Hi everyone...
I have a business out of town (in Bethel, AK), and was away working there this weekend. I missed you all and this connection while I was away, but am happy to report that I was able to maintain my high-frequency diet and did not have any coffee, which was amazingly effortless for once. I am so proud of myself!
I can feel deep changes in myself already, and attribute them to this program. I was stunned to get to Bethel and be confronted with strong feelings that perhaps I have outgrown my business there. I have had my skin care business for 3 1/2 years, and there is no logical reason for me to give it up - at all! I love every bit of it and feel great love from my clients in return. I am able to completely support myself financially by working only 3-4 days every 5 weeks, allowing me much freedom the rest of the time. My business continues to grow and grow and I have a deep loyalty to my clients. I also get to spend precious time with my parents who I otherwise would not see much of.
However, there is something off about it, and I felt it very strongly this past weekend, even though it was a wonderful weekend. I believe my heart is telling me that it's time to move on, and that having this business is somehow holding me in a certain place vibrationally, even though I only work 3-4 days/month. I've been using that as a justification until now to override my intuition. I created this business when I was a very different person, and I think now there is a dis-resonance that I can feel more and more as time goes on. It occurred to me this weekend that I definitely "keep a lid" on who I really am, allowing my clients to only see one (very safe) side of me. I feel like I am so much more than what I have been allowing others to see, and now I want to create something new that honors who I am now! Though it all looks perfect on paper, it's beginning to feel very 12/60.
I have made a new commitment to listen to my Heart, and wonder if I'll have the courage to actually go through with this new change. It feels powerful to admit this to you all, myself included. A recent program I placed in the DiamondHeart medicine wheel and the Bethel medicine wheel was " I shift through synchronicity, desire, and fulfillment." That is what this feels like. Thank you all, Earth Song.
