I feel that in my role of Executrix, I raged and released a bit over the last couple days and now I am softening on the issues with the sale of my mother's beach house. 2 weeks ago, Kathryn told me to stay open and clear in my mind. Important pieces of information are missing on purpose. (That's for sure!) It is all a symphony. She said she could tell me no more and that, "It must be up to you, for you and from you."
I want to handle the issue of my mom's beautiful but non-sustainable summer beach house in a way that takes the high road with thoughtful and heart-filled leadership and the best interest of all in the settlement of my mother's estate. I think now my guidance is telling me not sell the house for another year. Darn, why didn't they just say that in the first place? I guess so I could skirmish with myself through some more tortuous unhealed emotions and attitudes, and lift myself onto higher clearer ground.
My future desire: I ask to be directed to the sacred land I am to caretake, to build a sustainable family retreat that is also my home/work place and a demonstration of creating loving and healing environments through sacred geometry and Divine Creativity, ....and permaculture, renewable energy, ascension, !all our explorations with co-creation! As I said before, my wounded nieces do not want me to part with the home but they do not understand the expense, risk, worry and "burden of ownership" that comes with it. Or that it may put other peoples' future plans on hold. A house is a home and places hold intense presence but we are the people, we hold the memories. Joni reminded me, "Home is where the heart is." I intend to create a sustainable family retreat where my nieces will be happy to visit or live. For this new land, I have been directed to take a Lumerian crystal from the Medicine Wheel at my mother's beach home, this is a crystal that my brother, his wife and I all held in our fingertips together as we set it buried in the center of the wheel there in a ceremony in honor of my mother. I was guided that we place it in the center hole, vertically with a conch set vertically on top and Mom's ashes poured over it and then covered. The four grandchildren placed 4 Lumerians in the 4 directions. Beforehand, everyone was smudged and afterward they complimented the ceremony and wanted to know, "Where did you learn this?!" Less than 5 months later my brother Ben and his wife Barbara crossed over together in the plane crash.
I am working on options to give my nieces another year before selling the house but with conditions that their estate take on some of the expense, responsibility and risk. That will give them more time to heal and may help them decide whether at 19 and 22 they want to take on such a responsibility. I am staying open in mind, reining in my attorney, as I know I am to do this in co-creation and it is a rite of passage for me. Thank you to the spirits of the "Living your Dream" blog for stimulating this mental clarity for me!!! It just happened! I now know better what I want to do ...at least for today!
There is something I am excited about. I followed guidance from my star-being guides as I was doing the energy rebate remodel to my home. I shifted my son's little bedroom to be my "healing room". I painted the walls in a watercolor wash like a rainbow except green. Over a period of time my starbeing guides had guided me to dowse and watercolor paint 22 geometries 8.5"x11", each one 11 days apart for 240 days. I was guided to frame the last 12 of them, glue a specific crystal on each one, and place an arangement of the 12 on the wall. It feels like heaven in there and I was guided to sleep in there until my brother arrives. Vicki said she felt a big heart chakra opening when she went in there. I asked Kathryn if she could give me some information about why it feels so wonderful, supportive, comforting, alluring and clear. She said the geometries had created a very stable healing environment. The space is self-clearing transmuting any negativity, all non-beneficial energies are cleared from the space. The geometries opened a multi-dimensional portal, a form reaching through the dimensions, such there there are lots of potentials and possiblities for healing, it speeds healing and that any healing done there would have a greater effect. Rock on! Thank you, amazing guides! I am excited. So wow, Co-Creation, what else can we do?!!
