I sit and write this evening as a response to Micheal's earlier post asking for our honest feedback regarding this three month process. I have to say that I too miss the eye to eye, soul to soul contact of being around people on a similar path. Unlike many of you, I have not been through this particular 90 day series before but have recent memories that send wonderful chills throughout my body regarding my healing process and the involvement of the Sharp's healing souls. Of course I would prefer the face to face interactions, of course I crave the contact with your physical beings...BUT that said, I am here and you all are where you are so this blogging process and online connection is absolutely PRICELESS to me and my own healing path. I would much rather be here now, then not at all.
When I first heard about this course, Kathryn mentioned it being in AK and I thought "I have to get there"...but then comes life and the logistics of getting there for an extended period of time..."ugh". THEN this virtual option comes about, which closes the 5000 mile gap quite nicely for me and still allows me to connect with the souls of all of you that so openly and honestly share your stories and lives with me...us. It brings tears to my eyes that I am a part of a community spread across the nation who all have so many things in common and yet are so very uniquely special.
Prior to this, I had NEVER shared my thoughts on a blog before. This is a new experience to me. I tend to write my thoughts out on a regular basis, but most times it does not include keys or screens or wi-fi. A simple pen and notebook serve me quite well. But where do those paper words go? Mine go on a shelf or in a storage bin to not be read again for months or even years, no one sees them, no one reads them, no one else even knows they exist except me. Poor words...lonely...beautiful words. But here their world has been turned upside down! Here they are cared for and listened to and tended. Here they have a life beyond my bookshelf, beyond their hiding place under my bed. Here they are alive and well. And the best part of all this for me is that here they are HEALED. Fully. With love and attention as all things are healed. One can always be heard but not always listened to. You are my listeners. This is a gift regardless of eye contact or physical location.
This all said, looking forward to next years 90 day experience, I would love to be able to talk with the group, maybe in the form of a conference call or something of the sorts. For me, this would take it one step closer to the group, one step closer to each other. With regular verbal contact, I would feel a greater sense of connection and commitment to the entire process while still maintaining an amount of privacy and contact we can each control.
This has been a true healing process for me. I have let go as I intended and though we near the end...where one thing ends, another begins.
I am in a boat now (instead of flailing in the water grasping for the shore and air), flowing with the current of a new river full of light and love and forgiveness. My emotional goal has been accomplished with the release of the my fingers from the banks. That is my end and my beginning all in one.
To the next step. To you all.
Thank you for listening~
