I am in transitions with the financial system, with financial security as I know it and have known it up to this point. It is an interesting and challenging place to be. I just recently recognized the process (I've been in it and in major denial for a year) that I am going through and since that realization have been able to relax a little more into the experiences that come with it.
I remember when I first began this self-inquiry journey 4 years ago the first step was to take back my personal healing power and let go of the western health care system. So I opted not to get heath insurance, whenever I get sick I recognize it as the bodies natural cleansing and use the tools and remedies that I have learned to assist in my healing process. I haven't been to a doctor or dentist in three years and feel amazing, as only I know what is best for me. I do recognize the value in these systems but feel there is an element of control and abuse that is predominant and participating in it wasn't the best choice for me.
Second, I had to let go of the education system and belief that the only way to create substantial success was to have a degree. Given how I was raised, I never really believed in that one anyway but there was a subconscious part of me that held onto a little bit of doubt. Ironically I was in my first month of college when I met Kathryn Sharp and upon that first meeting I decided to drop out of school and proceed to follow my feelings and learn and study from her. That was the beginning of the wild and crazy journey of the last 4 years. I've gone all over and studied with many amazing teacher, experienced amazing things, grown in incredible ways and above all I got to meet myself. Something I've never seen advertised for college educations.
Not all of these decision were well received by my parents but I was on a new path and part of the requirements was to look at all the tribal beliefs that I had been raised with and pick and choose which ones resonated with me and which ones I was willing to walk away from and then do it.
Now, I have moved on to the financial aspect. Which I have to say is the one that scares me the most and probably why I put it off for so long. I have $37.00 in the bank, that's all! No savings, no secret pile of cash in case of emergencies, nada. I am living on trust, since the guidance that has come in is still giving me a no on going back to work. I have been guided to begin taking steps to create the type of work I want when the time is right but for now I am to relax and trust in the process. BIG assignment, close to impossible.
I spent several months freaking out, up all night running lists of my expenses in my head and watching as my small security blanket shrunk away to nothing. Then what? What do I do now?
I stop and breath, I let go a little more and I realized I am here now. Today all my needs are met. I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, people who love me, food to eat, nature to walk in...what else do I need? Tomorrow I may have $0.00 in my account but I will still have all of those other things. So now until I am guided to the next step in regards to being self-sufficient, I walk in complete trust that any additional needs will be provided. I completely believe that and know that since I am listening I will be taken care of.
A huge shift has come in for me since beginning the 90 days in regards to my relationship with the financial system. And I am really feeling this trust that all will be okay and as I sink into that feeling more and more and express gratitude for what I have in this moment I am shown the support of the universe.
I have to let go of the beliefs that:
Having money makes me more valuable as a person.
Having money is the only way to feel safe and secure in life.
Having financial success is the only way to validate my integrity and quality of my work to the world.
That money will always be there in bulk, so to speak, if I am true to my path/heart.
Now I am seeing there is an ebb and flow to financial support. Sometimes its abundant sometimes not so much but that both places are safe and necessary. It is a great place to slow down and become centered and reevaluate personal choices, reconnect to the universe and ask for assistance.
I feel it has really allowed me to become more efficient in the way I live and to live more simply.
It is also a very humbling place to be, asking and accepting assistance from others, being open and willing to receive support in whichever way it comes, is probably the hardest part for me.
I (up to this point) was of the mentality "I am a woman hear me roar!" In other words I can take care of myself and don't need help from anyone! I had to prove myself and now I am learning that it is beneficial to both give and receive and to find the balance in those two acts. And also knowing that accepting assistance doesn't make you weak but that there is a powerful energy exchange in both the act of giving and the act of receiving. Side note, this time around I am working on the prosperity and wealth channels, coincidence? Working through my financial fears is a HUGE piece for me!
So for today I give gratitude for the nature spirits, the snow, oatmeal, friends and family, the 90 day process and group, my cozy bed, yoga and gift of this earth walk and all the lessons, initiations and blessings that come with. I, with all of my soul and being, believe that I create my reality so for today I am abundant!
Wednesday, March 10
Shifts
I am here at my 7 day advanced animal communication class with Carol Gurney, an expert in the field. Carol is a great instructor, very professional, and requires us to get tons of validation and confirmation, which is both terrifying (in case we get things wrong) and unbelievably amazing (when we get things right). I am having an amazing time! Like I mentioned, Carol is very professional, deliberating staying away from "woo-woo words" when she teaches (chakras, psychic, etc.) because she feels none of those words are pertinent to talking with animals, and I have to agree with her. Not that Carol doesn't believe in them, she just uses discernment when interacting with a group. Amazingly, even people who are open to talking with animals may not believe in energy and so forth. With all this being said, I was fascinated to learn yesterday that she uses dowsing extensively in her practice but doesn't share that information with her clients. She uses it only for body scanning after actually talking to an animal, but still! I was so excited to learn that, which was just another confirmation for me about that part of my life. Also, she mentioned that if we were interested, she has a friend who hosts a "very safe" sweat lodge! Who knew? She is a professional business woman, very "type A" and scientific, and I never would have guessed. I have been getting validations everywhere about what Michael and Kathryn have taught me.
I have noticed changes in myself since being here. I would say that I am out of my typical comfort zone, traveling or being in a group without at least one of my sisters with me. I knew no one when I came here, and I have found myself interacting very differently with people than I would have thought. I am normally kind of shy and reserved when I don't know people, but that doesn't seem to be the case anymore (yay!). I find myself approaching the other women and am truly interested in them, and have made some good friends. I have also noticed that I am much less attached to what others think of me than I ever have been in the past, which means that I am not afraid to be who I am. I attribute all of this to this 90 day journey. The changes might sound subtle, but they are huge for me!
Finally, there is an observation that I have made since being here. Actually, I can't tell if it is an observation or a judgement. Either way, I am in a group of women, most of whom are quite conscious and aware of "things" (hypnotherapists, Reiki masters, etc.). My observation is that most don't seem to be aware of the high-frequency food part of life, the part that Kathryn teaches. There is one girl who has been a vegan for 26 years, which is great, but I sense a depletion in her. Many others have health issues left and right, and are trying to be health conscious but perhaps don't have the correct info? It's just interesting, and I am seeing a real need for this type (Core Foods) of information in the world. It is truly unique information.
Today, some friends and I are going to Malibu Beach, which is where I am sensing the programmed crystal is going to be placed. Thank goodness, because there is nothing but concrete around here and I was beginning to wonder. In light, Earth Song
I have noticed changes in myself since being here. I would say that I am out of my typical comfort zone, traveling or being in a group without at least one of my sisters with me. I knew no one when I came here, and I have found myself interacting very differently with people than I would have thought. I am normally kind of shy and reserved when I don't know people, but that doesn't seem to be the case anymore (yay!). I find myself approaching the other women and am truly interested in them, and have made some good friends. I have also noticed that I am much less attached to what others think of me than I ever have been in the past, which means that I am not afraid to be who I am. I attribute all of this to this 90 day journey. The changes might sound subtle, but they are huge for me!
Finally, there is an observation that I have made since being here. Actually, I can't tell if it is an observation or a judgement. Either way, I am in a group of women, most of whom are quite conscious and aware of "things" (hypnotherapists, Reiki masters, etc.). My observation is that most don't seem to be aware of the high-frequency food part of life, the part that Kathryn teaches. There is one girl who has been a vegan for 26 years, which is great, but I sense a depletion in her. Many others have health issues left and right, and are trying to be health conscious but perhaps don't have the correct info? It's just interesting, and I am seeing a real need for this type (Core Foods) of information in the world. It is truly unique information.
Today, some friends and I are going to Malibu Beach, which is where I am sensing the programmed crystal is going to be placed. Thank goodness, because there is nothing but concrete around here and I was beginning to wonder. In light, Earth Song
Watching the Play of Energy
It is amazing spending just a few days with my original family, and getting to observe the ways that the family members use and dance with energy. I get to see the places where attention was (and still is) focused, the lenses and perspectives that were cultivated as I was growing up and forming my foundation for this life.
I had no idea how much I would learn about myself through visiting the family during the 90 day program. I have come to appreciate the gifts that came through this formative process so much more thnt I had in the past. I am realizing now how much of my experience has been colored by my own choices, even as child. It is all about what I chose inside the blue circle, even if my choices were unconscious at the time.
I can see other family members repeating the same unconscious patterns and how much power the group pattern has held over this family. Even when you can see the pattern clearly, it is a challenge to maintain consciousness when "submersed" in it. I am blessed with a second set of eyes and ears, through Blew Thunder, who can gently inform me when I begin to fall asleep-telling me that my body posture has changed, my head is being held differently, I am speaking or acting different from myself. These are clues for when I am beginning to go unconscious in the family pattern.
Today I setting the intention to stay fully conscious and present in all situations with family members. All my interactions come from love, truth, awareness and choice. I will let you know how this goes for me today. It feels like diving into a pool of black water where no one can see each other, and trying to communicate. And underneath the gummy black opacity are six powerful people who deeply desire to love each other. They (we) just have not figured out how to do so, or what that really means in this lifetime.
In the past I have energetically protected myself and stayed out of the black zone, just observing the play of energy without getting emotionally involved in their messy games. It was the only way I could stay in integrity and in my blue circle.
This time feels different. It is still like wearing a mask, since they can not share in the largest part of my life, care not to know about personal or planetary ascension, and are stubbornly attached to the family roles. But this time it feels as though none of that matters, and the guides keep telling me that there is a real silver lining opportunity here if I am willing to stay present through each moment.
Walk in Beauty
I had no idea how much I would learn about myself through visiting the family during the 90 day program. I have come to appreciate the gifts that came through this formative process so much more thnt I had in the past. I am realizing now how much of my experience has been colored by my own choices, even as child. It is all about what I chose inside the blue circle, even if my choices were unconscious at the time.
I can see other family members repeating the same unconscious patterns and how much power the group pattern has held over this family. Even when you can see the pattern clearly, it is a challenge to maintain consciousness when "submersed" in it. I am blessed with a second set of eyes and ears, through Blew Thunder, who can gently inform me when I begin to fall asleep-telling me that my body posture has changed, my head is being held differently, I am speaking or acting different from myself. These are clues for when I am beginning to go unconscious in the family pattern.
Today I setting the intention to stay fully conscious and present in all situations with family members. All my interactions come from love, truth, awareness and choice. I will let you know how this goes for me today. It feels like diving into a pool of black water where no one can see each other, and trying to communicate. And underneath the gummy black opacity are six powerful people who deeply desire to love each other. They (we) just have not figured out how to do so, or what that really means in this lifetime.
In the past I have energetically protected myself and stayed out of the black zone, just observing the play of energy without getting emotionally involved in their messy games. It was the only way I could stay in integrity and in my blue circle.
This time feels different. It is still like wearing a mask, since they can not share in the largest part of my life, care not to know about personal or planetary ascension, and are stubbornly attached to the family roles. But this time it feels as though none of that matters, and the guides keep telling me that there is a real silver lining opportunity here if I am willing to stay present through each moment.
Walk in Beauty
Tuesday, March 9
And the path continues
I have talked of the transition to my womb name, as this journey carries me along so does the integration of myself in so many ways beyond the name. I went to see Alice in Wonderland a couple of days ago. I sat there absorbing the storyline along with the amazing graphics and giggled at the humor of everything representing my life as it unfolds. They kept asking her if she was THE Alice and she kept saying she was, it was her dream and she had to be the one, then they told her she wasn't or that she could be. In the end She remembered herself THE Alice through letting go of what she believed to be true or at least that is how I interpreted the story. Hmm, feels a little familiar.
I have been sitting with the notion of calling my mother to talk about changing my name, telling myself it's no big deal but not getting the courage to do it. Yesterday was a big oil day for me with courage, integration, acknowledgement, release and action. Then a great journal of answering two questions.
How has my relationship with my mother affected the development of the feminine side of me? How has the relationship with my father affected the development of the masculine side of me?
I have done a great deal of inner child work with both parents and the extra dads in my life. Nothing has healed this deep or this great before and it was simple, I answered the questions with clear conscious truth, no victimization or anger left and what came out was a clear understanding of truth that I needed and a true forgiveness for myself and my life. Whew...
Today I picked up the phone and called my mother and just asked her how she felt about me changing my name. I giggle again. Every time I ever spoke about my name or the dislike of my name she was defensive and unwilling to hear any of it. In the unfolding of this name change, I realized that because my mother changed my name after birth to get revenge of my father, that I have been the holder of that pain for both of them. This phone call today was something very different. My mother lovingly and calmly said, that is a wonderful idea, I love the name Michelle, it is beautiful and the reason I gave it to you. It should have been your name all along. I support you doing whatever you need to do. I smiled and just said thank you and absorbed all of the love she had to give.
Tonight I dowsed for completion. The journey with this oil brought me to childhood, on Santa Cruz beach boardwalk, I could smell salt water taffy and see the machine pulling it as I watched through the store window, I felt myself running in the sand on the beach and laughing. Then it took me to a warm fire with the smell of Christmas and playing in the fresh snow.
I feel renewed inside and a little brighter with light. I know that it's time to finish the meditation that I could only start a couple of days ago. I am now ready to stay and be present for the rest. As I was greeted by Thoth, he looked down and said to me , "you are doing a great job", I just started crying and left.
Gratitude to ALL and to all of you for listening. With great heart radiating love, Michelle
I have been sitting with the notion of calling my mother to talk about changing my name, telling myself it's no big deal but not getting the courage to do it. Yesterday was a big oil day for me with courage, integration, acknowledgement, release and action. Then a great journal of answering two questions.
How has my relationship with my mother affected the development of the feminine side of me? How has the relationship with my father affected the development of the masculine side of me?
I have done a great deal of inner child work with both parents and the extra dads in my life. Nothing has healed this deep or this great before and it was simple, I answered the questions with clear conscious truth, no victimization or anger left and what came out was a clear understanding of truth that I needed and a true forgiveness for myself and my life. Whew...
Today I picked up the phone and called my mother and just asked her how she felt about me changing my name. I giggle again. Every time I ever spoke about my name or the dislike of my name she was defensive and unwilling to hear any of it. In the unfolding of this name change, I realized that because my mother changed my name after birth to get revenge of my father, that I have been the holder of that pain for both of them. This phone call today was something very different. My mother lovingly and calmly said, that is a wonderful idea, I love the name Michelle, it is beautiful and the reason I gave it to you. It should have been your name all along. I support you doing whatever you need to do. I smiled and just said thank you and absorbed all of the love she had to give.
Tonight I dowsed for completion. The journey with this oil brought me to childhood, on Santa Cruz beach boardwalk, I could smell salt water taffy and see the machine pulling it as I watched through the store window, I felt myself running in the sand on the beach and laughing. Then it took me to a warm fire with the smell of Christmas and playing in the fresh snow.
I feel renewed inside and a little brighter with light. I know that it's time to finish the meditation that I could only start a couple of days ago. I am now ready to stay and be present for the rest. As I was greeted by Thoth, he looked down and said to me , "you are doing a great job", I just started crying and left.
Gratitude to ALL and to all of you for listening. With great heart radiating love, Michelle
Monday, March 8
Welcome to the South
My affirmations came n a different form than I expected. I had done the process through the East, examining and creating affirmations. Then, just a few days ago, my affirmations came in like a lightening bolt from another dimension!
Now I get to program these affirmations for the duration of the South direction. I know from the past how powerful this process is. I know from experience that even if my affirmations seem doubtful or overly ambitious, if I suspend all doubt just for the few moments it takes to repeat them into the mirror-into my own eyes, every morning- that they WILL miraculously come into manifestation in their own divine timing.
I want to share some of my experience of this day. Today, Blew Thunder and I left our home at White Sage Landing, in the midst of a snow storm, and headed south in pure trust. We drove through sleet and fog, snow piled 5 feet high in Flagstaff, through Strawberry and Payson, to arrive in Mesa Arizona to visit my birth family. Heading South, we encountered so many conditions that could have turned us back. But we had set clear intentions for a safe and successful journey, and we both felt that we were to drive on.
When we passed Flagstaff, in the outskirts of town, we went past an exit. The exit number was 333, and the street name on the sign was Kachina. It was Kachina 333! I really dropped my jaw on that one. Since the exit was marked twice, we got to see it twice just in case we did not beloieve it the first time.
As we pulled out of Payson and began to drop into the valley, leaving the snow behind, we started to see the most beautiful purple flowers-desert lupine-blooming on the roadsides. They were interspersed with a yellow flower that resembled a daisy. There were streams of water running through the desert for miles, and waterfalls tumbling down every rock face and canyon wall that we passed. It was a sight that has not been seen in these parts for a long, long time. And everywhere, new fresh green grass was pushing up. Huge saguaro cactuses surrounded by a carpet of green grass. It was like looking at a vast miracle growing on Mother Earth.
I keep hearing the spirits of the land reminding me about the personal part I played, along with 12 people who visited in October, doing the intentional planetary healing for the Anasazi and the local area. They keep telling me it is all connected, and I should not limit the correlation with my mind. We helped to bring forth this reality. If we can do it here, we can do it anywhere on Mother Earth. The Mayan Age of Flowers can become a reality, and it is up to us to co-create it!
I am thankful to be a part of the regeneration of this shining planet. I am thankful for helping to weave the web of life, to bring forth the new dream. And I am thankful for all of you who are doing your own personal work to live the dream.
Kachina
Now I get to program these affirmations for the duration of the South direction. I know from the past how powerful this process is. I know from experience that even if my affirmations seem doubtful or overly ambitious, if I suspend all doubt just for the few moments it takes to repeat them into the mirror-into my own eyes, every morning- that they WILL miraculously come into manifestation in their own divine timing.
I want to share some of my experience of this day. Today, Blew Thunder and I left our home at White Sage Landing, in the midst of a snow storm, and headed south in pure trust. We drove through sleet and fog, snow piled 5 feet high in Flagstaff, through Strawberry and Payson, to arrive in Mesa Arizona to visit my birth family. Heading South, we encountered so many conditions that could have turned us back. But we had set clear intentions for a safe and successful journey, and we both felt that we were to drive on.
When we passed Flagstaff, in the outskirts of town, we went past an exit. The exit number was 333, and the street name on the sign was Kachina. It was Kachina 333! I really dropped my jaw on that one. Since the exit was marked twice, we got to see it twice just in case we did not beloieve it the first time.
As we pulled out of Payson and began to drop into the valley, leaving the snow behind, we started to see the most beautiful purple flowers-desert lupine-blooming on the roadsides. They were interspersed with a yellow flower that resembled a daisy. There were streams of water running through the desert for miles, and waterfalls tumbling down every rock face and canyon wall that we passed. It was a sight that has not been seen in these parts for a long, long time. And everywhere, new fresh green grass was pushing up. Huge saguaro cactuses surrounded by a carpet of green grass. It was like looking at a vast miracle growing on Mother Earth.
I keep hearing the spirits of the land reminding me about the personal part I played, along with 12 people who visited in October, doing the intentional planetary healing for the Anasazi and the local area. They keep telling me it is all connected, and I should not limit the correlation with my mind. We helped to bring forth this reality. If we can do it here, we can do it anywhere on Mother Earth. The Mayan Age of Flowers can become a reality, and it is up to us to co-create it!
I am thankful to be a part of the regeneration of this shining planet. I am thankful for helping to weave the web of life, to bring forth the new dream. And I am thankful for all of you who are doing your own personal work to live the dream.
Kachina
Talking trees and the Enchanted forest
Today I took mine and my sisters dogs on a walk. She is out of town and thought I LOVE and look so forward everyday to our daily walks/talks together, there is something magical about my walks I have been taking alone lately, with the dogs.
Today our walk was amazing, it was warm, sunny and snowing very lightly, it looked like little crystals falling from the sky. On our walk yesterday, it was a little windy out so when we got to the section of our walk that is a big open field, the show had blown over our compacted path, the whole field was smooth and flawless,and covered in 'diamonds.' The sun was hitting the snow perfectly so that light pink and blue pastel-y colors were reflecting off the snow, it seemed like heaven... aside from the fact that we had to create a new path in which the snow was mid-thigh... needless to say the pups were exhausted by the end of it, as was I! This is a football field after all, very big. I was sure before we set out on our adventure around this field to create another path that I had walked this field so many times before that I KNEW I would stumble across the old path under neath the new snow and from there on the walk would be a breeze. Well, the old path was no where to be found! I could help but to laugh hysterically with how much work this was and just how deep each and EVERY step was. after 30 feet or so of walking, the dogs were even looking at me like "MOM! are you kidding me, you didn't think this through did you?" it was quite the journey, to say the least. The snow was practically over their heads, which isn't that hard to be, my dogs aren't THAT tall, and Toby the tiniest of them all insisted I carry him, he really dosnt weigh much but he seemed like 100lbs having to carry him through that.
It turned out to be lots of fun, I choose to believe that we all laughed the whole way through it, perhaps out of frustration, but also out of thrill and the adventure of it!
We got back on the path through the forest and when we were about 5 minutes to the end, the tree to my right spoke! she said "kreeeeeeek!" in a high pitch. I stoped in my tracks to listen and she did it again, the second I acknowledged her, the tree to my left spoke as well only in a much deeper pitch, than they all started talking! They all had such different sounds. I looked around to take note of the weather, perhaps the wind was blowing them and making them make these noises, but nope,no wind, none! I looked around thinking "this is amazing!".... "what are you saying?" I pulled out some corn and rose petals and gave mucho gratitude. I could feel hot tingling in my solar plexus, it was pretty cool. But I am stumped now because... I have never really talked to a tree before. With animals it was a bit easier because I could go home and pull the animal card and read about the message this certain animal brings, but trees?? I don't have tree cards.. There were clearly talking to me, I'm not delusional, I walk that path EVERYDAY and they never have don't that before, but I am determined to get to the bottom on this.
Of course my natural reaction is "make an appointment with Kathryn and ask her what they were trying to tell me." or "wright EarthSong and tell her my story and see what she has to say about this"
but this time,I think this is for me and for me alone, I don't want to always have to ask someone to explain these experiences I am having, even if I don't get the message right away... I have to get it eventually, right? YES!
It really was a beautiful experience and I couldn't help but to feel very flattered.
These trees are so beautiful and wise and I would love to learn from them.
THANK YOU TREE PEOPLE.
Today our walk was amazing, it was warm, sunny and snowing very lightly, it looked like little crystals falling from the sky. On our walk yesterday, it was a little windy out so when we got to the section of our walk that is a big open field, the show had blown over our compacted path, the whole field was smooth and flawless,and covered in 'diamonds.' The sun was hitting the snow perfectly so that light pink and blue pastel-y colors were reflecting off the snow, it seemed like heaven... aside from the fact that we had to create a new path in which the snow was mid-thigh... needless to say the pups were exhausted by the end of it, as was I! This is a football field after all, very big. I was sure before we set out on our adventure around this field to create another path that I had walked this field so many times before that I KNEW I would stumble across the old path under neath the new snow and from there on the walk would be a breeze. Well, the old path was no where to be found! I could help but to laugh hysterically with how much work this was and just how deep each and EVERY step was. after 30 feet or so of walking, the dogs were even looking at me like "MOM! are you kidding me, you didn't think this through did you?" it was quite the journey, to say the least. The snow was practically over their heads, which isn't that hard to be, my dogs aren't THAT tall, and Toby the tiniest of them all insisted I carry him, he really dosnt weigh much but he seemed like 100lbs having to carry him through that.
It turned out to be lots of fun, I choose to believe that we all laughed the whole way through it, perhaps out of frustration, but also out of thrill and the adventure of it!
We got back on the path through the forest and when we were about 5 minutes to the end, the tree to my right spoke! she said "kreeeeeeek!" in a high pitch. I stoped in my tracks to listen and she did it again, the second I acknowledged her, the tree to my left spoke as well only in a much deeper pitch, than they all started talking! They all had such different sounds. I looked around to take note of the weather, perhaps the wind was blowing them and making them make these noises, but nope,no wind, none! I looked around thinking "this is amazing!".... "what are you saying?" I pulled out some corn and rose petals and gave mucho gratitude. I could feel hot tingling in my solar plexus, it was pretty cool. But I am stumped now because... I have never really talked to a tree before. With animals it was a bit easier because I could go home and pull the animal card and read about the message this certain animal brings, but trees?? I don't have tree cards.. There were clearly talking to me, I'm not delusional, I walk that path EVERYDAY and they never have don't that before, but I am determined to get to the bottom on this.
Of course my natural reaction is "make an appointment with Kathryn and ask her what they were trying to tell me." or "wright EarthSong and tell her my story and see what she has to say about this"
but this time,I think this is for me and for me alone, I don't want to always have to ask someone to explain these experiences I am having, even if I don't get the message right away... I have to get it eventually, right? YES!
It really was a beautiful experience and I couldn't help but to feel very flattered.
These trees are so beautiful and wise and I would love to learn from them.
THANK YOU TREE PEOPLE.
next phase, step one.
I have taken my first active step in sharing myself, my truth and my passion aka heart with the world!
Over the last 4 years as I explored and cultivated my inner voice and knowing, got back in touch with my spirit and reclaimed my soul. I have cleverly disguised myself as a massage therapist, which was perfect for that phase of my process. But now the depth of my true work and desire to be of service in this transitioning world has grown so much. My call to teach and share all that I have learned and all that I know and all that I remember is burning inside and I am no longer able to hide behind my cleaver disguise.
Since beginning the 90 day journey I have been dreaming of my real work. Every night I close my eyes and find myself surrounded by people looking at me, waiting and anticipating. My heart surges with joy and aha as I take people through Kathryn's amazing Core foods workshop, I share my knowledge of yoga and body awareness exercises, I teach only that which I live and through that I honor my heart and integrity.
My latest dream gave me an assignment to begin the ripple effect of attracting the next steps to move closer to bring these night dreams into the daytime.
I was instructed to make a new business card, one that would read:
Food as Medicine
Lindsey Meyers
Nutritional Consultations &
Dowsing for Healing and Regeneration
(ordered them today)
I also set up a new email account: Foodasmedicine88@gmail.com
The information that came in said that as long as I give out my old business cards that read massage therapy I would continue to attract clients for massage and of the vibration that I was when I began my work in massage.
The new business cards hold my new vibration and essence and will draw to me the most beneficial clients, experiences and opportunities that I am calling forth now to continue the evolution of my growth and life's work and to fulfill my desire to be of assistance to mother earth and the people of this planet during this transitional phase.
Also, my final affirmations that came in as I came into the completion of the east were;
I am open to the evolution of my work, life-purpose, relationships and hobbies to flow, change and evolve in right timing with grace and ease.
I remain centered and rooted in my personal power.
I am in self-referral
I am going to Bethel next week to do my last series of massage with the clients that I established there, while I am out there I am bringing fliers for the up coming core foods class, that Rebecca and I will be co-teaching and the healing cancer from within video so that people can begin to fulfill the prerequisite for the workshop. In a nut shell "putting my true self out there"
I can feel that just the shift in my intention of what I am desiring to create is already creating and aligning huge synchronises to occur and unfold!
You cannot transmute something you do not have. The ability to be present as a teacher is a reflection of ones own life practices. Know yourself first, then you will intuitively see how you can be of benefit to others.
In honor of entering the South...I begin taking action in the world!
Gratitude Gratitude Gratitude
Over the last 4 years as I explored and cultivated my inner voice and knowing, got back in touch with my spirit and reclaimed my soul. I have cleverly disguised myself as a massage therapist, which was perfect for that phase of my process. But now the depth of my true work and desire to be of service in this transitioning world has grown so much. My call to teach and share all that I have learned and all that I know and all that I remember is burning inside and I am no longer able to hide behind my cleaver disguise.
Since beginning the 90 day journey I have been dreaming of my real work. Every night I close my eyes and find myself surrounded by people looking at me, waiting and anticipating. My heart surges with joy and aha as I take people through Kathryn's amazing Core foods workshop, I share my knowledge of yoga and body awareness exercises, I teach only that which I live and through that I honor my heart and integrity.
My latest dream gave me an assignment to begin the ripple effect of attracting the next steps to move closer to bring these night dreams into the daytime.
I was instructed to make a new business card, one that would read:
Food as Medicine
Lindsey Meyers
Nutritional Consultations &
Dowsing for Healing and Regeneration
(ordered them today)
I also set up a new email account: Foodasmedicine88@gmail.com
The information that came in said that as long as I give out my old business cards that read massage therapy I would continue to attract clients for massage and of the vibration that I was when I began my work in massage.
The new business cards hold my new vibration and essence and will draw to me the most beneficial clients, experiences and opportunities that I am calling forth now to continue the evolution of my growth and life's work and to fulfill my desire to be of assistance to mother earth and the people of this planet during this transitional phase.
Also, my final affirmations that came in as I came into the completion of the east were;
I am open to the evolution of my work, life-purpose, relationships and hobbies to flow, change and evolve in right timing with grace and ease.
I remain centered and rooted in my personal power.
I am in self-referral
I am going to Bethel next week to do my last series of massage with the clients that I established there, while I am out there I am bringing fliers for the up coming core foods class, that Rebecca and I will be co-teaching and the healing cancer from within video so that people can begin to fulfill the prerequisite for the workshop. In a nut shell "putting my true self out there"
I can feel that just the shift in my intention of what I am desiring to create is already creating and aligning huge synchronises to occur and unfold!
You cannot transmute something you do not have. The ability to be present as a teacher is a reflection of ones own life practices. Know yourself first, then you will intuitively see how you can be of benefit to others.
In honor of entering the South...I begin taking action in the world!
Gratitude Gratitude Gratitude
Life Purpose
I was driving to work today listening to Thich Nhat Hanh's the Art of Mindful Living and had an epiphany of sorts. I know I want to help others, you all know that from some of my other posts, but while listening to him I realized how. I want to counsel people, either one on one or in groups on how to manage their emotions through the use of meditation or spiritual practices (whatever that may be to them) and psychologically through standard means of therapeutic counseling.
I would like to incorporate healthy eating suggestions (I am already a Certified Health Coach through the Institute of Integrative Nutrition)and maybe even a bit of Yoga therapy. Phew! This is a lot to think about right now and maybe it does not even make sense but that is what came rushing at me today. I think all those things flow well together, but you don't always see them used together to help people heal. Many earth based religions/beliefs incorporate aspects of what I am thinking, but I want to combine them and make them accessible and accepted in this modern world by pairing them up with the standard view of a psychological therapist.
I have always been interested in the mind and how we handle our emotions and people always come to me for "help" when they are experiencing problems in their lives...so why not make it a life! I already do it all the time. Talk about obvious...
I am not quite sure HOW I am going to do this just yet. I do love my job now (I am a director at an art & music center which is greatly rewarding and creative) so I guess I need to think about the logistics of creating this dream...
...to be continued
...thank you for listening.
I would like to incorporate healthy eating suggestions (I am already a Certified Health Coach through the Institute of Integrative Nutrition)and maybe even a bit of Yoga therapy. Phew! This is a lot to think about right now and maybe it does not even make sense but that is what came rushing at me today. I think all those things flow well together, but you don't always see them used together to help people heal. Many earth based religions/beliefs incorporate aspects of what I am thinking, but I want to combine them and make them accessible and accepted in this modern world by pairing them up with the standard view of a psychological therapist.
I have always been interested in the mind and how we handle our emotions and people always come to me for "help" when they are experiencing problems in their lives...so why not make it a life! I already do it all the time. Talk about obvious...
I am not quite sure HOW I am going to do this just yet. I do love my job now (I am a director at an art & music center which is greatly rewarding and creative) so I guess I need to think about the logistics of creating this dream...
...to be continued
...thank you for listening.
Sunday, March 7
Miracles and Milestones
Dear friends,
I arrived at my hotel in California at 4 am this morning, and my class, which I wanted to be so clear and present for, started at 9 am. I am the type of person who needs at least 7-8 hours of sleep each night in order to feel my best, anything less than that usually throws off my whole day. I was upset that I was going to be so, so tired and feel terrible for my class today, but I went to bed thanking the Universe for infusing every cell in my body with so much energy that when I woke up, it felt like I had had 8 hours of sleep, along with imagining waking up this morning refreshed and clear. I hardly believed this, because 4 hours of sleep is unimaginable for me. I am amazed and elated to report that I had an almost-perfect day today as far as energy goes. I still can't believe this-it is a miracle to me.
Even more exciting is that I was able to speak in front of a group this morning calmly and comfortably, for the first time ever. I normally dread introducing myself to a group of people who I don't know. I am very uncomfortable being the center of attention, and never have a clue what to say about myself-this has always been a big issue for me. Knowing months ago that this part of my class was inevitable and being very uncomfortable with it, I decided to commit to using my pendulum (with certain guides working through it) to clear all energies/memories in my subconscious mind, cellular memory, or energy field that might be contributing to this fear. The pendulum worked first on past-life issues (I dowsed each day for about 10-15 minutes for a few weeks), and then on current-life issues, which were reduced pretty dramatically but still not completely clear. Today was the ultimate test for me to see if it worked, and it did! I am so amazed, and filled with gratitude for my guides who helped me with this. This will change my life, as the main thing holding me back from many of my dreams is speaking in front of others. I am so proud of myself, and amazed with the power of dowsing!
Finally, before I left Anchorage, the lights in my house started flashing on and off, my signal that someone has a message for me. I was asked to bring a crystal to be planted somewhere in California with the program to "create shift through synchronicity, fulfillment, and desire." I will be placing that crystal somewhere here, along with honoring the spirits of the land where ever I go. Goodnight, and thanks for listening. -Earth Song.
I arrived at my hotel in California at 4 am this morning, and my class, which I wanted to be so clear and present for, started at 9 am. I am the type of person who needs at least 7-8 hours of sleep each night in order to feel my best, anything less than that usually throws off my whole day. I was upset that I was going to be so, so tired and feel terrible for my class today, but I went to bed thanking the Universe for infusing every cell in my body with so much energy that when I woke up, it felt like I had had 8 hours of sleep, along with imagining waking up this morning refreshed and clear. I hardly believed this, because 4 hours of sleep is unimaginable for me. I am amazed and elated to report that I had an almost-perfect day today as far as energy goes. I still can't believe this-it is a miracle to me.
Even more exciting is that I was able to speak in front of a group this morning calmly and comfortably, for the first time ever. I normally dread introducing myself to a group of people who I don't know. I am very uncomfortable being the center of attention, and never have a clue what to say about myself-this has always been a big issue for me. Knowing months ago that this part of my class was inevitable and being very uncomfortable with it, I decided to commit to using my pendulum (with certain guides working through it) to clear all energies/memories in my subconscious mind, cellular memory, or energy field that might be contributing to this fear. The pendulum worked first on past-life issues (I dowsed each day for about 10-15 minutes for a few weeks), and then on current-life issues, which were reduced pretty dramatically but still not completely clear. Today was the ultimate test for me to see if it worked, and it did! I am so amazed, and filled with gratitude for my guides who helped me with this. This will change my life, as the main thing holding me back from many of my dreams is speaking in front of others. I am so proud of myself, and amazed with the power of dowsing!
Finally, before I left Anchorage, the lights in my house started flashing on and off, my signal that someone has a message for me. I was asked to bring a crystal to be planted somewhere in California with the program to "create shift through synchronicity, fulfillment, and desire." I will be placing that crystal somewhere here, along with honoring the spirits of the land where ever I go. Goodnight, and thanks for listening. -Earth Song.
Friday, March 5
I'm off to Follow My Heart
Tomorrow morning, I'll be leaving to California for a 7 day animal communication class that I have been waiting patiently for for 5 months. I am so excited and know it will change my life. Hmmmm, now that I think about it, it's no coincidence that this class falls during my 90 day journey.
There are so many shifts that I have already noticed in my life since this journey began, and if I didn't know how to "connect the dots" as Michael would say and so graciously taught me, they might have passed right on by me. There is so much power in the subtly of life! I have also noticed amazing shifts in my boyfriend Roy. YAY! One of the most challenging things for me has been to figure out what it is that my Heart really wants to do for "work", and so far it has been much easier to identify those things that I don't want to do. It occurred to me recently that my hobbies and interests are an enormous clue as to what I should be doing. There are many things that I would love to spend hours pouring my attention into each day, and I need to begin examining those things more closely.
I also feel a change in the world, as though the world has finally shifted is now ready for what I, and each of us, has to offer. Kathryn told us once that each one of us were healers, weather we knew it yet or not, and one day the world would have questions and we would have the answers. I knew than that she was right, and I feel like that has happened. Perhaps it's just me, but I finally feel ready to be who I am, who I REALLY am, without hiding anymore.
I am so grateful to know so many wonderful people who "get" me. Thank you all. -Earth Song
There are so many shifts that I have already noticed in my life since this journey began, and if I didn't know how to "connect the dots" as Michael would say and so graciously taught me, they might have passed right on by me. There is so much power in the subtly of life! I have also noticed amazing shifts in my boyfriend Roy. YAY! One of the most challenging things for me has been to figure out what it is that my Heart really wants to do for "work", and so far it has been much easier to identify those things that I don't want to do. It occurred to me recently that my hobbies and interests are an enormous clue as to what I should be doing. There are many things that I would love to spend hours pouring my attention into each day, and I need to begin examining those things more closely.
I also feel a change in the world, as though the world has finally shifted is now ready for what I, and each of us, has to offer. Kathryn told us once that each one of us were healers, weather we knew it yet or not, and one day the world would have questions and we would have the answers. I knew than that she was right, and I feel like that has happened. Perhaps it's just me, but I finally feel ready to be who I am, who I REALLY am, without hiding anymore.
I am so grateful to know so many wonderful people who "get" me. Thank you all. -Earth Song
Affirmations
I am on purpose. I easily maintain my focus and commitment to the projects and areas of my choosing. I follow my heart!
I am living in total abundance and prosperity and am successful on all levels.
I am comfortable and self-confident in positions of power. I know I am enough and I maintain my center, focus and sense of peace in all situations.
I am living my true purpose and surrender to my Divine inner knowing and follow its guidance with trust, grace and ease.
I am living in complete trust. I follow my guidance completely and whole-heartily. I take action now and see it through until completion!
I am living in total abundance and prosperity and am successful on all levels.
I am comfortable and self-confident in positions of power. I know I am enough and I maintain my center, focus and sense of peace in all situations.
I am living my true purpose and surrender to my Divine inner knowing and follow its guidance with trust, grace and ease.
I am living in complete trust. I follow my guidance completely and whole-heartily. I take action now and see it through until completion!
Heart is Skipping
Today marks a milestone for me! The Food for Ascension Recipe book that I have been working on for the past few years, has officially gone to the first printer! As we speak, a shopping cart is being created for our website. It feels like we are moving into a whole new stage of outreach, and it is certainly a milestone for me, and for Michael as well.
What is even more exciting and completely unexpected, is today, on our way into Kanab to take the book to the printer, we met three people within that short journey who are eagerly awaiting the book. This comes as a surprise to us, since we had not expected for there to be much local interest in Food for Ascension. The Guides and Ancestors lined it up for us to see that we can lose that limitation whenever we choose, hopefully sooner than later! It is so wonderful to identify a place where I have set a limitation, and then to set it free!
We sent the book off with a smudge and a song, and the intention that it will help thousands and thousands of people on the ascension path.
With Love to All Life!
kachina333
What is even more exciting and completely unexpected, is today, on our way into Kanab to take the book to the printer, we met three people within that short journey who are eagerly awaiting the book. This comes as a surprise to us, since we had not expected for there to be much local interest in Food for Ascension. The Guides and Ancestors lined it up for us to see that we can lose that limitation whenever we choose, hopefully sooner than later! It is so wonderful to identify a place where I have set a limitation, and then to set it free!
We sent the book off with a smudge and a song, and the intention that it will help thousands and thousands of people on the ascension path.
With Love to All Life!
kachina333
Thursday, March 4
The Time Has Come
It has taken me a while to gather the courage to share myself with everyone and contribute to the blog, and I am happy to say that I am ready. My life is not what I ever expected it to be. For what feels like forever, I just went through the motions without ever being conscious of my own actions and what I was creating in my life. I blamed and made excuses for why things were the way they were, never spending the necessary time with myself to begin to uncover the real truth. Never listening...always distracting and avoiding.
In early January, an unexpected and even unwanted shift began to occur. I say unwanted, because it was just easier to stay the way I was than to work through my issues. I began to uncover, with the help of a very dear and true friend, that I no longer had to settle for the way things were. Instead, I could create anything I wanted in life. No limits.
These change would not come over night. Either stay the same and let the things that were eating away at me fester, or listen and recognize the issues so I could fix them. Turns out, I was my own worst enemy. My life was the way it was now, today, because of me and only me. This was when I truly decided that I wanted to love myself again and live life to the fullest, not settling and hiding. I want to see who I really am and what my purpose in life really is.
It was told to me that coming to this land would change my life. To be honest, I guess I was afraid. Afraid of facing myself and my past. I am no longer afraid and the time has come to be who I want to be.
Thanks to everyone for your inspiration,
SwiftWater
In early January, an unexpected and even unwanted shift began to occur. I say unwanted, because it was just easier to stay the way I was than to work through my issues. I began to uncover, with the help of a very dear and true friend, that I no longer had to settle for the way things were. Instead, I could create anything I wanted in life. No limits.
These change would not come over night. Either stay the same and let the things that were eating away at me fester, or listen and recognize the issues so I could fix them. Turns out, I was my own worst enemy. My life was the way it was now, today, because of me and only me. This was when I truly decided that I wanted to love myself again and live life to the fullest, not settling and hiding. I want to see who I really am and what my purpose in life really is.
It was told to me that coming to this land would change my life. To be honest, I guess I was afraid. Afraid of facing myself and my past. I am no longer afraid and the time has come to be who I want to be.
Thanks to everyone for your inspiration,
SwiftWater
the Universe is Magical
I joined 5 other women for a beautiful full moon ceremony at DiamondHeart where we all realized we were powerful and able to weave the world to assist in the healing , regeneration and ascension of the planet, humanity and all life.
You know I have been writing and living trying to resolve the issue of my family beach house for the highest good of all the estate beneficiaries. It has been quite the 2 week day and night journey with my ego, fears, self-doubts, inner guidance and strong intention to be heart-filled leadership. Today I made a choice!... and amazing things happened! I decided to proceed with offering the house to my nieces at a substantial discount that I could still justify as fair to all other beneficiaries including my brother Francisco, myself and my children. I pushed the send button to my attorney giving him the go ahead to call my nieces' attorney. I felt relief. I went to my healing room looking forward to a relaxing time of tuning in with guidance. I immediately felt to connect with the angel of the beach house (an amazing spirit whose beautiful vibration I have had the gift to encounter before) and the spirits of the land there. I asked if it was going to be very difficult to part with the beach house and received a no. I got the urge to ask for their names which are Pacyna and Mavesas is the overlighting spirit of my mother's lovely garden. Mavesas shared a big heart, sweet, gentle and happy energy. This spirit then told me she had messages for me. I could feel it was my family on the other side of the veil. I was happy for the anticipated connection. First my mother came forward and communicated how happy she was with my efforts to resolve the beach house for the highest good of the girls and the rest of us. Then my older brother's spirit Frank (the spirit who left to allow a walk-in Francisco to come into his body still here on earth) told me he would like me to call on him more for help. He told me a whole host of spirits, even Mayans, are acknowledging the work and choices I have made about the family house. He said it is a healing on a much greater level than my family. It is for thousands and I could see the energy in the Medicine Wheel at the beach house. He said I had planted energetic seeds in that Medicine Wheel for trusting in the abundance of the Universe, for fairness, for walking the path of Truth, for co-creation, for knowing our cosmic memory and for connection to it. Frank communicated that all things for the resolution of the family estate will now unfold in Divine timing & perfect synchronicity for the highest good of all. Next my sister-in-law Barbara, who rarely comes to me, came forward to acknowledge the good job I had done and thanked me for how I have taken care of her daughters in my efforts and choices. That meant a huge amount to me. She told me that a new form of connection to their parents for both girls will be a beautiful unfolding. I know I am to play a part in teaching them ascension. I asked her if the girls trust me at this time and she said no but that they will in the future. I was told that my brother Ben is helping me with the finances, Barbara is helping me and the girls emotionally and my brother Frank is assisting the girls. Through all of this I sobbed happy tears with the joy of connecting, of a resolution and the release of the pressure I have had on myself. Then Mavesa told me I am to do a balance in my Medicine Wheel between my extended family, the spirits of the land at the beach house and the Divine Planetary Blueprint. I have a feeling some of my extended family are going to buy the house for an interim period until my nieces get a windfall settlement from their parents plane crash. Then I will not have to say good-bye to the house and garden either. In any case, the Universe is magical! By the way I found out the Medicine Wheel in my mother's garden is called "Men of Ben"! I think Ben is helping men with ascension and that's why he is hanging around WhiteSageLanding's Medicine Wheel and you Michael! Wow, magic everywhere!
You know I have been writing and living trying to resolve the issue of my family beach house for the highest good of all the estate beneficiaries. It has been quite the 2 week day and night journey with my ego, fears, self-doubts, inner guidance and strong intention to be heart-filled leadership. Today I made a choice!... and amazing things happened! I decided to proceed with offering the house to my nieces at a substantial discount that I could still justify as fair to all other beneficiaries including my brother Francisco, myself and my children. I pushed the send button to my attorney giving him the go ahead to call my nieces' attorney. I felt relief. I went to my healing room looking forward to a relaxing time of tuning in with guidance. I immediately felt to connect with the angel of the beach house (an amazing spirit whose beautiful vibration I have had the gift to encounter before) and the spirits of the land there. I asked if it was going to be very difficult to part with the beach house and received a no. I got the urge to ask for their names which are Pacyna and Mavesas is the overlighting spirit of my mother's lovely garden. Mavesas shared a big heart, sweet, gentle and happy energy. This spirit then told me she had messages for me. I could feel it was my family on the other side of the veil. I was happy for the anticipated connection. First my mother came forward and communicated how happy she was with my efforts to resolve the beach house for the highest good of the girls and the rest of us. Then my older brother's spirit Frank (the spirit who left to allow a walk-in Francisco to come into his body still here on earth) told me he would like me to call on him more for help. He told me a whole host of spirits, even Mayans, are acknowledging the work and choices I have made about the family house. He said it is a healing on a much greater level than my family. It is for thousands and I could see the energy in the Medicine Wheel at the beach house. He said I had planted energetic seeds in that Medicine Wheel for trusting in the abundance of the Universe, for fairness, for walking the path of Truth, for co-creation, for knowing our cosmic memory and for connection to it. Frank communicated that all things for the resolution of the family estate will now unfold in Divine timing & perfect synchronicity for the highest good of all. Next my sister-in-law Barbara, who rarely comes to me, came forward to acknowledge the good job I had done and thanked me for how I have taken care of her daughters in my efforts and choices. That meant a huge amount to me. She told me that a new form of connection to their parents for both girls will be a beautiful unfolding. I know I am to play a part in teaching them ascension. I asked her if the girls trust me at this time and she said no but that they will in the future. I was told that my brother Ben is helping me with the finances, Barbara is helping me and the girls emotionally and my brother Frank is assisting the girls. Through all of this I sobbed happy tears with the joy of connecting, of a resolution and the release of the pressure I have had on myself. Then Mavesa told me I am to do a balance in my Medicine Wheel between my extended family, the spirits of the land at the beach house and the Divine Planetary Blueprint. I have a feeling some of my extended family are going to buy the house for an interim period until my nieces get a windfall settlement from their parents plane crash. Then I will not have to say good-bye to the house and garden either. In any case, the Universe is magical! By the way I found out the Medicine Wheel in my mother's garden is called "Men of Ben"! I think Ben is helping men with ascension and that's why he is hanging around WhiteSageLanding's Medicine Wheel and you Michael! Wow, magic everywhere!
Update on the Ascension Process
As many of you know, I have been working with guides and ascension masters for some years to move consciously through the steps of physical ascension, in order to observe every step and create a "map" for others to follow on the physical ascension path.
In January, I was given the programs for my next step, and was told that this part of the process will be complete in 26 weeks (around 6 mos.). I began connecting with cells of my body, and in particular the mitochondria of the cells. I asked them if they would like to stay and be reconditioned for a new role or if they would like to be relocated to another host somewhere to continue life in this form. They wanted to go through the reconditioning and so I began setting the programs in place for the transformation from food to fuel conversion, into direct source energy connection.
This program was received and the shift began to create a physical experience right away. The guides told me to go on the internet and look up the word "apoptosis". Well, I made a mental note, but didn't look it up right away. I began to experience flashes of heat in my prana tube as the body began to burn off old stuff. My prana tube itself became hollow and expanded, with tons of light flowing through. I began to feel very different in my stomach, as if the food is just passing through without being processed. I began to feel neutral toward food in general, with moments of ecstatic enjoyment followed by complete disinterest in food. All foods have begun to dowse neutral for me, even foods that I would never have considered eating a month ago, and foods that used to be off the chart beneficial. It is a wild ride, and I am just beginning to understand the final stages of this process of turning the body into light.
My baseline breathing has changed dramatically! I now breath 2 breaths per minute at rest (but wide awake). My heartbeat has gone to 73 betas per minute (my normal resting pulse) to 48 beats per minute. All this is happening as the cells go through "programmed death", the process of apoptosis that I finally looked up and read. I do experience some symptoms, but have found that I can usually program an adjustment and the symptoms disappear almost intantly, once I know what the cause is. This is the most amazing set of circumstances I have ever experienced in my body! It is as if the body and mind are becoming one.
Thank you all for listening, writing this out has helped me, just to share some things that not many people around here would understand!
Many blessings,
Kachina
In January, I was given the programs for my next step, and was told that this part of the process will be complete in 26 weeks (around 6 mos.). I began connecting with cells of my body, and in particular the mitochondria of the cells. I asked them if they would like to stay and be reconditioned for a new role or if they would like to be relocated to another host somewhere to continue life in this form. They wanted to go through the reconditioning and so I began setting the programs in place for the transformation from food to fuel conversion, into direct source energy connection.
This program was received and the shift began to create a physical experience right away. The guides told me to go on the internet and look up the word "apoptosis". Well, I made a mental note, but didn't look it up right away. I began to experience flashes of heat in my prana tube as the body began to burn off old stuff. My prana tube itself became hollow and expanded, with tons of light flowing through. I began to feel very different in my stomach, as if the food is just passing through without being processed. I began to feel neutral toward food in general, with moments of ecstatic enjoyment followed by complete disinterest in food. All foods have begun to dowse neutral for me, even foods that I would never have considered eating a month ago, and foods that used to be off the chart beneficial. It is a wild ride, and I am just beginning to understand the final stages of this process of turning the body into light.
My baseline breathing has changed dramatically! I now breath 2 breaths per minute at rest (but wide awake). My heartbeat has gone to 73 betas per minute (my normal resting pulse) to 48 beats per minute. All this is happening as the cells go through "programmed death", the process of apoptosis that I finally looked up and read. I do experience some symptoms, but have found that I can usually program an adjustment and the symptoms disappear almost intantly, once I know what the cause is. This is the most amazing set of circumstances I have ever experienced in my body! It is as if the body and mind are becoming one.
Thank you all for listening, writing this out has helped me, just to share some things that not many people around here would understand!
Many blessings,
Kachina
Wednesday, March 3
Calling on WOLF
The other night I had a dream that I was walking alone across the tundra in Bethel. The sun had just set and it was the middle of winter but still pretty warm/bright out. I was walking along when something from the corner of my eye caught my attention, I looked and it was a big beautiful wolf.
The first time ever in my dream life I stopped and made the conscious decision to either freak out OR stay calm knowing that this wolf wasn't here to hurt me. I chose to stay calm (wow!) than when I did the wolf turned white.
I continued walking and the wolf followed me everywhere I went, keeping a distance of about 20 ft behind at all times but I felt very safe and very protected.The dream was completely silent.
I had this dream about 5 nights ago and since than as I just noticed reading back over my 90day journal that this wolf has been in every one of my dreams since. Even if my dream has nothing to do with anything about wolf's it will appear just for a second, like a flash. Last night I was dreaming about flying again than right before I woke up this wolf FLASHED in my mind and jolted me awake..... hummmm, what could this mean??.. I have such trouble interpreting my dreams but did look up wolf but, it seems like maybe more than that... perhaps the message will come over time.
Today I was taking a drive out of town to go and look at this property I am interested in buying, I was concentrating really hard on the street names cause apparently this town in is so tiny that "you can miss it if you blink" so I was very focused than out of the corner of my eye I saw a JIANT white wolf,I gasped slightly, cause it kind of startled me, and when I looked it wasn't in fact a wolf but a very weird shaped building... hum.... somethings going on here... I wasn't think about this wolf, I was very focused on finding this road, but it did appear for a split second and definitely got my attention...
Thank you Wolf, I'm listening!
The first time ever in my dream life I stopped and made the conscious decision to either freak out OR stay calm knowing that this wolf wasn't here to hurt me. I chose to stay calm (wow!) than when I did the wolf turned white.
I continued walking and the wolf followed me everywhere I went, keeping a distance of about 20 ft behind at all times but I felt very safe and very protected.The dream was completely silent.
I had this dream about 5 nights ago and since than as I just noticed reading back over my 90day journal that this wolf has been in every one of my dreams since. Even if my dream has nothing to do with anything about wolf's it will appear just for a second, like a flash. Last night I was dreaming about flying again than right before I woke up this wolf FLASHED in my mind and jolted me awake..... hummmm, what could this mean??.. I have such trouble interpreting my dreams but did look up wolf but, it seems like maybe more than that... perhaps the message will come over time.
Today I was taking a drive out of town to go and look at this property I am interested in buying, I was concentrating really hard on the street names cause apparently this town in is so tiny that "you can miss it if you blink" so I was very focused than out of the corner of my eye I saw a JIANT white wolf,I gasped slightly, cause it kind of startled me, and when I looked it wasn't in fact a wolf but a very weird shaped building... hum.... somethings going on here... I wasn't think about this wolf, I was very focused on finding this road, but it did appear for a split second and definitely got my attention...
Thank you Wolf, I'm listening!
Anything Is Possible
I am grateful even through the recognition of resistance wanting to spring up and start talking. All I can do is smile with a little chuckle underneath. Everything that I face is something I have consciously asked for and as I see the beauty unfolding there is a little tapping of fear right behind it whispering in my ear. My husband left for his new job two days ago, all part of our manifesting future but reality unfolding can still catch me off guard and tickle a little bit in both the excitement and the fear factor. The same way it did today when I received the news that as of July 1 I will no longer have a job. Yes, I have been praying for this and working my way out of it since before I excepted it. Yes, I am clear this is not my true work. Yes, I hear you Spirit Walker, it is time for me to come out of the closet. Yes, I plan to be on the road to Colorado by June 1 and as I resist the but that comes next, I can only keep saying I am listening, and I hear. Nothing surprises me anymore and every day is just another confirmation of the unfolding for all of us. Little Zar says to me, "Mommy, I want to shape shift into a dinosaur and then a reptile and then maybe a lion or another animal. I keep saying to myself over and over, anything is possible. do you think it will happen today?" I get to say, anything IS possible, and KNOW in my heart that I am telling him the truth. Wow, how wonderful.............................Full of gratitude and giggles, Michelle
Tuesday, March 2
Whirling Rainbow
I am feeling so much unity with Mother Earth, the spirits of the east, south, west, and north, and the whole universe. I read the stories of each one of you out there who are walking this journey of transformation around the medicine wheel, and I see my own story in yours.
Today I was cooking some delicious roots (I am always amazed at how good they taste even at the end of this fast), and Blew Thunder came running into the kitchen from outside. He hurried me out the back door and pointed up to the sky. There was a beautiful rainbow circle around the sun. It looked like a whirling rainbow, because the edges had streaks of fog streaming out at an angle, that made it look like the ring was spinning in a clockwise motion. I have never seen anything like this before.
Today I am celebrating. The Grandmothers have given me that deep appreciation that comes when I get to glimpse the divine blueprint coming into manifestation. I see it taking form in Alaska, and how great a part Alaska is playing in the transformation process for the North and South American continents. Thank you all for stepping up to bat in this lifetime! Thank you for your willingness.
I see people everywhere awakening to a new vision, a new clarity, believing they have the power to choose and the power to create a new experience of the reality. We who are holding the space for these changes to happen all around us get the greatest gift-to see the future unfold before us! To be of service and experience the highest level of fulfillment that life has to offer. To be fully present.
Love, Truth, and Beauty...
Kachina
Today I was cooking some delicious roots (I am always amazed at how good they taste even at the end of this fast), and Blew Thunder came running into the kitchen from outside. He hurried me out the back door and pointed up to the sky. There was a beautiful rainbow circle around the sun. It looked like a whirling rainbow, because the edges had streaks of fog streaming out at an angle, that made it look like the ring was spinning in a clockwise motion. I have never seen anything like this before.
Today I am celebrating. The Grandmothers have given me that deep appreciation that comes when I get to glimpse the divine blueprint coming into manifestation. I see it taking form in Alaska, and how great a part Alaska is playing in the transformation process for the North and South American continents. Thank you all for stepping up to bat in this lifetime! Thank you for your willingness.
I see people everywhere awakening to a new vision, a new clarity, believing they have the power to choose and the power to create a new experience of the reality. We who are holding the space for these changes to happen all around us get the greatest gift-to see the future unfold before us! To be of service and experience the highest level of fulfillment that life has to offer. To be fully present.
Love, Truth, and Beauty...
Kachina
Gratitude & Life Purpose
I was surprised when I read Kathryn's dream about the Mayan creation story...it very nearly matched my own! Writing my story this time around flowed through me, and it feels like a story that is very real. It has also put a lot into perspective for me about the work I am here to do. Now that my reason for being here is much more clear, it makes no sense to me to spend my time doing things that don't resonate with my true purpose. I have felt a huge shift in just the last week, and feel like I have a little more direction in my days. I just hope I have the courage to make the shift in the physical world.
I have been feeling deep gratitude for Michael and Kathryn the past few days for putting this 90 day program together. I can feel the shifts happening in my own self already, and the journey has only just begun. Many, many thanks to the plant spirits for providing us with such high frequency foods, and again to Kathryn for creating Foods for Ascension. I am fascinated and empowered each time I dedicate myself to this lifestyle because I become more and more aware of just what our human bodies are capable of, and that each day really can get better and better. These are the kinds of things they should teach us in grade school. Imagine the possibilities of a world where humans were aware of what they were capable of! I feel that this is just around the corner, if not now.
Much gratitude to you all. I am off to pour some of my love into the medicine wheel, with the intention that it reaches all corners of the earth. -Earth Song
I have been feeling deep gratitude for Michael and Kathryn the past few days for putting this 90 day program together. I can feel the shifts happening in my own self already, and the journey has only just begun. Many, many thanks to the plant spirits for providing us with such high frequency foods, and again to Kathryn for creating Foods for Ascension. I am fascinated and empowered each time I dedicate myself to this lifestyle because I become more and more aware of just what our human bodies are capable of, and that each day really can get better and better. These are the kinds of things they should teach us in grade school. Imagine the possibilities of a world where humans were aware of what they were capable of! I feel that this is just around the corner, if not now.
Much gratitude to you all. I am off to pour some of my love into the medicine wheel, with the intention that it reaches all corners of the earth. -Earth Song
BIG Dreamer ;)
I have this dream, of owning LOTS of raw forest land, in a very secluded location, and building a little cottage/cabin on it for me and Murphy (my dog) to live in, very old fashioned, very simply. I have had this dream my whole life, ever since I could remember. I want a big organic garden, LOTS of animals, a studio for making products for animals, a commercial kitchen where I can spend my days dowsing and making custom, fresh and healthy high vibrational dog/cat foods, with a big walk in freezer/cooler. Than another studio for my crafts, a wall full of different beautiful yarns (maybe even getting my own alpaca and sheep and spinning my own) a pottery wheel, a lathe for making my own wooden bowls and cups, a old fashion sewing machine where I can make all my own clothes and LOTS of gifts for my family and friends and pet's (I have been collection patterns for many MANY years and I don't even know how to sew!...yet.) a section where I can do bead work,embroider,crossstich, patch work, just EVERYTHING! Aah this visual never fails to get me all tingly inside.
This has been my dream my WHOLE life, even before I knew what it meant to have a dream.
recently I found some property in Indian valley, it was significantly smaller than I had ever imagined (3 acres) which is still BIG... but not big enough for what I really want to do with it... and it is allot closer to town that I would like to be, but I have been practicing my "law's" this one was the perfect opportunity for me to practice the law of unattachment, knowing that everything will work out how it is supposed to. So, I let myslef fall in love with this land, I drove out there just about every day to visit it, I had ceremonies on it, I planted crystals, set intentions, visualized our future together,and for us to work together co-creatively, I visualized just where I would squeeze everything that I wanted so badly all on this land... And I was happy with that. I have been "planning" my life there (while staying unattached) for about two years now.
Recently though, anorther amazing opportunity came in, 28 acres of RAW forest land for just about thirty grand less than the other property and it's about an hour out of town! It is in a town I have never herd of before but I hear it is VERY secluded,but still close enough to my sisters, that alone makes my heart flutter. It all came in so perfectly and unexpected. I was driving in my car eager to get over my my sisters house for our dog walk to tell her about my "vision" and I was thinking about this every different direction. " This land sounds perfect but am I REALLY ready to move to the middle of no where with as little knowledge as I have about the work I want to do?" "I'm not a master animal communicator YET and I am still pretty new at dowsing, can I REALLY make a living and support me and Murphy JUST by making custom LOVE infused pet foods and products?" " I still have soooo much to learn about my work, am I stupid to want this now or should I wait till I learn everything I need to know?"... my mind was going a billion miles an hour, making plans, than doubting myself. Than I got it, it all came in all at one, like a water fall, with information pouring into my body,and I got butterflies in my stomach like a highschooler with a crush, it came in so clear with such detail that I was like WOW, I know exactly what I'm doing, and the layout was different than I had ever imagined but I loved it, it was perfect.
A place where people bring their pets to heal!.... or corss over. Say, if you have just been raising your pet on this store bought pet "food"( which I have been guilty of in the past) not knowing the depths of how very unbenificial it was for your pet whom you love soooo much only to find that your pet got, cancer, or diabetes or was significantly over weight or whatever other kind of un natural disease or medical "mystery" and your only other options were to pay top dollar on brutal vet visits, or to put them to sleep all the while thinking ("ooh my god, does my pet understand what's going on? I don't want to kill him, I wonder what he's thinking/wants" I have been there before and that feeling of helplessness is an awful feeling",) or let them suffer through it if you couldn't afford it... than I would come in! :) You could bring your pet to me, I would tune in with him/her and first and for most ask what her wishes are, does she WANT to leave her physical body, does she WANT to live? than take it from there. Sort of like those centers in Mexico and what not where cancer patients go to heal where they give you fresh juices and a healthy diet, it would kinda be like that.
I will have a BIG beautiful cozy barn with a BIG fire place to keep them warm and stalls in them with cozy beds (which I can make) with the pets favorite color, and pictures of their people and just make it as cozy as passable. I would ask for them to leave their pets there with me since I know that everyone cant stay away from work and their family's too long and I would do my thing, I would have a little cottage for people to come and visit or see what I'm doing with their pets so that they will understand and bring the knowledge home with them.
I would make each individual animal a custom diet, dowsing every meal for exactly what they need at that time, I would check in with them daily, take them on walks around the property, feed them birch water, ahh so many plans, I am so excited! and give them lots of love! I'm a big cuddler, I couldn't care less about cuddling with people but put me around animals and i'm a magnet spooner, I wouldn't be surprised if you walked in to catch me curled up with a horse or a pig or something, I love it.
I want to learn how to give animal massage/Riki and perhaps one day manifest a veterinary partner who knows how to nuder and spay.
I than can send the happy healthy pet home and hopefully heir person will continue to place orders with me for their food that I would custom make every time, fresh out of the garden and with healthy happy meats.
WOW, I cant wait. I know this is going to be allot of work but I cant think of a better way to spend my days/life. I would love every minute of it, passionately.
I cant wait, I know this is going to happen, I can feel it, and I know that the animals and land is going to teach me everything I need to know.
This is just my roughdraft and I am open to change but this sensation I have in my body is like nothing I have expierenced before. I just want to start already!
This has been my dream my WHOLE life, even before I knew what it meant to have a dream.
recently I found some property in Indian valley, it was significantly smaller than I had ever imagined (3 acres) which is still BIG... but not big enough for what I really want to do with it... and it is allot closer to town that I would like to be, but I have been practicing my "law's" this one was the perfect opportunity for me to practice the law of unattachment, knowing that everything will work out how it is supposed to. So, I let myslef fall in love with this land, I drove out there just about every day to visit it, I had ceremonies on it, I planted crystals, set intentions, visualized our future together,and for us to work together co-creatively, I visualized just where I would squeeze everything that I wanted so badly all on this land... And I was happy with that. I have been "planning" my life there (while staying unattached) for about two years now.
Recently though, anorther amazing opportunity came in, 28 acres of RAW forest land for just about thirty grand less than the other property and it's about an hour out of town! It is in a town I have never herd of before but I hear it is VERY secluded,but still close enough to my sisters, that alone makes my heart flutter. It all came in so perfectly and unexpected. I was driving in my car eager to get over my my sisters house for our dog walk to tell her about my "vision" and I was thinking about this every different direction. " This land sounds perfect but am I REALLY ready to move to the middle of no where with as little knowledge as I have about the work I want to do?" "I'm not a master animal communicator YET and I am still pretty new at dowsing, can I REALLY make a living and support me and Murphy JUST by making custom LOVE infused pet foods and products?" " I still have soooo much to learn about my work, am I stupid to want this now or should I wait till I learn everything I need to know?"... my mind was going a billion miles an hour, making plans, than doubting myself. Than I got it, it all came in all at one, like a water fall, with information pouring into my body,and I got butterflies in my stomach like a highschooler with a crush, it came in so clear with such detail that I was like WOW, I know exactly what I'm doing, and the layout was different than I had ever imagined but I loved it, it was perfect.
A place where people bring their pets to heal!.... or corss over. Say, if you have just been raising your pet on this store bought pet "food"( which I have been guilty of in the past) not knowing the depths of how very unbenificial it was for your pet whom you love soooo much only to find that your pet got, cancer, or diabetes or was significantly over weight or whatever other kind of un natural disease or medical "mystery" and your only other options were to pay top dollar on brutal vet visits, or to put them to sleep all the while thinking ("ooh my god, does my pet understand what's going on? I don't want to kill him, I wonder what he's thinking/wants" I have been there before and that feeling of helplessness is an awful feeling",) or let them suffer through it if you couldn't afford it... than I would come in! :) You could bring your pet to me, I would tune in with him/her and first and for most ask what her wishes are, does she WANT to leave her physical body, does she WANT to live? than take it from there. Sort of like those centers in Mexico and what not where cancer patients go to heal where they give you fresh juices and a healthy diet, it would kinda be like that.
I will have a BIG beautiful cozy barn with a BIG fire place to keep them warm and stalls in them with cozy beds (which I can make) with the pets favorite color, and pictures of their people and just make it as cozy as passable. I would ask for them to leave their pets there with me since I know that everyone cant stay away from work and their family's too long and I would do my thing, I would have a little cottage for people to come and visit or see what I'm doing with their pets so that they will understand and bring the knowledge home with them.
I would make each individual animal a custom diet, dowsing every meal for exactly what they need at that time, I would check in with them daily, take them on walks around the property, feed them birch water, ahh so many plans, I am so excited! and give them lots of love! I'm a big cuddler, I couldn't care less about cuddling with people but put me around animals and i'm a magnet spooner, I wouldn't be surprised if you walked in to catch me curled up with a horse or a pig or something, I love it.
I want to learn how to give animal massage/Riki and perhaps one day manifest a veterinary partner who knows how to nuder and spay.
I than can send the happy healthy pet home and hopefully heir person will continue to place orders with me for their food that I would custom make every time, fresh out of the garden and with healthy happy meats.
WOW, I cant wait. I know this is going to be allot of work but I cant think of a better way to spend my days/life. I would love every minute of it, passionately.
I cant wait, I know this is going to happen, I can feel it, and I know that the animals and land is going to teach me everything I need to know.
This is just my roughdraft and I am open to change but this sensation I have in my body is like nothing I have expierenced before. I just want to start already!
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