I haven't been able to write till now, it's a "rule" and I just can't follow them. This for me is pretty hilarious. Starting in childhood and on into adulthood, whatever the "rules" were I followed even if it went against my heart. From keeping family secrets, staying in an abusive marriage, and sacrificing myself to everyone and everything to something as simple is following the lead of another if they said it was the "rule". Over time I have rebelled against one rule for another as I awaken to more truth but I never let go of the ridgid idea of doing everything just right without room for failure. Interestingly enough I am here at this point that I cannot seem to follow any "rules". I started this program with the understanding that I am not to question and only to trust. The struggle with "rules" started there as my layout for this 90 day journey does not follow the same "rules" as the last one. It's clear that the "rules" I understand, I cannot follow and the new ones I create are out of reach. With that said, in gratitude and laughter, I surrender to freedom, I let go of the "rules" and trust the unknown to the fullest, question and rule free.
I am listening and I hear, in gratitude, Michelle
