With tomorrow being a Blue Cosmic Storm, (my glyph)-and a portal, and a triple blue day; AND the completion of this 90 day journey, reflecting back on my blood family is up front and center. About three weeks ago, my second oldest brother Greg called me for the second time in 52 years.
At first my mind panicked, of what could be wrong, for Greg has moved back home to assist my mom so she does not have to leave her home. His call was to tell me that he was proud of me, and that he knows that I walked a very challenging path, and he expressed his sadness about being unable to provide the protection that he thought he was responsible for. I felt throughout the conversation that this was his completion call.
Back last June, Kachina and I went to Salt Lake City for my niece's wedding, and at that time I saw the 30 or so medical pharmaceutical prescriptions that he had to take daily. The side effects of these drugs had just about feeblized the one big brother I had looked to for strength while growing up. Now he had to sleep about 20 hours a day, and his body was in constant pain. At that time he told me that he was about done with life. There were only 2 more projects he wanted to complete. At that point, I did not even know what to say, only "you are in my prayers."
His call was the best talk we have ever had. In our conversation I gave him my blessing that we were complete and as far as I am concerned, he was free to cross over. I told him at that time that he had a real opportunity before he crossed over, if he could forgive dad.
Back in present time, Monday I was informed that he was in the hospital with kidney failure. After digesting that concept, I had a chance to review my own journey in life. What gratitude I have for the fork in the road at age twenty-seven of finding sobriety and making different choices, and now reflecting on where I could have been-like Greg. At twenty-seven, I was in worse condition than he was at the same age.
From taking the steps to release my addictions, I have been able to rewrite my entire life and the possibilities that could be. I am a miracle; as a result of that in my moccasin walk gives me permission to tell each and every one of you that there is a miracle inside you too. I am also grateful for each and every one of you that participated with us all. This is one program where progress over perfection leads to healing. Good job all! Aho.
Blew Thunder
