It is interesting to me how symbolic everything is. I have been spending my days in my sisters garden pulling weeds. Lots and lots of weeds that have accumulated over the last 2 years. We pick and pick, diligently turning the soil and excavating all the plant material that no longer serves to be there.
It is time, they all must go. I repeat a mantra in my head as I work,
"thank you for holding space, gratitude for all you've done, it is time to let go now"
The plants do not resist as we have an agreement together and they know the time has come, a job well done, they simply let go and allow me to pull them from the earth.
Later this week we will be bringing in the new flowers to fill the spaces we have cleared. We will fill all these open areas with life, bold colors and new energies.
I look around at the work I am doing an smile because it is all too clear now. All the doors that have slammed shut in my face over the last week, the jobs that I applied for and was denied, the relationships that are currently in transition, the cleansing and emotional surges running out of my body are all the weeds that I am pulling from my being, making space, lots and lots of space because what is coming is so great and grand that there needs to be plenty of room.
I am at a pivotal place in my relationship with myself. I believe all that I have done over the last 4 years has been to prepare me for this moment. It's different now but I can't explain how.
I am so grateful for this blog and this outlet of expression. I am so grateful for this 90 day workshop and all the changes I have undergone. It has been a remarkable ride yet again!
I am so grateful to all of you who have contributed and participated in this journey with me, even in silence your energy has been here and felt.
I don't feel afraid anymore. It has all become so clear. I am alive and awake in full remembrance. I build my foundation upon uncertainty and with a deep deep knowing that only that which is to be will be, so I no longer need to attempt to control or manipulate the outcome, it was never up to me to begin with. There is a Divine plan in place here and everywhere. I choose to follow and do my work with heart and soul.
There is nothing here but beauty and peace. It is so beautiful, even in the darkness, especially the darkness because that is where the creation is, that is where we are gifted the opportunity to manifest our hearts wildest desires. With nothing to see and compare or program it is up to us to create what we envision, for ourselves and for the whole.
My vision is clear and I understand now how something a simple seeming as pulling weeds is an act of complete full purpose. This symbolic act tells the story, communicates the truth and allows me to see what sort of contribution I am making for the whole. With that knowledge I am able to adjust my intention. So tomorrow as we finish the last bed in the south and pull the remaining weeds I will connect in to the leaders of the oil industry, the leaders of all the countries around the world, and all those on the forefront of shaping this world into something different. My mantra will be, "Gratitude for the space you have held, I release this old blueprint of life that no longer serves" then I will pull the weeds in a physical gesture to create space for a new way to come in, to live in balance and co-creation with all life everywhere. And it is done.
Love, light and blessings to you all on your beautiful journeys....
Aho.
