With tomorrow being a Blue Cosmic Storm, (my glyph)-and a portal, and a triple blue day; AND the completion of this 90 day journey, reflecting back on my blood family is up front and center. About three weeks ago, my second oldest brother Greg called me for the second time in 52 years.
At first my mind panicked, of what could be wrong, for Greg has moved back home to assist my mom so she does not have to leave her home. His call was to tell me that he was proud of me, and that he knows that I walked a very challenging path, and he expressed his sadness about being unable to provide the protection that he thought he was responsible for. I felt throughout the conversation that this was his completion call.
Back last June, Kachina and I went to Salt Lake City for my niece's wedding, and at that time I saw the 30 or so medical pharmaceutical prescriptions that he had to take daily. The side effects of these drugs had just about feeblized the one big brother I had looked to for strength while growing up. Now he had to sleep about 20 hours a day, and his body was in constant pain. At that time he told me that he was about done with life. There were only 2 more projects he wanted to complete. At that point, I did not even know what to say, only "you are in my prayers."
His call was the best talk we have ever had. In our conversation I gave him my blessing that we were complete and as far as I am concerned, he was free to cross over. I told him at that time that he had a real opportunity before he crossed over, if he could forgive dad.
Back in present time, Monday I was informed that he was in the hospital with kidney failure. After digesting that concept, I had a chance to review my own journey in life. What gratitude I have for the fork in the road at age twenty-seven of finding sobriety and making different choices, and now reflecting on where I could have been-like Greg. At twenty-seven, I was in worse condition than he was at the same age.
From taking the steps to release my addictions, I have been able to rewrite my entire life and the possibilities that could be. I am a miracle; as a result of that in my moccasin walk gives me permission to tell each and every one of you that there is a miracle inside you too. I am also grateful for each and every one of you that participated with us all. This is one program where progress over perfection leads to healing. Good job all! Aho.
Blew Thunder
Sunday, May 16
New Life Unfolding
I am sitting here in the shade, the hot sun is beating down, and a little breeze is keeping it so comfortable. I am surrounded by wildly singing birds! The variety of songbird life has been steadily increasing, and we have around us a blue bunting, nesting kingbirds, canary like fellows, tanagers, a meadowlark on the hill, and various wrens and sparrows. There is also a new dove that has arrived in White Sage, I have heard of it from other people but have not yet met this European dove for myself.
I am being allowed to witness the full force of nature's ability to recover, regenerate, and openly express the new blueprint-even here in the desert. Voluptuous greens (romaine, red oak leaf, spinach, arugula, parsley, and cilantro) have come up and are thriving, all from last year's seed-for I did not plant any at all this spring. Hen and chicks, delphinium, flax, tarragon, sweetgrass, and several others made it through the long cold winter and are now thriving, blooming, and expanding! For the first time since we arrived, there is a green carpet over much of the land, and bare soil is beginning to disappear.
My gratitude for this amazing journey is complete! And it feels so appropriate for the summer weather to arrive on the very last day of the 90 day journey. As Blew Thunder and I are already creating new ideas for next year's journey, and tomorrow will be our final ceremony with the group, I must admit that this is the FIRST TIME I have felt complete in the 90 day process exactly as it was completing! I am on my 4th time around this particular wheel, and this is the only time I felt that all parts of my being were in sync with the whole process. It is truly a different experience.
For those who have not felt complete, following the previous example of Earth Song, who is just now beginning the west, and will be referring back to the blog over the next two directions is a very powerful choice. There is a lot of potential for shift when we allow our process to unfold in its own time and space.
Others can have success by acknowledging completion to the level that it was for this time around. In a year or two, when they are ready to go deeper, they can choose to do it again and experience a whole different level of synchronicity. I have done it four times now, and each time it continues to bring a fresh, new perspective and new experience to my life.
I thank you all once again, for you are the healers. You who are willing to turn a different direction and descend into the dark, gunky depths of uncertainty to uncover more of who you are... and then create your life from this truth, you are giving a gift to yourselves that benefits our world. Gratitude to each of you. May all your dreams find fulfillment.
With Love,
Kachina
I am being allowed to witness the full force of nature's ability to recover, regenerate, and openly express the new blueprint-even here in the desert. Voluptuous greens (romaine, red oak leaf, spinach, arugula, parsley, and cilantro) have come up and are thriving, all from last year's seed-for I did not plant any at all this spring. Hen and chicks, delphinium, flax, tarragon, sweetgrass, and several others made it through the long cold winter and are now thriving, blooming, and expanding! For the first time since we arrived, there is a green carpet over much of the land, and bare soil is beginning to disappear.
My gratitude for this amazing journey is complete! And it feels so appropriate for the summer weather to arrive on the very last day of the 90 day journey. As Blew Thunder and I are already creating new ideas for next year's journey, and tomorrow will be our final ceremony with the group, I must admit that this is the FIRST TIME I have felt complete in the 90 day process exactly as it was completing! I am on my 4th time around this particular wheel, and this is the only time I felt that all parts of my being were in sync with the whole process. It is truly a different experience.
For those who have not felt complete, following the previous example of Earth Song, who is just now beginning the west, and will be referring back to the blog over the next two directions is a very powerful choice. There is a lot of potential for shift when we allow our process to unfold in its own time and space.
Others can have success by acknowledging completion to the level that it was for this time around. In a year or two, when they are ready to go deeper, they can choose to do it again and experience a whole different level of synchronicity. I have done it four times now, and each time it continues to bring a fresh, new perspective and new experience to my life.
I thank you all once again, for you are the healers. You who are willing to turn a different direction and descend into the dark, gunky depths of uncertainty to uncover more of who you are... and then create your life from this truth, you are giving a gift to yourselves that benefits our world. Gratitude to each of you. May all your dreams find fulfillment.
With Love,
Kachina
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