WOW! Where do I begin? The most AMAZING thing happened to me last week that I have been debating blogging about just because it was such a HUGE, AMAZING situation and gift and I was afraid that I couldn't capture the essence of just how magical it really was writing about it, or even telling about it. But now I am being 'forced' to tell my experience because more and more syncrincient things are lining up and happening that I feel like I am falling behind... `:)
My sister and I meet up and take our dogs on the beautiful walk across town every day, together we have 5 dogs and this place is nice cause they can run free, it is pretty secluded and not too many people go there (if any of you have miniature Schnauzers than you know what a gift in itself it was to find this place with no other people and no other dogs, need I say more) It's our time to catch up while "the kids play"
We have been going here to two years now and there has always been a bit of moose around and always lots of Ravens, always doing their own thing, minding their own business as we did ours.
The other day I got some very unusual news from work that left me dumbfounded, hurt and really upset. The situation made NO SINCE not only to me but to everyone else that I worked with that I asked about it, it was just one of those situations that leaves you like "what the F****, did I miss something, is this a JOKE?"...
So as we were walking I was expressing my confusion, and anger towards this topic. To the right of us a Raven was sitting in the trees making the most amazing noises that I had never herd before, if I didn't know any better I'd think it was raven matting season. Very unusual sounds. I was so caught up in my "drama" that I didn't think much about the raven, I just smiled and said "thank you raven" than continued with my anguish.
We walked about another 20 feet or so, than this raven flew low over our heads than landed in a tree directly above us, CLEARLY trying to get our attention, clearly trying to talk to us. My sister and I stoped and stared, gave the raven our full attention all the wile being like "ooh my gosh, this is crazy, I cant believe this is happening!" the raven began to make all these weird noises again, louder this time and we both could have sworn there were some english words involved. Seriously. it was like he was trying to speak to us in our language so that we could understand. Again we thanked the raven and I was determined to get home to check in to see what exactly he was trying to tell me.
Again we started walking away and AGAIN the same thing happened, he flew low over us than landed in another tree RIGHT DIRECTLY ABOVE US, as thought he was saying "STOP! and listen!" My sister and I were completely in disbelief! he began talking up a storm again than managed to break off a beautiful branch from this beautiful tree and drop it down to me! It was soooo amazing. That stick was FOR ME, and he GAVE IT TO ME, I could not believe what I was seeing. the branch is beautiful and I couldn't help but to campair to to the other branches on the rest of out walk, this branch was truly magical and very unique. It's all spirally and twisted and at the top of it it has a "Y" in one direction of the "Y" it is shriveled and lifeless looking and at the other direction of the "Y" it is beautiful, straight, flawless and totally full of life. I was soooo grateful and so excited as to what just happened and for this amazing gift I got. I thanked him compulsively and though I didn't have an offering on me I was sure to give one the second i got back to my car, cause that's where I keep "my stash" :)
Anyway, we thanked him and continued walking, he began to "CAW" LOUDER and LOUDER the further away we got this time sounding more like a Raven, than once again flew down very low over our heads, directly over us and off into the distance! AMAZING!!! It truly gave me butterflies in my stomach... and once again.
That is EXACTLY the kind of situation I have been asking for in my offerings everyday, it was just... beyond words...
My sister,Earth Song, being the amazing intuitive that she is (and so much more) got that the Raven was telling me to "change my song." Instead of being pissed off and complaining about this situation at work, this gives me the perfect opportunity to manifest the outcome I want and to stay positive and trust!
Well, she was right! I went home and did some checking in and pulled a few animal cards and that was the exact message. "Put aside you're doubts and fears and "caw" the shots as you see them"
AMAZING.
THANK YOU RAVEN!!!
I feel 100% positive that everything is going to work out just as it is supposed to at work, and this situation ONLY arose JUST TO get my attention to give me this amazing opportunity to, once and for all "change my song."
Sunday, February 28
Saturday, February 27
The ways of the world
Today I was reflecting on some of the others in my life who are experiencing extreme imbalance and chaos. My sister-in-law for example, (though she is much more like a sister to me) has recently lost the love of her life to another woman, lost her home that she spent 2.5 years in and as of yesterday, was laid off from her job. Her life has been reset, literally.
I feel for all her loses very deeply and I cannot relay in words how blessed I feel to have the perspective of this course to help her. In my mind, absolutely everything has a reason and a purpose in this world, though that may not be clear to those involved at first. She feels like a lost soul right now and I feel like an angel in disguise to help her find her way. For that I am so very grateful.
One of the questions in our journals recently was what we think our purpose is here in this life. I strongly believe that I am meant to help others. All of what I am experiencing in my own life right now and all that I am intending to work on within myself has so much more meaning to me when I can apply that growth and experience to others and help them too. My soul almost feels more complete, like a life long void has been filled just a bit more.
The people in my life lend so much to who I am. We all meet people for a reason, a lot like the story of Bob the organic farmer, that was not coincidence...that was fate. I believe that the ones who come to any of us for whatever reason, come because we are meant to know them as much as they are meant to know us. It is all intentional...
What a wonderful, beautiful world we live in...
~Tayo
I feel for all her loses very deeply and I cannot relay in words how blessed I feel to have the perspective of this course to help her. In my mind, absolutely everything has a reason and a purpose in this world, though that may not be clear to those involved at first. She feels like a lost soul right now and I feel like an angel in disguise to help her find her way. For that I am so very grateful.
One of the questions in our journals recently was what we think our purpose is here in this life. I strongly believe that I am meant to help others. All of what I am experiencing in my own life right now and all that I am intending to work on within myself has so much more meaning to me when I can apply that growth and experience to others and help them too. My soul almost feels more complete, like a life long void has been filled just a bit more.
The people in my life lend so much to who I am. We all meet people for a reason, a lot like the story of Bob the organic farmer, that was not coincidence...that was fate. I believe that the ones who come to any of us for whatever reason, come because we are meant to know them as much as they are meant to know us. It is all intentional...
What a wonderful, beautiful world we live in...
~Tayo
Full Moon Ceremony
I apologize for missing my Blog appointment yesterday. I just could not write, every time I sat down to do it, I couldn't. Now I understand why, so I am writing this morning in hopes that you all will check in today.
Several people have expressed the desire to join in ceremony tomorrow on the full moon. I am feeling a time around 5:55 (in Alaska that would be 3:55), yet I am certain that if you joined the ceremony at another time it will still be effective.
I will be setting a personal intention in this ceremony, as will Blew Thunder. I also want to put out there a planetary intention that has been waiting in the wings. For about a week now, I have been having more dreams about President Obama. This has never happened to me before with any other president, but ever since he was campaigning, I have had dreams about him and Michele, and always we are sitting in a very beautiful room, having a conversation. They are always short and to the point.
In the last dream, about 2 days ago, he came to me and said he was frustrated. All the dreams hopes he had when he first came into office for creating positive change seemed to be inaccessible, because he felt the focus of our government legislators had deteriorated into battle energy. Instead of believing that we could all work together to find powerful solutions, their consciousness had become mired in battle energy, now only interested in who wins instead of creating miracles.
I thought about this and remembered how we planted crystals in Anchorage to facilitate positive change for the school district. I watched in excitement as positive new policies were adopted that brought new life into the school system there. And I could not do this UNTIL I had received a request from people inside the school district itself.
Now I realize that the request to help Washington DC clear its battle energy has come in the dreamtime. That dream was the request. Now we have permission. The spirits of the land keep telling me that I know someone who is going to Washington DC and could plant a crystal there for us, but I certainly don't know who that would be. If it is anyone reading this, and you would be willing to participate by planting a crystal with our prayers and intentions in it, please e-mail me.
In the mean time, I will be opening a ley line directly to Washington, to the obelisk, tomorrow. I will be drumming and rattling my prayers into the grid, asking to be connected to the grid there. And I will be connecting with the battle energy, finding out if it is ready to leave or transmute into completely beneficial energy. I don't know what will evolve in the ceremony, but I do know I must be willing to ask.
Thank you all for your healing path and evolutionary journey on Mother Earth.
Kachina
Several people have expressed the desire to join in ceremony tomorrow on the full moon. I am feeling a time around 5:55 (in Alaska that would be 3:55), yet I am certain that if you joined the ceremony at another time it will still be effective.
I will be setting a personal intention in this ceremony, as will Blew Thunder. I also want to put out there a planetary intention that has been waiting in the wings. For about a week now, I have been having more dreams about President Obama. This has never happened to me before with any other president, but ever since he was campaigning, I have had dreams about him and Michele, and always we are sitting in a very beautiful room, having a conversation. They are always short and to the point.
In the last dream, about 2 days ago, he came to me and said he was frustrated. All the dreams hopes he had when he first came into office for creating positive change seemed to be inaccessible, because he felt the focus of our government legislators had deteriorated into battle energy. Instead of believing that we could all work together to find powerful solutions, their consciousness had become mired in battle energy, now only interested in who wins instead of creating miracles.
I thought about this and remembered how we planted crystals in Anchorage to facilitate positive change for the school district. I watched in excitement as positive new policies were adopted that brought new life into the school system there. And I could not do this UNTIL I had received a request from people inside the school district itself.
Now I realize that the request to help Washington DC clear its battle energy has come in the dreamtime. That dream was the request. Now we have permission. The spirits of the land keep telling me that I know someone who is going to Washington DC and could plant a crystal there for us, but I certainly don't know who that would be. If it is anyone reading this, and you would be willing to participate by planting a crystal with our prayers and intentions in it, please e-mail me.
In the mean time, I will be opening a ley line directly to Washington, to the obelisk, tomorrow. I will be drumming and rattling my prayers into the grid, asking to be connected to the grid there. And I will be connecting with the battle energy, finding out if it is ready to leave or transmute into completely beneficial energy. I don't know what will evolve in the ceremony, but I do know I must be willing to ask.
Thank you all for your healing path and evolutionary journey on Mother Earth.
Kachina
Thursday, February 25
The Age of Flowers
Last night I dreamed that an ancient Mayan spirit was talking to me. Michael and Drunvalo were there, and a group of people that I knew very well but could not see any of their faces. The Mayan spirit man was telling me (reminding me again!) of the Mayan creation story. It goes something like this:
The ancient ancestors of the Mayans came from the Pleiades when a galactic "call for volunteers" went out. The solar system we live in, called Kinich Ahau by the Mayan timekeepers, represented an interesting challenge for colonization. Because this particular star's base frequency vibrates to a resonance of 20, and our galaxy vibrates to the resonance of 13, the frequency cycles affecting our solar system are dissonant. In order to colonize a planet in a solar system such as this, the evolution of consciousness will require moving through the experience of disharmony in order to come through these vibrations and into a finally harmonious ascension into a common vibration, (in our case, the resonance of 20 X 13, or 260).
The Mayan ancestors never expected to succeed at their first attempt of colonization. Indeed, they had colonized many planets in different solar systems, but the challenge of this one was new and exciting. The first attempt to colonize was made on Maldek, a planet that the Mayans say existed where the asteroid belt is today. Over time, as the dissonance of the 13/20 vibration grew, human consciousness degenerated into disconnection with source, turning toward war and destruction. Maldek was eventually lost to the process of the warrior technology that evolved. In short, we exploded the planet, and left only a ring of asteroids where once it revolved in orbit around our sun.
Taking what was learned from this experience, the ancestors moved on to the next candidate; Mars. Here we experienced a similar outcome, human consciousness unable to make the vibrational shift into harmony, once again became disconnected from source, eventually degenerating into war and chaos again. This time, however, the planet was left devoid of life, but not obliterated. This was real progress!
The next attempt was made here on earth. This time, with all that was learned from the first two planetary attempts, special preparations were made by the Pleiadian ancestors. The 260 vibrational resonance was programmed deep into the Earth's iron crystal core, to be activated if and when human consciousness evolved to the point of remembrance. Then they proceeded to co-create the evolution of human life on earth.
Several worlds came and went, as human consciousness attempted again to colonize earth. Each time a planetary civilization peaked, the dissonance of the 13/20 ratio caused the degeneration and breakdown of the civilization. Then the earth would go into another ice age, taking 26,000 years to regenerate each time. And each time, we got closer to the planetary ascension.
According to the Mayans, we are now on the doorstep of colonization of the planet earth. We have passed the end time, the time when breakdown and purification begin. And enough of our indigenous elders awakened in the nick of time to do the ceremonies that would bring the 13/260 vibration up from the center of the earth, where it was seeded so long ago. We humans are beginning to remember our connection to source. We are now moving into the Age of Flowers (funny, the Hopi talk about this as the age of flowers, too). This is the age unfolding when we will experience the Flowering of life on earth.
According to those ancestors, the veils of the "reincarnation/death" cycle will be lifted, and we will no longer feel disconnected from all the other beings that share a home on earth, or feel trapped in the physical dimension. We, together, as a planet are ascending in consciousness.
This creation story, when I first heard it, was told to me by a Gila Apache medicine woman. It has resonated with me for as long as I can remember, it was as if she was telling a story that I already had experienced. It still holds that amazing level of truth for me. I hope some of you will share your own stories...
Blessings,
Kachina
The ancient ancestors of the Mayans came from the Pleiades when a galactic "call for volunteers" went out. The solar system we live in, called Kinich Ahau by the Mayan timekeepers, represented an interesting challenge for colonization. Because this particular star's base frequency vibrates to a resonance of 20, and our galaxy vibrates to the resonance of 13, the frequency cycles affecting our solar system are dissonant. In order to colonize a planet in a solar system such as this, the evolution of consciousness will require moving through the experience of disharmony in order to come through these vibrations and into a finally harmonious ascension into a common vibration, (in our case, the resonance of 20 X 13, or 260).
The Mayan ancestors never expected to succeed at their first attempt of colonization. Indeed, they had colonized many planets in different solar systems, but the challenge of this one was new and exciting. The first attempt to colonize was made on Maldek, a planet that the Mayans say existed where the asteroid belt is today. Over time, as the dissonance of the 13/20 vibration grew, human consciousness degenerated into disconnection with source, turning toward war and destruction. Maldek was eventually lost to the process of the warrior technology that evolved. In short, we exploded the planet, and left only a ring of asteroids where once it revolved in orbit around our sun.
Taking what was learned from this experience, the ancestors moved on to the next candidate; Mars. Here we experienced a similar outcome, human consciousness unable to make the vibrational shift into harmony, once again became disconnected from source, eventually degenerating into war and chaos again. This time, however, the planet was left devoid of life, but not obliterated. This was real progress!
The next attempt was made here on earth. This time, with all that was learned from the first two planetary attempts, special preparations were made by the Pleiadian ancestors. The 260 vibrational resonance was programmed deep into the Earth's iron crystal core, to be activated if and when human consciousness evolved to the point of remembrance. Then they proceeded to co-create the evolution of human life on earth.
Several worlds came and went, as human consciousness attempted again to colonize earth. Each time a planetary civilization peaked, the dissonance of the 13/20 ratio caused the degeneration and breakdown of the civilization. Then the earth would go into another ice age, taking 26,000 years to regenerate each time. And each time, we got closer to the planetary ascension.
According to the Mayans, we are now on the doorstep of colonization of the planet earth. We have passed the end time, the time when breakdown and purification begin. And enough of our indigenous elders awakened in the nick of time to do the ceremonies that would bring the 13/260 vibration up from the center of the earth, where it was seeded so long ago. We humans are beginning to remember our connection to source. We are now moving into the Age of Flowers (funny, the Hopi talk about this as the age of flowers, too). This is the age unfolding when we will experience the Flowering of life on earth.
According to those ancestors, the veils of the "reincarnation/death" cycle will be lifted, and we will no longer feel disconnected from all the other beings that share a home on earth, or feel trapped in the physical dimension. We, together, as a planet are ascending in consciousness.
This creation story, when I first heard it, was told to me by a Gila Apache medicine woman. It has resonated with me for as long as I can remember, it was as if she was telling a story that I already had experienced. It still holds that amazing level of truth for me. I hope some of you will share your own stories...
Blessings,
Kachina
Changing of the Guard
In my last entry I had talked about the squirrel cage, and being so engulfed in this project here at White Sage Landing. That unconsciousness had many, many levels; and as a result of hooking back up with my support team (my "pod" as I used to call them), from the Master Carpenters to Black Elk, to Paul Little Chief, to Archangel Michael, to Jess and Edwin, Bucky, and lastly my dad.
Some of you might remember my process in forgiving my father. By forgiving him, all that was needed was one person in physical form, of his relations, to simply forgive him unconditionally. As a result of that, (I was the only one in the family who could forgive him), the unseen assistance that resulted was phenomenal-for me and even for some others. And really the most important thing was, it freed him so he could return to incarnation.
Kathryn had mentioned that he was coming back into physical form, and when that happened, he would be moving on. So with this 90 day re-hook up, I became aware that not just my father but all my ancestral guides were "retiring". In every 90 day class that we have done, I have asked for my cosmic memory to return. And one of my biggest life lessons has been to overcome the feeling of abandonment.
I feel the space that exists where this large presence of my ancestors used to be. Yet now, today, I don't have the feeling of abandonment and I believe my cosmic Grandfathers are just around the corner. A new time is come.
On this red white blue portal day, I chose nothing but redirecting muddy water, using NO power tools! The snow fall here has made me realize it is time to slow down to bring balance in. So I threw the Wood schedule away.
Together what we could not do alone; the more we can talk about things that we don't want to talk about, the lighter the load gets. Now is the time to pick up the talking stick.
Blew Thunder
Some of you might remember my process in forgiving my father. By forgiving him, all that was needed was one person in physical form, of his relations, to simply forgive him unconditionally. As a result of that, (I was the only one in the family who could forgive him), the unseen assistance that resulted was phenomenal-for me and even for some others. And really the most important thing was, it freed him so he could return to incarnation.
Kathryn had mentioned that he was coming back into physical form, and when that happened, he would be moving on. So with this 90 day re-hook up, I became aware that not just my father but all my ancestral guides were "retiring". In every 90 day class that we have done, I have asked for my cosmic memory to return. And one of my biggest life lessons has been to overcome the feeling of abandonment.
I feel the space that exists where this large presence of my ancestors used to be. Yet now, today, I don't have the feeling of abandonment and I believe my cosmic Grandfathers are just around the corner. A new time is come.
On this red white blue portal day, I chose nothing but redirecting muddy water, using NO power tools! The snow fall here has made me realize it is time to slow down to bring balance in. So I threw the Wood schedule away.
Together what we could not do alone; the more we can talk about things that we don't want to talk about, the lighter the load gets. Now is the time to pick up the talking stick.
Blew Thunder
Gratitude to Bob
I met an interesting man named Bob yesterday. He was 70 years old vibrant and passionate about his love for organic farming. Our encounter was short but life changing, as Bob shared his life story with me, I felt a part of my soul that has been dormant for some time awaken and I know Bob now as an angle who was sent here as an answer to my prayers.
Bob's father, as he put it was "an intuitive farmer" he told a story of how his Dad turned clay into fertile soil by composting and listing to the needs of the earth and using his intuition to supply in balance what the earth needed to change from clay into fertile growing soil. After his father passed Bob's older brother took over the family farm and Bob went out into the world "to see what I could make of myself" It was around the time of WWII and chemical fertilizers and farming methods were becoming the forefront of the agriculture world. Bob moved to Alaska and for the next 30 years was the lead farm hand for several different operations using chemical fertilizers and growing methods.
Being fed all the same stories from the industry that chemicals produced better quality crops and betters yields. He watched as the soil began to die and new viruses and diseases began affecting the crops. He watch the people he worked with die sporadically from random illnesses of unknown causes. He told me about one man who would never wear a mask or gloves when they sprayed the crops and how his hands and beard would be bright yellow for weeks afterword. This man too died an early death.
One day Bob could no longer silence the voice of his intuition about what these chemicals were doing to the earth and the people whom consumed the crops raised in this manner.
He walked away, cut and dry, and went back to his original roots of intuitive organic farming.
He told me he was choosing to promote and produce life with his farming methods not death in the way the chemical industry was. I could tell as he talked that he was holding a lot of regret and guilt for having been involved with that industry for so long. But even at 70 he was on the path of healing as his life decision to commit to organic farming fulfilled his soul on such a level, you could see the life in his eyes and feel his passion as he spoke about what he was doing today.
Today, Bob owns a very successful organic fertilizer company made from recycled fish bones that would otherwise be thrown away. He also grows all his own food and high quality organic seed potato's to sell to other farmers. He spreads the message of organics versus chemicals and is inspired everyday by life. He talked about how he learns something new everyday and is simply a student of life.
Bob left me with one message that struck me to the core.
He told me since going back to organic farming every day in a new experiment. Some things work and some things don't but if you live your life by "what ifs" you'll never try anything.
I am so thrilled I had the privilege of meeting Bob. He has inspired and re-awakened a sense of courage in me, as something is rumbling beneath the surface that I am not yet at the liberty to share because I do not have all the information but I know the timing of my encounter with Bob was no coincidence.
Last night I dreamt of my old dog Maddie. I haven't seen her in years and she came to me so happy, enthralled and excited. when I woke I had the sense that this dream represented a part of myself that I had been ignoring and refusing to give voice to and the image of my dog so happy and excited was my confirmation on how happy this part of myself was that I was finally listening and paying attention again.
In the essence of the east and of Bob, of new beginnings and sunrises, I am choosing life.
Bob's father, as he put it was "an intuitive farmer" he told a story of how his Dad turned clay into fertile soil by composting and listing to the needs of the earth and using his intuition to supply in balance what the earth needed to change from clay into fertile growing soil. After his father passed Bob's older brother took over the family farm and Bob went out into the world "to see what I could make of myself" It was around the time of WWII and chemical fertilizers and farming methods were becoming the forefront of the agriculture world. Bob moved to Alaska and for the next 30 years was the lead farm hand for several different operations using chemical fertilizers and growing methods.
Being fed all the same stories from the industry that chemicals produced better quality crops and betters yields. He watched as the soil began to die and new viruses and diseases began affecting the crops. He watch the people he worked with die sporadically from random illnesses of unknown causes. He told me about one man who would never wear a mask or gloves when they sprayed the crops and how his hands and beard would be bright yellow for weeks afterword. This man too died an early death.
One day Bob could no longer silence the voice of his intuition about what these chemicals were doing to the earth and the people whom consumed the crops raised in this manner.
He walked away, cut and dry, and went back to his original roots of intuitive organic farming.
He told me he was choosing to promote and produce life with his farming methods not death in the way the chemical industry was. I could tell as he talked that he was holding a lot of regret and guilt for having been involved with that industry for so long. But even at 70 he was on the path of healing as his life decision to commit to organic farming fulfilled his soul on such a level, you could see the life in his eyes and feel his passion as he spoke about what he was doing today.
Today, Bob owns a very successful organic fertilizer company made from recycled fish bones that would otherwise be thrown away. He also grows all his own food and high quality organic seed potato's to sell to other farmers. He spreads the message of organics versus chemicals and is inspired everyday by life. He talked about how he learns something new everyday and is simply a student of life.
Bob left me with one message that struck me to the core.
He told me since going back to organic farming every day in a new experiment. Some things work and some things don't but if you live your life by "what ifs" you'll never try anything.
I am so thrilled I had the privilege of meeting Bob. He has inspired and re-awakened a sense of courage in me, as something is rumbling beneath the surface that I am not yet at the liberty to share because I do not have all the information but I know the timing of my encounter with Bob was no coincidence.
Last night I dreamt of my old dog Maddie. I haven't seen her in years and she came to me so happy, enthralled and excited. when I woke I had the sense that this dream represented a part of myself that I had been ignoring and refusing to give voice to and the image of my dog so happy and excited was my confirmation on how happy this part of myself was that I was finally listening and paying attention again.
In the essence of the east and of Bob, of new beginnings and sunrises, I am choosing life.
Softening after the rage & rock on Co-Creation!
I feel that in my role of Executrix, I raged and released a bit over the last couple days and now I am softening on the issues with the sale of my mother's beach house. 2 weeks ago, Kathryn told me to stay open and clear in my mind. Important pieces of information are missing on purpose. (That's for sure!) It is all a symphony. She said she could tell me no more and that, "It must be up to you, for you and from you."
I want to handle the issue of my mom's beautiful but non-sustainable summer beach house in a way that takes the high road with thoughtful and heart-filled leadership and the best interest of all in the settlement of my mother's estate. I think now my guidance is telling me not sell the house for another year. Darn, why didn't they just say that in the first place? I guess so I could skirmish with myself through some more tortuous unhealed emotions and attitudes, and lift myself onto higher clearer ground.
My future desire: I ask to be directed to the sacred land I am to caretake, to build a sustainable family retreat that is also my home/work place and a demonstration of creating loving and healing environments through sacred geometry and Divine Creativity, ....and permaculture, renewable energy, ascension, !all our explorations with co-creation! As I said before, my wounded nieces do not want me to part with the home but they do not understand the expense, risk, worry and "burden of ownership" that comes with it. Or that it may put other peoples' future plans on hold. A house is a home and places hold intense presence but we are the people, we hold the memories. Joni reminded me, "Home is where the heart is." I intend to create a sustainable family retreat where my nieces will be happy to visit or live. For this new land, I have been directed to take a Lumerian crystal from the Medicine Wheel at my mother's beach home, this is a crystal that my brother, his wife and I all held in our fingertips together as we set it buried in the center of the wheel there in a ceremony in honor of my mother. I was guided that we place it in the center hole, vertically with a conch set vertically on top and Mom's ashes poured over it and then covered. The four grandchildren placed 4 Lumerians in the 4 directions. Beforehand, everyone was smudged and afterward they complimented the ceremony and wanted to know, "Where did you learn this?!" Less than 5 months later my brother Ben and his wife Barbara crossed over together in the plane crash.
I am working on options to give my nieces another year before selling the house but with conditions that their estate take on some of the expense, responsibility and risk. That will give them more time to heal and may help them decide whether at 19 and 22 they want to take on such a responsibility. I am staying open in mind, reining in my attorney, as I know I am to do this in co-creation and it is a rite of passage for me. Thank you to the spirits of the "Living your Dream" blog for stimulating this mental clarity for me!!! It just happened! I now know better what I want to do ...at least for today!
There is something I am excited about. I followed guidance from my star-being guides as I was doing the energy rebate remodel to my home. I shifted my son's little bedroom to be my "healing room". I painted the walls in a watercolor wash like a rainbow except green. Over a period of time my starbeing guides had guided me to dowse and watercolor paint 22 geometries 8.5"x11", each one 11 days apart for 240 days. I was guided to frame the last 12 of them, glue a specific crystal on each one, and place an arangement of the 12 on the wall. It feels like heaven in there and I was guided to sleep in there until my brother arrives. Vicki said she felt a big heart chakra opening when she went in there. I asked Kathryn if she could give me some information about why it feels so wonderful, supportive, comforting, alluring and clear. She said the geometries had created a very stable healing environment. The space is self-clearing transmuting any negativity, all non-beneficial energies are cleared from the space. The geometries opened a multi-dimensional portal, a form reaching through the dimensions, such there there are lots of potentials and possiblities for healing, it speeds healing and that any healing done there would have a greater effect. Rock on! Thank you, amazing guides! I am excited. So wow, Co-Creation, what else can we do?!!
I want to handle the issue of my mom's beautiful but non-sustainable summer beach house in a way that takes the high road with thoughtful and heart-filled leadership and the best interest of all in the settlement of my mother's estate. I think now my guidance is telling me not sell the house for another year. Darn, why didn't they just say that in the first place? I guess so I could skirmish with myself through some more tortuous unhealed emotions and attitudes, and lift myself onto higher clearer ground.
My future desire: I ask to be directed to the sacred land I am to caretake, to build a sustainable family retreat that is also my home/work place and a demonstration of creating loving and healing environments through sacred geometry and Divine Creativity, ....and permaculture, renewable energy, ascension, !all our explorations with co-creation! As I said before, my wounded nieces do not want me to part with the home but they do not understand the expense, risk, worry and "burden of ownership" that comes with it. Or that it may put other peoples' future plans on hold. A house is a home and places hold intense presence but we are the people, we hold the memories. Joni reminded me, "Home is where the heart is." I intend to create a sustainable family retreat where my nieces will be happy to visit or live. For this new land, I have been directed to take a Lumerian crystal from the Medicine Wheel at my mother's beach home, this is a crystal that my brother, his wife and I all held in our fingertips together as we set it buried in the center of the wheel there in a ceremony in honor of my mother. I was guided that we place it in the center hole, vertically with a conch set vertically on top and Mom's ashes poured over it and then covered. The four grandchildren placed 4 Lumerians in the 4 directions. Beforehand, everyone was smudged and afterward they complimented the ceremony and wanted to know, "Where did you learn this?!" Less than 5 months later my brother Ben and his wife Barbara crossed over together in the plane crash.
I am working on options to give my nieces another year before selling the house but with conditions that their estate take on some of the expense, responsibility and risk. That will give them more time to heal and may help them decide whether at 19 and 22 they want to take on such a responsibility. I am staying open in mind, reining in my attorney, as I know I am to do this in co-creation and it is a rite of passage for me. Thank you to the spirits of the "Living your Dream" blog for stimulating this mental clarity for me!!! It just happened! I now know better what I want to do ...at least for today!
There is something I am excited about. I followed guidance from my star-being guides as I was doing the energy rebate remodel to my home. I shifted my son's little bedroom to be my "healing room". I painted the walls in a watercolor wash like a rainbow except green. Over a period of time my starbeing guides had guided me to dowse and watercolor paint 22 geometries 8.5"x11", each one 11 days apart for 240 days. I was guided to frame the last 12 of them, glue a specific crystal on each one, and place an arangement of the 12 on the wall. It feels like heaven in there and I was guided to sleep in there until my brother arrives. Vicki said she felt a big heart chakra opening when she went in there. I asked Kathryn if she could give me some information about why it feels so wonderful, supportive, comforting, alluring and clear. She said the geometries had created a very stable healing environment. The space is self-clearing transmuting any negativity, all non-beneficial energies are cleared from the space. The geometries opened a multi-dimensional portal, a form reaching through the dimensions, such there there are lots of potentials and possiblities for healing, it speeds healing and that any healing done there would have a greater effect. Rock on! Thank you, amazing guides! I am excited. So wow, Co-Creation, what else can we do?!!
Wednesday, February 24
Wednesday, Feb 24
It is spring in Alaska - but for how long before the snow falls again. The palace that I'm working on has the belt channel - kidney area. I decided to get a hula hoop to help stimulate that area. I borrowed one since no store has them yet and gave it a go. At first 2 seconds was all I could last but yesterday I did 22 revolutions. I'm curious as to how this movement will help change the health of my kidneys. I've discovered that I want to do movement with this 90 day to help facilitate the healing. I've not connected specific movement to the constitution work before.I also had a night dream where I was in a class waiting patiently for the question answer period. My question was about horsetail hydrosol. The dream ended and when I looked up this hydrosol I discovered it is for kidneys. The plants are talking to me! This is what I asked for on one of the pages where it said to draw a guide to help me. Dododododo. I've included animals, birds, etc as my guides as well. It has hit me the last 2 months how much the animals/plants/nature wants to be a part of human healing -- beyond just vibrant food but in communication with us about guiding our healing.
My stomach talks to me now about what it doesn't like. I drank a Kombucha and the stomach was not ready for it. I am listening.
I was at my computer today and I flashed back to the Kiva and the tarantulas day dream. I was not done. So I started singing like Kathryn said to do and the spiders turned white. I then went up to my spiritual room and began singing and swaying. It soon became apparent that I needed to sing to all the spirits of animals/plants/nature that I have in my room in the form of feathers, fur, claws, eggs, teeth, hides, shells, etc. I began dancing like Yupik Native Dancers. It only lasted a short while. I've come to believe that spontaneous action only needs to be as long as it needs and doesn't need to be big like a ceremony. This is Living the Dream every day.
Sometimes I get panicky about the time left in my life. I'm 60 now. I look at my spiritual friends in their 20's 30's 40's and think about how long their future is. Then I hear Michael in my mind telling of his story and how he reversed his degenerative body and I have hope. My doubts fade into the background. I see 120 years old in the future and who knows perhaps no age. I ask for courage to step fully onto my new spiritual path and may I always remind myself I don't have to know all the steps to get there. I just have to make the first step and keep moving forward.
Joni Mist Walker
Mind vs. Heart
Hi everyone...
I have a business out of town (in Bethel, AK), and was away working there this weekend. I missed you all and this connection while I was away, but am happy to report that I was able to maintain my high-frequency diet and did not have any coffee, which was amazingly effortless for once. I am so proud of myself!
I can feel deep changes in myself already, and attribute them to this program. I was stunned to get to Bethel and be confronted with strong feelings that perhaps I have outgrown my business there. I have had my skin care business for 3 1/2 years, and there is no logical reason for me to give it up - at all! I love every bit of it and feel great love from my clients in return. I am able to completely support myself financially by working only 3-4 days every 5 weeks, allowing me much freedom the rest of the time. My business continues to grow and grow and I have a deep loyalty to my clients. I also get to spend precious time with my parents who I otherwise would not see much of.
However, there is something off about it, and I felt it very strongly this past weekend, even though it was a wonderful weekend. I believe my heart is telling me that it's time to move on, and that having this business is somehow holding me in a certain place vibrationally, even though I only work 3-4 days/month. I've been using that as a justification until now to override my intuition. I created this business when I was a very different person, and I think now there is a dis-resonance that I can feel more and more as time goes on. It occurred to me this weekend that I definitely "keep a lid" on who I really am, allowing my clients to only see one (very safe) side of me. I feel like I am so much more than what I have been allowing others to see, and now I want to create something new that honors who I am now! Though it all looks perfect on paper, it's beginning to feel very 12/60.
I have made a new commitment to listen to my Heart, and wonder if I'll have the courage to actually go through with this new change. It feels powerful to admit this to you all, myself included. A recent program I placed in the DiamondHeart medicine wheel and the Bethel medicine wheel was " I shift through synchronicity, desire, and fulfillment." That is what this feels like. Thank you all, Earth Song.
I have a business out of town (in Bethel, AK), and was away working there this weekend. I missed you all and this connection while I was away, but am happy to report that I was able to maintain my high-frequency diet and did not have any coffee, which was amazingly effortless for once. I am so proud of myself!
I can feel deep changes in myself already, and attribute them to this program. I was stunned to get to Bethel and be confronted with strong feelings that perhaps I have outgrown my business there. I have had my skin care business for 3 1/2 years, and there is no logical reason for me to give it up - at all! I love every bit of it and feel great love from my clients in return. I am able to completely support myself financially by working only 3-4 days every 5 weeks, allowing me much freedom the rest of the time. My business continues to grow and grow and I have a deep loyalty to my clients. I also get to spend precious time with my parents who I otherwise would not see much of.
However, there is something off about it, and I felt it very strongly this past weekend, even though it was a wonderful weekend. I believe my heart is telling me that it's time to move on, and that having this business is somehow holding me in a certain place vibrationally, even though I only work 3-4 days/month. I've been using that as a justification until now to override my intuition. I created this business when I was a very different person, and I think now there is a dis-resonance that I can feel more and more as time goes on. It occurred to me this weekend that I definitely "keep a lid" on who I really am, allowing my clients to only see one (very safe) side of me. I feel like I am so much more than what I have been allowing others to see, and now I want to create something new that honors who I am now! Though it all looks perfect on paper, it's beginning to feel very 12/60.
I have made a new commitment to listen to my Heart, and wonder if I'll have the courage to actually go through with this new change. It feels powerful to admit this to you all, myself included. A recent program I placed in the DiamondHeart medicine wheel and the Bethel medicine wheel was " I shift through synchronicity, desire, and fulfillment." That is what this feels like. Thank you all, Earth Song.
A Gift from the Spirits of the East
Some Lakota elders say that one of the great gifts of the East is dissatisfaction. At first it may not seems like a gift, but in reality it is a powerful gift that must be acknowledged.
Dissatisfaction is the attitude that provides the energy and motivation to create positive change. Lethargy and denial can cause us to just go along with the way things are, even if we are not experiencing the ecstatic frequencies of living in dynamic synchronicity and co-creation that are possible. Sometimes we get lazy or make the safe choice. Little do we realize that the safe choice is often really a "death" choice.
Every choice we make either brings a little more excitement, adventure, and harmony into our lives OR it causes just a little contraction, a little less of that same adventure and energy. Over a lifetime of safe choices, we gradually suppress our natural energy flow, stop taking risks, and end up in a very small and strong box that can usually be broken out of by dying a physical death.
If we looked at our choices with this awareness, learning to check in to the energy flow that we feel when we make that choice, we can learn to live in constant awareness. This way of living is laying the foundation for the next level of ascension; breaking free of the need to die physically and reincarnate in order to experience change. Once we graduate from the cycle of reincarnation, we begin to live the reality that the ancients have envisioned for us from many cultures. The Mayans call it the age of Flowering, when we walk as humans on the Earth with full connection and awareness in all dimensions.
If you are comfortable ignoring your dissatisfaction, or don't think you have any, make an intention to honor it for the next three days. Really look for it and value it when it comes to the surface. It is a signal that something in your life is out of harmony, or something needs to change.
When we can identify our dissatisfaction, and then can take an action for change, we are moving into empowerment. Our prayer force and manifestation level rise to a whole new level.
Much gratitude
Kachina
Dissatisfaction is the attitude that provides the energy and motivation to create positive change. Lethargy and denial can cause us to just go along with the way things are, even if we are not experiencing the ecstatic frequencies of living in dynamic synchronicity and co-creation that are possible. Sometimes we get lazy or make the safe choice. Little do we realize that the safe choice is often really a "death" choice.
Every choice we make either brings a little more excitement, adventure, and harmony into our lives OR it causes just a little contraction, a little less of that same adventure and energy. Over a lifetime of safe choices, we gradually suppress our natural energy flow, stop taking risks, and end up in a very small and strong box that can usually be broken out of by dying a physical death.
If we looked at our choices with this awareness, learning to check in to the energy flow that we feel when we make that choice, we can learn to live in constant awareness. This way of living is laying the foundation for the next level of ascension; breaking free of the need to die physically and reincarnate in order to experience change. Once we graduate from the cycle of reincarnation, we begin to live the reality that the ancients have envisioned for us from many cultures. The Mayans call it the age of Flowering, when we walk as humans on the Earth with full connection and awareness in all dimensions.
If you are comfortable ignoring your dissatisfaction, or don't think you have any, make an intention to honor it for the next three days. Really look for it and value it when it comes to the surface. It is a signal that something in your life is out of harmony, or something needs to change.
When we can identify our dissatisfaction, and then can take an action for change, we are moving into empowerment. Our prayer force and manifestation level rise to a whole new level.
Much gratitude
Kachina
White, Puffy, Beautiful Snow!
Arizona's Monday storm seems to have met the Northeast with just as much power and beauty. We are into 24 hours of constant snow fall with accumulations of over 20 inches so far and building! They call for more through the night and into tomorrow! It is a beautiful sight out there, every tree is holding armfuls of snow on their limbs and branches; like white puffy leaves!
It is very peaceful and calming to be surrounded by it today and I feel grateful that I did not have to make my way to work and am able to witness the soundless white raindrops. My dog is in heaven (as she is an Alaskan by birth) and I think our mild winter before this had been giving her a bit of seasonal doggie depression. Her 7 year old frame bounced and dug it's self all around out there today and now she rests contently, snow balls stuck to her paws and bum fur making puddles on my wooden floors...ahh...doggie heaven! The simple joys in life!
Oops...there goes the power...on and off all day...looks to be staying off now...
...I intend to enjoy this time to reflect and continue my work on myself and my creation story, can't think of a better tine or place to reflect in silence...
Thanks for listening...
To each and calm and peaceful snowstorm of their own,
Tayo
It is very peaceful and calming to be surrounded by it today and I feel grateful that I did not have to make my way to work and am able to witness the soundless white raindrops. My dog is in heaven (as she is an Alaskan by birth) and I think our mild winter before this had been giving her a bit of seasonal doggie depression. Her 7 year old frame bounced and dug it's self all around out there today and now she rests contently, snow balls stuck to her paws and bum fur making puddles on my wooden floors...ahh...doggie heaven! The simple joys in life!
Oops...there goes the power...on and off all day...looks to be staying off now...
...I intend to enjoy this time to reflect and continue my work on myself and my creation story, can't think of a better tine or place to reflect in silence...
Thanks for listening...
To each and calm and peaceful snowstorm of their own,
Tayo
Tuesday, February 23
Fire and Earth
The last two elements that could be our primary physical element include Fire and Earth.
Fire is the most yang energy flow of all the elements. Fire's primary energy flow is upward. The facial structure is a diamond-like shape (prominent cheekbones or cheekbones being the widest part of face), or a flame shape that is widest at the lower jaw and narrows as it rises.
The main curriculum for a Fire element person involves the development of passion and purpose in life. Fires bring inspiration and excitement to any and all undertakings. They have the ability to focus on and commit to a goal or purpose, and they honor their words and commitments. Early in life, a Fire may draw experiences that shut down their passion, and do not honor their inner purpose. They may draw people to them that have a challenge with commitment, or create an experience of betrayal. These experiences all set up a Fire element person to reclaim their passion and purpose, and to learn the importance of integrity and honor in life.
When Fire element is out of balance, it can resemble its restricting element. Fire can appear to be scattered and unfocused, spending to much time daydreaming or getting lost in time or space. They can begin projects over and over without bringing any to completion, causing the feeling of scattered energy and overwhelm. To restore balance and nourish the Fire element, one should turn to the Wood element and take on a physical project or goal. Applying one's energy in the world and creating is nurturing for the Fire element.
The Earth element is the stillpoint, with the primary energy flow being still or balanced in all directions. This is the pause between inbreath and outbreath, the stabilizing energy flow. This element is identified by a square shaped face, or a face that is equal in width and height. Earth often has a wide straight jawline or straight chin.
Earth's curriculum for the current incarnation is to develop centeredness, balance, and stability, and to use their skill in this department to create stability for others around them. They have a strong ability to connect with the experience and feelings of others, and must learn how to maintain this connection without losing themselves in the drama of others' lives. Earth element people are sometimes so sensitive to the feelings of others that they can turn to addictions or obsessive behavior to try to shut off the feelings. When they are out of balance, they may appear like the wood element, focusing only on a goal in the physical world as if they have blinders on to the rest of life. They can lose their connection to others and lose their own internal balance.
In order to re-establish balance, Earth should turn to the nourishing element of Fire and laugh! Be spontaneous, make new decisions and do something different. They must find the passion and purpose again in life, the things that excite them.
Now that we have an overview of each element, it is important to see these elements in a multi-dimensional perspective. As there is a little yin in every yang, there is also a little of each element in all the others. The physical element we inherit with incarnation is only half of the equation to our constitutional pattern. The other 50% has to do with what we chose and what we experienced in past incarnations. We might have a soul body that has experienced lifetime after lifetime of incarnation as a Water, and now this time we are coming into a wood body. Can you see how unique this can make our current life assignment? In other words, the element we own physically MUST be accepted and acknowledged. But how we bring our soul's purpose into manifestation and fulfillment may be very different from how anyone else does, based on our previous incarnations. This leads us to the Palaces, or areas of focus in our lives.
On a personal note, I felt a big shift today that was beginning yesterday. It feels as if the local area has begun to awaken to the unity grid of Mother Earth! And today, at around 10 this morning, St. George experience a benign earthquake. Mother is re-aligning...
Many Blessings to all,
Kachina
Fire is the most yang energy flow of all the elements. Fire's primary energy flow is upward. The facial structure is a diamond-like shape (prominent cheekbones or cheekbones being the widest part of face), or a flame shape that is widest at the lower jaw and narrows as it rises.
The main curriculum for a Fire element person involves the development of passion and purpose in life. Fires bring inspiration and excitement to any and all undertakings. They have the ability to focus on and commit to a goal or purpose, and they honor their words and commitments. Early in life, a Fire may draw experiences that shut down their passion, and do not honor their inner purpose. They may draw people to them that have a challenge with commitment, or create an experience of betrayal. These experiences all set up a Fire element person to reclaim their passion and purpose, and to learn the importance of integrity and honor in life.
When Fire element is out of balance, it can resemble its restricting element. Fire can appear to be scattered and unfocused, spending to much time daydreaming or getting lost in time or space. They can begin projects over and over without bringing any to completion, causing the feeling of scattered energy and overwhelm. To restore balance and nourish the Fire element, one should turn to the Wood element and take on a physical project or goal. Applying one's energy in the world and creating is nurturing for the Fire element.
The Earth element is the stillpoint, with the primary energy flow being still or balanced in all directions. This is the pause between inbreath and outbreath, the stabilizing energy flow. This element is identified by a square shaped face, or a face that is equal in width and height. Earth often has a wide straight jawline or straight chin.
Earth's curriculum for the current incarnation is to develop centeredness, balance, and stability, and to use their skill in this department to create stability for others around them. They have a strong ability to connect with the experience and feelings of others, and must learn how to maintain this connection without losing themselves in the drama of others' lives. Earth element people are sometimes so sensitive to the feelings of others that they can turn to addictions or obsessive behavior to try to shut off the feelings. When they are out of balance, they may appear like the wood element, focusing only on a goal in the physical world as if they have blinders on to the rest of life. They can lose their connection to others and lose their own internal balance.
In order to re-establish balance, Earth should turn to the nourishing element of Fire and laugh! Be spontaneous, make new decisions and do something different. They must find the passion and purpose again in life, the things that excite them.
Now that we have an overview of each element, it is important to see these elements in a multi-dimensional perspective. As there is a little yin in every yang, there is also a little of each element in all the others. The physical element we inherit with incarnation is only half of the equation to our constitutional pattern. The other 50% has to do with what we chose and what we experienced in past incarnations. We might have a soul body that has experienced lifetime after lifetime of incarnation as a Water, and now this time we are coming into a wood body. Can you see how unique this can make our current life assignment? In other words, the element we own physically MUST be accepted and acknowledged. But how we bring our soul's purpose into manifestation and fulfillment may be very different from how anyone else does, based on our previous incarnations. This leads us to the Palaces, or areas of focus in our lives.
On a personal note, I felt a big shift today that was beginning yesterday. It feels as if the local area has begun to awaken to the unity grid of Mother Earth! And today, at around 10 this morning, St. George experience a benign earthquake. Mother is re-aligning...
Many Blessings to all,
Kachina
Monday, February 22
More Magic
Now we are living in a winter wonderland, in White Sage Arizona! Over the weekend we had about 28 inches of new snow. This is the equivalent of a 100 year storm in this area. We have already had 120% of the precipitation of a normal year-and it is only in February! We still have 10 months to go. For everyone who helped us place the Mayan rain crystals and the harmonizer last October, here is the proof that it really does effect the Earth and her weather patterns!
We are still digging out, but did make it into town today after a full day of uncovering snow. We realize that the road will be impassable very soon, when all the snow melts into mud. It was already 50 degrees high today.
The crisp beauty of the desert land covered with a blanket of snow is delightful. The pinon trees and big sage bushes are looking nourished, and letting their aromatics into the air. Everywhere animal tracks are weaving through the snow.
Right before the snow came, the Pleiadian cloud ships appeared briefly. Then the storm rolled in. It was very unusual, with snow and intermittent lightening storms all night. The strangest thing happened about 4:00 in the morning. I awakened abruptly and could not go back to sleep. Finally I decided to go down and rake up the coals in the woodstove. Just as I was pondering getting out of bed, the whole sky lit up with a bright red light, as bright as daylight! Then it flickered 4 times, and was gone, I am telling you, it was so bright that I could not tell what direction the light was coming from.
Mystified, I went downstairs and kept looking outside, into a pitch black wilderness. Whatever it had been was gone. I rekindled the fire and warmed my toes a little. Finally I was ready to go back up the ladder to bed. Just as I was climbing in, it happened again!!! A brilliant red light lit up the sky so clearly that it looked like daylight outside. Then in an instant, it was gone. Back to a very dark black.
My mind kept trying on different scenarios of what had caused this light. Michael was sound asleep, (though I found out later he saw it through his eyelids, but just thought I had turned on a light), and the silence remained unbroken. None of the ideas I came up with could really fit, so finally I quit looking for a repeat performance and went back to sleep. It was beautiful and fun, and really mysterious.
Then it snowed for two days and nights, and now we are here, willing captives for a few days, eating our root vegetables and living on the land.
I send out my gratitude for each of you who are holding space for transformation, willingly walking through the cleansing symptoms as our bodies cast off accumulation and clean house. Keep walking, one day at a time, and I know it will change your life forever (in a good way!)
Kachina
We are still digging out, but did make it into town today after a full day of uncovering snow. We realize that the road will be impassable very soon, when all the snow melts into mud. It was already 50 degrees high today.
The crisp beauty of the desert land covered with a blanket of snow is delightful. The pinon trees and big sage bushes are looking nourished, and letting their aromatics into the air. Everywhere animal tracks are weaving through the snow.
Right before the snow came, the Pleiadian cloud ships appeared briefly. Then the storm rolled in. It was very unusual, with snow and intermittent lightening storms all night. The strangest thing happened about 4:00 in the morning. I awakened abruptly and could not go back to sleep. Finally I decided to go down and rake up the coals in the woodstove. Just as I was pondering getting out of bed, the whole sky lit up with a bright red light, as bright as daylight! Then it flickered 4 times, and was gone, I am telling you, it was so bright that I could not tell what direction the light was coming from.
Mystified, I went downstairs and kept looking outside, into a pitch black wilderness. Whatever it had been was gone. I rekindled the fire and warmed my toes a little. Finally I was ready to go back up the ladder to bed. Just as I was climbing in, it happened again!!! A brilliant red light lit up the sky so clearly that it looked like daylight outside. Then in an instant, it was gone. Back to a very dark black.
My mind kept trying on different scenarios of what had caused this light. Michael was sound asleep, (though I found out later he saw it through his eyelids, but just thought I had turned on a light), and the silence remained unbroken. None of the ideas I came up with could really fit, so finally I quit looking for a repeat performance and went back to sleep. It was beautiful and fun, and really mysterious.
Then it snowed for two days and nights, and now we are here, willing captives for a few days, eating our root vegetables and living on the land.
I send out my gratitude for each of you who are holding space for transformation, willingly walking through the cleansing symptoms as our bodies cast off accumulation and clean house. Keep walking, one day at a time, and I know it will change your life forever (in a good way!)
Kachina
Each step a test that deeply affects others
My mother crossed over 1.5 years ago followed 5 months later by my brother Bennett and sister-in-law Barbara in a plane crash leaving their two daughters, my nieces, now 19 and 22. Ben was the Executor of my mother's estate; now I am. In order to settle the estate and move forward in my life to create a sustainable family homestead and for practical reasons of distance, "the burden of ownership" and affordability I feel I must sell the family beach house in Delaware. I have waited 1.5 years at my nieces' request. This summer house represents the connection to their parents to them. After my mother crossed over I was guided to open a medicine wheel there in my mother's gorgeous natural garden in a ceremony honoring my mother and with all my family participating. I was also guided to further grid the property with 12 Lumerian crystals. I have continued to work with this wheel when visiting Delaware and through my wheel in Anchorage.
For a year I have done much ceremony around this family home, ceremony of gratitude to this abundant Universe and to all my relatives that attracted the abundance to bring us this home, gratitude to the spirits of the land and awesome angel of the home that have so lovingly supported my family for 30 years bringing us joy in family gatherings and comfort in times of deep loss, ceremony for resolution in perfect unity and all needs met for my family members and all involved, ceremony asking for Divine Assistance to help my nieces and help me help my nieces create another form of connection - spiritual - to their parents and my mother, and many more ceremonies. I have asked for Divine Assistance in being the Executrix of the estate in this most challenging role where I feel I am co-creating an intricate dance between responsible Executrix and compassionate aunt. Among many others, I consult Ben and Barbara for guidance. I have been holding a vision of everything beautifully resolved for the highest good of all. I know the Law of Manifestation that says there is always one solution that brings happiness to all. I feel trepidation. Might I alienate my nieces forever? Will I rise to the occassion to be the strong and guided family person who can co-create a new sustainable family retreat and my new home on sacred land that will be this joy and more? Do I have the strength to leave Anchorage and all that is familiar to me and be successful on this adventure? Am I crazy? Maybe I need to drop to my knees, completely humble myself and ask (SCREAM) "Help!".
I realize it is the emotional issues and my own self-doubt that make this so difficult. And I have been so concerned about the my nieces' feelings and my conceived plan to move forward that I have barely taken a peak at my own feelings surrounding the sale of the beach house to a 3rd party. This morning I conjured an image of the interior cleared out for the next owner. Deep sadness!
What a family home, place of beauty, joy, nurturing and family love my parents created there! It will be a very big family shift. No wonder it turns my nieces inside out! Ouch, such deep, difficult feelings!!!!! It makes me question if I am doing the right thing! I must be an ogre to them to take this nurturing joyous well away from them when their wounds are still open. Am I doing the right thing?! Everything practical tells me it must be done. One step at a time.....Is that the voice to honor?
I feel the difficult painful waters swirling around me all the time I must seek to step above to a high clear road intending to serve all fairly and with compassion. I am not wanting to be poetic or self-absorbent. This territory is most challenging to me, a "test" or rite of passage. Wow, it is hard when others are affected.
The ceremonies of gratitude for the home and property there and all the family members who helped it happen like my grandfathers and mothers brought gushes of tears. I feel I need to do even more gratitude ceremonies as I realize what this has been for our family.... as the layers are peeled back it feels more painful rather than better and it feels more difficult to create an equal.
My plan: the sustainable permaculture homestead on sacred land. Do I have the strength to do it? Is this my choice? I was guided that during the 90-days I am not to seek it's location in the world. But I am being guided to envision it. I have been going the female route: allowing guidance to lead me. Now it seems that I am to do more envisioning, more co-creation of a vision of what is this dream?, more contracting the image, making clear choices - the harder part for me. I am not clear or certain. What will I offer? what will be my purpose? what will I teach?
And where is my soul mate to help me?!!! Actually I was guided and did a balance recently to call in my soul mate. So, hello out there! Welcome!
Abundant Universe and fellow path walkers and seekers, thank you for listening!
with love and gratitude,
SkyWalker Sings with her Heart
For a year I have done much ceremony around this family home, ceremony of gratitude to this abundant Universe and to all my relatives that attracted the abundance to bring us this home, gratitude to the spirits of the land and awesome angel of the home that have so lovingly supported my family for 30 years bringing us joy in family gatherings and comfort in times of deep loss, ceremony for resolution in perfect unity and all needs met for my family members and all involved, ceremony asking for Divine Assistance to help my nieces and help me help my nieces create another form of connection - spiritual - to their parents and my mother, and many more ceremonies. I have asked for Divine Assistance in being the Executrix of the estate in this most challenging role where I feel I am co-creating an intricate dance between responsible Executrix and compassionate aunt. Among many others, I consult Ben and Barbara for guidance. I have been holding a vision of everything beautifully resolved for the highest good of all. I know the Law of Manifestation that says there is always one solution that brings happiness to all. I feel trepidation. Might I alienate my nieces forever? Will I rise to the occassion to be the strong and guided family person who can co-create a new sustainable family retreat and my new home on sacred land that will be this joy and more? Do I have the strength to leave Anchorage and all that is familiar to me and be successful on this adventure? Am I crazy? Maybe I need to drop to my knees, completely humble myself and ask (SCREAM) "Help!".
I realize it is the emotional issues and my own self-doubt that make this so difficult. And I have been so concerned about the my nieces' feelings and my conceived plan to move forward that I have barely taken a peak at my own feelings surrounding the sale of the beach house to a 3rd party. This morning I conjured an image of the interior cleared out for the next owner. Deep sadness!
What a family home, place of beauty, joy, nurturing and family love my parents created there! It will be a very big family shift. No wonder it turns my nieces inside out! Ouch, such deep, difficult feelings!!!!! It makes me question if I am doing the right thing! I must be an ogre to them to take this nurturing joyous well away from them when their wounds are still open. Am I doing the right thing?! Everything practical tells me it must be done. One step at a time.....Is that the voice to honor?
I feel the difficult painful waters swirling around me all the time I must seek to step above to a high clear road intending to serve all fairly and with compassion. I am not wanting to be poetic or self-absorbent. This territory is most challenging to me, a "test" or rite of passage. Wow, it is hard when others are affected.
The ceremonies of gratitude for the home and property there and all the family members who helped it happen like my grandfathers and mothers brought gushes of tears. I feel I need to do even more gratitude ceremonies as I realize what this has been for our family.... as the layers are peeled back it feels more painful rather than better and it feels more difficult to create an equal.
My plan: the sustainable permaculture homestead on sacred land. Do I have the strength to do it? Is this my choice? I was guided that during the 90-days I am not to seek it's location in the world. But I am being guided to envision it. I have been going the female route: allowing guidance to lead me. Now it seems that I am to do more envisioning, more co-creation of a vision of what is this dream?, more contracting the image, making clear choices - the harder part for me. I am not clear or certain. What will I offer? what will be my purpose? what will I teach?
And where is my soul mate to help me?!!! Actually I was guided and did a balance recently to call in my soul mate. So, hello out there! Welcome!
Abundant Universe and fellow path walkers and seekers, thank you for listening!
with love and gratitude,
SkyWalker Sings with her Heart
Saturday, February 20
Am I living the dream or just dreaming!
Another day another billions of thoughts flowing through my mind. The "theme" of the day is back to the familiar and always stressful topic "what am I going to do with my life?" .....I hate that question! I hate it coming from my self or anyone. How the hell am I supposed to know!? It's like an avalanche. It comes at you at an uncontrollable speed building and building intense negativity and angziety than hits you right in the gut and takes the air right out of you. Than, the panic sets in. " F*** ME! what AM I going to do with my life?" I understand I'm only 23 years old, but "you have to have a plan, or at least an idea." pssst, not me! That is not going to be MY reality. I don't want a plan. what fun can a plan be? that ruins everything, I want to go with the flow and have it all unravel right before my eyes, never knowing what's going to happen next but excited to know that if I just trust that it will all work out. Besides, I have my whole life to figure that out....right? :)
In all reality, my problem isn't WHAT I am going to do what my life, it's is HOW do I organize all that I want to do in a way that will bring in enough money/happiness to support me and my dog Murphy comfortably?
I know what it is I want to do, I have always know, ever since I was little, I know EXACTLY what I want (while holding no attachment, hehe) I just don't know how to create it.
I want to do exactly what my sister Earth Song does at Diamond Heart but I want to do it with animals. I want to do animal communication, I want to make flower essences, tinctures, 'animalized' (personalized) oil blends, massage , the whole works for animals BUT I am also just as passionate about art. I LOVE to create things, LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!, but it is soooo time consuming....but I love it, so much. I love to knit, I can do it all day....in fact I have been know to do it all day for many days, but, I want to learn to Sew, crochet, quilt, cook, play the guitar, piano and harp, cross stitch, embroider, wood carving, beading..EVERYTHING nothing gets me more excited than knowing that each new year I get to check one of those off my list of "things to learn"....... except for animals. *50/50*
So, the questions is, HOW do I turn this into a living and HOW do I find balance in learning everything I want to learn for my animal work and my art work??...... I can feel the stress building. today, that is where I stand. but I am happy and still excited for the journey.
Also, I just wanted to say for the record that my Dad got a little 10 week old bright blue eyed australian Shepperd puppy for his farm that I have fallen head over heals for.... I have been taking her on walks everyday and cooking for her and we have really bonded. Now I feel like I want her to be MY baby and "why cant he get his own?" haha, but I can love her from a distance, I know they have some major work to do together....but she sure is pretty. <3
In all reality, my problem isn't WHAT I am going to do what my life, it's is HOW do I organize all that I want to do in a way that will bring in enough money/happiness to support me and my dog Murphy comfortably?
I know what it is I want to do, I have always know, ever since I was little, I know EXACTLY what I want (while holding no attachment, hehe) I just don't know how to create it.
I want to do exactly what my sister Earth Song does at Diamond Heart but I want to do it with animals. I want to do animal communication, I want to make flower essences, tinctures, 'animalized' (personalized) oil blends, massage , the whole works for animals BUT I am also just as passionate about art. I LOVE to create things, LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!, but it is soooo time consuming....but I love it, so much. I love to knit, I can do it all day....in fact I have been know to do it all day for many days, but, I want to learn to Sew, crochet, quilt, cook, play the guitar, piano and harp, cross stitch, embroider, wood carving, beading..EVERYTHING nothing gets me more excited than knowing that each new year I get to check one of those off my list of "things to learn"....... except for animals. *50/50*
So, the questions is, HOW do I turn this into a living and HOW do I find balance in learning everything I want to learn for my animal work and my art work??...... I can feel the stress building. today, that is where I stand. but I am happy and still excited for the journey.
Also, I just wanted to say for the record that my Dad got a little 10 week old bright blue eyed australian Shepperd puppy for his farm that I have fallen head over heals for.... I have been taking her on walks everyday and cooking for her and we have really bonded. Now I feel like I want her to be MY baby and "why cant he get his own?" haha, but I can love her from a distance, I know they have some major work to do together....but she sure is pretty. <3
Ode to Stagnation.
Are we as great as we're made to believe?
Is there truth behind the wisdom we seek?
I'm stuck somewhere neither here nor there..
Afraid to move forward, paralyzed with fear.
Can't get off, the rides only begun...
Can't speed it up, that would be no fun.
Woe is me...what am I to do
I've lost that feeling I've grown so accustom to.
The one that would guide me so I'd know what to do.
I can't stay in this place of stagnation for long.
I call for assistance please help to guide me on.
Take me home to where my heart resides
To where that inner knowing deeply lies
That place they say holds the answers we seek
Oh look I can see it, may I have another peek
To my horror and surprise, you'll never guess what was inside
A revelation and discounted lie.
Not only are we as great as we're lead to believe
But, the magic, beauty and power we seek
Is simply no further then a glimpse in the mirror
At last, I sigh, I can let go of my fear
I've had the strength and ability all along
Wishing this revelation hadn't taken me so long
But if there is one thing I've learned from this long twisted journey
Its never to doubt those who are there to encourage me!
Is there truth behind the wisdom we seek?
I'm stuck somewhere neither here nor there..
Afraid to move forward, paralyzed with fear.
Can't get off, the rides only begun...
Can't speed it up, that would be no fun.
Woe is me...what am I to do
I've lost that feeling I've grown so accustom to.
The one that would guide me so I'd know what to do.
I can't stay in this place of stagnation for long.
I call for assistance please help to guide me on.
Take me home to where my heart resides
To where that inner knowing deeply lies
That place they say holds the answers we seek
Oh look I can see it, may I have another peek
To my horror and surprise, you'll never guess what was inside
A revelation and discounted lie.
Not only are we as great as we're lead to believe
But, the magic, beauty and power we seek
Is simply no further then a glimpse in the mirror
At last, I sigh, I can let go of my fear
I've had the strength and ability all along
Wishing this revelation hadn't taken me so long
But if there is one thing I've learned from this long twisted journey
Its never to doubt those who are there to encourage me!
Hey ya!
Funny thing, writing the words knowing they could be viewed by anyone makes me self conscious, sounds like a Prosperity Palace pattern! ; ) So, here I am moving through that pattern. This is my third time around and this time I feel in total alignment, it is much easier than before and I believe this is why my body is detoxing so quickly, I had a headache on Day 2 which has lasted pretty much all week. Thankfully it has mostly lifted. It made going to work very challenging this week, I did what I could each day to honor myself, either taking leave in the afternoon, getting a massage, accupuncture and getting together with some friends who like to contemplate Astrology and meditate, and doing my own favorite healing meditations. What a relief that has brought. I can feel the layers lifting. I feel like I have somehow lost myself, but where did I go?
prana tube energies
Greetings Adventurers,
In the clearing of my prosperity channel my prana tube is a big element. Kathryn had given me guidance to do something more with my prana tube, 3 breathing exercises. One is a breathing practice bringing in 5th dimensional energy and another is to initiate (for future use!!!) a manna program for my endocrine system where my body can be sustained (in the future!!!!) by producing and assimilating it's own energetic "food". I investigated "the endocrine system", drew a picture of the glands, and started doing the 3 breathing programs. My back became very sore. At first I thought I injured myself playing basketball. But dowsing indicated it is my adrenal glands shifting and taking in new energies. I did not even know where they were before. I was guided to do a lot of deep belly breathing today to allow the new energies to assimilate and to send the Divine love and light within me to those who need it most. I immediately think of Haiti and my nieces who lost both their parents in a plane crash in Nov 2008.
Thank you for sharing, listening and for participating in this wondeful shared adventure. Many thanks and love to Mike and Kathryn for co-creating this form of healing and ascension. Thanks to this amazing Universe revealing itself to us. Thank you all!
In the clearing of my prosperity channel my prana tube is a big element. Kathryn had given me guidance to do something more with my prana tube, 3 breathing exercises. One is a breathing practice bringing in 5th dimensional energy and another is to initiate (for future use!!!) a manna program for my endocrine system where my body can be sustained (in the future!!!!) by producing and assimilating it's own energetic "food". I investigated "the endocrine system", drew a picture of the glands, and started doing the 3 breathing programs. My back became very sore. At first I thought I injured myself playing basketball. But dowsing indicated it is my adrenal glands shifting and taking in new energies. I did not even know where they were before. I was guided to do a lot of deep belly breathing today to allow the new energies to assimilate and to send the Divine love and light within me to those who need it most. I immediately think of Haiti and my nieces who lost both their parents in a plane crash in Nov 2008.
Thank you for sharing, listening and for participating in this wondeful shared adventure. Many thanks and love to Mike and Kathryn for co-creating this form of healing and ascension. Thanks to this amazing Universe revealing itself to us. Thank you all!
Friday, February 19
More Metal, Wood, and Water
To create more clarity and help us understand the importance of these elements in our lives, I want to say just a little more about these three elements. What happens when we go out of balance with the physical element? The answer is in the Restricting Element.
For a wood element archetype, this being associated with the liver, the form of imbalance is generally created through excess rather than depletion. It can fool us and look like the symptoms of depletion, because if it becomes chronic, over years of time, excessive enegy will result in a burn out like depletion. This often creates physical symptoms associated with a congested liver, such as skin issues, breakouts, hardening or inflexibility in muscles and tendons, emotional upsets, eye issues and poor eyesight, to name a few.
Wood's restricting element is metal, so when a wood's energy is out of balance, it will show up in a metal form: Paying too much attention to what others think, and being overfocused on detail. Alternatively, the way to restore balance for the over-doing wood, is to turn toward the nourishing element: Water. Water pursuits-developing spirituality and cultivating ease and gentleness in life, will restore balance and regenerate the wood element. An interesting example of this is happening in the sports world right now, and his name is Tiger Woods. In November, Tiger experienced an event that was triggered by many years of excessive behavior. His family, partnership, and golfing career were suddenly placed on the line because of this excess in his life. Today, Tiger came out of seclusion to announce that he was changing his ways, and going back into his Buddhist practice, as he had let go of it for some time. This is the exact illustration of a wood element person restoring balance in his life! (Thanks to Blew Thunder who follows the sports world and gives me updates!
Now lets look ar metal archetypes. Metals are associated with the lungs and large intestine. When they are out of balance, it is usually caused by a state of overwhelm that results in retention of toxicity in the body, and/or respiratory system issues. Over long periods of time, symptoms can develop into more chronic conditions such as asthma and colon cancer.
When metals are out of balance, they reflect the restricting fire element, becoming scattered and distracted, or acting on every impulse. The way back into balance is to look toward the nourishing element, earth. Drawing attention back into their own center and creating balance in the world around them is imperative to restoring a metal's balance.
The water element is associated with kidneys and bladder. With this element, depletion is usually the cause of imbalance. Depleted kidney energy is considered by Chinese medicine to be the cause of all aging. This usually creates symptoms associated with kidneys, such as swelling and edema, lower back pain, decaying teeth, loss of hair, hearing loss, pain or injury in feet and legs, pelvic issues and reproductive system issues.
The water element out of balance will appear as a restricting earth element. Loss of the self in others-getting caught up in the emotional lives of others to the extent of losing ourselves; feeling powerless in life, and perceiving victimization all around are issues.
To restore balance, a water must turn to the nourishing element of Metal, and re-establish boundaries and attend to the details in order to restore balance.
Tomorrow is Saturday, and I will likely not be blogging again until Monday morning. Just in case-have a beautiful couple of days, enjoy the process (and the juices!)
Kachina
For a wood element archetype, this being associated with the liver, the form of imbalance is generally created through excess rather than depletion. It can fool us and look like the symptoms of depletion, because if it becomes chronic, over years of time, excessive enegy will result in a burn out like depletion. This often creates physical symptoms associated with a congested liver, such as skin issues, breakouts, hardening or inflexibility in muscles and tendons, emotional upsets, eye issues and poor eyesight, to name a few.
Wood's restricting element is metal, so when a wood's energy is out of balance, it will show up in a metal form: Paying too much attention to what others think, and being overfocused on detail. Alternatively, the way to restore balance for the over-doing wood, is to turn toward the nourishing element: Water. Water pursuits-developing spirituality and cultivating ease and gentleness in life, will restore balance and regenerate the wood element. An interesting example of this is happening in the sports world right now, and his name is Tiger Woods. In November, Tiger experienced an event that was triggered by many years of excessive behavior. His family, partnership, and golfing career were suddenly placed on the line because of this excess in his life. Today, Tiger came out of seclusion to announce that he was changing his ways, and going back into his Buddhist practice, as he had let go of it for some time. This is the exact illustration of a wood element person restoring balance in his life! (Thanks to Blew Thunder who follows the sports world and gives me updates!
Now lets look ar metal archetypes. Metals are associated with the lungs and large intestine. When they are out of balance, it is usually caused by a state of overwhelm that results in retention of toxicity in the body, and/or respiratory system issues. Over long periods of time, symptoms can develop into more chronic conditions such as asthma and colon cancer.
When metals are out of balance, they reflect the restricting fire element, becoming scattered and distracted, or acting on every impulse. The way back into balance is to look toward the nourishing element, earth. Drawing attention back into their own center and creating balance in the world around them is imperative to restoring a metal's balance.
The water element is associated with kidneys and bladder. With this element, depletion is usually the cause of imbalance. Depleted kidney energy is considered by Chinese medicine to be the cause of all aging. This usually creates symptoms associated with kidneys, such as swelling and edema, lower back pain, decaying teeth, loss of hair, hearing loss, pain or injury in feet and legs, pelvic issues and reproductive system issues.
The water element out of balance will appear as a restricting earth element. Loss of the self in others-getting caught up in the emotional lives of others to the extent of losing ourselves; feeling powerless in life, and perceiving victimization all around are issues.
To restore balance, a water must turn to the nourishing element of Metal, and re-establish boundaries and attend to the details in order to restore balance.
Tomorrow is Saturday, and I will likely not be blogging again until Monday morning. Just in case-have a beautiful couple of days, enjoy the process (and the juices!)
Kachina
I want to be brave. I want to leap forward and begin the work that I have created for myself over the last few years. But, like a child I can't remember what my original passion was. I can't remember that thing that got me so excited that it motivated me to change the way I choose to create the life I was living before, the one that was safe and comfortable but passionless and full of uhggg. I am attempting to go back and visualize and remember what it is that I always dreamt about, what got me excited, how I wanted to fill my days? I'm too caught up in "the big picture" lets downsize and take it day by day, task by task. External opinions, judgements, masks and monsters mirror my fears back to me. "You can't make money doing what you're doing" "Get a job to support you on the side first" "Just do something, anything!"
It is a scary place to be being full on confronted by what you fear most by the people you love most who are simply doing their job of self-reflection. So yes I am scared because I don't know what any of this was for. I don't know how to take all that I've gathered and turn it into something beautiful that I can be proud of and inspired by. I don't know if this was simply an experience of the other end of the pendulum out of balance. From overworked to under-worked and now I have to find my way to a happy medium. Does that mean getting a job to support me while I attempt to follow my heart? Maybe. I know I have to be open to whatever it is that is meant to be but I also have to be willing to make something happen for myself in spite of the anxiety and fear I feel. So now I ask myself yet again "Where is your heart, what is it you want to create with all that you've gathered? Attempting to feel into my body for the answer, for the knowing of the next move. The only thing I'm sure of is I must silence the internal and external voices that reek shrilly of fear and urgency. For tomorrow is a myth and today is the gift so really all I need to ask myself is what can I do today? What can I do today? WHAT can I do today!?
It is a scary place to be being full on confronted by what you fear most by the people you love most who are simply doing their job of self-reflection. So yes I am scared because I don't know what any of this was for. I don't know how to take all that I've gathered and turn it into something beautiful that I can be proud of and inspired by. I don't know if this was simply an experience of the other end of the pendulum out of balance. From overworked to under-worked and now I have to find my way to a happy medium. Does that mean getting a job to support me while I attempt to follow my heart? Maybe. I know I have to be open to whatever it is that is meant to be but I also have to be willing to make something happen for myself in spite of the anxiety and fear I feel. So now I ask myself yet again "Where is your heart, what is it you want to create with all that you've gathered? Attempting to feel into my body for the answer, for the knowing of the next move. The only thing I'm sure of is I must silence the internal and external voices that reek shrilly of fear and urgency. For tomorrow is a myth and today is the gift so really all I need to ask myself is what can I do today? What can I do today? WHAT can I do today!?
back in my body
Hello 90-dayers,
just figuring this out the blog... Hi! Who's out there?!
I started my 90-day Jan 7 but later received guidance to join the blog. I am doing my last palace, the Health Wealth and Prosperity palace. I did a 2 week core fast then a 9 day juice fast. Then focussing on liver and kidney healing eating lots of hard dark leafy greens, seaweeds, juice, miso, soft round beans, vegetables, winter squash, less grains than usual and a few roots roots.
I have done a lot of guided ceremony since my 90-day started. I am doing a lot of work on my prana tube. My cat Leela told Rebecca that my prana tube has a disconnect at the heart and she was right! I guess she can stay. Kathryn found out I had a buried contract here. It turned out to be with my late husband. I have done a ceremony to acknowledge and express gratitude for his service, call an end to the contract and stated the intention that I choose to experience the full flow of prana energy now. Last night some angels told me I needed to nourish myself with a massage. Yes! I asked if it was with Linda Gill and I got yes. So today Linda helped me make a clear open connection and flow of prana.
OK, I posted. Now I hope to find all of you.
with love,
Liz
just figuring this out the blog... Hi! Who's out there?!
I started my 90-day Jan 7 but later received guidance to join the blog. I am doing my last palace, the Health Wealth and Prosperity palace. I did a 2 week core fast then a 9 day juice fast. Then focussing on liver and kidney healing eating lots of hard dark leafy greens, seaweeds, juice, miso, soft round beans, vegetables, winter squash, less grains than usual and a few roots roots.
I have done a lot of guided ceremony since my 90-day started. I am doing a lot of work on my prana tube. My cat Leela told Rebecca that my prana tube has a disconnect at the heart and she was right! I guess she can stay. Kathryn found out I had a buried contract here. It turned out to be with my late husband. I have done a ceremony to acknowledge and express gratitude for his service, call an end to the contract and stated the intention that I choose to experience the full flow of prana energy now. Last night some angels told me I needed to nourish myself with a massage. Yes! I asked if it was with Linda Gill and I got yes. So today Linda helped me make a clear open connection and flow of prana.
OK, I posted. Now I hope to find all of you.
with love,
Liz
Confessions from an old wooden desk…
You know those words that are written just a tad too hard? The ones indented on the surface, overlapping, just enough to make them out one by one but trying to put them together to make any sense is close to impossible? If you look close enough, that is my surface. Scarred from the past with words I can’t quite make out; emotions I can’t quite pin-point; memories I can’t quite remember. But they are there, scratches on my surface waiting to fade away with age or use or just forgotten about.
This is a hard place to be…to feel these things but not quite know where they all came from or what to do with them. Do I buff them out and hope not to lose originality? Re-surface and hide what was there? Sell out and find a more resilient surface that can “take it”? On the other hand, are these words what makes me, me? Original, creative, caring, self-driven, spiritual, loving, healing, understanding…
It is interesting because most days I don’t even know they are there. I am happy and satisfied in many aspects of my life. Comparatively, I feel more sane and collected then the majority of the people I am surrounded by in this crazy, beautiful world. But there is this tinge of self-doubt seeking approval…a tinge of non-forgiveness dug in, right there on the surface.
So I begin this journey with intentions to move forward. Past the scars of the past that prick my skin, past the self-doubt that circles my mind, past the un-forgiveness that brings water to my eyes. Through and past it all to come out on the other end with a renewed respect for the surfaces that make up who I am and what I represent.
My Palace focus is Relationship…I choose to heal my relationship with myself and with the ones closest to me that may hold a pencil from long ago. But it is not a time to point fingers with blame but to let it go and let it fade…with acknowledgement and time I move forward over the peaks and valleys of my surface to a serene comfortable place where the past is the past and the future is beautiful and full of light.
love and gratitude
Thank you to everyone for being part of this journey together.I also feel that I am connecting with everyone and seeing some aspects of myself through everyone's posts. I am really enjoying the core food fast. I am embracing and appreciating all the roots and juices more completely than ever before. I have enjoyed preparing my kitchen during this last week. I pulled out my pyramid w/ crystals and have used it to raise the life force of all that I am eating. I cleaned out my fridge and got rid of all things that tested below neutral. I am consciously making way for a powerful and healing 90 day journey.
I am taking the time to pray over all of my meals, giving thanks to the creator(my word), nature spirits, ancestors, etc.. I admire the roots, vegetables, fruits, herbs, and give thanks for all of their nutritional, medicinal, and lifeforce energy. I consciously ask that I be open and receptive to the nutritional, medicinal, emotional and spiritual benefits of each meal. I give thanks and love to my physical body as it is the only one I will have in this lifetime. I give thanks to my higher self, wisdom of my body, and my spirit guides. I also ask that I be connected more fully to my higher self.
I am further reminded of the beauty and importance that there is in prayer, ritual and ceremony. Thank you Kathryn, Michael, and everyone else for bringing this back into my life...
I am also beginning to peel the onion in my journal work. As I connect with the unity cd, my higher self, wisdom of my body, and spirit guides I am slowly starting to uncover the underlying truths. I have a difficult time letting go of and holding on to old wounds, judgement, guilt, and grudges. I am working on gratitude for all living things. For too many years I took the path of least resistance, afraid to rock the boat, realize my potential, or even take responsibility for my actions.
It is my intention that this journey will slowly unravel and dissolve my old patterns, beliefs, and emotional scar tissue (that are weighing me down)as I begin to lighten up and fill myself with love and gratitude.
In love and gratitude,
Blessing Willow
I am taking the time to pray over all of my meals, giving thanks to the creator(my word), nature spirits, ancestors, etc.. I admire the roots, vegetables, fruits, herbs, and give thanks for all of their nutritional, medicinal, and lifeforce energy. I consciously ask that I be open and receptive to the nutritional, medicinal, emotional and spiritual benefits of each meal. I give thanks and love to my physical body as it is the only one I will have in this lifetime. I give thanks to my higher self, wisdom of my body, and my spirit guides. I also ask that I be connected more fully to my higher self.
I am further reminded of the beauty and importance that there is in prayer, ritual and ceremony. Thank you Kathryn, Michael, and everyone else for bringing this back into my life...
I am also beginning to peel the onion in my journal work. As I connect with the unity cd, my higher self, wisdom of my body, and spirit guides I am slowly starting to uncover the underlying truths. I have a difficult time letting go of and holding on to old wounds, judgement, guilt, and grudges. I am working on gratitude for all living things. For too many years I took the path of least resistance, afraid to rock the boat, realize my potential, or even take responsibility for my actions.
It is my intention that this journey will slowly unravel and dissolve my old patterns, beliefs, and emotional scar tissue (that are weighing me down)as I begin to lighten up and fill myself with love and gratitude.
In love and gratitude,
Blessing Willow
An Amazing Four Days
Aloha Everyone,
I'm so grateful to be a part of this tremendous group. I'll keep my blog on the brief side, though a lot has happened for all of us these past four days. I must say in reading everyone's blog that I find parts of myself in most everyone's blog. Thank you very much to all of you for your sharing. As they say, the sum is greater than the sum of its parts. Don't think I said it quite right, but you know what I mean. This is going to be "BIG" for "ALL of US", for which I (we) am (are) most grateful!!!
Monday, I broke in my new juicer, opening a new world for myself. I love potatoes and the roots, so that is going well. It felt strange not to be taking my fist full of vitamin supplements, a habit of years. The next thought being, "wouldn't it be nice not to have to take all those supplements any longer???" What other habits of years do I need to reexamine?
Tuesday I joined K & M and Joni at 8:11 Hawaiian time, out on Kepuhi Beach, singing the Ancestor song (only one I know so far) to all that was around. Shortly thereafter while in my room, I ran back to the beach to see the humpback whales who appeared close to the shore. A mother humpback whale had given birth to her calf at this beach the previous week and they were back nursing. Was delightful watching mom roll on her side waving her long white flipper, as if to say hello. Later that day a ladybug appeared on my driver side car window as I was going to the post office to pick up Leslie's Earth weaving bundles, to be placed in sacred places around the Islands. I'm presently in Molokai, by myself, on my self healing journey.
Wednesday was our Intentions' day. Sunset is an important ceremonial time here in the Hawaiian Islands. Thus it was the time I chose to do my sacred intentions cedar fire ceremony. I
chose a secluded beach (not hard to find on this island), not far away. After welcoming everyone
and lighting the fire in the sand pit, surrounded by volcanic lava stones, reading and burning my intentions for our 90 day class, a gecko chirped, which it does when it hears truth. I was attending to my fire while I was once again singing the Ancestor song, tapping on the rocks with a tree stick, I glanced up from my fire to the sky and was totally amazed to see it filled with the Pleiadian cloud ships, the same as we observed at White Sage Landing last October. I gave great thanks for their attendance. The entire experience was deeply moving, to say the least, as is
our group experience of this class. My deepest thanks and appreciation to Kathryn and Michael and to all of you for what is to come from our tremendous group experience. Love and Blessings to All. With much Aloha, Annette/Golden Buffalo Heart
I'm so grateful to be a part of this tremendous group. I'll keep my blog on the brief side, though a lot has happened for all of us these past four days. I must say in reading everyone's blog that I find parts of myself in most everyone's blog. Thank you very much to all of you for your sharing. As they say, the sum is greater than the sum of its parts. Don't think I said it quite right, but you know what I mean. This is going to be "BIG" for "ALL of US", for which I (we) am (are) most grateful!!!
Monday, I broke in my new juicer, opening a new world for myself. I love potatoes and the roots, so that is going well. It felt strange not to be taking my fist full of vitamin supplements, a habit of years. The next thought being, "wouldn't it be nice not to have to take all those supplements any longer???" What other habits of years do I need to reexamine?
Tuesday I joined K & M and Joni at 8:11 Hawaiian time, out on Kepuhi Beach, singing the Ancestor song (only one I know so far) to all that was around. Shortly thereafter while in my room, I ran back to the beach to see the humpback whales who appeared close to the shore. A mother humpback whale had given birth to her calf at this beach the previous week and they were back nursing. Was delightful watching mom roll on her side waving her long white flipper, as if to say hello. Later that day a ladybug appeared on my driver side car window as I was going to the post office to pick up Leslie's Earth weaving bundles, to be placed in sacred places around the Islands. I'm presently in Molokai, by myself, on my self healing journey.
Wednesday was our Intentions' day. Sunset is an important ceremonial time here in the Hawaiian Islands. Thus it was the time I chose to do my sacred intentions cedar fire ceremony. I
chose a secluded beach (not hard to find on this island), not far away. After welcoming everyone
and lighting the fire in the sand pit, surrounded by volcanic lava stones, reading and burning my intentions for our 90 day class, a gecko chirped, which it does when it hears truth. I was attending to my fire while I was once again singing the Ancestor song, tapping on the rocks with a tree stick, I glanced up from my fire to the sky and was totally amazed to see it filled with the Pleiadian cloud ships, the same as we observed at White Sage Landing last October. I gave great thanks for their attendance. The entire experience was deeply moving, to say the least, as is
our group experience of this class. My deepest thanks and appreciation to Kathryn and Michael and to all of you for what is to come from our tremendous group experience. Love and Blessings to All. With much Aloha, Annette/Golden Buffalo Heart
Thursday, February 18
Metal, Wood, and Water
Today was a very full day!!! I meant to BLOG much earlier, but I am seeing that Thursdays might be a later BLOG for me.
I would like to say just a few words about the elements that we are working with, beginning with metal and water. These elements are inherited through our DNA. They are 50% of our pattern, the part that is carried in the physical vehicle we inhabit at birth.
Those with a metal elemental archetype have an oval shape to the face. These people inherit the assignment of developing boundaries in the physical world. They may draw experiences early in life where their personal boundaries are violated, creating the opportunity to heal these issues later in life. They (we) also have the ability to organize, and to break things down into the steps or parts necessary to understand. They are often teachers or embody some aspect of passing on knowledge to others, especially later in life. They walk between the worlds of water element and wood element, in the way that metals can spend some of their time accomplishing in the physical world, but they must balance that time with time doing nothing, just being, or focused on spiritual practice. Their energy dynamic is both inward and outward, balancing the flow out into the world with an alternate flow into the self. Metals can extend themselves, but must always take time to go inward and regenerate. If they do not learn to take time for themselves, they may go through cycles of hard work, then burn-out.
Water element types are rarely seen in our culture. The reason for this is that the water archetype is focused on one thing; just being. These are people whose energy flow is inward and downward. They are not here to accomplish something in the physical world. They are here to live a spiritual life, or a life of self development. In our culture, we find water people living way out in the wilderness on a Native American tribal reservation, most often. We find water element archetypes in Nepal or Tibet, in a monastery, living as a monk or initiate. Waters hold the connection to spirit for the whole of humanity. They hold space for all.
Wood element people are exactly the opposite, as far as energy flow. Wood energy is upward and outward. They are here to accomplish things in the physical world, to create, build, etc. Woods can often go and go and go, without seeming to need any time to go inward. The very act of doing nourishes them and keeps them going. They often go to work at an early age, sometimes drawing experiences early in life that challenge self esteem, or somehow inhibit the creative impulse, in order to heal this issue later in life. They might have issues of flexibility as well, being too rigid or too flexible until they find the balance point.
Tomorrow I will talk about Fire and Earth archetypes.
On a personal note, I am amazed at how many references I am reading about flying or turning into light in the dreamtime. This seems to be an undercurrent for many of us at this time.
I would also like to encourage those who have not yet picked up the talking stick. I want to remind everyone that we can say (write) absolutely anything that is on our minds here in this sacred space. This is our opportunity to speak, to receive attention, to be heard. When we step through that barrier and gather our courage, the heart is activated in a whole new way. It creates the environment for miracles to happen!
Love to each of you!
Kachina
I would like to say just a few words about the elements that we are working with, beginning with metal and water. These elements are inherited through our DNA. They are 50% of our pattern, the part that is carried in the physical vehicle we inhabit at birth.
Those with a metal elemental archetype have an oval shape to the face. These people inherit the assignment of developing boundaries in the physical world. They may draw experiences early in life where their personal boundaries are violated, creating the opportunity to heal these issues later in life. They (we) also have the ability to organize, and to break things down into the steps or parts necessary to understand. They are often teachers or embody some aspect of passing on knowledge to others, especially later in life. They walk between the worlds of water element and wood element, in the way that metals can spend some of their time accomplishing in the physical world, but they must balance that time with time doing nothing, just being, or focused on spiritual practice. Their energy dynamic is both inward and outward, balancing the flow out into the world with an alternate flow into the self. Metals can extend themselves, but must always take time to go inward and regenerate. If they do not learn to take time for themselves, they may go through cycles of hard work, then burn-out.
Water element types are rarely seen in our culture. The reason for this is that the water archetype is focused on one thing; just being. These are people whose energy flow is inward and downward. They are not here to accomplish something in the physical world. They are here to live a spiritual life, or a life of self development. In our culture, we find water people living way out in the wilderness on a Native American tribal reservation, most often. We find water element archetypes in Nepal or Tibet, in a monastery, living as a monk or initiate. Waters hold the connection to spirit for the whole of humanity. They hold space for all.
Wood element people are exactly the opposite, as far as energy flow. Wood energy is upward and outward. They are here to accomplish things in the physical world, to create, build, etc. Woods can often go and go and go, without seeming to need any time to go inward. The very act of doing nourishes them and keeps them going. They often go to work at an early age, sometimes drawing experiences early in life that challenge self esteem, or somehow inhibit the creative impulse, in order to heal this issue later in life. They might have issues of flexibility as well, being too rigid or too flexible until they find the balance point.
Tomorrow I will talk about Fire and Earth archetypes.
On a personal note, I am amazed at how many references I am reading about flying or turning into light in the dreamtime. This seems to be an undercurrent for many of us at this time.
I would also like to encourage those who have not yet picked up the talking stick. I want to remind everyone that we can say (write) absolutely anything that is on our minds here in this sacred space. This is our opportunity to speak, to receive attention, to be heard. When we step through that barrier and gather our courage, the heart is activated in a whole new way. It creates the environment for miracles to happen!
Love to each of you!
Kachina
Gratitude
Today, I am simply grateful for the mighty potato, for banana smoothies and for the essence of spring that has sprung up everywhere around me! Thank you thank you thank you!
Black Cats and Flying High*
OK, many, many amazing things are occurring on all around me! I want so badly to tell you all every little detail but for your sake I will try my hardest to sum it up into a fair amount of reading room as possible.
Where do I start?? I suppose I will start with my continuous dream that I have been having for the last few months, haha, I wont go that far back but I will tell you about the one I had last night THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE TO ME NOW. I don't often dream about people I don't know in this life time, these dreams all started off a few months ago when I dreamt about a Native elder named Eagle Woman, I don't know her in my current life time and didn't recognize her in my dream, it was only towards the end of my dream when a GIANT eagle flew over us than she revealed that she was Eagle Woman. She was here to teach us to fly. Not shape shift into birds, but to fly in our current physical form.
In every dream I get following that dream I get bits and pieces of more info, except last night I dreamt the same dream I dreamt last time. Do you follow? :)
To get to the point, this was the dream. Myself, Earth Song, and Lindsey888, Kachina333, Blue Thunder, Mist Walker and a bunch more people I had never met before (I know now that they are all of you) We were being led by Eagle Woman into this very sacred room. We were the "chosen ones" for this task.For some reason she never really spoke directly to us, always to our higher self's and she didn't speak English either, so it was kind of like, she was speaking... in some sort of higher dimensional language that had to be spoken to out higher self's for it to be translated for us to understand.
Anyhow, we had a ceremony and it was sooo amazing, I can STILL feel in my body how it felt in that room in my dream, strong vibration coming from our voices and bouncing off the walls back into our bodies,(very powerful and sacred words) it felt like extreme extacy It was amazing. Toward the end of our time in this room these beautiful crystals were brought out and placed on a wooden bench in frountof us, one by one a crystal picked it's person. We were guided to place our hands around there crystals in rount of out torso's, close our eyes and tune into the crystals. One by one we all began to lift off the ground and began to fly. Anytime one of us would get too high and begin to feel fear we would quickly be lowered to the ground and could not "fly" again until we transmuted that fear into complete TRUST and LOVE.... than once we were done we were guided to place the crystals back on the bench and exit the room. IT WAS SO AMAZING! As I am thinking about this dream again a I am feeling light and tingly all over my body. I thought I didn't know many of you but turns out that I know you better than most people that I "really know." This is such a very powerful and sacred group and we have such amazing energy together, I know we are all going to do great things...
Now for my encounter today! for those of you that don't know me personally, I am an extreme animal lover... to the extreme! I easily get caught up in the emotions of animals, wither it be sadness, neglect, death or anything of the sort, you name it and USUALLY it results in me sinking into a deeep empty depression. I am not a depressed person, really, I'm quite happy but if there is ONE THING that could do it, it's that. Any sort of negativity towards animals and I have the blues.
I have been working on this thanks to Kachina333 and her amazing teachings. ( THANK YOU!)
Long story short, I was driving to my sisters house today (Earth Song) cause we get together everyday to take out dogs on a walk and on the was I saw a black cat lying on the side of the road, obviously it had been hit by a car. In the past (even as of last week) I would have broke down on the spot crying hysterically, hyperventilating and having these sort of crazy out of body uncontrollable seizure like movements (crazy, I know) THIS TIME, I was completely calm!!!! (this is unheard of!) I pulled over, sat in my car and did a little ceremony for the cat's spirit (how Kachina333 had taught me) called on it's guides and people to come and help it to cross over, I got a BIG thank you, thank you, thank you! I was thrilled cause I really knew that I helped. I figured I did me job, so I started my car and began to drive only to find that this cat was in my car, sitting on my dash board and didn't seem to have any intention in leaving. Of course I didn't mind but naturally, I was curious as to why. This is the first time that I had had a ceremony and actually FELT like I did my job and helped the animal cross over so I was confused as to why she was hanging around. So I tuned in with her and asked " Is there anyting you would like to say, or ask?" and I just got another "THANK YOU"... so I said "you are very welcome"...... anyhow, she is STILL here with me?? I am going to go into my kiva right now to have a little ceremony for her and try to do come communicating to get to the bottom of this. Anyhow, it has been an amazing 4th day on this journey, I'm so happy to be sharing it with you all. :)
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Spirit Talker <3
p.s. I'm usually not this big of a talker, but I just had to share this!
Where do I start?? I suppose I will start with my continuous dream that I have been having for the last few months, haha, I wont go that far back but I will tell you about the one I had last night THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE TO ME NOW. I don't often dream about people I don't know in this life time, these dreams all started off a few months ago when I dreamt about a Native elder named Eagle Woman, I don't know her in my current life time and didn't recognize her in my dream, it was only towards the end of my dream when a GIANT eagle flew over us than she revealed that she was Eagle Woman. She was here to teach us to fly. Not shape shift into birds, but to fly in our current physical form.
In every dream I get following that dream I get bits and pieces of more info, except last night I dreamt the same dream I dreamt last time. Do you follow? :)
To get to the point, this was the dream. Myself, Earth Song, and Lindsey888, Kachina333, Blue Thunder, Mist Walker and a bunch more people I had never met before (I know now that they are all of you) We were being led by Eagle Woman into this very sacred room. We were the "chosen ones" for this task.For some reason she never really spoke directly to us, always to our higher self's and she didn't speak English either, so it was kind of like, she was speaking... in some sort of higher dimensional language that had to be spoken to out higher self's for it to be translated for us to understand.
Anyhow, we had a ceremony and it was sooo amazing, I can STILL feel in my body how it felt in that room in my dream, strong vibration coming from our voices and bouncing off the walls back into our bodies,(very powerful and sacred words) it felt like extreme extacy It was amazing. Toward the end of our time in this room these beautiful crystals were brought out and placed on a wooden bench in frountof us, one by one a crystal picked it's person. We were guided to place our hands around there crystals in rount of out torso's, close our eyes and tune into the crystals. One by one we all began to lift off the ground and began to fly. Anytime one of us would get too high and begin to feel fear we would quickly be lowered to the ground and could not "fly" again until we transmuted that fear into complete TRUST and LOVE.... than once we were done we were guided to place the crystals back on the bench and exit the room. IT WAS SO AMAZING! As I am thinking about this dream again a I am feeling light and tingly all over my body. I thought I didn't know many of you but turns out that I know you better than most people that I "really know." This is such a very powerful and sacred group and we have such amazing energy together, I know we are all going to do great things...
Now for my encounter today! for those of you that don't know me personally, I am an extreme animal lover... to the extreme! I easily get caught up in the emotions of animals, wither it be sadness, neglect, death or anything of the sort, you name it and USUALLY it results in me sinking into a deeep empty depression. I am not a depressed person, really, I'm quite happy but if there is ONE THING that could do it, it's that. Any sort of negativity towards animals and I have the blues.
I have been working on this thanks to Kachina333 and her amazing teachings. ( THANK YOU!)
Long story short, I was driving to my sisters house today (Earth Song) cause we get together everyday to take out dogs on a walk and on the was I saw a black cat lying on the side of the road, obviously it had been hit by a car. In the past (even as of last week) I would have broke down on the spot crying hysterically, hyperventilating and having these sort of crazy out of body uncontrollable seizure like movements (crazy, I know) THIS TIME, I was completely calm!!!! (this is unheard of!) I pulled over, sat in my car and did a little ceremony for the cat's spirit (how Kachina333 had taught me) called on it's guides and people to come and help it to cross over, I got a BIG thank you, thank you, thank you! I was thrilled cause I really knew that I helped. I figured I did me job, so I started my car and began to drive only to find that this cat was in my car, sitting on my dash board and didn't seem to have any intention in leaving. Of course I didn't mind but naturally, I was curious as to why. This is the first time that I had had a ceremony and actually FELT like I did my job and helped the animal cross over so I was confused as to why she was hanging around. So I tuned in with her and asked " Is there anyting you would like to say, or ask?" and I just got another "THANK YOU"... so I said "you are very welcome"...... anyhow, she is STILL here with me?? I am going to go into my kiva right now to have a little ceremony for her and try to do come communicating to get to the bottom of this. Anyhow, it has been an amazing 4th day on this journey, I'm so happy to be sharing it with you all. :)
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Spirit Talker <3
p.s. I'm usually not this big of a talker, but I just had to share this!
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