Sunday, March 4
Friday, March 2
Cinderella Story
In 2007, I walked into the studio room on Tyonek drive to attend a workshop that Michael and Kathryn simply called the, bridge to living your dreams. Scared and trembling a shell of a being I was, and the epitome of a star having been dropped from the sky not knowing who she was or where she belonged. Without knowing what I was doing I followed this unseen, unidentified, unnamable feeling, that in time would reveal itself to me and I would come to know and relay on it as guidance, into the little classroom that would change my life forever.
In 2012, I walked into a classroom on Ptarmigan St in Bethel, Alaska. Confidant and assured I spoke as a teacher, a carrier of the messages so carefully entrusted to me. Bestowed by my great teachers Michael and Kathryn Sharp, Paul Pitchford, Ana Forrest, and countless other people who have over the years crossed my path and left memorable footsteps on my heart, all weaved together into a symphony with one purpose, to mend the hoop of the people and bring healing and restoring to our great mother earth.
The response from the participants in my little juicing class, the confirmation of resonance of the message I offered by their setting up spinal therapy sessions, signing up for more classes and nutritional consults, their expressed interest in volunteering to work the land this summer if ever there is a need for extra support. My awe in how one evening talking about juicing, listening to your body and touching lightly on essential oils led to an awakened desire for them to re-connect with the earth herself by putting their hands in the soil. My heart is singing and I am buzzing like never before. I am a teacher, the one thing I have always wanted to be but never had the courage, until now. What started as a leap of faith into a workshop called the bridge to living your dream has in fact over the last 5 years built me my bridge. I crossed it last night and stepped l strongly into my dream reality. It has come true, I am living my dream and getting paid for it!?
From the quiet girl in the back, who I was sure was not resonating with my class, she said very little and sat still faced the entire evening at the end walked up to me and said “I am so glad you are here”. My heart melted and I felt more purpose in that moment then I ever though possible!!! I am in love with my work, this is what I am meant to do no questions asked, this is my gift to offer, this is my living dream.
I bow down in humility and gratitude for my Great Teachers and all those beings who have crossed my path to help me get to where I am today. I am speechless that this moment that I have both chased and feared over a my lifetime is finally here.
All my love,
Aho
Thursday, February 23
Time
I felt this new journey coming and began in a time of the mind with a feeling that I would catch up. What is; pieces of the puzzle falling into place so magically and without thought, all in perfect timing, that of the universe rather than my mind.
I returned to my physical home on the day of my birth, February 22, an important day in this year of 2012, from an adventure into the past. The final pieces of my last journey around the wheel in place and understanding intact. My heart wide open and free, familiar to the times I've known outside this world, outside human form.
I am still very much in the cocoon of transformation. Comfort in sleeping, dreaming, unfolding and processing. Unknown and beauty surround me while clarity and gratitude fill me.
This journey is now, in the right timing, the timing of the universe.
Aho,
Michelle
Wednesday, February 15
Emptiness
A new consciousness is slowly arising within my being. I am listening to the raging winds and cold grey clouds blowing through the sky. There is a vastness to this empty landscape around me that, when I give it time and soft attention, creates a depth of inner space.
Attachment burns away in a cold fire.
The preciousness of life, every breath, every being, grows.
Truth and Love become all that matters.
I am purposefully contracted into a small physical space, consciously hibernating, connecting with others only when necessary. I allow myself to sleep, and dream, and grow in the womb of protection, without holding a vision or form. I feel the form taking shape on its own, coming forth from cellular programs that are older than the Earth herself. In gratitude, I trust the divine timing of all life.
Kachina
Attachment burns away in a cold fire.
The preciousness of life, every breath, every being, grows.
Truth and Love become all that matters.
I am purposefully contracted into a small physical space, consciously hibernating, connecting with others only when necessary. I allow myself to sleep, and dream, and grow in the womb of protection, without holding a vision or form. I feel the form taking shape on its own, coming forth from cellular programs that are older than the Earth herself. In gratitude, I trust the divine timing of all life.
Kachina
Wednesday, February 1
Creation.
I wrote my creation story yesterday (finally) Ive been staring at those blank pages for weeks, as many of you who've worked the book before know, its almost like the book has a timing of its own that cannot be rushed.
My creation stories from the the first four years were all very similar, almost identical when I go back and visit them now.
A baby on the path of remembering who I was and where I came from, I had borrowed a lot from other traditions and times, things that deeply resonated, and still do, with how I wanted my life to be and what I wanted to gift the world. Since discovering my mission, not much there has changed. I know (at least for right now) why I am here and the work I am to do at this stage and my stories have always embodied the same deeply held desire to guide healing and regeneration for humanity and Mother Earth.
Yesterdays story, the same theme of wanting to be of service rang true but the form in which I delivered these teachings and healing gifts was nothing like years past. The way I used to describe what I wanted and believed I needed my life and set-up to look like before I could move forward came crashing down and in its place the gem of my unique truth was reveled to me.
My creation stories from the the first four years were all very similar, almost identical when I go back and visit them now.
A baby on the path of remembering who I was and where I came from, I had borrowed a lot from other traditions and times, things that deeply resonated, and still do, with how I wanted my life to be and what I wanted to gift the world. Since discovering my mission, not much there has changed. I know (at least for right now) why I am here and the work I am to do at this stage and my stories have always embodied the same deeply held desire to guide healing and regeneration for humanity and Mother Earth.
Yesterdays story, the same theme of wanting to be of service rang true but the form in which I delivered these teachings and healing gifts was nothing like years past. The way I used to describe what I wanted and believed I needed my life and set-up to look like before I could move forward came crashing down and in its place the gem of my unique truth was reveled to me.
It is the difference between laying down roots and a solid foundation and being free to migrate as the wind dictates.
When I go back and re-read my story, it is so powerfully resonant, it feels like I've taken my entire inner core being, prana-tube, heart, all of it and smeared it onto paper, if that makes any sense.
It feels like an acknowledgment of an aspect of myself that I have embodied all along but never gave acceptance too or valued. And, let me tell you the relief I feel to have finally "figured this out" is amazing! It is so clear to me now what a huge road block this facade I was trying to force myself into becoming and identifying with was and how excitedly free I feel for this wisdom and self-acceptance. No doubt the root cause of my crooked spine (scoliosis) of forever trying to fit myself into a way of living that wasn't right for me but that others insisted was the only way to live. I bought into that story but I cut those cords now and choose for myself.
When I go back and re-read my story, it is so powerfully resonant, it feels like I've taken my entire inner core being, prana-tube, heart, all of it and smeared it onto paper, if that makes any sense.
It feels like an acknowledgment of an aspect of myself that I have embodied all along but never gave acceptance too or valued. And, let me tell you the relief I feel to have finally "figured this out" is amazing! It is so clear to me now what a huge road block this facade I was trying to force myself into becoming and identifying with was and how excitedly free I feel for this wisdom and self-acceptance. No doubt the root cause of my crooked spine (scoliosis) of forever trying to fit myself into a way of living that wasn't right for me but that others insisted was the only way to live. I bought into that story but I cut those cords now and choose for myself.
I didn't, nor have I been asking for a name but I was gifted one while writing my story. It intimates me a little bit but I feel it is important to embody this new energy and allow Sister Raven Hair (my first name) which I've loved and had for 3 years now, to fall away in completion.
I know little of my Earth ancestors but there is one word that is always used to describe the women and men of our linage that goes waaayyy back and has managed to transcend the generations. Gypsy, it is this word and the energy it embodies that has been given to me to wear and to use as a guiding force upon my life path at this time. I accept this and do it with great honor, humility and joy.
Here is a tid bit from my story..
I am Gypsy Bird Woman, a lover of freedoms and migrations, a member of the bird clan, being free to fly and explore is of utmost importance to me. I love and value this about myself. I am a member of multiple communities with a keen ability to attune to the individual and unique needs of all beings there, plant, human, animal and earth alike.
I am Gypsy Bird Woman, I carry my medicine bag upon my back heeding the call of the dark pockets upon the earth. Syncing with the currents of the wind, I find my way there and from my bag release a rainbow of brightness and beauty, awakening sleeping souls and restoring earth connections lost. A keeper of the earth I know my true home as my bare feet upon her soil!
Aho,
Gypsy Bird Woman
Monday, January 30
Human Timing vs. Divine Timing
It is freaking cold out here! No joke, all the sewer and water pipes are frozen and most people in town and the surrounding villages are without running or flushing water and have been for some weeks now. I'm fortunate to have all the fixings (buckets, straw and wood chips) to build a nice clean composting toilet but showers are out.
My ability to take clients and host workshops is officially impaired and all classes out of my own space have been postponed.
I exclaimed my frustrations with the Divine the other day "you wanted me out in Bethel to teach and do this work and I've just hit road block after road block, what do you want from me!!?" feeling defeated and cheated and questioning have I once again impetuously made the wrong decision and should I really be somewhere else, the same habitual thinking that is always so prevalent in my life. I thought of Michael and Kathryn and their arrival at White Sage, how shocking it must have been and how much initial effort, intention and daily commitment it took to clear and balance the land there, physically and energetically all the while having many of their human comforts that they had grown accustomed to while living at DiamondHeart taken away. No running water or a clean bathroom or access to the quality food and entertainment sources they were used to. Their journey comforted me and soothed my irritations of not being able to live the way I am used to and to be grateful for what I do have in this moment. It feels like a sort of fire walk or initiation upon my chosen path, especially since I have been out in the freezing cold day after day placing a special essential oil blend in the wheel, giving gratitude for the leaving energies and visualizing the anchoring new energies into place and of course asking for the cold to break, all done under 2 minutes which is about how long it takes for my eyelids to freeze together:)
The other night I dreamed of an indigenous village, I was pregnant, about 4 months along and I wanted to leave the village to go elsewhere to have and raise my baby. I didn't feel like the village people were ready to receive my child so I began to leave and as a result I miscarried my baby, in the dream it was a big bloody mess everywhere as the villagers rushed to my aid, I desperately tried to save my small child but it was just too early and there was nothing I could do. In the dream I felt like I had the revelation that if I had just trusted what I could not see, didn't act so rashly out of fear and allowed the gestation process to unfold in its natural timing then the devastation and loss could have been avoided.
I understand and see more clearly now that there is a bigger picture and pieces that need to be in place before certain actions, outward community actions can be taken. I honor that and now excitedly move forward with my earthwork assignments until the next step is revealed.
I enjoy teaching my bi-weekly yoga class thru the college and watch myself grow and become a better teacher after every session. For now, I surrender my human timing and the need to know and control and make space for what I can't see and don't know and open up to divine timing.
Blessings, wonderment and joy to you all upon the path unknown and Gratitude for Kathryn and Michael for braking trail and illuminating the path!
Aho.
My ability to take clients and host workshops is officially impaired and all classes out of my own space have been postponed.
I exclaimed my frustrations with the Divine the other day "you wanted me out in Bethel to teach and do this work and I've just hit road block after road block, what do you want from me!!?" feeling defeated and cheated and questioning have I once again impetuously made the wrong decision and should I really be somewhere else, the same habitual thinking that is always so prevalent in my life. I thought of Michael and Kathryn and their arrival at White Sage, how shocking it must have been and how much initial effort, intention and daily commitment it took to clear and balance the land there, physically and energetically all the while having many of their human comforts that they had grown accustomed to while living at DiamondHeart taken away. No running water or a clean bathroom or access to the quality food and entertainment sources they were used to. Their journey comforted me and soothed my irritations of not being able to live the way I am used to and to be grateful for what I do have in this moment. It feels like a sort of fire walk or initiation upon my chosen path, especially since I have been out in the freezing cold day after day placing a special essential oil blend in the wheel, giving gratitude for the leaving energies and visualizing the anchoring new energies into place and of course asking for the cold to break, all done under 2 minutes which is about how long it takes for my eyelids to freeze together:)
The other night I dreamed of an indigenous village, I was pregnant, about 4 months along and I wanted to leave the village to go elsewhere to have and raise my baby. I didn't feel like the village people were ready to receive my child so I began to leave and as a result I miscarried my baby, in the dream it was a big bloody mess everywhere as the villagers rushed to my aid, I desperately tried to save my small child but it was just too early and there was nothing I could do. In the dream I felt like I had the revelation that if I had just trusted what I could not see, didn't act so rashly out of fear and allowed the gestation process to unfold in its natural timing then the devastation and loss could have been avoided.
I understand and see more clearly now that there is a bigger picture and pieces that need to be in place before certain actions, outward community actions can be taken. I honor that and now excitedly move forward with my earthwork assignments until the next step is revealed.
I enjoy teaching my bi-weekly yoga class thru the college and watch myself grow and become a better teacher after every session. For now, I surrender my human timing and the need to know and control and make space for what I can't see and don't know and open up to divine timing.
Blessings, wonderment and joy to you all upon the path unknown and Gratitude for Kathryn and Michael for braking trail and illuminating the path!
Aho.
Sunday, January 29
Thursday, January 19
I'm here.
Whew, I’m here! Working the 90 day for my 5th time around the medicine wheel. This time thru I’m balancing only one palace, the Du Mai prosperity palace which is beyond perfect for me and in complete resonance at this time.
I am back in Bethel and begin teaching yoga at the college this monday evening.
My intention is, to the best of my ability, teach truth and challenge the physical body in hopes to inspire and stimulate healing for my students by brining them back into their bodies.
With a break in the -20 below weather today (its 4 above) I seized the opportunity to reconnect and being working with the nature spirits and the large alien entity that is leaving the area at this time. I buried the harmonizer, a balance, intention, a gift for the land and a single drop of rose otto in the center of the medicine wheel as directed by my guides and now I am basking in the beauty of the sun flooding my living room and giving gratitude for the blanket of clouds covering the sky and warming the air.
A huge shift is without a doubt upon us and I feel super-charged and so excited everyday by the power and desire to create positive change in an area that has been dimmed and bleak for so long. I see it and feel it so clearly that I am sure it has already happened.
I am excited about this 90 day journey and feel so honored to be a part of this group and to know each and everyone of you. I am in love with potatoes right now and for the first time in my life excited to speak publicly and share everything I have gathered and learned over the last 5 years with those ready to receive the message I carry.
May we all walk in Beauty, Aho
PS my web-site is up, not 100% done but are they ever, feel free to check it out and give me feedback if something doesn’t make sense or whatever else you might notice that I may have missed. Much Gratitude to each and everyone of you! Muuuahhh (aka kissing noises;)
www.healingwithfoods.net
I am back in Bethel and begin teaching yoga at the college this monday evening.
My intention is, to the best of my ability, teach truth and challenge the physical body in hopes to inspire and stimulate healing for my students by brining them back into their bodies.
With a break in the -20 below weather today (its 4 above) I seized the opportunity to reconnect and being working with the nature spirits and the large alien entity that is leaving the area at this time. I buried the harmonizer, a balance, intention, a gift for the land and a single drop of rose otto in the center of the medicine wheel as directed by my guides and now I am basking in the beauty of the sun flooding my living room and giving gratitude for the blanket of clouds covering the sky and warming the air.
A huge shift is without a doubt upon us and I feel super-charged and so excited everyday by the power and desire to create positive change in an area that has been dimmed and bleak for so long. I see it and feel it so clearly that I am sure it has already happened.
I am excited about this 90 day journey and feel so honored to be a part of this group and to know each and everyone of you. I am in love with potatoes right now and for the first time in my life excited to speak publicly and share everything I have gathered and learned over the last 5 years with those ready to receive the message I carry.
May we all walk in Beauty, Aho
PS my web-site is up, not 100% done but are they ever, feel free to check it out and give me feedback if something doesn’t make sense or whatever else you might notice that I may have missed. Much Gratitude to each and everyone of you! Muuuahhh (aka kissing noises;)
www.healingwithfoods.net
Sunday, January 15
Writing, Writing and Writing
Hello to everyone,
I am honored once again for this transformational experience and the connection with all of you. In what ever form you are a part and I am grateful. Working in three palaces, Health, Wealth and Prosperity this time around~ Ready and Open!!!
I am writing, something that I love and something that I resist. Committed to write everyday, even if only a journal entry from Rumi reading. I am writing! Started "the book" today after many pokes from several different sources. I am writing........................
Here is my personal blog entry, instead of repeating it here:
http://michellelynx.blogspot.com/2012/01/moving-forward.html
Many blessing to everyone on their journey this year in what ever form it takes....
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE..........
Michelle Lynx
I am honored once again for this transformational experience and the connection with all of you. In what ever form you are a part and I am grateful. Working in three palaces, Health, Wealth and Prosperity this time around~ Ready and Open!!!
I am writing, something that I love and something that I resist. Committed to write everyday, even if only a journal entry from Rumi reading. I am writing! Started "the book" today after many pokes from several different sources. I am writing........................
Here is my personal blog entry, instead of repeating it here:
http://michellelynx.blogspot.com/2012/01/moving-forward.html
Many blessing to everyone on their journey this year in what ever form it takes....
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE..........
Michelle Lynx
Sunday, January 8
Welcome to the Sacred Talking Circle
Once again it is that time of year where we take 90 days to focus on the process of clearing and transforming our constitutional patterns. I am very excited, as every year has brought me an increased level of well-being, self understanding, and alignment to purpose. I am beginning my 7th year this year, and only just a few days ago have I had a clear vision of where this program is going and what it will become.
This year I am guided to diverge from the normal process of releasing one of the extra meridians, and wearing gemstones on very different points. My guidance showed me that the whole purpose of the 7th year is related, but different. This year Michael and I will not be working on any palace, but instead will be unifying our personal frequencies and transforming any resistance in body, mind, and spirit, to the embodiment of unity consciousness.
I am very grateful and excited to do this work, and excited for the shift that is already beginning for us. I intend to begin the core foods fast next week, and will start the rest of the program at the same time. Welcome to each of you who has found truth and value in this process,and may this year bring your best transformational experience ever!
In Love,
Kathryn
This year I am guided to diverge from the normal process of releasing one of the extra meridians, and wearing gemstones on very different points. My guidance showed me that the whole purpose of the 7th year is related, but different. This year Michael and I will not be working on any palace, but instead will be unifying our personal frequencies and transforming any resistance in body, mind, and spirit, to the embodiment of unity consciousness.
I am very grateful and excited to do this work, and excited for the shift that is already beginning for us. I intend to begin the core foods fast next week, and will start the rest of the program at the same time. Welcome to each of you who has found truth and value in this process,and may this year bring your best transformational experience ever!
In Love,
Kathryn
Monday, April 11
2011 Medicine Wheel Journey Comes to a Close
It is with deep gratitude to all participants that I acknowledge the closure of this journey. Once again we have walked through the four directions in 90 days, holding a space for our own recognition of deeper parts of ourselves; providing forms for unveiling and healing old patterns and habits; choosing the changes that we desire to become.
B Thunder and I will offer this space again next year, possibly with the addition of a weekly talking circle. We send out blessings to each of you who participated with us, and may the seeds that were planted here grow into strong and sturdy plants in your lives.
In Our Deepest Gratitude,
Kachina and B Thunder
B Thunder and I will offer this space again next year, possibly with the addition of a weekly talking circle. We send out blessings to each of you who participated with us, and may the seeds that were planted here grow into strong and sturdy plants in your lives.
In Our Deepest Gratitude,
Kachina and B Thunder
Sunday, April 3
Saturday, April 2
Learning to Spit
I apologize in advance for the graphic nature of my BLOG post today. I can not say what needs to be said without it.
Two weeks ago, B. Thunder and I gradually began to experience what turned into a very major cleansing event for both of us. It has been many years since we had a cleansing experience of this intensity. Always when they first come on, we tend to think in an old way, wondering if this time it is really a virus or bug of some kind.
As we sat day after day in our living area, sipping water and saturating our spines with essential oils, first B. Thunder and then I, went into that place of ultimate surrender when the symptoms are so intense that all one can do is to keep breathing, one breath at a time. B.Thunder labored with a severe pain in his head, one that could not be relieved by any of our arsenal of support treatments. After three days of this pain, he looked at me with eyes that said, "I am ready to leave the planet", and I stood by powerless to help him, knowing that this was his own version of releasing the pain body. I just tried to be present for him and bring cold wash cloths for his head.
Almost a week later, after I had begun cleansing symptoms too, I was in the midst of one of the deepest spasming cough attacks I could imagine. It brought up deep body memories of a time when I was around 10 or 11 years old, and I contracted pneumonia. The same deep barking cough that nearly turned me inside out, made it very difficult to breathe, and brought on fatigue whenever it ended. I had wondered before if the pattern was actually gone, since it had disappeared for many years; or if I had just learned how to support my body's process to avoid activating it. I knew it's re-appearance now represented an opportunity of great value, even though it was extremely uncomfortable.
Last night was the final unwinding of this pattern. As I sat up in a chair trying to sleep, my chest and abdomen spasming out of control with coughing, B.Thunder had a "download" from some source of great wisdom. He had me lie down and put his hands on my solar plexus and on my abdomen; and breathe, deeply and rhythmically. At first I could not, as my nasal passages were completely blocked. But I kept trying and he kept returning my attention to the core, and had me breathe through the prana tube. Very gradually, the spasm subsided. I felt tension unwind from my cells; chest, head, abdomen, diaphragm, spine, shoulders, hands, feet. Every part of my body released and my whole being shifted.
The rest of the night I slept like a baby. I dreamed about the many times I had experienced this "pattern" in my body throughout childhood, seeing how I had been working against my body and even making the symptoms worse. Now with B. Thunder's blessing, I was learning how to cough up and spit out the mucus, to work with my body.
In my dreams, I saw myself as a 6 year old boy in Peru. I was walking on a 13 mile trail with my father to town. I had a bad cold, and began to cough. He laughed and made light of it all, cheering me on, urging me to cough it up and spit it out, patting me on the back as I cleared by breathing passages. I was happy, and had no fear of sickness.
Then the dream shifted to the current physical lifetime, and I was 3 years old. I was getting ready for church and climbing into the car with my Mom and Dad. I had a cold, and began to cough. This time the response was very different. I heard, "Don't cough so hard, you are going to hurt yourself! Here, take a cough drop. You scare Mommy and Daddy when you cough like that!"
And I was now a witness to the unconscious programming that had been assimilated into my very cells. I stopped using antibiotics over 30 years ago, yet I only now have access to unwind the programming of suppression from my cellular structure. I know this is the gift I am receiving through this, my 6th journey through the medicine wheel, healing an ancestral pattern that reaches back 6 generations.
I can only welcome this understanding, and send prayers of gratitude and appreciation for this amazing healing process; for my partner B. Thunder and his innate wisdom; and for the Ancestors that line up behind us all when we begin to heal for them.
In Love and Gratitude,
Kachina
Two weeks ago, B. Thunder and I gradually began to experience what turned into a very major cleansing event for both of us. It has been many years since we had a cleansing experience of this intensity. Always when they first come on, we tend to think in an old way, wondering if this time it is really a virus or bug of some kind.
As we sat day after day in our living area, sipping water and saturating our spines with essential oils, first B. Thunder and then I, went into that place of ultimate surrender when the symptoms are so intense that all one can do is to keep breathing, one breath at a time. B.Thunder labored with a severe pain in his head, one that could not be relieved by any of our arsenal of support treatments. After three days of this pain, he looked at me with eyes that said, "I am ready to leave the planet", and I stood by powerless to help him, knowing that this was his own version of releasing the pain body. I just tried to be present for him and bring cold wash cloths for his head.
Almost a week later, after I had begun cleansing symptoms too, I was in the midst of one of the deepest spasming cough attacks I could imagine. It brought up deep body memories of a time when I was around 10 or 11 years old, and I contracted pneumonia. The same deep barking cough that nearly turned me inside out, made it very difficult to breathe, and brought on fatigue whenever it ended. I had wondered before if the pattern was actually gone, since it had disappeared for many years; or if I had just learned how to support my body's process to avoid activating it. I knew it's re-appearance now represented an opportunity of great value, even though it was extremely uncomfortable.
Last night was the final unwinding of this pattern. As I sat up in a chair trying to sleep, my chest and abdomen spasming out of control with coughing, B.Thunder had a "download" from some source of great wisdom. He had me lie down and put his hands on my solar plexus and on my abdomen; and breathe, deeply and rhythmically. At first I could not, as my nasal passages were completely blocked. But I kept trying and he kept returning my attention to the core, and had me breathe through the prana tube. Very gradually, the spasm subsided. I felt tension unwind from my cells; chest, head, abdomen, diaphragm, spine, shoulders, hands, feet. Every part of my body released and my whole being shifted.
The rest of the night I slept like a baby. I dreamed about the many times I had experienced this "pattern" in my body throughout childhood, seeing how I had been working against my body and even making the symptoms worse. Now with B. Thunder's blessing, I was learning how to cough up and spit out the mucus, to work with my body.
In my dreams, I saw myself as a 6 year old boy in Peru. I was walking on a 13 mile trail with my father to town. I had a bad cold, and began to cough. He laughed and made light of it all, cheering me on, urging me to cough it up and spit it out, patting me on the back as I cleared by breathing passages. I was happy, and had no fear of sickness.
Then the dream shifted to the current physical lifetime, and I was 3 years old. I was getting ready for church and climbing into the car with my Mom and Dad. I had a cold, and began to cough. This time the response was very different. I heard, "Don't cough so hard, you are going to hurt yourself! Here, take a cough drop. You scare Mommy and Daddy when you cough like that!"
And I was now a witness to the unconscious programming that had been assimilated into my very cells. I stopped using antibiotics over 30 years ago, yet I only now have access to unwind the programming of suppression from my cellular structure. I know this is the gift I am receiving through this, my 6th journey through the medicine wheel, healing an ancestral pattern that reaches back 6 generations.
I can only welcome this understanding, and send prayers of gratitude and appreciation for this amazing healing process; for my partner B. Thunder and his innate wisdom; and for the Ancestors that line up behind us all when we begin to heal for them.
In Love and Gratitude,
Kachina
Saturday, March 26
Goodbye Old Friend~
Dear Comfort Zone,
You have been safe and faithful for many years and I am grateful. I could always rely on you and for so long I needed you. That time is over. You have kept me from danger but also from happiness which speaks to my heart. I have met life and I desire the opportunity I see. Our relationship is complete. It is time for me to step out and spend some quality time with my new friend risk. I am ready for the adventure of my dream and while you offer a place that is familiar, the path that risk has to offer will help me move forward. I also leave behind fear and hesitation because where I am going they are not welcome. Please do not worry, my new companions, courage and wisdom are with me and my journey meets up with abundance and love. Again, I am grateful for our time together...
Goodbye,
Michelle Lynx Lyall
Thursday, March 24
Duality
I have been quite emotional lately. Emotions that are more extreme than what I am experiencing in the moment. Hurts. I don't feel quite like myself either. Like, how did I get to be this way?
I am finding it very difficult to be in the world. There must be some part of me that is so good at sabotage that I have found a way to stay "alone" and to kill myself slowly.
I look at my body and I see neglect and abuse.
I feel my heart who aches for a full loving world and yet I keep the world for the most part at a distance, except at work for some reason. Then I get hurt by little things that people in my life say or reflect to me.
Shame for allowing myself to get to this place. Doubt for even having these feelings, I should be grateful that I am not X Y or Z, what do I have to be upset about. You know all of that crap.
Fear of not "doing it right."
Guilt for "doing it wrong" or out of Grace.
Until I completely withdraw from the world.
Not following through on commitments.
Is this even true? I feel so confused. I trust that this is part of the process and yet I resist.
I know there are gems here. I trust that I will find them. I trust that I will find my courage and grace. I have paint brushes waiting for me, I have a drum that is waiting, I have a crystal bowl that longs to sing with me, I have the whole entire world and Great Mystery too. How far will I go down into the depths this time before I fly out like the Phoenix. Do I have the courage to love myself enough. I guess I wasn't given this name for nothing.
Thanks for listening to my rants, I really needed to get this out before it was buried again. Aho.
Tuesday, March 22
Double Blog
I posted in my personal blog a post for this blog and decided to just link the two instead of changing.
I am humbly grateful...................
Michelle
Sunday, March 20
Completion in Its Own Time
This morning when I awakened, after participating in an amazing ceremony last nigh with Blue Thunder and the Grandmothers, I received an unexpected gift of the north.
Over two years ago, when we first arrived at White Sage Landing to begin building our home and Medicine Wheel in co-creation, I had noticed many horses in and around our area. The presence of the horses brought up memories from my early life, when I had a deep relationship with horses. There came a time when I had to let them go to move forward in life, and I had felt very complete at the time and simply thanked them and moved on.
I had still remained connected to horses, and received visits from them from time to time in the spirit world. Once in a great while, I would be connected with someone in the physical world who needed assistance in communicating with their horse, and would always do my best to bridge the communication between them, and deliver whatever message was asked with a healing intention.
And when I was once again surrounded by many horses, I felt the need to call upon the horses of my past and acknowledge their beautiful teachings that had been so freely given and rarely understood by me back then. I asked forgiveness for any harm I might have done unconsciously or consciously to them, and I sent to them my love and gratitude.
Now, two years later, while going into the completion of the north direction, I have received the gift of completion from the horse people. I awakened this morning with a dream. In this dream, I was revisiting all of the horses I had ever known in my whole life. There were so many more than I first remembered! Each one showed me something that I had received from them, and I began to see how deeply the horses had influenced every aspect of my life.
One horse I had completely forgotten about, was a horse who was blind in one eye. This horse was a very good cow horse on a ranch in Nebraska. I was visiting this ranch, seeking a horse for competitive trail riding. This ranch was known for its trail savvy horses, but they generally sold only a few horses from their ranch, as most were bred to be cow horses for the cowboys. The only one available to me was the blind in one eye horse, because my budget could not begin to accommodate one of their promising young 2 year olds. For some reason, I decided to purchase the horse.
Several weeks later, the people from the ranch were ready to deliver this horse to us. But when they went to load up the horses, my horse had been struck by lightening while standing in the pasture. He was dead instantly.
The Grandfathers were showing me this image this morning, as I had completely forgotten it. I woke up and told Blue Thunder all about it, including the fact that I received a beautiful 2 year old Arabian horse in its place, for no extra charge. I had never acknowledged the Grandfathers' lightening bolt that changed the course of my life; for the horse that came in place of the blind horse taught me more about life and myself than any other horse in my whole life. In fact, he was the horse that helped me shift my consciousness from separation to connection and equality with all beings.
When I told the story to Blue Thunder, I felt tears running down my face. I had felt like I never was able to give back to the horses the way they had given to me, yet their spirits were all around me now, sending me gratitude! They said I had given back to every being on the planet through my choices to live in co-creation and honor all animals. They showed me that I had actually succeeded in their eyes, that all they gave me has come to a beautiful fruition. I could feel the love and support pouring forth from the horse spirits, and Blue Thunder echoed this by saying, "Why do you think horses always come to talk with you whenever they see you? They are honoring you! They are acknowledging that what you have done has helped all animals, because you help create equal conscious relationship for our Earth and all her beings."
In gratitude and humbleness,
Kachina
Over two years ago, when we first arrived at White Sage Landing to begin building our home and Medicine Wheel in co-creation, I had noticed many horses in and around our area. The presence of the horses brought up memories from my early life, when I had a deep relationship with horses. There came a time when I had to let them go to move forward in life, and I had felt very complete at the time and simply thanked them and moved on.
I had still remained connected to horses, and received visits from them from time to time in the spirit world. Once in a great while, I would be connected with someone in the physical world who needed assistance in communicating with their horse, and would always do my best to bridge the communication between them, and deliver whatever message was asked with a healing intention.
And when I was once again surrounded by many horses, I felt the need to call upon the horses of my past and acknowledge their beautiful teachings that had been so freely given and rarely understood by me back then. I asked forgiveness for any harm I might have done unconsciously or consciously to them, and I sent to them my love and gratitude.
Now, two years later, while going into the completion of the north direction, I have received the gift of completion from the horse people. I awakened this morning with a dream. In this dream, I was revisiting all of the horses I had ever known in my whole life. There were so many more than I first remembered! Each one showed me something that I had received from them, and I began to see how deeply the horses had influenced every aspect of my life.
One horse I had completely forgotten about, was a horse who was blind in one eye. This horse was a very good cow horse on a ranch in Nebraska. I was visiting this ranch, seeking a horse for competitive trail riding. This ranch was known for its trail savvy horses, but they generally sold only a few horses from their ranch, as most were bred to be cow horses for the cowboys. The only one available to me was the blind in one eye horse, because my budget could not begin to accommodate one of their promising young 2 year olds. For some reason, I decided to purchase the horse.
Several weeks later, the people from the ranch were ready to deliver this horse to us. But when they went to load up the horses, my horse had been struck by lightening while standing in the pasture. He was dead instantly.
The Grandfathers were showing me this image this morning, as I had completely forgotten it. I woke up and told Blue Thunder all about it, including the fact that I received a beautiful 2 year old Arabian horse in its place, for no extra charge. I had never acknowledged the Grandfathers' lightening bolt that changed the course of my life; for the horse that came in place of the blind horse taught me more about life and myself than any other horse in my whole life. In fact, he was the horse that helped me shift my consciousness from separation to connection and equality with all beings.
When I told the story to Blue Thunder, I felt tears running down my face. I had felt like I never was able to give back to the horses the way they had given to me, yet their spirits were all around me now, sending me gratitude! They said I had given back to every being on the planet through my choices to live in co-creation and honor all animals. They showed me that I had actually succeeded in their eyes, that all they gave me has come to a beautiful fruition. I could feel the love and support pouring forth from the horse spirits, and Blue Thunder echoed this by saying, "Why do you think horses always come to talk with you whenever they see you? They are honoring you! They are acknowledging that what you have done has helped all animals, because you help create equal conscious relationship for our Earth and all her beings."
In gratitude and humbleness,
Kachina
Wednesday, March 16
So Thankful
Today I am thankful for the validation that I am always taken care of, watched over, guided and helped, even when I forget to ask. So in love and so very, very grateful.
Aho,
Michelle
Tuesday, March 15
Badger...hahaha
So after the meeting I've had some swift realizations. I'm where I need to be for one but more positively I'm where I want to be. In the meeting Blew Thunder mentioned something about setting a high bar for himself. Out of the whole meeting that for me is what stuck clearly...badgering me (no pun intended) hahahaha. We, as a family, have talked about Michelle has set a bar to a level that is at the utmost of aspirations. I see now that it is all about choices and following the ideal at times. Amazingly as Blew spoke about looking at someone else and seeing how "more advanced" they are in their own process aka looking up to them, I have always felt less than. Why do I limit myself to being not good enough I ask? Because I have been given a contract that I embraced to do just enough to get by.
This meeting started the ball rolling for my guidance to kick in and really ask some obvious questions. I wrote in my book the next day, read a little, and spent some time just with and for me. Tuesday I was guided to do a reading. I received some new cards from Michelle for Christmas and use them when I feel like it and not always when I'm "told" to use them. That day I used them and received hilarity frankly. The messages I got from this reading were from Badger reversed (hahahaha) saying "Open your eyes crazy man, look at the big picture, get out of you own damn way." Another from Elk saying pay attention to your dreams and except self love. I received in the West direction the sweatlodge ceremony card, not coincidentally it says look at yourself for what you are and make the changes you want to make to be who you want to be...it's that simple.
Ok, Ok now moving on throughout Tuesday I thought about all of these things plus a bit more and decided to play a little drum and go into the medicine wheel. I prayed with my son and showed him a way to give thanks and make offerings to the directions. We spent about an hour and a half there but it felt like a minute.
Now last night I have this dream of only crickets and me drawing a bow and arrow. I laughed at how the crickets tickled my body. I couldn't believe how focused I became when I drew the arrow back releasing it at a target with a big red heart on it. So feeling the simple joy of the tickley crickets and the focus of the "heart" of the problem, which I found is me not following my heart it made for some great lessons and a new focus. The focus being that I'm allowed to set the bar at what ever level I want and I'm allowed to achieve that level by being true to myself.
I feel like what I've gotten myself into is looking at the same issues with the same set of eyes...not looking at the big picture. Also the heart on the target represents the correct path and the ease of following the arrow. Ultimately I'm excited for where I'm at in the West, with only one day left. Then I can join the rest of the group in the North whole heartedly as I will be fully there. Upward and onward, the last few days were a great few days for lessons.
Thanks
Eagle Eye
This meeting started the ball rolling for my guidance to kick in and really ask some obvious questions. I wrote in my book the next day, read a little, and spent some time just with and for me. Tuesday I was guided to do a reading. I received some new cards from Michelle for Christmas and use them when I feel like it and not always when I'm "told" to use them. That day I used them and received hilarity frankly. The messages I got from this reading were from Badger reversed (hahahaha) saying "Open your eyes crazy man, look at the big picture, get out of you own damn way." Another from Elk saying pay attention to your dreams and except self love. I received in the West direction the sweatlodge ceremony card, not coincidentally it says look at yourself for what you are and make the changes you want to make to be who you want to be...it's that simple.
Ok, Ok now moving on throughout Tuesday I thought about all of these things plus a bit more and decided to play a little drum and go into the medicine wheel. I prayed with my son and showed him a way to give thanks and make offerings to the directions. We spent about an hour and a half there but it felt like a minute.
Now last night I have this dream of only crickets and me drawing a bow and arrow. I laughed at how the crickets tickled my body. I couldn't believe how focused I became when I drew the arrow back releasing it at a target with a big red heart on it. So feeling the simple joy of the tickley crickets and the focus of the "heart" of the problem, which I found is me not following my heart it made for some great lessons and a new focus. The focus being that I'm allowed to set the bar at what ever level I want and I'm allowed to achieve that level by being true to myself.
I feel like what I've gotten myself into is looking at the same issues with the same set of eyes...not looking at the big picture. Also the heart on the target represents the correct path and the ease of following the arrow. Ultimately I'm excited for where I'm at in the West, with only one day left. Then I can join the rest of the group in the North whole heartedly as I will be fully there. Upward and onward, the last few days were a great few days for lessons.
Thanks
Eagle Eye
Sunday, March 13
Into the North
We've just finished our talking circle moving into the North and I want to let you all know how deeply connected I feel to each of you. My heart is richly and fully expanded and I just don't want that to end. Blogging all night is not the answer but know I'm deeply loving each of you. Aho. Maggie
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