, it was raining. Now today, it has turned into snow (!!!) and we have once again filled all of our buckets. We are seeing such an incredible depth of regeneration now, beginning our third year in the area in June. New plants are appearing that were not here when we came here. Beautiful new and different leaves are appearing on the sage brush, and the Indian tea is making a kind of flower that I have not seen before. The bee balm, an ancient Anasazi plant that was cultivated in their gardens, has sprouted up all around us. It is amazing to watch this regeneration process take place!

The two of us were reminded again that even the simple act of picking up trash is not always as it appears! The residents of White Sage have not done any kind of community project for as long as they have lived here. It has always been "every man for himself" and a Hatfield vs. McCoy kind of attitude that has prevailed. We acknowledged that the human consciousness is shifting even as the weather patterns are shifting... Prosperity is truly connected to human consciousness, just as the weather patterns are. Everything is one in all of life...if we can remember to see past the separation.

Many Blessings,
Kachina

Sunday, May 9

Resolve and Release!

Wow, am I making a flip! My nieces finally made an acceptable full-price offer for the beach house just after I received guidance from their crossed-over father Bennett not to sell the house to them or anyone this year but to wait a year to allow the girls to stay in the house, to pay the expences and to receive an epiphany through their parents working through the Medicine Wheel there. The epiphany is that they are still connected to their parents after death. Wow, now I wrote a letter to the attorneys proposing this; they and all my older incarned relatives will probably go into shock after months of negotiations finally resolved with an agreeable offer from my nieces. My crossed-over relatives, Mom, Ben and Barb, assure me that in waiting a year all will work out for the best for all. Wow, this is asking me for some radical trust in my guidance; this choice does not affect just me but all beneficiaries.

In my last conversation with Kathryn, I asked why do I have all this estate and family load, this hugely timeand energy-consuming project? She told me I was cleaning up loose ends for family and previous generations. She suggested I lighten my load by asking for assistance from those crossed-over family members that need completion through this project. This honors them. It gives them an opportunity to participate and have completion where they did not previously have the tools. They help me move blocks and I help them move blocks. Yea, help is on the way!

The evening of this conversation I did a two-hour dowsing of about 40 contracts for about 8 family members (some crossed-over, some not including me) ready to complete. There were so many interrelated contracts and some totally unique ones. They all made so much sense. For instance, completely independantly I dowsed the contracts for my grandfather Charles Murphy Senior and my brother Francisco, the walk-in who is the reincarnation of this grandfather. Both had the same old contract/belief that they could not live their dream in life and needed the new contract "I am living my dream"! The following day I had such a happy ceremony burning old (very 12/60! ) contracts and reading and affirming new (very 13/260!) ones. I finally got guidance to burn the sacred cedar wood K & M sent as if it had been waiting all along to serve for burning the contracts in this ceremony! I felt so much energy resolve and release. Thank you Kathryn for the sharing of information that opened this opportunity!

This timing is perfect as last week three 90-dayers called me and asked me to teach a class this week on the family healing I have been doing. I was honored. I titled the class "Radial Time Family Healing".

I had an extended 90-days because I was guided to start on my own on January 7, 2010. I feel I have covered a lot of ground and have also lost track of time. I think I have gone through 3 or 4 sets of affirmations in my Health, Wealth and Prosperity palace. The first were about prosperity, the next about health ( as I had a great opportunity to transmute through a severely broken wrist injury) and now about creating the work I love. I have integrated and moved a lot. I truly felt this in the ceremony mentioned above when I was able to affirm new contracts for myself and others. Many of my new contracts were statements I have used for affirmations in the past. But this time they felt very different. With the synchronistic readiness of the release of the old contracts and the participation and resolution this offered for my family members, the new contracts were given life and I could feel them alive, breathing, expanding and singing! Days later, I still feel more energy, lightness and space inside me.

The completion ceremony date works for me.

I have learned much from the sharing of all and from this opportunity to share my experiences. Thank you!!!

Liz

Saturday, May 8

the object stares back

I have been wanting to blog more but will make this a priority to blog now as this blog has been so helpful and has been my soul nourishment for giving myself the time to find out how intensive it is in breaking old contracts that are no longer my choice and effortless as well when considering all the the intensive energy needed for my body to hold them and the time consuming process to finally get into a rhythm so I no longer even have to think about it.
So appreciate the blogs re: relationship with meat as a recent transplant to a subsistence place of work, play and living more in a community life has also changed my relationship with meat and I am not sure if I have changed, the meat has changed or after reading today’s blog possibly the whole process has changed. I am the only non-hunter in the household but have observed how the animals would find themselves to the hunter in order to get to the person who needed it-this happening over and over again. So was somehow disturbed when observing the hunter planning to actively hunt for the animal(and even learning the whole process required to legally to this), but even this surprised me when at the place where this hunt was to take place there was an unexpected death in that community and so the hunter of this animal shared half of this animal with the grieving family. The deceased hunter of this grieving family was able to continue to provide for his family through the winter through this animal. The remaining meat that stared at me from the kitchen table and observing the time consuming process of meat being separated from bone and ligament and how each and every part was used for warmth and nourishment and this remaining half was also shared with others who needed it, can only be described as a labor of love. This is so respectfully honored in song, dance and story culturally as well.
I appreciated Kathryn’s blog about re-experiencing our acute symptoms of the disease as we are going through our cleansing in order to get to a higher frequency. In the form of a painful tooth infection whose same story had previously ended in surgery -and again I was being advised to seek medical attention and found myself looking at some very strong antibiotics I have been keeping on hand (so no I had not yet completely closed that door) and beginning to plan to fly into the larger city for help. I made a conscious decision not based on fear and instead to go into the pain and use the tools I have learned on this path- cranial sacral for release, the nurturing oils including german cammomile, juicing, garlic and ginger (which is so delicious when sick as my body was saying thankyou as it was getting just what it needed), and stayed in svavasana during a yoga class just to be in the peaceful energy of a yoga class and more cranial sacral releasing, etc. Was so amazed that the pain left as fast as it came and felt stronger in my affirmations that knowing and the medicine inside myself can heal my body.
Have been reading Thomas Elkins “The Object Stares Back: On the Nature of Seeing.” He describes how we know ourselves and the world through the things we see and the things we see are looking back-when we see something it also sees us. It is difficult to see some things –the sun, death, etc. He talks about mind blindness or closing off –the invisible new world-or even when my words stare back at me like a glass eye. An artists’ reference is visual-we think we see it but we don’t or can’t see it. He recounts the disturbing 19th century pursuit of women committing adultery who were put to death and how we perceive that –how we perceive stories through a physical reacting to a visual image-going thru everyday life and how this impacts us –when the senses are accessable and how we get thru certain situations. This seems to parallel the oil spill as the conscious/unconscious death of the mother earth treated as an object. Observing my subconscious reactions I am having toward what I am viewing-changing that perception –seeing mother earth as conscious and asking what does she want? What are my desires from mother earth? And even the seemingly incompatible-what are the oil companies desires -my socially conditioned response of built up unrealistic goals which cannot be filled by the products and services advertised by the oil company that lesson our quality of life. I am trying to look to a more positive –what is the higher good for all that might come from this invisible new world? Instead of just perceiving the bleakness of my concerns to look to the process that might change us all to some higher good? Visually creating things to close the gap-I so appreciate the assistance in opening up to my deficiencies in order to have the equipment or tools to perceive.
On a lighter note so exciting with a new baby in the family it is so beautiful to watch how a baby sees things, how he knows and understands the world by taste-without fear-not afraid to try or reach out and taste –open to explore. The babies language saying I want something and my attempts to close the gap of- I don’t speak your language –what do you want? For my family I will continue to detach with love and without expectations and hold the space that sees them healed and try not to be attached to their choices.
I am so appreciative for the upcoming ceremony may 16 final day of the blue wavespell and of the recent ceremony and the reminder that I have in my toolbox the blue road healing in which I burnt my cedar sticks for the completion and release of the old contracts and 12/60 ways, so thankful for the participation of the ancestors, and especially of the sharings of everyone in this blog that have somehow synchronistically assisted and guided with many of the changes happening in my life and will continue to assist with the many transformations to come, bringing past present and future together. Love and Light to All

A Proposal

The official final day of the 90 day journey is coming up around May 16, in case anyone else out there has lost their time line (I certainly have!). I would like to propose the final closing ceremony to be held on May 16 in the evening. It would be a 13 day, the final day of a blue wavespell, a storm day, and a portal-perfect day for ceremony.

If this feels appropriate, I will be doing ceremony for closure at that time.

Comments requested...
Kathryn

Friday, May 7

The Path of Regeneration

After reading the last entry, I would like to share some thoughts on Mother Earth's journey into regeneration. One of the dearest mentors of my life was a Kahuna elder from Hawaii, named Rahshelle-lei. She did her best to help me to understand that guidance was not here to help us avoid the experiences that we are afraid of, or resistant toward. Instead, she assured me that guidance was designed to lead us squarely into those experiences, often through gradient.

She said that our hearts, the human navigation system, would always lead us back into a repetition of any unhealed or incomplete experience, creating an opportunity to relive that experience, and consciously choose differently to create a different result. Once we have lived through an old fear or traumatic experience, and come out with a different result, we are complete with that experience. And not until.

An example came for me much later in my life that finally brought consciousness into this understanding. My attention was focused for several weeks on oil drilling. I was unhappy at how the oil rigs looked like a mosquito, drilling into Mother Earth's skin and sucking out her blood. I was sad that the rigs were always put in with out consulting the spirits of the land, or even acknowledging them. When I heard of a new oil well going in somewhere up North, I was deeply saddened and felt that humanity was really stuck in a cycle of destructive unconsciousness.

I decided to go into the sweat lodge and take my sadness to the Grandmothers, and seek their wisdom. Together Blew Thunder and I went in, starting the ceremony with an honoring of the 4 directions and Mother Earth. We sang some songs and made prayers for other people who were seeking prayers.

Then the time came when Blew Thunder left, leaving me alone with the Grandmothers. I shared with them my concerns for the oil drilling, and the sadness that this human pattern seemed so entrenched. I asked them how I could help to heal this pattern, was there anything I could do? Long ago, I was reminded that I should not focus my energy, emotion, or intention on something unless I am willing to ACT on changing it. If I do not have the true passion and energy to place toward creating change for that situation, I must leave it for those who do, blessing the situation and imagining full healing for it.

Then the Grandmothers showed me a beautiful perspective. They said that they were happy that these new oil wells were being drilled. They said that we were closer to healing this pattern than I could possible imagine. They told me that even if all the oil drilling were to cease around the whole world, it would not bring healing to that issue. Instead, the cycle would eventually be repeated, the oil wells would be drilled again, and the same situation would return. It had to be so, for the only way it could be healed is if we drilled a co-creative oil well! They asked me to imagine a co-creative oil well.

At first I was confused, not understanding what they even meant by that. Then clarity began to come in, and for several weeks, every time I went into the lodge, I would imagine people smudging the land, drumming, and connecting with the nature spirits. then I would see them asking for permission and location, all the while part of me going,"ha ha, big oil companies will never do this!" I ignored it and envisioned anyway. I envisioned Mother Earth giving willingly to the human beings, and the humans honoring her, building in co-creation, and giving thanks for all the gifts they received through the oil well. I envisioned the animals and birds and flowers and trees, all thriving in the same location as the well. I envisioned special minerals being placed to neutralize any non-beneficial energies and to enhance the local area. It felt amazing to do this work-the weaving of the world.

It was about a year later when I heard about an oil well that had been drilled this way. The woman whose family owned the land that the well was drilled on, told how her relatives went out on the land and drummed with gratitude before the well was drilled! They also agreed to pump the well only as long as Mother Earth agreed to allow its use. I was so astounded! This blueprint is now set in the grid and others will follow. My work on this issue was now complete.

In looking at the recent Earth changes, earthquakes, oil spills, and other catastrophic events taking place on Mother Earth, I must carry forth the same perspective. These events will likely increase and look very bleak on the surface. But we must all refer to our own bodies-our connection to Mother Earth, and remember the path of regeneration. How many times did we go through a cleansing, re-experience acute symptoms and seemingly our dis-ease got worse, in order to move to a higher level of health and frequency. Remember, Mother Earth's ascension path is no different.

Everything that we have experienced from the old perspective of disconnection from Mother Earth, including earthquakes and sunamis, and oil spills, and hurricanes, etc. all have to be re-experienced from the new consciousness of connection and partnership with Mother Earth. Once we know this, we can actually welcome these disasters and honor the opportunity that is being presented for us here. There is an amazing regeneration taking place on our planet, more and more people working in partnership with Mother earth and the nature spirits to create a new environment, a regeneration. No where is this happening faster than in the Gulf Coast, Louisiana, Texas, Alabama and Florida.

Those of you who are familiar with Slim Spurling's work in creating the environmental harmonizers will be interested to know that he had created a special tool for harmonizing storm energy. It is called a storm chaser, and though they cost about $2800, there are nearly 100 of these that have been placed in these states since the Katrina hurricane. Many many people are quietly working in co-creation with the spirits of the land to neutralize this oil spill, regenerate our deltas and coast lands, and create new harmony on the land.

I would ask each of you to join me in envisioning a miraculous outcome for this oil spill, and opportunity for many many souls to awaken to and have a direct experience of nature's consciousness. Many thanks to all of us awakening light workers.

Slim Spurlings tools:

http://www.lightlifetechnology.com/articles.asp?id=137

With Love and Gratitude,
Kachina