I am so excited that our 2010 journey has finally begun...I have felt the energy of this group for quite awhile. I will be singing Red Earth at 9:11 this morning. I can't believe how much I have changed in two years, since my last "Living your Dream" experience. I'm also excited that I have not had any coffee or caffeine in 15 days, and I feel amazing! My natural energy levels are so much more balanced now, and perfectly constant throughout the day, unlike with coffee. I have been working on a very strong coffee addiction for many years now, which really helps me to understand others who have addictions. It has been no joke! Anyway, that is in the past, and I know I can do it this time.
Another theme for me in these next 90 days will be boundaries! As I'm beginning to look more and more to myself and less to others for the things I experience in my life, my boundary issues point right back to my own self. I have always been a young woman in business (started when I was 19) and because of that have noticed that I probably get (have allowed myself as I see it now) pushed around and perhaps taken advantage of a lot more than others might, something which has always bothered me tremendously! This pattern has also been predominant in my personal life, and in reflecting on it lately, I have always tried to hide from these situations or let others call the shots, which doesn't feel good. I guess I have felt like a victim of others and have always felt like I had no choice in the situations. I find it very challenging to stick up for myself a lot of the time, especially when dealing with friends, and I especially avoid confrontation.
I am determined to begin to view this differently, and this has come up very strongly for me all of a sudden, first the awareness that I am creating every bit of it and next, the strong desire to change this pattern. I dealt with 3 situations yesterday in which I spoke my truth and it felt so great to be in charge of my own power! My animal totem in the East is Wild Boar "confrontation" and I will be working intimately with him during this phase. I really hope to create permanent change in this area of my life....
I am excited to share the experience of this journey with you all. -Earth Song (my temporary name)
