It has taken me a while to gather the courage to share myself with everyone and contribute to the blog, and I am happy to say that I am ready. My life is not what I ever expected it to be. For what feels like forever, I just went through the motions without ever being conscious of my own actions and what I was creating in my life. I blamed and made excuses for why things were the way they were, never spending the necessary time with myself to begin to uncover the real truth. Never listening...always distracting and avoiding.
In early January, an unexpected and even unwanted shift began to occur. I say unwanted, because it was just easier to stay the way I was than to work through my issues. I began to uncover, with the help of a very dear and true friend, that I no longer had to settle for the way things were. Instead, I could create anything I wanted in life. No limits.
These change would not come over night. Either stay the same and let the things that were eating away at me fester, or listen and recognize the issues so I could fix them. Turns out, I was my own worst enemy. My life was the way it was now, today, because of me and only me. This was when I truly decided that I wanted to love myself again and live life to the fullest, not settling and hiding. I want to see who I really am and what my purpose in life really is.
It was told to me that coming to this land would change my life. To be honest, I guess I was afraid. Afraid of facing myself and my past. I am no longer afraid and the time has come to be who I want to be.
Thanks to everyone for your inspiration,
SwiftWater
