Yesterday was an unexpected opportunity for Blew Thunder and I to give a gift. It started out as we awakened in the morning, each with a very strong dream about releasing kharma, or moving from kharmic exchange into a state of grace.
Then we walked to our neighbor's home, just to touch base with him on when he wanted us to help him dig post holes for a set of corrals that will be used to house "rescue horses" that are overflowing from the Best Friends Animal Sanctuary. These are horses that have been donated or removed from their owners from various reasons, often because they are no longer fit to do the task that the owner intended for them.
When we arrived at Lin's home, he and his current helper, Tim, were just stepping out to mark the holes for us to dig with the little bobcat post hole digger. It is like a mini-caterpillar with a hole digger on front.
Before we began, I asked the spirits of the land for permission, and dowsed the area to see if there were any non-beneficial energies to be transmuted or addressed before we began. For the first time in this area, there were no energies or issues to address! I was astounded, as there have been so many layers here to address whenever work is done on the land.
The four of us began to work, Lin and Tim doing the layout and Blew Thunder and I drilling the holes. The spirits of the land were eager, even excited, as if they were awaiting the arrival of these horses that would be coming. The digging went very smoothly, and not a single hole was relocated because of rock-another rare occurrence!
Half way through, we took a break and drummed, and sang a song for the ancestors. A woman named Claudia (a massage therapist from Kanab) arrived, and brought oranges. The atmosphere became very celabrational, as it does after ceremony at DiamondHeart. It felt like a big pow-wow was going on all around us as we finished out the hole digging. Tim kept the drum going and walked all around the land as we worked, honoring the spirits and Mother Earth. The Anasazi were so strong and present that we could all feel them watching us through the veil.
We were nearly done when two huge eagles soared above us and honored us. We looked and saw that we had been working for 5 hours non-stop, we made 80 holes, and it had gone by in the blink of an eye! The synchronicity we experienced in this day was amazing.
As we went to go home, our neighbor thanked us with tears in his eyes, for he had been waiting for this corral for two years! It was such a delight to give this kind of gift to someone who has given so much to the community here at White Sage, and has not received the acknowlegement for those gifts. It felt truly like a completion was taking place.
And then today, I went to Drunvalo's site and decided to watch his video update from the Serpent of Light book. He explained a lot about the Guatamalan Mayans and Hopi views on the planetary Ascension happening now. It is a great video and well worth watching! The link is here:
http://www.youtube.com/user/DrunvaloFlowerofLife#p/f/14/Wy9TGbE2F-8
It aligns exactly with all the Anasazi have been saying to me. Later today, I was guided to do a ceremony in the medicine wheel, connecting with the Grandmothers and making prayers and intentions for the planetary physical shift that the woodpeckers have been alerting us to in the last few days.
Then BT and I planned some of the details around a new workshop we will offer this summer, soon to be revealed!
In love and service,
Kachina
Monday, April 19
Sunday, April 18
Amazing Outcomes
Hello all, thank you for all you are sharing! I just got back on & read the blog after 2 weeks.
April 7th my brother Francisco tried to harm himself by cutting his wrist. I had to take him to the hospital from which we both knew he would be going to API, a sad realization. He said he was hoping Raquel would not have to know he had cut himself which showed me how far he was from reality. I was very sad that he was being institutionalized again. At our house he had been making juices and helping me cook. I was focussed on encouraging him to clean out toxins. He was not interested himself though he clearly enjoyed the good food. When I connect to him through dowsing I get that he was not yet ready, not yet passed through the madness, that he does want to stay on the planet, wants me to hold the vision. I am told he is whole, all is well and that he loves me. At API he will rarely take my calls and does not want me to visit. He does express gratitude or love when he does sometimes decide to talk.
It was not easy with him here because he was not himself. He was severely depressed. He was not taking his medication though telling me he was. He rarely uttered a word except to say thank you or yes or no. He loves jazz & was listening to Miles Davis's most experimental albums on high volume late at night! He looked so distressed & weighted down. I did not see this coming. I felt his brooding presence and downward energy drawing on my energy. I made affirmations that I receive energy & nourishment directly from Source. Since he left 10 days ago, I have felt my stress unwinding like a corkscrew . Raquel was so sweet with him but it was difficult for her. At least he is now here in Alaska nearby. I am holding the vision.
Yesterday was amazing. A mom came to pick up Raquel for a sleepover. She offered & spent a few minutes facilitating some body talk between me and my wrist. It was simple like "Hello wrist" and waiting for my wrist to answer. Then getting the wrist to say hello and I would answer. Just being acknowledged in this simple way seemed to make my wrist come alive! I began to use it. It reminded me to converse with my wrist which I decided I would do once they left.
When I first tuned in to my guidance I was directed to read the "empowered ascension" section of the spring Food for Ascension newsletter. I recognized my desire for ascension is to be at a vibration to co-create something as exquisite as a flower, the co-creation of Divine and beautiful expressions that assist all life. I was directed to start taking the suggested foods & herbs mentioned there.
Next I checked in with my wrist and it told me all is healing for an amazing outcome: the metal plate will help my connection for automatic drawing of sacred geometry and Syrian DNA patterns that will assist me and others in healing and ascension. You are kidding! The Syrian star beings will be guiding my wrist, not my mind. Yeah, get that head out of there! I will also be drawing them in places on Mother Earth to initiate the release of 3-D energy to allow the influx of 5-D energies, 12-60 for 13/260. For me it will be joyous heart-resonating work that will create abundance. Is anyone getting confirmation here? When I 1st knew who my surgeon was to be I did a balance between his spirit, my spirit and the Divine Planetary Blueprint in my Medicine Wheel. Kathryn said that with the balance I had set myself up for an amazing outcome.
Interestingly, I had been admiring and enjoying Kathryn's drawings in her new recipe book. I particularily was drawn to the drawings on the pink pages, feeling a big heart opening and joy.
Next I was guided to do a Blue Road Healing in the Medicine Wheel for myself and many others that I was told were there waiting. Funny, I had been asking for several days to do one and always being guided that I did not need to. I had been feeling heavy, low, cloudy and uncertain for days and now I get the go ahead.
I did a beautiful ceremony of gratitude and the Blue Road Healing. Lastly I was guided to ask for Divine Assistance for my brother Francisco and for Tammy's brother using the rose quartz egg that Tammy gifted to me for brother medicine.
I came inside and made some of Kathryn's Vegan Cowboy Beans, yum, yeeha! What a shift this day! Thank you amazing Universe! Thank you teachers!
(p.s. My heart was joyous to hear mention of my brother Bennett present and assisting at White Sage. Thank you for that message!!!!!!!!!!!!)
SkyWalker Sings with her Heart
April 7th my brother Francisco tried to harm himself by cutting his wrist. I had to take him to the hospital from which we both knew he would be going to API, a sad realization. He said he was hoping Raquel would not have to know he had cut himself which showed me how far he was from reality. I was very sad that he was being institutionalized again. At our house he had been making juices and helping me cook. I was focussed on encouraging him to clean out toxins. He was not interested himself though he clearly enjoyed the good food. When I connect to him through dowsing I get that he was not yet ready, not yet passed through the madness, that he does want to stay on the planet, wants me to hold the vision. I am told he is whole, all is well and that he loves me. At API he will rarely take my calls and does not want me to visit. He does express gratitude or love when he does sometimes decide to talk.
It was not easy with him here because he was not himself. He was severely depressed. He was not taking his medication though telling me he was. He rarely uttered a word except to say thank you or yes or no. He loves jazz & was listening to Miles Davis's most experimental albums on high volume late at night! He looked so distressed & weighted down. I did not see this coming. I felt his brooding presence and downward energy drawing on my energy. I made affirmations that I receive energy & nourishment directly from Source. Since he left 10 days ago, I have felt my stress unwinding like a corkscrew . Raquel was so sweet with him but it was difficult for her. At least he is now here in Alaska nearby. I am holding the vision.
Yesterday was amazing. A mom came to pick up Raquel for a sleepover. She offered & spent a few minutes facilitating some body talk between me and my wrist. It was simple like "Hello wrist" and waiting for my wrist to answer. Then getting the wrist to say hello and I would answer. Just being acknowledged in this simple way seemed to make my wrist come alive! I began to use it. It reminded me to converse with my wrist which I decided I would do once they left.
When I first tuned in to my guidance I was directed to read the "empowered ascension" section of the spring Food for Ascension newsletter. I recognized my desire for ascension is to be at a vibration to co-create something as exquisite as a flower, the co-creation of Divine and beautiful expressions that assist all life. I was directed to start taking the suggested foods & herbs mentioned there.
Next I checked in with my wrist and it told me all is healing for an amazing outcome: the metal plate will help my connection for automatic drawing of sacred geometry and Syrian DNA patterns that will assist me and others in healing and ascension. You are kidding! The Syrian star beings will be guiding my wrist, not my mind. Yeah, get that head out of there! I will also be drawing them in places on Mother Earth to initiate the release of 3-D energy to allow the influx of 5-D energies, 12-60 for 13/260. For me it will be joyous heart-resonating work that will create abundance. Is anyone getting confirmation here? When I 1st knew who my surgeon was to be I did a balance between his spirit, my spirit and the Divine Planetary Blueprint in my Medicine Wheel. Kathryn said that with the balance I had set myself up for an amazing outcome.
Interestingly, I had been admiring and enjoying Kathryn's drawings in her new recipe book. I particularily was drawn to the drawings on the pink pages, feeling a big heart opening and joy.
Next I was guided to do a Blue Road Healing in the Medicine Wheel for myself and many others that I was told were there waiting. Funny, I had been asking for several days to do one and always being guided that I did not need to. I had been feeling heavy, low, cloudy and uncertain for days and now I get the go ahead.
I did a beautiful ceremony of gratitude and the Blue Road Healing. Lastly I was guided to ask for Divine Assistance for my brother Francisco and for Tammy's brother using the rose quartz egg that Tammy gifted to me for brother medicine.
I came inside and made some of Kathryn's Vegan Cowboy Beans, yum, yeeha! What a shift this day! Thank you amazing Universe! Thank you teachers!
(p.s. My heart was joyous to hear mention of my brother Bennett present and assisting at White Sage. Thank you for that message!!!!!!!!!!!!)
SkyWalker Sings with her Heart
Saturday, April 17
Mother Earth and the Mer-Ka-Ba
I have told this story before, yet it is still so meaningful to us today that I feel compelled to tell it again.
In 1999, in December, I received an invitation from from a group sponsoring an Aromatherapy Convention in Arizona. They were scheduled for February or March, and asked for early reservations.
At that time, Blew Thunder and I were struggling financially, as our business at Mariposa Whole Life Center had dissolved when the city of Anchorage took over the property in an imminent domain takeover. I glanced at the flyer and threw it away, not even considering going as an option, since I did not have the funds for a plane ticket, let alone the conference cost.
As the date drew very close, I was reminded of the conference with another flyer in the mail. Then one morning Blew Thunder woke up and said, "I think you should go to Arizona. I have enough frequent flyer miles to get you there. There is a reason to go!"
It was a really fast decision, and while Blew Thunder arranged the ticket schedule, I called my parents who lived near the conference hotel and arranged to stay with them. Everything fell together and in a matter of days, I was on the plane from Anchorage to Seattle, en route to Phoenix.
It was a red-eye flight, so as we were coming in to Seattle, it looked like a beautiful sunny morning just dawning on the horizon. I buckled my seatbelt as we prepared for landing. As we were approaching the airport, the angels suddenly cam in to my awareness. They quickly asked me to visualize a mer-ka-ba (special star tetrahedron shaped energy field) around the city of Seattle. They quickly brought my consciousness to an area in each direction where the mer-ka-ba field ended, (the western edge was out in the ocean), and had me breathe life light into the field. Then they said everything was ready.
I asked the angels what was going to happen, I remember wondering if the plane was going to crash, but they would not tell me. Instead they just shined me in a beautiful light that made it literally impossible for me to be afraid. At that moment, I was unconcerned if I lived or died, I felt so totally connected to source that the details just did not matter!
The plane came down smoothly, and I just sort of put the whole experience in my "wait and see" file, and went to collect my baggage. I had walked only a few yards from the gate (I remember being right next to a yogurt store) when the earth began to rumble and shake. People started running all around, and the angels told me to step over right next to a huge support pillar and stay there until the shaking stops.
Very calmly, I stood next to this great round column and watched as ceiling tles came down all around me and the lights went out in the yogurt store. I felt the heightened senses of full presence, without any fear of panic. I just kept breathing this calmness into the mer-ka-ba, the feeling of grace and that everything is in perfect synchronicity.
In a little while the shaking stopped and people were clearing the building. Many had gone outside on the tarmac. I walked back to the gate and watched the tv there. The news crews were on it immediately, and were already filming areas of damage, responses from individuals, etc.
The first scientists they talked to calculated this as a 7.0 earthquake. Yet, as we watched over the course of the day, there was not a single individual that was killed or seriously injured in this huge city!!!
Many ambulances and emergency crews began to report that they were responding to great numbers of panic attacks, and one individual did die of a heart attack during the quake. There was damage to highways, bridges, and office buildings. In any other situation, with this level of a quake, at the busy 9-10 am time frame, there would have been many fatalities.
I knew that being consciously involved in this event, holding the mer-ka-ba energy field of grace in the city as it rocked, combined with the level of consciousness of the general population in Seattle, all combined to co-create a completely different reality of the experience of earthquake on Mother Earth. I was so blessed to be a part of this!
The angels later told me that the humans would be so astounded at the outcome that they would override the first scientific calculations and down-grade the quake strength to somewhere around a 4 or 5. This was the only way they could make sense of it! And sure enough, by the next day, they had done just that. They though it could not have been what it was and result in no fatalities!
In about 24 hours, the airport was able to open again and I was back on the plane to complete my journey. I knew that the true purpose of the journey had already happened for me. I enjoyed the rest of my trip, and thanked the angels for helping me to learn more about how to usse the mer-ka-ba field through experience.
Many blessings!
Kachina
In 1999, in December, I received an invitation from from a group sponsoring an Aromatherapy Convention in Arizona. They were scheduled for February or March, and asked for early reservations.
At that time, Blew Thunder and I were struggling financially, as our business at Mariposa Whole Life Center had dissolved when the city of Anchorage took over the property in an imminent domain takeover. I glanced at the flyer and threw it away, not even considering going as an option, since I did not have the funds for a plane ticket, let alone the conference cost.
As the date drew very close, I was reminded of the conference with another flyer in the mail. Then one morning Blew Thunder woke up and said, "I think you should go to Arizona. I have enough frequent flyer miles to get you there. There is a reason to go!"
It was a really fast decision, and while Blew Thunder arranged the ticket schedule, I called my parents who lived near the conference hotel and arranged to stay with them. Everything fell together and in a matter of days, I was on the plane from Anchorage to Seattle, en route to Phoenix.
It was a red-eye flight, so as we were coming in to Seattle, it looked like a beautiful sunny morning just dawning on the horizon. I buckled my seatbelt as we prepared for landing. As we were approaching the airport, the angels suddenly cam in to my awareness. They quickly asked me to visualize a mer-ka-ba (special star tetrahedron shaped energy field) around the city of Seattle. They quickly brought my consciousness to an area in each direction where the mer-ka-ba field ended, (the western edge was out in the ocean), and had me breathe life light into the field. Then they said everything was ready.
I asked the angels what was going to happen, I remember wondering if the plane was going to crash, but they would not tell me. Instead they just shined me in a beautiful light that made it literally impossible for me to be afraid. At that moment, I was unconcerned if I lived or died, I felt so totally connected to source that the details just did not matter!
The plane came down smoothly, and I just sort of put the whole experience in my "wait and see" file, and went to collect my baggage. I had walked only a few yards from the gate (I remember being right next to a yogurt store) when the earth began to rumble and shake. People started running all around, and the angels told me to step over right next to a huge support pillar and stay there until the shaking stops.
Very calmly, I stood next to this great round column and watched as ceiling tles came down all around me and the lights went out in the yogurt store. I felt the heightened senses of full presence, without any fear of panic. I just kept breathing this calmness into the mer-ka-ba, the feeling of grace and that everything is in perfect synchronicity.
In a little while the shaking stopped and people were clearing the building. Many had gone outside on the tarmac. I walked back to the gate and watched the tv there. The news crews were on it immediately, and were already filming areas of damage, responses from individuals, etc.
The first scientists they talked to calculated this as a 7.0 earthquake. Yet, as we watched over the course of the day, there was not a single individual that was killed or seriously injured in this huge city!!!
Many ambulances and emergency crews began to report that they were responding to great numbers of panic attacks, and one individual did die of a heart attack during the quake. There was damage to highways, bridges, and office buildings. In any other situation, with this level of a quake, at the busy 9-10 am time frame, there would have been many fatalities.
I knew that being consciously involved in this event, holding the mer-ka-ba energy field of grace in the city as it rocked, combined with the level of consciousness of the general population in Seattle, all combined to co-create a completely different reality of the experience of earthquake on Mother Earth. I was so blessed to be a part of this!
The angels later told me that the humans would be so astounded at the outcome that they would override the first scientific calculations and down-grade the quake strength to somewhere around a 4 or 5. This was the only way they could make sense of it! And sure enough, by the next day, they had done just that. They though it could not have been what it was and result in no fatalities!
In about 24 hours, the airport was able to open again and I was back on the plane to complete my journey. I knew that the true purpose of the journey had already happened for me. I enjoyed the rest of my trip, and thanked the angels for helping me to learn more about how to usse the mer-ka-ba field through experience.
Many blessings!
Kachina
Friday, April 16
Woodpecker Heralds Change
Early this morning, Blew Thunder and I were greeted with the drumming of a woodpecker on the wall by our bed. This woodpecker pecked into my dreams and helped me to remember what the Grandmothers were saying to me in my dreamtime.
Lately there has been a quickening of earthquakes and volcanic activity that is evident to almost everyone. Yesterday evening, the whole hour of news on channel 2 was dedicated to the 4.0 earthquake in northern Utah that occurred yesterday morning. This is a very rare event for this area, which has been stable for a long period.
At the same time right now on Mother earth, there are earthquakes happening in Europe, South America, and Indonesia. There are activating volcanos in Alaska and Iceland. In light of all that is happening on our physical plane, the Grandmothers asked me to disseminate this message to all who would hear it.
Mother Earth is getting ready to take us all on a little journey of physical change. As these events accelerate, it is UP TO US how we experience these changes. If we perceive these changes as events that are beyond our control, that are "happening to us", we will experience that reality of powerlessness and victimization.
If we choose instead to remain in the consciousness of the heart, knowing that we are loved, that nothing happens by chance, and that we are participating in a physical healing process for Mother Earth, we will experience a completely different reality. IT IS UP TO US!
Knowing this, the understanding of this time of purification of our own physical bodies, about which tskarrow so eloquently wrote on April 15, is what has prepared us to move through these changes in trust instead of fear. Each of us in this 90 Day program have had our dance with moving from fear and distrust of our bodies' healing process into trust and acknowledgment.
We once felt that we had to get the body under control, and do things to make it heal. Gradually we began to see sickness as cleansing, balancing, or healing. We began to trust the body in its own processes, no matter what the symptoms, and finally to support those processes with herbs, massage, movement, intention, and other forms of support. Gradually our consciousness moved from fear and separation from the body, to participation and unity.
This shift, on a much larger scale, is the exact same shift that we will be undergoing now in the next few years on Mother Earth. Instead of distrust and separation from the consciousness and intelligence of the body, we will be transforming distrust and separation from the consciousness of Mother Earth herself.
Knowing that we may be in an area that experiences some of the changes on a large physical scale, there are also some tools that we all have in our toolboxes that I want to remind us of in this moment. One is the ability to meditate and go into a sacred space. If you should find yourself in an area where the external space is falling apart around you, you will remember in that moment to turn your attention inward to that sacred space of the heart.
Close your eyes and take 4 deep breaths. In that moment, the heart connection is made strong. When fear and chaos are howling around us, but we go inward and relax, we suddenly can draw upon the most magical guidance and experience of unity. We will instantly know where to go, what to do, how to be in grace through any situation.
For those who have activated the light body, it is now time to begin using it. When you hear the little prompting of spirit to go into the light body and connect, deep into the stillpoint at the center of the Earth, follow that prompting! Everything can change in the blink of an eye. You can become a participant in co-creation with Mother Earth. Tomorrow I will write about an experience I had in Seattle in a 6.8 earthquake there.
Many blessings,
Kachina
Lately there has been a quickening of earthquakes and volcanic activity that is evident to almost everyone. Yesterday evening, the whole hour of news on channel 2 was dedicated to the 4.0 earthquake in northern Utah that occurred yesterday morning. This is a very rare event for this area, which has been stable for a long period.
At the same time right now on Mother earth, there are earthquakes happening in Europe, South America, and Indonesia. There are activating volcanos in Alaska and Iceland. In light of all that is happening on our physical plane, the Grandmothers asked me to disseminate this message to all who would hear it.
Mother Earth is getting ready to take us all on a little journey of physical change. As these events accelerate, it is UP TO US how we experience these changes. If we perceive these changes as events that are beyond our control, that are "happening to us", we will experience that reality of powerlessness and victimization.
If we choose instead to remain in the consciousness of the heart, knowing that we are loved, that nothing happens by chance, and that we are participating in a physical healing process for Mother Earth, we will experience a completely different reality. IT IS UP TO US!
Knowing this, the understanding of this time of purification of our own physical bodies, about which tskarrow so eloquently wrote on April 15, is what has prepared us to move through these changes in trust instead of fear. Each of us in this 90 Day program have had our dance with moving from fear and distrust of our bodies' healing process into trust and acknowledgment.
We once felt that we had to get the body under control, and do things to make it heal. Gradually we began to see sickness as cleansing, balancing, or healing. We began to trust the body in its own processes, no matter what the symptoms, and finally to support those processes with herbs, massage, movement, intention, and other forms of support. Gradually our consciousness moved from fear and separation from the body, to participation and unity.
This shift, on a much larger scale, is the exact same shift that we will be undergoing now in the next few years on Mother Earth. Instead of distrust and separation from the consciousness and intelligence of the body, we will be transforming distrust and separation from the consciousness of Mother Earth herself.
Knowing that we may be in an area that experiences some of the changes on a large physical scale, there are also some tools that we all have in our toolboxes that I want to remind us of in this moment. One is the ability to meditate and go into a sacred space. If you should find yourself in an area where the external space is falling apart around you, you will remember in that moment to turn your attention inward to that sacred space of the heart.
Close your eyes and take 4 deep breaths. In that moment, the heart connection is made strong. When fear and chaos are howling around us, but we go inward and relax, we suddenly can draw upon the most magical guidance and experience of unity. We will instantly know where to go, what to do, how to be in grace through any situation.
For those who have activated the light body, it is now time to begin using it. When you hear the little prompting of spirit to go into the light body and connect, deep into the stillpoint at the center of the Earth, follow that prompting! Everything can change in the blink of an eye. You can become a participant in co-creation with Mother Earth. Tomorrow I will write about an experience I had in Seattle in a 6.8 earthquake there.
Many blessings,
Kachina
Thursday, April 15
Beautiful Spring
Today around noon Blew Thunder checked the outdoor temperature, it was 80 degrees! The wind was still, there was an amazing hush across the valley, and I could hear birds singing. I spent some time watching a kingbird build her nest out of pieces of deer hair and little twigs. Spring has truly come to White Sage in a big way.
Everything felt new, and fresh , and alive. The aroma of sage brush, the sparkly feeling of mountain air, the dramatic deep blue sky, and the feeling of magical anticipation that heralds spring on the Kaibab plateau, all made me so happy to be alive. I truly felt the blessing of being present here on Mother Earth NOW, for this amazing time the elders called the "time of Purification".
We get to participate in the awakening of human consciousness. We get to live in a human body and experience life, breathe real air, touch, taste, feel, hear, (and sing!) the world. We get to know love, and all its colors and shades.
May each of you share your heart with someone tomorrow.
In Love,
Kachina
Everything felt new, and fresh , and alive. The aroma of sage brush, the sparkly feeling of mountain air, the dramatic deep blue sky, and the feeling of magical anticipation that heralds spring on the Kaibab plateau, all made me so happy to be alive. I truly felt the blessing of being present here on Mother Earth NOW, for this amazing time the elders called the "time of Purification".
We get to participate in the awakening of human consciousness. We get to live in a human body and experience life, breathe real air, touch, taste, feel, hear, (and sing!) the world. We get to know love, and all its colors and shades.
May each of you share your heart with someone tomorrow.
In Love,
Kachina
I have been here and been present with you all, listening and learning through each word in each post. It is beautiful. I feel a familiar beauty in me but it is clouded by a curtain of self-doubt, a piece of me that is just not quite wanting to trust the process...for good reason...
Years back I experienced a major health crisis. My skin and joints were yelling out for help in a majorly uncomfortable and very public way. I overcame and cleansed these things with assistance, and am grateful for that. But through this current 90 day process am experiencing similar cleansing...a scary and uncomfortable reality for me to revisit. Because of this, I am working very hard to let go...let go of the fears that surround my trust in my body's ability to heal, let go of the idea that this is a sickness, let go of the concept that I may always have to "deal" with this. It is so very hard to be faced with symptoms that revert me to an earlier self; full of fear and lacking self confidence. I know that these are cleansing symptoms, my heart knows it is ok, but it is the stubborn mind that remembers the "before pictures" and sets the fear in motion.
So I take this time to make it known that I am not afraid. Fear will not take me to that place I have been and left behind long ago. I will trust in the timing and use this moment to commit to my body to continue to help it along it's path. I will listen to my body and support it with what I best know how. I allow and observe the cleaning powers rush out my limbs. And I care for my limbs as as I have never before. I will repeat to myself that I trust the process, and eventually I will with my whole being, heart and mind together. I will try very hard to stay positive and let go of the fear...for my lesson this 90 days is of letting go...of the past and the future and learning to be here now.
I support you all in your journey's...whatever they may be. Thank you for listening.
I will let go of the river walls and flow with the current...
Years back I experienced a major health crisis. My skin and joints were yelling out for help in a majorly uncomfortable and very public way. I overcame and cleansed these things with assistance, and am grateful for that. But through this current 90 day process am experiencing similar cleansing...a scary and uncomfortable reality for me to revisit. Because of this, I am working very hard to let go...let go of the fears that surround my trust in my body's ability to heal, let go of the idea that this is a sickness, let go of the concept that I may always have to "deal" with this. It is so very hard to be faced with symptoms that revert me to an earlier self; full of fear and lacking self confidence. I know that these are cleansing symptoms, my heart knows it is ok, but it is the stubborn mind that remembers the "before pictures" and sets the fear in motion.
So I take this time to make it known that I am not afraid. Fear will not take me to that place I have been and left behind long ago. I will trust in the timing and use this moment to commit to my body to continue to help it along it's path. I will listen to my body and support it with what I best know how. I allow and observe the cleaning powers rush out my limbs. And I care for my limbs as as I have never before. I will repeat to myself that I trust the process, and eventually I will with my whole being, heart and mind together. I will try very hard to stay positive and let go of the fear...for my lesson this 90 days is of letting go...of the past and the future and learning to be here now.
I support you all in your journey's...whatever they may be. Thank you for listening.
I will let go of the river walls and flow with the current...
Wednesday, April 14
Old Contracts
Wow, today I finally realized that I have spent the whole first half of the 90 days unaware of a very old contract that I am breaking through in a very big way!
The old contract involves doing things on my own, by myself, etc. The unconscious motivation behind this contract is the belief that I have to do things myself in order to create what I want (the results I want, or the level of quality that I want); and the deep desire to control outcome.
I am seeing this issue dissolve in every direction, as I open daily to let go of some little piece that I was unconsciously trying to control. Amazing people are coming across my path to offer help and direction, and the creative element has never been more exciting! Even though I had revealed this to myself several years ago, and done some ceremony around letting go at that time, I feel that this time the last holding pattern in transforming.
I feel myself opening, and receiving the flow of the universe!
This morning I was reminded of one of the Universal Laws of Manifestation. It was the law of the south, the law of circulation. It states that, if there is anything that we desire, especially something that we seem to be lacking in our experience of life, we can create that very thing in our lives by giving it away.
You might say, "How can I give away something I don't have?" But think about it. I wanted to raise my frequency and experience physical ascension, so immediately I began to find ways to help other people raise their frequency. If a person decides they want to live in sobriety, the first thing they often do is to go to group meetings where they can support others who are choosing the same lifestyle. If someone wants to become prosperous, they align with others who are also seeking prosperity, and soon they are all living in true abundance.
My point is, if you are struggling with something that seems impossible to change, find a way to reach out and help others with the same issue! It dissolves all barriers and the universe begins to flow energy into your life in a new form. You will soon receive exactly what you once were struggling to create.
Kachina
The old contract involves doing things on my own, by myself, etc. The unconscious motivation behind this contract is the belief that I have to do things myself in order to create what I want (the results I want, or the level of quality that I want); and the deep desire to control outcome.
I am seeing this issue dissolve in every direction, as I open daily to let go of some little piece that I was unconsciously trying to control. Amazing people are coming across my path to offer help and direction, and the creative element has never been more exciting! Even though I had revealed this to myself several years ago, and done some ceremony around letting go at that time, I feel that this time the last holding pattern in transforming.
I feel myself opening, and receiving the flow of the universe!
This morning I was reminded of one of the Universal Laws of Manifestation. It was the law of the south, the law of circulation. It states that, if there is anything that we desire, especially something that we seem to be lacking in our experience of life, we can create that very thing in our lives by giving it away.
You might say, "How can I give away something I don't have?" But think about it. I wanted to raise my frequency and experience physical ascension, so immediately I began to find ways to help other people raise their frequency. If a person decides they want to live in sobriety, the first thing they often do is to go to group meetings where they can support others who are choosing the same lifestyle. If someone wants to become prosperous, they align with others who are also seeking prosperity, and soon they are all living in true abundance.
My point is, if you are struggling with something that seems impossible to change, find a way to reach out and help others with the same issue! It dissolves all barriers and the universe begins to flow energy into your life in a new form. You will soon receive exactly what you once were struggling to create.
Kachina
Tuesday, April 13
I am a Goddess
I am a Goddess. I am a Dancer. I Dance my Prayers. I Dance my Dreams Awake. I Dance. That is part of my intention for this "90" Days. Who said this was going to be easy? I do want this Ascension Life, Way of Being in the World. I believe that it is Truth. I must also believe in myself, I am starting to understand that now. So, here I am sitting here sipping my Green Pineapple Juice and soon to be eating some vegetable food. I am doing this, it is not 100% like I want it to be. Put the whip down - I have to constantly remind myself of that. Who am I racing, like if I don't do this quickly that it will somehow be too late. I know that I don't want my Body to degenerate anymore and every choice has everything to do with Regeneration, it is so easy to forget. When will I reach the point in the curve when it is easier to be High Frequency than to not be? I know that isn't being the in the Present, but that is what I want. So, here I am Universe. I know I can do this/be this. I know I have the strength and the courage, but first I must have Love. Love for me through and through.
The One Choice
I was reminded last weekend of the time when I first arrived in Alaska, in 1992. I had driven in my little Toyota pick up from Wisconsin across the Dakotas and up through Canada to Anchorage. I made the whole journey with no plan or itinerary, allowing my spirit to guide me as to which highways to take, when to drive, when to stop, and where to sleep. It was a magical time in my experience, when ravens surrounded me everywhere I went, and wolves, coyotes, deer, and bears met with me along the way to give me the gift of their insights and medicine.
Near the end of my journey, as I came within 100 miles of Anchorage, I could feel myself moving back into the kharmic fields around the city. It was a feeling of sadness mixed with compassion for my own give-away; for when I was so clear after two weeks on the highway with minimal human contact and a complete embracing from the world of nature and the animals, I was able to feel the density of the choice I was making. It was hard in a way, because I had found in past 3 years that I could live quite easily in complete trust, with every need always taken care of, without ever entering the 12/60 vibrational field. I simply manifested everything that was necessary for my life, receiving those things from the Ancestors as they were provided. I knew that the level of constant communion with spirit would be challenged as I returned into the world of humanity.
Within the first few weeks of being in Anchorage, I was repeatedly introduced to a group of Lakota people who, along with Athabaskan, Tsimshian, Tlingket, Haida, Cheyenne, Cheroke, Apache, and many other tribal peoples, had initiated the first inter-tribal Drum in the northern country. They talked about the legend that some of the Lakota elders had talked about, that when the big drums (inter-tribal drums) came at last to the northern shores, a great light would shine out of the north and illuminate the world, causing the human beings to remember who they are and why they came here. It would be the beginning of the end of all separation.
A whole group of us newbies joined the drum at the same time. We were passionate about the prophecies, and the energy for new dance groups and new drums began to take off. It was a time when judgment was beginning to unravel, where color and race did not matter, all that mattered was what's in your heart. Elders shared their wisdom and ceremonies with all who wished to participate. The spirit of the Ancestors began to grow in the people and they began to reclaim their power and thrive.
My first few times at the drum were almost scary. These drums carried the spirit of the people, and were regarded as Mother Earth's heartbeat. Their sacredness was honored by walking around them in a clockwise manner. People brought tobacco to scatter across the drum in blessing. The inter-tribal drums had been brought to Anchorage with the intention for healing our communities. Men and women from all walks of life-judges, policemen, teachers, invalids on welfare, ex-cons (many ex-cons), children, and particularly those in recovery from alcohol or substance abuse-all were equally welcome around the drum.
There was only one rule that was strictly enforced. Before being invited to sit at the drum, or even attend an event where the drums were present and open, one had to be completely free of alcohol for two weeks. This was true for drug addictions as well, but the alcohol was the one that gathered the most focus from the elders. They were intent on creating a safe place where alcohol was completely absent, where people could experience the frequency of empowerment that is not available when this substance is in our life/energy field. The elders felt that if people could step into that frequency periodically, over and over, they would begin to make the connection for themselves to the experience of life not under the influence of alcohol.
Gradually, the elders felt, they would begin to make the choice for sobriety. And it was amazing to see, young children giving up alcohol (because they already had experience of it in their lives!) and embracing their inherent wisdom. Men and women with low self-esteem, coming to the drum and finding themselves whole once again. It was such an honor to be allowed to share the songs, healing, life, and dreams of the people who came to the drum.
The drum keepers took their roles very seriously. All the choices they made as a group were prayed over, meditated with, and reflected on to find the choice that would be of the greatest service to the people. They went in the sweat lodge for purification ceremonies regularly, and avoided all contact with anything that they felt would compromise their personal frequencies. Though they were all human, and made some choices that they would later examine and redirect, their dedication to this service was a life choice that inspired them to be more. The elders continued to encourage us all to keep doing ceremony, as it would raise our frequencies in a way that nothing else alone could do. They always said, if we did ceremony and sweat lodges regularly for year after year, pretty soon we would be vibrating at a level that would draw people to us just to experience this frequency.
I remember at the time thinking that it was a little unlikely. Now, after many experiences of this very thing, I now know from experience that what they told me was true. A perfect example of this happened today, as Blew Thunder and I were finishing up our laundry at the Fredonia laundromat.
A neighbor had seen our car in the parking lot and came in to tell us about the Forrest Service Open House that was going on. It was an outreach to the community to gather responses about a proposed limitation of motor vehicle travel on the Kaibab plateau. Many small roads were due to be closed and traffic redirected to larger roads.
Michael and I both felt that we were to go in and visit the open house for some reason. We do not have much experience on the Kaibab plateau, nor do we have an opinion of whether or not to close any roads. Instead, we went in to gather information and make a connection.
When we first walked in to the meeting, we were the only public in the room at that moment. We quickly heard the presentation, then I felt the ancestors begin to urge me to speak on behalf of Mother Earth. Apparently Michael felt the same thing, for he opened his mouth and out came the most amazing things about taking care of the Earth, and how she responds to us when we communicate with her. In a moment, the Grandfathers were talking through us, I could feel the ancestor lights swirling around us as they do in the sweat lodge.
And I watched as one Forrest Service representative after another came into the room, quietly took a place, and listened as though they had never heard this before. It was astounding what the Grandmothers and Grandfathers said through us, and after we were done sharing as we left, they each stepped forward to shake our hands and introduce themselves. I felt as though something had been activated in their hearts that had been asleep for a long, long, time.
And I expressed my gratitude-so much gratitude that it brings tears of joy to my eyes!-that I had the courage to make that one choice for sobriety way back in 1978, then to renew the vow once again with the Northen Lights Drum in 1992. That choice is what opened up the possibility for everything I am now doing with my life. Just that one choice.
Kachina333
Near the end of my journey, as I came within 100 miles of Anchorage, I could feel myself moving back into the kharmic fields around the city. It was a feeling of sadness mixed with compassion for my own give-away; for when I was so clear after two weeks on the highway with minimal human contact and a complete embracing from the world of nature and the animals, I was able to feel the density of the choice I was making. It was hard in a way, because I had found in past 3 years that I could live quite easily in complete trust, with every need always taken care of, without ever entering the 12/60 vibrational field. I simply manifested everything that was necessary for my life, receiving those things from the Ancestors as they were provided. I knew that the level of constant communion with spirit would be challenged as I returned into the world of humanity.
Within the first few weeks of being in Anchorage, I was repeatedly introduced to a group of Lakota people who, along with Athabaskan, Tsimshian, Tlingket, Haida, Cheyenne, Cheroke, Apache, and many other tribal peoples, had initiated the first inter-tribal Drum in the northern country. They talked about the legend that some of the Lakota elders had talked about, that when the big drums (inter-tribal drums) came at last to the northern shores, a great light would shine out of the north and illuminate the world, causing the human beings to remember who they are and why they came here. It would be the beginning of the end of all separation.
A whole group of us newbies joined the drum at the same time. We were passionate about the prophecies, and the energy for new dance groups and new drums began to take off. It was a time when judgment was beginning to unravel, where color and race did not matter, all that mattered was what's in your heart. Elders shared their wisdom and ceremonies with all who wished to participate. The spirit of the Ancestors began to grow in the people and they began to reclaim their power and thrive.
My first few times at the drum were almost scary. These drums carried the spirit of the people, and were regarded as Mother Earth's heartbeat. Their sacredness was honored by walking around them in a clockwise manner. People brought tobacco to scatter across the drum in blessing. The inter-tribal drums had been brought to Anchorage with the intention for healing our communities. Men and women from all walks of life-judges, policemen, teachers, invalids on welfare, ex-cons (many ex-cons), children, and particularly those in recovery from alcohol or substance abuse-all were equally welcome around the drum.
There was only one rule that was strictly enforced. Before being invited to sit at the drum, or even attend an event where the drums were present and open, one had to be completely free of alcohol for two weeks. This was true for drug addictions as well, but the alcohol was the one that gathered the most focus from the elders. They were intent on creating a safe place where alcohol was completely absent, where people could experience the frequency of empowerment that is not available when this substance is in our life/energy field. The elders felt that if people could step into that frequency periodically, over and over, they would begin to make the connection for themselves to the experience of life not under the influence of alcohol.
Gradually, the elders felt, they would begin to make the choice for sobriety. And it was amazing to see, young children giving up alcohol (because they already had experience of it in their lives!) and embracing their inherent wisdom. Men and women with low self-esteem, coming to the drum and finding themselves whole once again. It was such an honor to be allowed to share the songs, healing, life, and dreams of the people who came to the drum.
The drum keepers took their roles very seriously. All the choices they made as a group were prayed over, meditated with, and reflected on to find the choice that would be of the greatest service to the people. They went in the sweat lodge for purification ceremonies regularly, and avoided all contact with anything that they felt would compromise their personal frequencies. Though they were all human, and made some choices that they would later examine and redirect, their dedication to this service was a life choice that inspired them to be more. The elders continued to encourage us all to keep doing ceremony, as it would raise our frequencies in a way that nothing else alone could do. They always said, if we did ceremony and sweat lodges regularly for year after year, pretty soon we would be vibrating at a level that would draw people to us just to experience this frequency.
I remember at the time thinking that it was a little unlikely. Now, after many experiences of this very thing, I now know from experience that what they told me was true. A perfect example of this happened today, as Blew Thunder and I were finishing up our laundry at the Fredonia laundromat.
A neighbor had seen our car in the parking lot and came in to tell us about the Forrest Service Open House that was going on. It was an outreach to the community to gather responses about a proposed limitation of motor vehicle travel on the Kaibab plateau. Many small roads were due to be closed and traffic redirected to larger roads.
Michael and I both felt that we were to go in and visit the open house for some reason. We do not have much experience on the Kaibab plateau, nor do we have an opinion of whether or not to close any roads. Instead, we went in to gather information and make a connection.
When we first walked in to the meeting, we were the only public in the room at that moment. We quickly heard the presentation, then I felt the ancestors begin to urge me to speak on behalf of Mother Earth. Apparently Michael felt the same thing, for he opened his mouth and out came the most amazing things about taking care of the Earth, and how she responds to us when we communicate with her. In a moment, the Grandfathers were talking through us, I could feel the ancestor lights swirling around us as they do in the sweat lodge.
And I watched as one Forrest Service representative after another came into the room, quietly took a place, and listened as though they had never heard this before. It was astounding what the Grandmothers and Grandfathers said through us, and after we were done sharing as we left, they each stepped forward to shake our hands and introduce themselves. I felt as though something had been activated in their hearts that had been asleep for a long, long, time.
And I expressed my gratitude-so much gratitude that it brings tears of joy to my eyes!-that I had the courage to make that one choice for sobriety way back in 1978, then to renew the vow once again with the Northen Lights Drum in 1992. That choice is what opened up the possibility for everything I am now doing with my life. Just that one choice.
Kachina333
Monday, April 12
The Power in Simplicity
I have been in a funk lately, of the worst kind! Lost, hopeless, stagnant.
The feelings of powerlessness in my own creation left me feeling useless and confused. Though my foods were still high vibration I was self medicating with coffee in the morning and wine at night. My vibration lowered to the point where I feel like a blob of solid matter. I attribute this shift in vibration more from my thoughts and feelings about myself lately then my ceilings, thought I'm sure those played a role as well.
Ziji Boombasa and I went on a hike yesterday, it was short but steep. The whole way up I was frustrated and annoyed at how challenging the climb was. I was out of breath, my legs were burning, I had completely succumbed to the negative thoughts in my head, not even noticing where I was and really how good it felt to move my body.
When we got to the top I laid down on a big flat rock. It was so windy and I was so desperate for a shift in perception that I called in Archangel Michael and with the assistance of the wind spirits and the stone people I did a blue road healing. Releasing any part of anything that wasn't me, wasn't beneficial to me and letting it all go, NOW!
Letting the wind purify my aura and cleanse my spirit, I lay there repeating the mantra, visualizing the golden grid of protection around me, expressing my desire to move back into alignment with myself.
I woke up this morning feeling better then I have in a long time. My body craving citrus, I made a juice of grapefruit,lemon and ginger. Cooked a big pot of soup with extra roots, brewed up some parasite tea and began feeding my body what it has been asking for but what I have been consciously denying it.
I looked around at the shift that occurred overnight and was overwhelmed with gratitude that I have the knowledge and tools to support myself on this level.
I am so grateful to know what I know about foods, juices, etheric energy clearing.
I value so deeply all of it especially these experiences of going back and forth between light and dark, these are my lesson, my teachers, showing me first hand the power of a blue road healing, the power of feeding my body what it asks for.
I was overwhelmed with gratitude for these experiences because of them, when the time is right, I will be a better guide and teacher for those who do not yet have the privilege of knowing this information or who have forgotten it during their incarnation.
I can feel my core buzzing right now, I can feel my alignment, my mind is clear.
Body, mind and soul becoming one again, balanced and united.
Apple, parsley and celery is on the menu, it feels soooo good to be back!
The feelings of powerlessness in my own creation left me feeling useless and confused. Though my foods were still high vibration I was self medicating with coffee in the morning and wine at night. My vibration lowered to the point where I feel like a blob of solid matter. I attribute this shift in vibration more from my thoughts and feelings about myself lately then my ceilings, thought I'm sure those played a role as well.
Ziji Boombasa and I went on a hike yesterday, it was short but steep. The whole way up I was frustrated and annoyed at how challenging the climb was. I was out of breath, my legs were burning, I had completely succumbed to the negative thoughts in my head, not even noticing where I was and really how good it felt to move my body.
When we got to the top I laid down on a big flat rock. It was so windy and I was so desperate for a shift in perception that I called in Archangel Michael and with the assistance of the wind spirits and the stone people I did a blue road healing. Releasing any part of anything that wasn't me, wasn't beneficial to me and letting it all go, NOW!
Letting the wind purify my aura and cleanse my spirit, I lay there repeating the mantra, visualizing the golden grid of protection around me, expressing my desire to move back into alignment with myself.
I woke up this morning feeling better then I have in a long time. My body craving citrus, I made a juice of grapefruit,lemon and ginger. Cooked a big pot of soup with extra roots, brewed up some parasite tea and began feeding my body what it has been asking for but what I have been consciously denying it.
I looked around at the shift that occurred overnight and was overwhelmed with gratitude that I have the knowledge and tools to support myself on this level.
I am so grateful to know what I know about foods, juices, etheric energy clearing.
I value so deeply all of it especially these experiences of going back and forth between light and dark, these are my lesson, my teachers, showing me first hand the power of a blue road healing, the power of feeding my body what it asks for.
I was overwhelmed with gratitude for these experiences because of them, when the time is right, I will be a better guide and teacher for those who do not yet have the privilege of knowing this information or who have forgotten it during their incarnation.
I can feel my core buzzing right now, I can feel my alignment, my mind is clear.
Body, mind and soul becoming one again, balanced and united.
Apple, parsley and celery is on the menu, it feels soooo good to be back!
Sunday, April 11
The Universe Never Ceases to Amaze Me
Steve called me from his far away from home job and as he was sharing, I was smiling. It's a given that within a group and sharing there is common issues, feelings, revelations, etc. This is "given" as something I understand. What is amazing, yet not surprising, is how those who are connected to us as we travel this wheel in the 90 day course, travel right along with us. Steve is not part of this blog but still very much in sync with this group. It was a quick thought when I signed up and he didn't, "what will that mean for us as a couple and family, knowing the power of what the 90 days has in store". As it should be, we are doing it together. Fantastic.
I spent this day in a co-creation gardening class which was much more like a coming home than a class. At the end of the day the nature spirits swept me up in a nature hammock and said take a nap. Oh the joy of living in harmony and the magic all around.
Co-creation is everywhere and in everything, even when we don't see it right away.
THANK YOU!!!!
Michelle
I spent this day in a co-creation gardening class which was much more like a coming home than a class. At the end of the day the nature spirits swept me up in a nature hammock and said take a nap. Oh the joy of living in harmony and the magic all around.
Co-creation is everywhere and in everything, even when we don't see it right away.
THANK YOU!!!!
Michelle
Saturday, April 10
Expanding Co-creation
I am feeling the shift in the energies. I feel the energy increasing for physical work. My challenge this season could and would be about creating more balance. It is so sneaky for me-finding balance!
Kathryn and I just completed a big hurdle in blowing in the insulation of the ceiling downstairs that had to be done before we could move forward. I wasn't really looking forward to it because it was going to be so messy! Now that job is complete.
A very interesting experience came from it. We had to drive 130 miles one way to return the insulation blower back to Lowe's in Saint George Utah. On our way there, we usually buy our gas in Mocasin, because it is a reservation and we don't have to pay gas tax on it. Currently 39 cents a gallon cheaper than local area.
While in line to pay for the gas, I saw two women who had driven 150 miles one way to purchase 6 cartons of cigarettes, she paid $250.00. She told me the local cigarettes with taxes, would have cost over $600.00 for the same amount.
For me, I thanked the two women for reminding me of the gratitude I had for finally letting go of cigarettes about 8 years ago. They both wished that they could quit. So in the co-creative essence of the exchange, I got to share with them how I had the desire released from me. It ended up being pretty cool, because neither of them had ever heard of doing it that way.
The real gift came for me to see the power of a ceiling. I saw how I stayed stuck in my own evolution until the ceiling started to be revealed and the denial left. I could now deal with the substance one on one. Most importantly, breaking the illusion of it "being okay", It would no longer have an effect on me raising my frequency. I finally became aware of the cost of my denial.
The greatest gift I see in coming together as a whole or a group or a circle, is the wisdom that each one of us brings. Yesterday one of the local guys that we have really developed a fond relationship with is a Master mechanic(among other things). I had asked him for assistance with our bobcat excavator.
So Sandy came out at 9 am with his trailer, we loaded up "Skippy" the bobcat, and took it into his shop. We just had a wonderful time repairing and giving TLC to Skippy to increase his longevity. Sandy showed me ways to assist in maintaining it.
In the past, I would have felt like I needed to buy all these tools and buy the maintenance books and do it all myself. Because it wasn't okay to ask, among other reasons.
I would have missed out on a great day, with a wonderful man. This great man's wife has some physical challenges that we in turn might assist them with. My point being, in co-creation, we get to draw on the group from all of their strengths. This raises the level of each of us, like Michelle asking if any animal communicators have any ideas (Thank you).
"Together what we could not do alone!"
Blew Thunder
Kathryn and I just completed a big hurdle in blowing in the insulation of the ceiling downstairs that had to be done before we could move forward. I wasn't really looking forward to it because it was going to be so messy! Now that job is complete.
A very interesting experience came from it. We had to drive 130 miles one way to return the insulation blower back to Lowe's in Saint George Utah. On our way there, we usually buy our gas in Mocasin, because it is a reservation and we don't have to pay gas tax on it. Currently 39 cents a gallon cheaper than local area.
While in line to pay for the gas, I saw two women who had driven 150 miles one way to purchase 6 cartons of cigarettes, she paid $250.00. She told me the local cigarettes with taxes, would have cost over $600.00 for the same amount.
For me, I thanked the two women for reminding me of the gratitude I had for finally letting go of cigarettes about 8 years ago. They both wished that they could quit. So in the co-creative essence of the exchange, I got to share with them how I had the desire released from me. It ended up being pretty cool, because neither of them had ever heard of doing it that way.
The real gift came for me to see the power of a ceiling. I saw how I stayed stuck in my own evolution until the ceiling started to be revealed and the denial left. I could now deal with the substance one on one. Most importantly, breaking the illusion of it "being okay", It would no longer have an effect on me raising my frequency. I finally became aware of the cost of my denial.
The greatest gift I see in coming together as a whole or a group or a circle, is the wisdom that each one of us brings. Yesterday one of the local guys that we have really developed a fond relationship with is a Master mechanic(among other things). I had asked him for assistance with our bobcat excavator.
So Sandy came out at 9 am with his trailer, we loaded up "Skippy" the bobcat, and took it into his shop. We just had a wonderful time repairing and giving TLC to Skippy to increase his longevity. Sandy showed me ways to assist in maintaining it.
In the past, I would have felt like I needed to buy all these tools and buy the maintenance books and do it all myself. Because it wasn't okay to ask, among other reasons.
I would have missed out on a great day, with a wonderful man. This great man's wife has some physical challenges that we in turn might assist them with. My point being, in co-creation, we get to draw on the group from all of their strengths. This raises the level of each of us, like Michelle asking if any animal communicators have any ideas (Thank you).
"Together what we could not do alone!"
Blew Thunder
Friday, April 9
Gratitude for the sharing
I glanced at the calendar and saw that this was a portal day. Two days ago the thought came through to do a blue road healing, a big one on this entire house. It left as quickly as it came. The reminder today was a blessing, thank you Kathryn. I did one immediately after reading and felt an intense tingling up my spine and through the back of my head. I drummed and toned for at least a half of an hour. This will need to happen daily here.
Detachment from emotion is an on and off thing for me. I am consumed by the emotions and have zero control then I have no emotional reaction at all. It's fun to experience the shifts.
The view is so much more magnificent than I have ever seen before. Driving to work each day I see the mountains and all their splendor. This last week they have been really jumping out of the scene as well as the birds. Three times today, planes took off over head and I swear they were flying lower than ever before. The last one cast a huge shadow over the car while I was driving and both Trysten and I were caught in the awe of it. WOW!
The animals who reside within our family are behaving very strangely, they have for awhile but it's getting more intense. I feel like all three of them are glued to me. When I put up the gate to keep them upstairs they fight to see who can lay the closest to the gate when I am downstairs. I am tripping over them and they are consistently trying to be in my space, on top of me, licking me and fighting over me. Hmmmm. Animal communicators, do you have any ideas????
A couple of weeks ago I was in a public sauna and there were some other people in there as well. I sat there with closed eyes and started to feel swirling energy, grey and heavy. Normally I would begin to filter, pick up and engage in some way. This time I saw Lynx walk through though the door, she looked at me and said, it's time to go and I got up and walked out. This is still resonating within me and I am very grateful for this assistance and clarity and how easy it is to trust without question.
Doors are opening and saying YES where I would normally hesitate is proving to pave a new path. Opportunity is everywhere when my eyes and ears are open. I see the dream in everything and everywhere.
A few days ago I read something: "You are already a light weaver". I reflected on how much time I dedicate to becoming and how I am already.
In another reading I heard, "I am another you and you are another me". How easily I find myself in love instead of judgement in allowing this message to penetrate my being.
Action through fear is creating my presence in the now as I have considered it the future.
To all of you for sharing and for connection and presence in this circle, I am Grateful.
Aho
Michelle
Detachment from emotion is an on and off thing for me. I am consumed by the emotions and have zero control then I have no emotional reaction at all. It's fun to experience the shifts.
The view is so much more magnificent than I have ever seen before. Driving to work each day I see the mountains and all their splendor. This last week they have been really jumping out of the scene as well as the birds. Three times today, planes took off over head and I swear they were flying lower than ever before. The last one cast a huge shadow over the car while I was driving and both Trysten and I were caught in the awe of it. WOW!
The animals who reside within our family are behaving very strangely, they have for awhile but it's getting more intense. I feel like all three of them are glued to me. When I put up the gate to keep them upstairs they fight to see who can lay the closest to the gate when I am downstairs. I am tripping over them and they are consistently trying to be in my space, on top of me, licking me and fighting over me. Hmmmm. Animal communicators, do you have any ideas????
A couple of weeks ago I was in a public sauna and there were some other people in there as well. I sat there with closed eyes and started to feel swirling energy, grey and heavy. Normally I would begin to filter, pick up and engage in some way. This time I saw Lynx walk through though the door, she looked at me and said, it's time to go and I got up and walked out. This is still resonating within me and I am very grateful for this assistance and clarity and how easy it is to trust without question.
Doors are opening and saying YES where I would normally hesitate is proving to pave a new path. Opportunity is everywhere when my eyes and ears are open. I see the dream in everything and everywhere.
A few days ago I read something: "You are already a light weaver". I reflected on how much time I dedicate to becoming and how I am already.
In another reading I heard, "I am another you and you are another me". How easily I find myself in love instead of judgement in allowing this message to penetrate my being.
Action through fear is creating my presence in the now as I have considered it the future.
To all of you for sharing and for connection and presence in this circle, I am Grateful.
Aho
Michelle
Blue Road Healing
This morning I awakened with a dream that felt chaotic, as if something had stirred up the bottom of the pond. Michael awakened at the same time with some painful spots in his body. Then we realized that today is the second of 2 Portal days in the Mayan Dreamspell calender. These are the best days to assist in the journey for souls, energies, entities, etc. to return home.
We both realized that we had done a lot of disruptive construction over the past couple of days, filling all the cavities in our ceiling with recycled cellulose fiber insulation. Over the years, we have found that whenever there is disruption or deconstruction on the physical level, we almost always notice that spirits or entities connected with those spaces surface into our awareness. Many times, such as today, they are ready to go home.
We called upon the Archangel Michael and asked for his facilitation in relocating these beings. First the one that was stationed in Michael's physical body left, along with the painful spots. Then I felt something leave my emotional body, as if a dark cloud lifted. Finally I "saw" a huge number of human souls gathering around the medicine wheel, also asking to go home.
I saw them leave inside a huge beam of magenta colored light. As they were going, my own guides said to me, "Their contracts are over. They have been here for 13,000 years and now they are going home."
In a little while, I plan to smudge the whole house, medicine wheel, and general area. I know that when I am in the west is often when Blue Road Healing is helpful and necessary. The signals often show up as a deep plunge in our sense of well-being or mood. Sometimes they show up as cravings, unwanted thoughts and desires, or emotional or physical pain.
About eight years ago, I went through a time when I could not seem to keep clear. Every contact I had with people outside of DiamondHeart, and sometimes even just walking around outside, I would "pick up" a hitch-hiker in my energy field and have to do a Blue Road Healing, sometime every day. Every time I tried to set up protective energy fields or program for instantaneous transfer of all energies seeking home, I found that the programs just would not hold.
I felt like my life was going to be about clearing energies, and I just finally surrendered to the whole thing. I accepted that I was a sponge for these beings and maybe it would never be any other way. My choices seemed to be avoidance of life OR constant time in ceremony.
Then in a few short months, I began to see a different perspective. I realized that this was a gift and a blessing from spirit. I was being shown, over and over, how I attract these spirit energies into my field, through judgment and victimization. Just the slightest wobble of judgment in my mental field can open a whole for unconscious spirit energies to come in. Once inside my field, they try to stay hidden (and they are very good at it!) so they can stimulate emotional responses that I think are my own. They feed off of the emotional energy that is generated. This is what parasites do.
It is up to us to wake up and see what is affecting us, to reclaim our mental/emotional health and stability, and just say "I see you and you can not stay here any longer. How can I assist you in going home?"
The next Portal day is coming up on the 28th of April. It is also a Pacal Votan day, a day of connecting with the evolutionary intentions of our Mother Earth and the whole galaxy. Michael and I will be doing a Blue Road Healing that day, and ask all of you to join us if it resonates with truth for you.
Love and Blessings,
Kachina
We both realized that we had done a lot of disruptive construction over the past couple of days, filling all the cavities in our ceiling with recycled cellulose fiber insulation. Over the years, we have found that whenever there is disruption or deconstruction on the physical level, we almost always notice that spirits or entities connected with those spaces surface into our awareness. Many times, such as today, they are ready to go home.
We called upon the Archangel Michael and asked for his facilitation in relocating these beings. First the one that was stationed in Michael's physical body left, along with the painful spots. Then I felt something leave my emotional body, as if a dark cloud lifted. Finally I "saw" a huge number of human souls gathering around the medicine wheel, also asking to go home.
I saw them leave inside a huge beam of magenta colored light. As they were going, my own guides said to me, "Their contracts are over. They have been here for 13,000 years and now they are going home."
In a little while, I plan to smudge the whole house, medicine wheel, and general area. I know that when I am in the west is often when Blue Road Healing is helpful and necessary. The signals often show up as a deep plunge in our sense of well-being or mood. Sometimes they show up as cravings, unwanted thoughts and desires, or emotional or physical pain.
About eight years ago, I went through a time when I could not seem to keep clear. Every contact I had with people outside of DiamondHeart, and sometimes even just walking around outside, I would "pick up" a hitch-hiker in my energy field and have to do a Blue Road Healing, sometime every day. Every time I tried to set up protective energy fields or program for instantaneous transfer of all energies seeking home, I found that the programs just would not hold.
I felt like my life was going to be about clearing energies, and I just finally surrendered to the whole thing. I accepted that I was a sponge for these beings and maybe it would never be any other way. My choices seemed to be avoidance of life OR constant time in ceremony.
Then in a few short months, I began to see a different perspective. I realized that this was a gift and a blessing from spirit. I was being shown, over and over, how I attract these spirit energies into my field, through judgment and victimization. Just the slightest wobble of judgment in my mental field can open a whole for unconscious spirit energies to come in. Once inside my field, they try to stay hidden (and they are very good at it!) so they can stimulate emotional responses that I think are my own. They feed off of the emotional energy that is generated. This is what parasites do.
It is up to us to wake up and see what is affecting us, to reclaim our mental/emotional health and stability, and just say "I see you and you can not stay here any longer. How can I assist you in going home?"
The next Portal day is coming up on the 28th of April. It is also a Pacal Votan day, a day of connecting with the evolutionary intentions of our Mother Earth and the whole galaxy. Michael and I will be doing a Blue Road Healing that day, and ask all of you to join us if it resonates with truth for you.
Love and Blessings,
Kachina
Thursday, April 8
Lets see what comes out?
Connecting in, I'm rolling my eyes and feeling somewhat blah. Wanting, wanting something but don't don't know what? On the cusp, the edge, frozen, still, sitting there enjoying the view from the top, looking at the long way down. I can only see about halfway down before the view disappears and goes black. The air feels more amazing then air on my skin has ever felt before, the smell of the wind is a more delicious then I ever remember it smelling and the view, to attempt to describe it would only belittle its magnificence. I feel as though all my senses are heightened like a constant scurry of bugs on my skin, I feel so much its almost as if the feeling itself passes right through me and I am cover with chills and goose bums from the inside out.
I want to cry with relief because all these years I thought I could feel and now to experience feeling in this way, I am so happy! I cry for my past self, I cry for others who have yet to feel and allow themselves this experience of the pureness of true joy, that is the simplest yet most illusive place, the present moment.
The tears fall and I sit inside myself watching, I'm not even me? It's befuddling because in this new place the revelation that I am not me affects not only those things that no longer serve but also those things that I love dearly and hold close to my heart.
Non-attachment can really feel like not caring because it is the exact opposite of what we are conditioned to feel. So I step lightly checking and double checking myself to be sure that just because I am non-attached doesn't mean that I don't care it just means that my trust in the divine order and brilliance of the universe is solidified inside of me and because of that simple knowing I am forever abundant.
I trust that all things "good and bad" are exactly what they are for a reason!
Even if in this moment the reason, which it currently is, is unknown to me.
I stay here willingly now because I know someday I will look back and say "that was an amazing lesson, I am so glad I went through that."
I don't want to have to look back anymore and say "I wish I had stayed present for that lesson or period of time in my life, where has my life gone?"
My reverence for life and all that entails is so grand and mindboggling that I wonder where I have been all this time. It doesn't even matter because I am here now and Oh My God, it was so worth the wait!
I want to cry with relief because all these years I thought I could feel and now to experience feeling in this way, I am so happy! I cry for my past self, I cry for others who have yet to feel and allow themselves this experience of the pureness of true joy, that is the simplest yet most illusive place, the present moment.
The tears fall and I sit inside myself watching, I'm not even me? It's befuddling because in this new place the revelation that I am not me affects not only those things that no longer serve but also those things that I love dearly and hold close to my heart.
Non-attachment can really feel like not caring because it is the exact opposite of what we are conditioned to feel. So I step lightly checking and double checking myself to be sure that just because I am non-attached doesn't mean that I don't care it just means that my trust in the divine order and brilliance of the universe is solidified inside of me and because of that simple knowing I am forever abundant.
I trust that all things "good and bad" are exactly what they are for a reason!
Even if in this moment the reason, which it currently is, is unknown to me.
I stay here willingly now because I know someday I will look back and say "that was an amazing lesson, I am so glad I went through that."
I don't want to have to look back anymore and say "I wish I had stayed present for that lesson or period of time in my life, where has my life gone?"
My reverence for life and all that entails is so grand and mindboggling that I wonder where I have been all this time. It doesn't even matter because I am here now and Oh My God, it was so worth the wait!
The secret message in meat and life's many rebellions
First of all. it's been a while... I have been a bit rebellious lately, against my will! I am having an over-powering problem with commitments!!! I cant commit to ANYTHING lately. ANYTHING. Even the things I want so badly to do... I cant.
The other day I was talking to this lady on the phone about our dogs and we got to talking about taking our dogs for walks and I told her how I take my boy on these amazing walks daily that wear him out than she was like "ooh well, maybe you would be interested in taking my dog on walks with you, I can pay you" and NATURALLY I was tickled with the thought of it, I had never met her dog before but she sounded like the sweetest little thing and seriously, what better job for me, hanging out with my boy and other random dogs AND getting paid for it?? common, that has my name written allllllll over it. SO we made this plan, I was going to call her the next day, whenever it was that I decided to go and that was that. I was very excited! the second we got off the phone, I sat there smiling and giddy at the very idea of it.....seconds went by and THUD! my heart plummeted into my stomach and I got this awful feeling like "ooh my goooooood, I cant do this, I CAN NOT do this" and I started to panic and completely shut down. I all of a sudden felt like I had this HUGE responsibility and obligation and I was expected to live up to all these expectations and I just couldn't do it!!! and that is how my life has been lately, to the extreme. I can return phone calls, I cant e mail people back, I cant follow through on dates that I make with people,I cant blog, or work in my journal... it's driving me crazy! I don't know where this came from but it is serious business! Very overpowering.. Anything where I feel like people have an expectation of me... I shut down. I want to curl up into a little ball under a million blankets with my hands over my ears and hide. I am not enjoying these reactions and very much so plan to learn this lesson quickly and move on!
Next, my journey with meat. It's difficult for me because I just can not seem to grasp a taste for it. I was a vegetarian so so long that... I learned every single filling food around it, "it's just not for me." BUT I did recently discover the "secret messages in meat" over the last few days, I have been getting bits and pieces of the code. Let me explain... In the beginning when I brought meat back into my diet, I had this over powering urge that "I NEED to eat some meat, NOW!" since I listened to that, that urge has gone away and now it is much more subtle and I recently put this together. Nowadays.... gosh, I don't even know how to word this... Ok, for instance, the last few blogs ago that I wrote I talked about seeing that cat on the side of the road that had died, normally when I would have totally lost it,I was calm, pulled over, did a ceremony and "let it go." Well the other night my parents called my from Bethel and told me about this sweet little puppy that is chained up outside someone's house on a chain so short that she cant even sit upright, and is soooo skinny and clearly under fed in -40 below weather, basically freezing to death and they can hear her crying all day and all night... and that just completely broke my heart, I went into my usual low, how I used to back in the day. I was honestly about to get on the internet to and buy a $500.00 ticket out to bethel the next day to kidnap her and bring her into anchorage with me and give her to the animal shelter I volunteer with to find her a good home, than my sister came back from her boyfriends house and told me about the movie they had just watched "The Cove" about the slaughter of dolphins in Japan...?? OOh my god!, I was already downing beers since the story my parents told me about the dog than she was telling me this and I just went into my usual crazy mode. My body started shaking and my heart was pounding and I just started crying, I was like "ooh my god, where do I go first, Japan or Bethel?" than out of no where, I wasn't even hungry, I was very much so on a passionate beer kick not wanting to process any of this information that I couldnt do anything about,than into my head poped "I need to eat some meat" I thought this was crazy but have been very devoted to "listening" lately so I scrounged through my freezer and found some caribou and cooked a small bit of it and nibbled on it, than.....aaaaah, everything was ok, my body relaxed, I wasn't panicked.....I, cant really explain it. It was like... I just got it...like, the meat was communicating with me... it sounds crazy I know, but SOMETHING shifted. Seriously shifted. It's like, I have this sort of agreement with meat, as funny as that may sound, where it helps me with all my animal stuff AND my animal communication alone. The other day I saw another cat on the side of the road and I haven't eaten meat in a while, and I had a little panic attack, not a bad one, but I did freak out a little, so I went home, cooked up some moose,emideatedy got very calm than did a ceremony and felt the cats presence very strongly than felt him leave and everything was ok... It's weird this is just how it has been lately... Than last night Lindsey and I went over to rebecca's house and Lindsey was telling us about the book her boyfriend just read about this man who went around asking all these indigenous tribes HOW it is that they communicate with the plants, animals and what not and each and every tribe said the same thing, they said that "they take them in, and once the plants or the animals digests their DNA blends with their own DNA than they have clear communication with the plant or animal!" HA! that is what I'm doing... right??
Anyhow, I just thought that was very interesting considering what I have been observing with myself... Thank you for listening!!
LOVE & GRATITUDE
Mother Wolf Spirit Talker
The other day I was talking to this lady on the phone about our dogs and we got to talking about taking our dogs for walks and I told her how I take my boy on these amazing walks daily that wear him out than she was like "ooh well, maybe you would be interested in taking my dog on walks with you, I can pay you" and NATURALLY I was tickled with the thought of it, I had never met her dog before but she sounded like the sweetest little thing and seriously, what better job for me, hanging out with my boy and other random dogs AND getting paid for it?? common, that has my name written allllllll over it. SO we made this plan, I was going to call her the next day, whenever it was that I decided to go and that was that. I was very excited! the second we got off the phone, I sat there smiling and giddy at the very idea of it.....seconds went by and THUD! my heart plummeted into my stomach and I got this awful feeling like "ooh my goooooood, I cant do this, I CAN NOT do this" and I started to panic and completely shut down. I all of a sudden felt like I had this HUGE responsibility and obligation and I was expected to live up to all these expectations and I just couldn't do it!!! and that is how my life has been lately, to the extreme. I can return phone calls, I cant e mail people back, I cant follow through on dates that I make with people,I cant blog, or work in my journal... it's driving me crazy! I don't know where this came from but it is serious business! Very overpowering.. Anything where I feel like people have an expectation of me... I shut down. I want to curl up into a little ball under a million blankets with my hands over my ears and hide. I am not enjoying these reactions and very much so plan to learn this lesson quickly and move on!
Next, my journey with meat. It's difficult for me because I just can not seem to grasp a taste for it. I was a vegetarian so so long that... I learned every single filling food around it, "it's just not for me." BUT I did recently discover the "secret messages in meat" over the last few days, I have been getting bits and pieces of the code. Let me explain... In the beginning when I brought meat back into my diet, I had this over powering urge that "I NEED to eat some meat, NOW!" since I listened to that, that urge has gone away and now it is much more subtle and I recently put this together. Nowadays.... gosh, I don't even know how to word this... Ok, for instance, the last few blogs ago that I wrote I talked about seeing that cat on the side of the road that had died, normally when I would have totally lost it,I was calm, pulled over, did a ceremony and "let it go." Well the other night my parents called my from Bethel and told me about this sweet little puppy that is chained up outside someone's house on a chain so short that she cant even sit upright, and is soooo skinny and clearly under fed in -40 below weather, basically freezing to death and they can hear her crying all day and all night... and that just completely broke my heart, I went into my usual low, how I used to back in the day. I was honestly about to get on the internet to and buy a $500.00 ticket out to bethel the next day to kidnap her and bring her into anchorage with me and give her to the animal shelter I volunteer with to find her a good home, than my sister came back from her boyfriends house and told me about the movie they had just watched "The Cove" about the slaughter of dolphins in Japan...?? OOh my god!, I was already downing beers since the story my parents told me about the dog than she was telling me this and I just went into my usual crazy mode. My body started shaking and my heart was pounding and I just started crying, I was like "ooh my god, where do I go first, Japan or Bethel?" than out of no where, I wasn't even hungry, I was very much so on a passionate beer kick not wanting to process any of this information that I couldnt do anything about,than into my head poped "I need to eat some meat" I thought this was crazy but have been very devoted to "listening" lately so I scrounged through my freezer and found some caribou and cooked a small bit of it and nibbled on it, than.....aaaaah, everything was ok, my body relaxed, I wasn't panicked.....I, cant really explain it. It was like... I just got it...like, the meat was communicating with me... it sounds crazy I know, but SOMETHING shifted. Seriously shifted. It's like, I have this sort of agreement with meat, as funny as that may sound, where it helps me with all my animal stuff AND my animal communication alone. The other day I saw another cat on the side of the road and I haven't eaten meat in a while, and I had a little panic attack, not a bad one, but I did freak out a little, so I went home, cooked up some moose,emideatedy got very calm than did a ceremony and felt the cats presence very strongly than felt him leave and everything was ok... It's weird this is just how it has been lately... Than last night Lindsey and I went over to rebecca's house and Lindsey was telling us about the book her boyfriend just read about this man who went around asking all these indigenous tribes HOW it is that they communicate with the plants, animals and what not and each and every tribe said the same thing, they said that "they take them in, and once the plants or the animals digests their DNA blends with their own DNA than they have clear communication with the plant or animal!" HA! that is what I'm doing... right??
Anyhow, I just thought that was very interesting considering what I have been observing with myself... Thank you for listening!!
LOVE & GRATITUDE
Mother Wolf Spirit Talker
Wednesday, April 7
In Honor of the West
I am just sending this little blurb in gratitude of the lessons, clearing and release of all of the suppressed emotions. My family and myself ended a day of emotional overload. Whew, Michelle
Tuesday, April 6
Feel the Life Force
Today I had an amazing opportunity. The sky was clear, the wind was sharp and cool, and had that feeling of the ocean as it blows into Beluga Point, out of Anchorage Alaska. The sparkly feeling of pure life force is blowing into White Sage, bringing forth an ecstatic response in every cell of my body.
We are here, very close to one of the most sacred sites on Mother Earth; the great mother canyon known as Grand Canyon. Yet the wind is blowing in the smell, the energy, the life force of Alaska! I begin to wonder if this is happening in other areas as well, near other sacred sites. Is this the next phase of the planetary ascension, coming to life?
I thankful for this fresh new force. May each of us remember WHO WE ARE, WHERE WE COME FROM, AND WHY WE CAME HERE!
Blessings,
Kachina
We are here, very close to one of the most sacred sites on Mother Earth; the great mother canyon known as Grand Canyon. Yet the wind is blowing in the smell, the energy, the life force of Alaska! I begin to wonder if this is happening in other areas as well, near other sacred sites. Is this the next phase of the planetary ascension, coming to life?
I thankful for this fresh new force. May each of us remember WHO WE ARE, WHERE WE COME FROM, AND WHY WE CAME HERE!
Blessings,
Kachina
Monday, April 5
Deep in the West
It always comes as a surprise to me, as our group descends deep into the west direction of the medicine wheel, just how quiet and inward the energy flow becomes. It is obvious as we look at the Blogs, how many people are feeling the same way. Even though we are spread out across the country, I can feel our group contracting, drawing inward, and honoring the reflective female energy.
Even for those who have completely left the journal behind, trust me; you are still processing the west energy-the integration, releasing, forgiveness, identifying and rewriting of old contracts, transforming, etc. This is the time when new awareness comes to the surface of our consciousness and bubbles forth like a bubbling spring.
I am so happy for all of you, for I can feel the level of commitment you have, the honoring of this inward time. Even in the midst of our busy lives, we are holding the space for transformation in the west.
This being the most challenging direction for many of us in the western hemisphere, and since it is the time we are least likely to extend ourselves outward to communicate on the Blog, I am asking for each one of us to write to the Blog-if only one or two sentences-just to let the group know that we are still connected, still holding space for each other, and still walking through this process together.
Please gift each other with this precious connection and support sometime this week. I will watch for each of you: Lighteningstormdesertrose, Stargazer Walks with Bears, Golden Buffalo Heart, Spirit Talker, SwiftWater, RavenHair888, Earth Song, Spirit Walker of the Mist, Morning Star Spotted Eagle, Ziji Boombasa, EarthSpirit Keeper, Skywalker singswithherHeart, Blessing Willow, Blew Thunder, and tskarrow.
I am sending out the intention for Angels to walk beside each of you, for the guidance system from within your heart to move into full blooming, and inspiration to arise all around you to carry you forward into greater and greater levels of fulfillment and wonder.
In love and gratitude,
Kachina
Even for those who have completely left the journal behind, trust me; you are still processing the west energy-the integration, releasing, forgiveness, identifying and rewriting of old contracts, transforming, etc. This is the time when new awareness comes to the surface of our consciousness and bubbles forth like a bubbling spring.
I am so happy for all of you, for I can feel the level of commitment you have, the honoring of this inward time. Even in the midst of our busy lives, we are holding the space for transformation in the west.
This being the most challenging direction for many of us in the western hemisphere, and since it is the time we are least likely to extend ourselves outward to communicate on the Blog, I am asking for each one of us to write to the Blog-if only one or two sentences-just to let the group know that we are still connected, still holding space for each other, and still walking through this process together.
Please gift each other with this precious connection and support sometime this week. I will watch for each of you: Lighteningstormdesertrose, Stargazer Walks with Bears, Golden Buffalo Heart, Spirit Talker, SwiftWater, RavenHair888, Earth Song, Spirit Walker of the Mist, Morning Star Spotted Eagle, Ziji Boombasa, EarthSpirit Keeper, Skywalker singswithherHeart, Blessing Willow, Blew Thunder, and tskarrow.
I am sending out the intention for Angels to walk beside each of you, for the guidance system from within your heart to move into full blooming, and inspiration to arise all around you to carry you forward into greater and greater levels of fulfillment and wonder.
In love and gratitude,
Kachina
Friday, April 2
Death as My Teacher
I am seeing the world through new eyes. Watching as people around me just naturally observe themselves, notice an old contract surfacing, and spontaneously decide to change it, let it go. I am grateful beyond measure to see this happening all around. I know if it is outside of me, the same reflection is within.
This time around, I am so comfortable with my own death. I have now envisioned it to the point that it feels transparent, and so much a choice.
When I was a small child, my grandparents had a farm in Illinois. I got to spend time with many different animals. And I also got to see death at a young age. I remember being very attracted to dead animals.
When an animal died, on this small farm, their bodies were often buried, or sometimes left to decompose if they were deep in the forest where a tractor could not go. A cow died one night while giving birth, and Grandpa found her several days later. I remember being afraid to hike down to the woods, fearful that I might find the body. But I was also drawn to it like a little fly. I had to go see the dead cow, even though I was terrified.
When I finally mustered up my courage (I had to be around 9 years old), I hiked through the woods into a little clearing. I could smell the cow's body, and knew that I was close. Then I saw the hair, the hide, the hooves, the body lying on a hillside in the hardwood forest. I could feel my heart pounding in my throat, as I did not understand death, and was certain that the cow would jump up any moment and attack me like a monster from the movies.
Gradually I became present in the moment. The fear dissolved and I looked at every part of the cow that I could reach. I took my time, I studied the changes that had happened to her body in just a few days.
Most of all, I noticed how different this uninhabited space suit felt from the cows that were alive. This cow, the real being that had lived in this body, was completely gone. It was such a mysterious thing to me-where did she go?
When I finally turned around to go back to the farmhouse, I looked up through the forest. I saw the same cow, looking back at me, chewing her cud contentedly. She was surrounded with a bright golden light. I jumped up to run and find her-I wanted to get closer. But when I looked again, she was gone. I looked all over, but could not find the cow that I had seen, in a new body. Finally I went home, watching just in case it reappeared.
It was a long time before I began to understand more about death, but those early experiences on the farm provided some key pieces to a great puzzle. And the beautiful vision of the cow, that everyone later told me was my "imagination" and it didn't really happen, stayed with me as a vision of comfort and truth until a time when I would return to death willingly, to learn. When one makes an agreement to allow death to become her teacher, she will learn more in this lifetime than one could ever imagine.
And the view at the end of the trail will be spectacular!
Kachina
This time around, I am so comfortable with my own death. I have now envisioned it to the point that it feels transparent, and so much a choice.
When I was a small child, my grandparents had a farm in Illinois. I got to spend time with many different animals. And I also got to see death at a young age. I remember being very attracted to dead animals.
When an animal died, on this small farm, their bodies were often buried, or sometimes left to decompose if they were deep in the forest where a tractor could not go. A cow died one night while giving birth, and Grandpa found her several days later. I remember being afraid to hike down to the woods, fearful that I might find the body. But I was also drawn to it like a little fly. I had to go see the dead cow, even though I was terrified.
When I finally mustered up my courage (I had to be around 9 years old), I hiked through the woods into a little clearing. I could smell the cow's body, and knew that I was close. Then I saw the hair, the hide, the hooves, the body lying on a hillside in the hardwood forest. I could feel my heart pounding in my throat, as I did not understand death, and was certain that the cow would jump up any moment and attack me like a monster from the movies.
Gradually I became present in the moment. The fear dissolved and I looked at every part of the cow that I could reach. I took my time, I studied the changes that had happened to her body in just a few days.
Most of all, I noticed how different this uninhabited space suit felt from the cows that were alive. This cow, the real being that had lived in this body, was completely gone. It was such a mysterious thing to me-where did she go?
When I finally turned around to go back to the farmhouse, I looked up through the forest. I saw the same cow, looking back at me, chewing her cud contentedly. She was surrounded with a bright golden light. I jumped up to run and find her-I wanted to get closer. But when I looked again, she was gone. I looked all over, but could not find the cow that I had seen, in a new body. Finally I went home, watching just in case it reappeared.
It was a long time before I began to understand more about death, but those early experiences on the farm provided some key pieces to a great puzzle. And the beautiful vision of the cow, that everyone later told me was my "imagination" and it didn't really happen, stayed with me as a vision of comfort and truth until a time when I would return to death willingly, to learn. When one makes an agreement to allow death to become her teacher, she will learn more in this lifetime than one could ever imagine.
And the view at the end of the trail will be spectacular!
Kachina
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